Wednesday, October 29, 2008
♥ 9:26 PM
It's funny. The timing's practically perfect. I've lost my appetite.
Actually I am both starving and not hungry at all. I just feel quite hollow.
Screw it. I had pizza.
And blast, at the rate I'm going, I'll miss the deadline.
Mmms. The 999th post. I am reminded that I have another blog. Hrms.
♥ 12:58 AM
I don't know either. It's too soon to say really. Increments. Maybe.
I HOPE WE DON'T FAIL OUR PRAC AGAIN. BLOODY HELL.
Haven't chosen my research topic for the food paper yet. Sigh.
Results are going to be so chuiii. :(
I feel lazy. Extremely lazy.
I want to eat xiaolongbaos. And have steamboat. Shucks, I always seem to think about food.
Monday, October 27, 2008
♥ 11:09 PM
JHFASDKFHAKDFHKHHAFKDAJHS
WIND PRAC AND OTHER FACTORS.
ATMO WAS A WRONG CHOICE.
I SHOULD'VE STUCK WITH MY GUTS.
I only chose to do it because jt and humz were doing it too. Stupid. I will not make such mistakes again.
LOOKS LIKE I'M WELL ON MY WAY TO BECOMING A HUMAN GEOGRAPHER.
RAH.
Mopeyness keeps setting in. Emo songs seem to make it worse. Hrms.
Seriously, I don't know what I'm doing either.
Balderdash was fun though. I need to sleep.
DAHJFKJDFLKADJFLAKSDFJLK
Sunday, October 26, 2008
♥ 3:18 PM
Didn't camwhore like there's no tomorrow :( Although the stalkers did colonise my camera's memory space HAHA. Photos ! :)
Nicknick lent me his dslr for a bit. Hurhur, thanks ! I took tons of nonsense pictures whilst trying to figure out how to use it. :/ (I just wiki-ed 'aperture' and I should've chosen a wider one ! blah)
Timo is so cute lah.. He poses non-stop. =.= Lots of photos of him.
Nicknick is BLUR43VR.
But jasper is retarded forever. Haha..
Timo trying to pose again ! This is my favourite photo using his camera. :) Yl looks very nice !
My grainy camera ! :X ZZZ. Lucky ber somehow managed to toggle it back to non-black and white mode after a while. PTEN: THE SINGAPORE CHARTER. :D
ALL THE STALKERS MINUS RUZ ! FOR ONCE ! Amazing. Hurhur. :D
Zhanny and Zhengkai ! My surprise guests :) Who couldn't find their way here. And were late. =.=
Tan Chee Guan Sir ! Quite cute ah, but too skinny. HAHA.
Lfunnyw ! I look slimmer here HAHA. Makes up for the rest of the flabby arm photos.. :X
With the nicholas, the superstar !
Bras basah macs, not atas at all..
Hurhur see what I meant about colonising my memory space !
Atas place ! Novus @ the National Museum. With edna and marie :) nice photo BUT DAMN GRAINY. Bel is sad :(
HAHA. Look at hector ! And he's quite red from drinking hurhur..***
Heading out for balderalcoholdash later. And my gummy bear list is noticeably shorter ! Yay for hell week being over ! :) 2 more practicals, the food term paper and a hell lot of mugging for my 4.0 !
♥ 12:31 PM
It hasn't been a very long journey but it's one that started on the 7th of September. I think I attended a grand total of like 10 practices ? Hurhur. Still so fresh and new. Like a bun in the oven. (okay, I'm feeling hungry rawr.. xiaolongbaos anyone?)
But yes, it's funny how I've put off visiting liv for so long. Haha I wonder what reservations I had. Anyway, I really must thank mark and yl for bugging me to come. Although it's probably cos they needed girls.
Practices weren't like the other practices I've had. It's very slack in comparison but I'm not very particular about being serious and strict. Although I do take practices seriously. Haha but it was nice ! I think mostly because everyone kind of shares the same mentality somewhat ? Hurhur. I guess the whole point was to have fun and not be stressed and all. Which I did ! Perhaps the most stressful bit was memorising the lyrics to kaktus ? Haha :X
The concert itself was really enjoyable. Even though there were quite a few glaring...hiccups. HAHA. It was funny, catching that split second look of panic on the faces around me. I'm sure I mirrored their look as well. The venue was quite perfect. It seated an intimate number and the stage wasn't too big to be intimidating. I also really liked us warming up behind the auditorium, in close proximity to the dustbins and in full view of curious residents. Damn cool to sing in a back alley after the sunset. I think that really epitomised what we stand for. Friendship and redefining music :D Pity no one took any pre-performance photos there. (those that I did take are all crappy. EXCEPT ONE which I really like. thankews nicknick for letting me manhandle your camera. I WANT A DLSR !)
So we did it. In that point of time, we did all we could and gave what we could. No regrets. :) Nothing beats the combination of the audience loving the show and the enjoyment of making music. Maybe it's because liv is an unconventional group with an eclectic mix of people that we do such great songs. I guess what we stand for can be seen in our choice of music. Loved the repertoire !
It was our fifteen minutes of fame. And I think the whole hall knew my name. That's what you get for inviting your best friends who happen to all be ex-cedarians. :D We are a retarded bunch. But I love my friends :D
***
Post concert partying was at bras basah macs. Lols. It's like THE place to go if you hold a concert around the city hall area. Also because it's 24hours. Lots of ice cream, camwhoring (by the rest of the stalkers) and just talking about cat/snail/bird sex? Xunny will apparently wiki it and email us the facts. Thankew dear stalkers for the pretty bracelet and caramels :D And to both groups for the roses and the sunflower (which jlow was carrying like an olympic torch haha). :D
Then I headed to novus where danny treated us to drinks ! Damn, that place is nice. And we had a whole room to ourselves. I think everyone was pretty exhausted. Or drunk (joey). Pity I didn't take more photos. Stupid grainy camera. :(
***
THANK YOU to all who came to support the little island voices :)
Especially the people who bought tickets through me. HAHA.
(has everyone who's supposed to pay me paid me yet !?)
xoxo:
Qua, Mich, Sally, Xunny, Db, Slin, Jlow, Ber, Cherr, Lwei, Zhanny and Xiaokai.
And the other people who were present-
Cheeguan sir, Senghong, Minn, Geok, Shanming and Zhizhi.
And gwei sweets for the pretty flower he gave me during alumni prac cos he couldn't make it.
:D
***
And yeah, no regrets. Thanks to divine intervention. Praise God ! :D
Marie, Cat, Edna, Yingtong, Yuklum, Markmark, Joeykangaroo, Jasper, Timo, Norman, Aron, Danny, Hector and Nicknick. :)
To 60 more years of friendship and singing !
Even if we're still single, desperate and ugly HAHA. Joey is retarded lah.
Friday, October 24, 2008
♥ 4:33 PM
Essay has been submitted.
Little bit of heart ! :D
♥ 12:34 AM
Sometimes I wish I was treated more equally than equitably.
Anyway am a little upset. I can count on some people more than others. It'd really be decent if you'd just take the initiative. I don't take silence for an answer. I don't like that kind of ambiguity. I'm so honoured that tang wei ting michelle is going tonight even though she has a test on saturday. And we're only singing 5 songs ! I feel so loved. :) Haha so smu hasn't totally turned her into the monster mugger of the century.
Sorry but schoolwork does not rank high on my list of priorities. Unless maybe deadlines are 24hours away. Maybe it's just because I'm in fass and the pressure making me psycho. Although group work does suck balls.
The funny thing is that I don't quite like to ask people to watch concerts I sing in. I feel bad that it is not their kinda thing and that they are coming because they love me and not necessarily because they love this kind of music. That being said, I am extremely honoured and touched by those who have encouraged and supported me all these years. Pten and especially db, xunny and mich. :)
My face smells of strawberries and cream. I feel like yoghurt, yum. My mother said to beware the ants when I sleep tonight.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
♥ 11:20 PM
Her green plastic watering can
For her fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth.
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plans
To get rid of itself.
It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out.
She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyrene man
Who just crumbles and burns.
He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins.
And it wears him out, it wears him out.
It wears him out, it wears him out.
She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love.
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run.
And it wears me out, it wears me out.
It wears me out, it wears me out.
And if I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time, all the time.
Oh, oh.
***
Radiohead's Fake Plastic Trees. It played at the end of the latest entourage episode. SO DAMN SAD. The song. Meep.
In other news, today was quite a bad one. Cos of a fucked up project groupmate. Sigh. Whatever. At least the project is almost complete.
Many thanks to jq, his two friends, db, joey and aaron :)
I WANT TO SLEEP. dfhaldkfhahf;i
♥ 1:28 AM
http://ra1nforest.esmartdesign.com/
EVERYBODY GO TO THIS SITE NOW AND TELL ME YOU DON'T WANT TO GET MARRIED.
IT IS GORGEOUS ! :DDD
Omgah. It's so beautiful. The beginning of the rest of your life. :)
♥ 12:25 AM
Three words, eight letters, and I'm yours.
-Blair Waldorf, Gossip Girl
Omgah, I just saw this on someone's facebook. THAT PART WAS DAMN SAD LAHHH ! And it's such a romantic quote. Okay actually it's more sad than romantic, haha.
Mark and Jasper had to rush an essay, joey had to leave soon for theatre rehearsal and norman left early cos mark and jasper couldn't come (so bad right !) so I was left with gideon to make small talk with. What started as awkward conversation blossomed into something more comfortable. He's not thaaaaaat scary after all. Still intimidating though. Might head to his place on sunday for games and drinks !
1 down. 2 to go before I can truly enjoy myself on friday night and camwhore like there's no tomorrow. Hurhur. Will be so so so so glad once I submit the n&s essay. I tell you, it's gnawing at my conscience and soul. :(
Ambivalent. Sigh. But georgy is nice. :)
Monday, October 20, 2008
♥ 11:42 PM
I'm twenty. And I'm blessed.
With many thanks and much love :D
My parents, xiaokang, my maid, pyong, howie, xunny, radish, uncle lim, kiki, dearlybeloved, zhanny, radish, nessa, georgy, margaret tan, sally, slin, graces, xiany, my sister, mrs toh, humz, aunty sin, aunty imm, markmark, mich, ber, xiaokai, ah huay, joey, quen, waihan, vicks, cheeguan, hrk, jiemin, nicknick, yuklum, aaron, hongkiang, angel, wengyin, ruzy, navleen, sooks, lookylikey, jianqi, chairs, trinetta, meirong, cherlene, a cherie, marcus, hanquan, trina, keax, marcus chua, mama, tingx mei, melissa guay, geok, minhuay, saffie, priya, weifen, aneesa, serene, valerie, jasmine, marie, cat, edna, yingtong, jasper, norman, timo, danny, hector, uncle gpt, lwei, yenyen, senghong, szemun, jeremy tiong, peiying, small gangster yizhen, qua, raihanah, novabelle, guy on facebook whom I don't know haha..
***
The day started off pretty miserably but it steadily grew better. What with the cab ride with db and my not so horrible project groupmates. Ended with lotsa singing (always a pleasure), cake (despite protests) and an invisible rose after I was serenaded by the boys (minus timo) of liv ! Aca-men/aca-boys sang the Flying Pickets' Only You :D Omgah, loved it. Almost got a lap dance from nick and got a kiss on the hand from danny the handsome man haha. Love the whole lot of them :) Can't wait for friday !
♥ 12:37 AM
THE STUFF OF RUMOURS !??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!? WHAAAT !?
Reality on one's birthday is always a sad start. Thanks uncle lim for the wake up call. This reminds me of the time I was on msn with tang. Like, 5 years ago. Haha.
Talk about depressing on top of distressing. I hope singing tonight will be de-stressing.
Shucks, am turning into a joey. HAVE SUNK INTO AN EMO FUNK. MAYBE IT'S TIME TO GET DRUNK. Hahaha. Bitterness is quite funny. Maybe.
Yes yes georgy you seem quite right. Twenty years to go !
Sunday, October 19, 2008
♥ 11:34 PM
MY LAST 30MINUTES OF BEING A TEEN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I'm kidding. It won't be much different. Am feeling extremely blah and vulgar now. Thanks to the cities project. KNN. AND CAN YOU BELIEVE IT I HAVE TO BE AT FREAKING KENT RIDGE AT 8AM TOMORROW ! omgwtfbbq. ): Sigh.
In other news, I have had enough cake for a long time. I finally got my fruity beer ! :) Am still extremely worried. Hell week truly sucks. Timing cannot be worse.
It's a mixture of highness from saturday, liv practice, madness on facebook, talking to lovely friends + intriguing person and extreme emoness from the early meeting time and the TOTAL CLUELESSNESS of cities. :((((((( I don't know what to feel.
I think my screwed up priorities will result in this sem's grades being DAMN CHUI. Goodbye 4.0 ):
Saturday, October 18, 2008
♥ 12:56 AM
He is so sarcastic and cranky and deprived, it's funny. It's also hot that he's actually british. Hurhur.We vampires are always in some kinda trouble. I prefer to be in it with you.
-Bill to Sookie, True Blood.
Bill Compton + Cello Music. Nothing is sexier.
Am worrying about my n&s paper. :/ But I'm looking forward to singing and having some alcohol with friends mmms..
Thursday, October 16, 2008
♥ 12:31 AM
CRANKY. VERY. SUPER.
I need someone to whine to. Where is my non-existent hot cellist boyfriend ???
Sorry, I'm not that kind of person. And I just find it pretty inconsiderate. BITE ME.
But I enjoyed singing in the dark in nyp. Makes me think about the nights I spent in school for camps.
I can't wait for pten to be reunited.
I still can't believe cherr ditched me for K !!!
DIE LAH. I AM TIRED AND THERE IS SO MUCH WORK TO DO. Tomorrow will be a better day. Sleep will work miracles. God will work miracles. I hope my mother is safely doing don't know what in china. I told her not to drink milk.
Distracting person is frequently mia on msn. But at least he frequents facebook. And has msn. Hahaha.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
♥ 1:28 PM
I think gwei will call me crazy but shit, this is damn good. Omgah, love it. :D
I feel sad. :( Cherr is abandoning me for the concert for the boyfriend ! What is this ! :(
♥ 1:28 AM
YAY YAY I was psyching myself up to be wholly satisfied with a 57/80 for my n&s midterm but I got a 61 instead ! WOOTS ! :) I hope it's a B+.. I was really not expecting much at all since it's one of the very few times when I didn't manage to finish a test.
So today is a good day.. Although not in terms of work. Since I thought I'd celebrate a little.. Though I managed to send humz my bit on preparedness. Hope it's sufficient. =/ Still at a loss as to what to work on for my 2nd response paper. ZZZ. Lucky it's only 250 words. And 2.5%. I really must churn out a survey tomorrow !!!
Darnit, it's already midweek. Wednesday. GROANS. I can't wait for the weekend and yet I am dreading it.
I'm probably going to risk infinite depression. HAHAHA.
Oh it seems that I'm attending more lectures now than last sem ! Hurhurhur. I've only missed 1 or 2 lectures of Food, 1 lecture of N&S, 1 lecture of Hazards and 2 lectures of Cities. On the other hand, I've only been to 1 or 2 lectures of Atmo. =/
Chunky peanut butter seems pretty appealing at this time of the night.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
♥ 1:11 AM
Omgah it's already the 13th of october. How depressing is that ? I FEEL OLD.
Shucks, I'm freaking out. I CANNOT DO WORK AT HOME. Goshdarnit. I will make it a point to do work outside. I HAVE TO. Looks like it's camping out at smoo whenever I can..
I found a new series to watch. True Blood. It's about vampires living amongst humans. The main vampire is really hot. In the tall, dark, handsome, brooding sort of way. And the soundtrack's this mysterious sounding music.. The cello is extremely sexy. I liiiiiike. :)
Okay, tomorrow will be better. Crosses fingers. It has to be.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
♥ 9:22 PM
Dimsum this morning at the Shang Palace (Shangri La Hotel) was really awesum. :D Have been eating loads of dim sum this week ! Xiaolongbao at hougang mall with db and also xiaolongbao at crystal jade on friday with mich, xunny and desmond. Mmmms !
Practice today was pretty good. Though I still think we need to go through the songs more so that we'll remember all there is to remember. The fact is that we can't even remember the lyrics and the tune ! HAHA. Okay I'm talking about the altos. Only for some bits. It's not drastic. Darn, I have to find out where I'm going wrong for short people. :B
I love to sing ! :) It lifts the spirits. And it helps even more when you have crazy nutcakes like nick and aaron.
I am dissatisfied with my camera. WADDUP WITH ALL THESE GRAINY PICTURES !!!! >( I want a dslr ! But it'll be bulky. =/
Shucks, am extremely sleepy. And am extremely unproductive. MEOW MEOW MEOW. Starting tomorrow, no more ! No more !!!
Saturday, October 11, 2008
♥ 11:57 PM
I need my drugs. Haha, sleep is one of them.
I don't know why I'm freefalling in and out of mopeyness. I guess one major factor is the amount of work I have to do. I'm not even talking about readings okay. Mopes.
Was telling db that I feel very vulgar. Like, I want to drink beer and I want to ask Olly where the fuck his facebook wall is. In a totally nonchalant british way. Speaking of Olly, I love him and I am waiting for the day I have enough money to go to the UK and get real kisses from him instead of virtual ones that go by 'x'. Hahaha.
Joel is the sweetest guy ever. I was whining to him about being not being loved and he said 'what's not to love?'. Hurhurhur. And I had a nice chat with him.. WHY IS HE GAY. I hope he finds his perfect hot boy. :)
And thanks quenster for being absolutely nonsensical and cheering me up ! Even though we were completely random and not making any sense haha TDROPS I WANT !
Shucks, I shouldn't be so mopey. I don't know why it's getting me down either. I need beer. And music. And company. Misery loves company. But ayes, unfulfilled lah. HAHAHA.
Sometimes you think you're important kinda but really you're just the calefare. You don't even have a minor role to play.
It just makes you wonder. Sigh.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
♥ 10:22 PM
SHUCKS I WANT TO SLEEP UNPRODUCTIVE HOWWW.
In other news, B+ for my anno biblio WOOTS :)))
Evidently I was tricked by the wind and the moon is laughing at me. Oh when will this ever end !
It's getting too easy to slip into this state. B A D.
What would I do without you db ? Hahaha love you lots sharon :D
♥ 2:51 AM
Sand rests comfortably in the pockets of my toes. Back to the concrete interior, I stand, face pressed against the wide expanse of sea and sky before me. Muted greys against vivid blues. A dreamscape punctuated only by the crashing waves. The roar grasps me by the ears and the taste of the salty sea spray beckons me. I too, am drawn to the frothy whiteness and I wonder if it will ascend the mineral aggregates. It was not long before the swash startled me. Each splash crept closer, my feet bathed in warmth and peppered with tiny grains. I felt the ground slip from under me but I was buried yet deeper as the sea waxed and waned. I watched with quiet content as it blanketed the shore. It was a depth of little consequence and with bated breath, I wait for its reach beyond. A yearning, a stretch propelled by forces far beyond any physics in textbooks. Inside, a swell develops not unlike the one that mesmerized me. It is recognition but it is also a question unanswered.
As quickly as it arrived, it left. The tide tumbles back to its birthplace, losing the fight to gravity and his allies. Its surge forth is a valiant struggle but nonetheless futile against the recall of its ocean mother. I inhale deeply and gaze upon the world in the oyster I inhabit. Then I hear a cry. It assures me that it isn’t over. The world tells me that I witnessed nothing.
***
Something uncle asked me for help with. WHICH HE REJECTED IN THE END !!!!!!!! COS IT DOESN'T FIT WITH HIS FINANCIAL ANALOGY ! And he didn't tell me that it was a financial analogy in the first place ! I thought it was philosophical ramblings. I wasn't given the full picture and the right direction ! GAH. Heartpain. So the moral of the story is to not subject one's fiction or creativity to the constraints of others. I enjoy such bits of descriptive, longwinded prose and I put in A LOT OF THOUGHT because it's something I take pride in. It's not that I'm brilliant but they meet my expectations. So yeah, should never do such stuff for other people. HRMPHS.
***
3231 MIDTERM IS OVER HURRAH WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE MY EXAMS ENDED ?!?!?! Haha, have been stressing over the midterms. And pyong says that I am always so relaxed. Ironically, the one I studied the most for is the one which I am most worried about and the one with the highest percentage. Sigh. And I can't believe jasper wanted to ditch me. IDIOT. Joey was honest enough to tell me. The train experienced some fault so I enjoyed a very nice walk with norman and mark from buangkok mrt to compasspoint. The night air was fabulous and we were singing all the way. (:
Not going to chek jawa on sunday :( On the bright side, I get to rehearse with liv. AWESUM DIMSUM IN THE MORNING ! GLEE. Maybe we'll head to wala on saturday night. Life feels good ! But oh goshdammit, next week is week 9 !!!! Hell week approaches.
I was walking towards the platform at outram park and the date and time flashed bright red up ahead of me. I felt sad. It's October the 8th. Time really flies. Everytime my birthday approaches I feel..sad. Sigh.
I think I might abuse my shopping discount tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
♥ 11:18 PM
I should've known again.
But here it goes again.
-Here It Goes Again, OK Go.
Sigh. :/ ZZZ. Hellephant. HAHA.
Cities test was okay. I can't wait for hazards test to be over. Am extremely unprepared it looks like I'm going to wing it. SIGH.
I really don't know why I indulge in such unhealthy activities. I think I'm masochistic. Seriously.
♥ 12:50 AM
Speaking of chocolate, I want to visit gwei again but dempsey is so darn inconvenient. Maybe I can get mich to drive us, haha.Jeremy Piven is super funny in entourage. No wonder he's won the outstanding supporting actor in a comedy emmy 3 times.
Feel extremely blah about mugging. Can't wait for weds to be over. I want head to timbre (jack&rai !) to celebrate but it being midweek is kinda tough to get people to go. I feel up for some fruity beer all of a sudden..
Sunday, October 05, 2008
♥ 10:51 PM
Haha, Nick's BBQ- Confessions of Prof Kang.
Regarding my two tests and how I am so unfocused, I only have two words (which I'm borrowing from aaron).
SIAN BALLS.
I really like our repertoire for Nick's concert :D (spoilers for the people who read my blog and who are attending our concert) Kaktus is really challenging cos of the words and the tune itself. Ban chun hong is a nice cheena piang song so it's a different mood. Short People's really fun and irreverent. I think we have too many actions, haha. I really love Hallelujah.. It's really beautiful and pretty emotional I feel. The chords together with the words almost make tears well up. They give me chills okay.. Hector's solo's pretty good in a raw, emo kinda way. If I Hear Your Voice is going to close the concert, the whole thing's gonna end on a pretty darn fabulous note. I mean, we all want to marry nicholas' voice !!!! The whole song is damn nice lah (: I think at the very least, for the audience, we'll be entertaining. And more importantly, we'll enjoy ourselves :D
Do you remember a moonless night?
With only sound for a view,
funny what an ocean can do.
One of my favourite bits in I'll Hear Your Voice. :)
♥ 2:07 AM
Why must Man wish for the stars when everything he needs is here on earth ?
-The Wise, Noble and Very Drunk Prof Kang
'That's not the point.'
-Prof Kang
The professor speaks.
Maybe it's because I've never seen anyone drunk before so I was quite...concerned for joey. I hope he gets back in one piece. A case of too much information. And a lot of shouting. You should've seen him during bridge. He kept asking about the bid and asking if he could have his fish.
The gathering was great fun even though I was pretty tired. Am feeling a bit woozy though I didn't drink. Maybe it's because I didn't eat much. Not a big fan of bbqs. But anyway, company was good. It was nice playing bridge with aaron, hector, timo and his pretty girlfriend. So yeah, really made up for my past few mopey days. (:
***
Gig at the ritz today. Wasn't too happening and they made us wait really long. So I was quite blah. And I sound extremely throaty. GAH. Perhaps a combination of not warming up properly and recovering from the flu and throat inflammation.
From what I gather, things are pretty...non-inclusive. Maybe it's because I've been part of the loop for so long so not being in it bugs me. Kinda. But yes, when it comes to some things, I am not as passive as I look. And anyway, the point is the principle behind it. Shucks, I hope I remember to say something about it next week. If not I'll just be some hypocrite. :B (new favourite emoticon of late ! supposed to be a thoughtful, toothy grin)
Studied at smoo again today but wasn't productive. What threw me off was again the pulsating beats from fort canning, the uncomfy bench, the smoke and the smell of oil. Ick. After about 2+ hours I relocated to starbucks at ps but it was noisy. ): And I tell you, the cities readings are so BLAH. What I was telling seng hong is that they're very uninspiring. Compared to my n&s readings, they're very zzz. I don't feel like there's some terribly exciting new woohoo perspective. It's very positive in comparison to social and cultural geog (relatively normative.. at least the readings I get). I don't think I'm really part of the structuralist school. I'm more.. humanist ? Maybe postmodernist. HAHAHA. Stupid jargon. But I love those short concise paragraphs by Pacione.
Haven't practised for tomorrow aikes. And still so much to studyyyyy. Rawr, am looking forward to heave a sigh of relief on weds. Lucky pow took the essay part out of the test. But concept questions aren't really my thang either ? Haha. :B
Saturday, October 04, 2008
♥ 3:16 AM
(:
):
Radiohead's Life in a Glass House. Love the jazzy feel.. Makes me think of a depressing bar with seedy characters in coloured shadows. Alternative music is not for everyone I guess but you should really watch this for the brass..
♥ 2:22 AM
That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
***
I'm listening to the Radiohead songs used in R&J and nothing can make me more mopey. ); I want to go back to taking those sneaky naps in the green room, running around the theatre before bump in, striding through the underpass grasping for my pass, exchanging raised eyebrows with Andrej, bitching about people with fellow LOs and listening to my superiors and Olly bitch about others..
Playing the songs makes me depressed but it is precisely because I was mopey to begin with that I downloaded the songs.
How to disappear completely.
Take the money and run.
Might be going elsewhere. But not completely.
Friday, October 03, 2008
♥ 5:53 PM
Sharon lin is right you know.
It's like trying to enter another room except that there's no door and you refuse to see how stupid you look trying to walk through a wall.
Yowch.
♥ 12:44 AM
I guess the dream I had makes up for the blah evening I got. ):
Had the best dream ever ! Some school organised a fun fair and it was in this old western town. Very weird. So different stalls were in different old shack-like western buildings. And I wandered to the end of the row and there was this shack with not many people in it and GUESS WHO WAS SINGING THERE. HAHAHA JASON MRAZ !!! SO WEIRD RIGHT ! And I was like sitting RIGHT SMACK IN FRONT OF HIM. Like, touching distance. Haha. So when he took a break from his songs and went outside I asked him for a picture and we had a nice conversation about whether he liked singapore or something like that I don't quite remember. All I remember that he was very close and his face was like INCHES FROM MINE. Okay, not really. But up close he looked much older, like hugh laurie from house. Erm which was weird. But anyway, his eyes were mesmerizing and gazing deep into it was EXTREMELY NICE. I can't think of a better adjective. Ayes, so dreamy.. (: BEST DREAM EVER !!!! :DDD
Studied with qua (for awhile) and mich at smoo. Pretty productive actually. It was really nice cos I was facing the greens of fort canning and the museum so it was kinda pretty and soothing. Until some metal/rock concert started and the bass beats just gave me a headache. But yeah, it was not bad. Am proud of self ! Hurhur. 530 to about 1030.
Pushing Daisies is back ! :)
'She's 37.'
'She's 38. Which rounds up to 40 which rounds up to 50 which rounds up to old !'
'Somebody aaaaalways lovin' somebody they shouldn't be lovin'.'
Meow. ):
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
♥ 9:14 PM
For those who grew up in the 1990s with pokemon (:
♥ 12:02 AM
I am utterly devastated. Ultra bad time management. );
Let's hope my term paper will do this subject, as well as my interest for the subject, justice. Sigh. On to my food response paper and printing 2204 readings. I'm quite glad I managed to find 2 books that seem pretty useful for hazards. Seeing as how most of the books had been borrowed out. Stupid me. Not kiasu enough. Not enough foresight to borrow even when I was in school last week. Gah. I'm not quite sure how to be sociological about what I'm trying to say though about the milk scare though. =/
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1st of October. I feel much older already. No more a child and yet so much like a child still. October is always a pretty sad month. Over the years, it's always been fraught with exams. More recently it means a whole slew of deadlines and the coincidence of performances. Quite sadly, it's the birthday month. But why does it always feel less special as the digits change ? Suddenly our expectations become tall, fancy hedges that we are unable to peer over. Nothing can buy us anymore. Perhaps the associated gloom is due to the assignments and all occurring in the same time. But think about it. 5 years from now and I'm in a job which more or less entails the same kinds of work every month. Will anything change ? It's not the exams or the projects or the work. Feelings don't change. And perhaps they don't change because expectations do. And so do obligations and responsibilities. Maybe it's just what it means to be growing older that makes me somewhat sad. And maybe I'm also sad that people don't try as hard anymore. Because feelings don't change, people don't try their darndest to make things different. This is more with regards to family and relatives I suppose.. Since they're the ones who see you through the years.
I don't know but I get this way during Christmas also. I get very mopey because you hold out for something really really special (even if it's secretly in your 7 year old heart) but the wonderment and euphoria you envision just isn't quite there. It's over too quickly. Every moment seems as ordinary as a random day in June. Ayes..
I'm not sure why I get this way but perhaps it's to do with me being idealistic and fluffy and living in a world of cotton candy and baby giraffes.
Gosh, I'm close to twenty and speaking of a make believe dream land of sweets and softness. Maybe some hopes don't change with age.