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| 10 mile marathon training run on Boston's Charles River this past July |
I am feeling the weight of the Boston Marathon bombings.
I keep picturing the end of my own marathon a few months ago. How I felt - exhausted yet determined. I keep thinking about what marathon's symbolize: triumph over the body, the spirit of a community, a sporting event where everyone has victories - there are no "sides" or "teams", each runner is celebrated, and the poignant emotions that occur after putting your body through hours of pain.
I keep picturing the marathon training runs I had in Boston this summer, one in June and one in July. Running next to the Charles River so close to where yesterdays tragedy unfolded.
I keep picturing riding a bike along Back Bay in June and again in early November with Megan (who, luckily, stayed home sick instead of going to the marathon like she'd taken the day off of work to do). I keep picturing that street and passing the marathon finish line, remembering how I thought about all the runners who work so hard to even qualify for that race, and then train again to compete in it. I am so sad for them and how a great event was tainted by evil.
The victims, of course, whose lives are changed forever are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am full of emotion - anger, sadness, shock, fear. I guess that is what "they" wanted from us - to make us feel unsafe in situations where our safety is not on our minds.
I'm proud of the people who helped others. Physicians who had just run 26.2 miles but ran over to the medical tent to help others.
I'm thinking of Boston today and paying closer attention to the people and things I love and focusing on giving good to the world. I can't control what other people do, but I can control what I do.
At church on Sunday a friend shared a favorite piece from last weekend's General Conference - some thoughts from
Elder Cook's talk, which I looked up again today. Some things that stood out:
"Events often occur that rob us of peace and heighten our sense of vulnerability."
"In contemplating these events, I have been impressed with the doctrinal difference between universal or world peace and personal peace."
"We earnestly hope and pray for universal peace, but it is as individuals and families that we achieve the kind of peace that is the promised reward of righteousness. This peace is a promised gift of the Savior’s mission and atoning sacrifice."