i guess it's time to update the blog. i'm going journal/purge style since it's been a while.
i'm a planner. type a. i like to know what to expect. while i wish i was carefree and spontaneous, i am learning to embrace the person i am and try to weasel in some of who i am not. i say this because if you would have asked me a month ago what i would be doing, i would NOT have said going to work full time. but then life happened. an opportunity presented itself. i thought about it. hashed it out with matt. prayed about it. debated. cried. made lists. tried to talk myself out of it. cried. tried to talk myself into it. thought about it. made more lists. cried. and finally did it. i'm a full time worker. and so is matt. and my girls, my two babies, are being cared for by a nanny. gasp. i can't believe i just typed that. i never wanted to be mom who worked outside the house. not that there's ANYTHING wrong with it, i just never thought i could ever actually leave my kids. and i did. and it was and is and will remain forever to be the hardest thing in my life. seriously, i'm crying right now just thinking about it. i'm going to miss moments. so many moments. and firsts. and everything in between. and while i have come to accept the fact that the kind of opportunity i have been given rarely comes along, and i won't be working 10 hour days forever, the sting of being absent is almost more than i can bear. but, moving on...
i'm managing a tutoring center and matt is working as a tutor. bye-bye radiology school. it's a great company and i'm very excited about improving it and growing it. i'm fully behind the fact that not all kids do well or are suited for the typical public school setting. knowing that i have some part in helping kids gain an education and working with their specific needs is one of the greatest feelings ever.
aside from big, life changing events, we've been keeping things pretty mellow. i relish the weekend and hour before my girls go to bed more than any other time and try to make it as fun and enjoyable as possible. those are the moments i wait for all week and that give me the charge to get through the the next.
so, life is good. different than i thought it would ever be. but, that's life. i'm grateful for the opportunity, grateful for a husband that supported me, grateful for parents who trust and believe in me, and super grateful my the nanny we found who is so great with my kids.
and that's that.
xoxo
