I'm having a very difficult night. The only way I seem to be able to coupe with my lose is to write down what I miss so therefore I wrote this...
Mourning Our Loss
My precious Mystic! I miss you so very much. You were born 16 Dec 97 and passed away on 1 Feb 11. I brought you home when you were only 6 weeks old and you fit in the palm of my hands. You weighed only 2.5 pounds. I remember when you were bitten by a spider when you were a puppy and I had to rush you to the vet the next morning because the welt on your head bursted. They shaved your head and placed bright yellow spray on your forehead. You looked like a punk rocker.
I miss how we would travel every weekend from Prattville to Gadsden and you would be my buddy watching over John Wesley when he was an infant to make sure he was alright. I miss how when Adrianna was little I would lay with her at night and you would lay under her bench waiting for me to get up so we could go to bed. I miss how you would go outside and then disappear and I would worry you would never come back. Then we had to install our underground fence and you didn’t leave anymore. I miss you going outside and when you would get to the tree sometimes a cat would jump from the bushes and you would bark and run!! I miss your bark whenever I would come home. I miss that when we opened the garage door I would open my door and you would jump in so we wouldn’t hurt you as we drove in. I miss you sitting on the cushions on top of the couch above me so you could rest your chin on my shoulder. I miss it when the kids would sit next to me and when they got up you would promptly take their place. I miss that at night you would lay at the end of the bed and then when the lights went out you would get up and plop down against my back. You had to touch me! I miss how you would follow me to every room . You would wait for me when I would shower, you would sit with me when I would fold and do laundry, and you would sit next to me at the computer as I typed and scrapbooked. I miss how you would always place your head on Neil’s knee at dinner with those sad eyes but would never place it on mine. I miss our rides in the car when you had to sit on my lap and lean against the window to look outside. I miss how Neil and the kids would send you on a wild goose chase to find me in the house. She’s upstairs, no.. she’s in the laundry room, no..she’s in the bedroom. When you found me you would bark loudly to tattle that they were giving you a hard time. I miss how Neil would convenience you to go into the bathroom and then shut the door so you couldn’t get to me. You would always bark and bark but you would do it every time or how he would block a doorway so you could see me but couldn’t get to me. I miss how you hated thunder and during the night you would try to sit on our heads and tremble. I would put you in the bathroom and then you would bark wildly and I would have to sit and hold you until the storm passed. We would end up 5 in the bed on stormy nights. I miss how you would bark when I would dust or vacuum. You would only bark at me and no one else. Neil always said it was because I didn’t do it enough. LOL. . I miss that you were always my test photo before I took pictures of the kids. I miss that I didn’t take enough pictures of you and that I didn’t video you.
You were my angel sent from above and were my steadfast companion. You were my constant through so much hurt and turmoil in my life. I cried so many tears with you. You never judged me but only loved me. You were my first child of three. You welcomed John Wesley and Adrianna and loved them as you loved me. You then welcomed Neil and loved him too!
For the first time I cry not with you but for you!! I miss you my dear friend. Please know that one day we will be together again but know you are forever in my heart!