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sabar.keep pray.silent.stay at your place.la tahzan.teruskan langkah walau lemah.fi amanillah.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
silent
sabar.keep pray.silent.stay at your place.la tahzan.teruskan langkah walau lemah.fi amanillah.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
epilogue 11.10.10
october is wonderful month.sami yusuf album trailer release on 11.10.10. wonderful when what u wish comes true.thanks to HIM. alhamdulillah.yiba, please. no tragedy october.
show my way.show my way.wherever you are.wherever me.
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| momo belanja this ticket for me. absorp maher zain and shoutul harokah semangat. |
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| doorgift Q&A 10.10.10 and the present is actually for kak noi. but kak no didnt come.so, i got it. kak noi, tak pe kan? |
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| i met umi and umi give this things to me. cause selalu sakit. and start to eat everyday.MUST.cause it filled with umi's love. |
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| as i wish ayah were here in october.it really happens. i met ayah and i got tarbiyah too. *ayah, dah dapat ur berryhitam?* |
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| we were there and missed again.oh! |
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| my life.my bonds of love. |
show my way.show my way.wherever you are.wherever me.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
11.10.10
nak tulis bahasa melayu.sebab nak tulis banyak.
12.00 am. 11 oktober 2010. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAULAH.
ya, bersendirian dalam bilik.menghitung meseg.tak banyak.dua tiga je.kalau ikut bahasa khaulah, yang ni memang ingat hari jadi khaulah.yang paling best, momonya text.sungguh terharu. dan ada dapat text dr yang tak disangka.haha.
ucap pada diri sendiri. ALHAMDULILLAH. syukur. dapat teruskan hidup lagi. dan syukur lagi. sebab selama 22 taun hidup dalam nikmat iman dan islam.sungguh syukur sangat. umi dan ayah,thanx for susah payah jaga khaulah.
sungguh,dugaan hidup kali ini sangat berat.bersendirian.menangis.sakit.dalam hati. sehingga terkesan pada badan juga. dugaan hidup banyak membuka mata dan minda. barulah sedar, tanggungjawab yang sedang dipikul sangat berat. sabarlah teman yang paling setia di sisi. menyapu airmata yang menitis mencari redhaNYA.
sungguh, bangun pagi tadi dapat sedikit semangat. buat sujud syukur. tiada hadiah paling indah. dengan nikmat hidup ini.
kemudian pegi kelas, banyak berfikir.untuk umur ini. bila masuk kelas, diam-diam sahaja. tak perlu sangat ucapan dari teman.tak perlu.yang penting doakan khaulah ini sentiasa kuat dan tabah sahaja.
bukak laman mukabuku.oh, sungguh. tak teruja. tapi suka dan terharu bila baca wishes dari semua.terharu sebab dapat ucapan dari bukan yang kenal rapat *tak semua*. tapi sahabat-sahabat dunia akhirat saya mana? mencari mereka.ingatkah mereka pada khaulah.
oh,sebelum tu. dapat hadiah dari umi.vitamin c yang penuh kasih sayangnya.hari ni dah mula makan.pahit.tak sedap.tapi sebab kasih sayang umi ada dalam tu sanggup telan.nak sihat sebab tak nak bagi umi risau.nak amik kekuatan umi dari ubat kasih sayangnya itu.
dan sungguh, sesuatu buat hati rasa sangat terharu. hadiah dari sami yusuf.trailer album release 11 october. alhamdulillah. sendiri di sini. tapi sami yusuf said whereever you are. yes, wherever me.
at the end of the day is waiting for yiba turns.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO. and ayah soon.
to u who read this,its not hard to say selamat hari lahir. u dont know with this wishes u may make the person feels better.make her day.
wherever you are.
12.00 am. 11 oktober 2010. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAULAH.
ya, bersendirian dalam bilik.menghitung meseg.tak banyak.dua tiga je.kalau ikut bahasa khaulah, yang ni memang ingat hari jadi khaulah.yang paling best, momonya text.sungguh terharu. dan ada dapat text dr yang tak disangka.haha.
ucap pada diri sendiri. ALHAMDULILLAH. syukur. dapat teruskan hidup lagi. dan syukur lagi. sebab selama 22 taun hidup dalam nikmat iman dan islam.sungguh syukur sangat. umi dan ayah,thanx for susah payah jaga khaulah.
sungguh,dugaan hidup kali ini sangat berat.bersendirian.menangis.sakit.dalam hati. sehingga terkesan pada badan juga. dugaan hidup banyak membuka mata dan minda. barulah sedar, tanggungjawab yang sedang dipikul sangat berat. sabarlah teman yang paling setia di sisi. menyapu airmata yang menitis mencari redhaNYA.
sungguh, bangun pagi tadi dapat sedikit semangat. buat sujud syukur. tiada hadiah paling indah. dengan nikmat hidup ini.
kemudian pegi kelas, banyak berfikir.untuk umur ini. bila masuk kelas, diam-diam sahaja. tak perlu sangat ucapan dari teman.tak perlu.yang penting doakan khaulah ini sentiasa kuat dan tabah sahaja.
bukak laman mukabuku.oh, sungguh. tak teruja. tapi suka dan terharu bila baca wishes dari semua.terharu sebab dapat ucapan dari bukan yang kenal rapat *tak semua*. tapi sahabat-sahabat dunia akhirat saya mana? mencari mereka.ingatkah mereka pada khaulah.
oh,sebelum tu. dapat hadiah dari umi.vitamin c yang penuh kasih sayangnya.hari ni dah mula makan.pahit.tak sedap.tapi sebab kasih sayang umi ada dalam tu sanggup telan.nak sihat sebab tak nak bagi umi risau.nak amik kekuatan umi dari ubat kasih sayangnya itu.
dan sungguh, sesuatu buat hati rasa sangat terharu. hadiah dari sami yusuf.trailer album release 11 october. alhamdulillah. sendiri di sini. tapi sami yusuf said whereever you are. yes, wherever me.
at the end of the day is waiting for yiba turns.HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TOO. and ayah soon.
wherever you are.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
prologue 11.10.10
the beginning of 2010
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| 01.02.2010. dating with ayah. kota bharu-klia-subang jaya-nilai-klia- kota bharu. |
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| 22.02.2010. dating with umi and ayah. kota bharu - klia - subang jaya |
03.2010 jaulah to kelantan.experiencing as tourist at my hometown. pasar siti khadijah - tumpat - pengkalan kubur- pantai cahaya bulan - kuala lumpur.
04.2010 pusat pendidikan aman [tadika iman, sekolah rendan & sekolah menengah islam aman] sport's day.
05.2010 study trip to redang.
20.06.2010 IKRAM big day.famili reunited. final exam.
07.2010 mukhayyam tarbawi. durian.
08.2010 ramadhan kareem. pain.
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| 09.2010 aidilfitri - demam - runaway back to kelantan with train - amik ubat sihat - perhimpunan perdana kalam. |
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| wonderful october.maher zain save the SOUL. *my soul* |
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| 06.10.2010 iium,gombak.maher zain. |
09.10.2010 meet umi and ayah at serdang.muktamar tarbawi. *tarbiyah hati*
10.10.2010 dating with momo.reunion plurkers.walimah.
11.10.2010....
may u have wonderful life.
selamat bertabah!
Thursday, October 07, 2010
make me strong
to myself who in pain,
read this.hope its make you strong.
the beginning. its worst.i even can not let myself alone.or else. i will cry suddenly. but that part slowly dissapear.
sami yusuf said: hear your call. *and tipu people, said i'm fine with it*
maher zain said: Hold My Hand,There are many ways to do it right *sebab tak nak jatuh terguling*
MLTR said: give me your hand and hold me *cause i cannot stand*
native deen said: Please please please hold the line now *even its hard. this the best way, sabar.and wait*
momo said: i was not there. yummy was not there. piya was not there. umi and ayah was not there. so you have be strong. take care of yourself. *and i just cried,cause i can not be strong like momo said*
ayah said: jaga solat. jaga pergaulan. *tears go down when i read this again and again*
piya wrote on my box: jaga hati.jaga ibadah.jaga iman. *oh, piya.if you know this pain.*
yiba a good listener: go solat sunat dan read luvletter *even she speechless when heard i crying badly at that time.thank you.
send text to umi: what i wish * and when i go back home, i got my wish. i missed to be her driver*
and yummy-chan make a call *feels like checking whether im okay or not*
after coming back home. heart and mind cannot work well. body got sick. i got strength. but semangat masih tak sampai-sampai. dan menangis lagi. oh, ujian ini terasa sangat berat.
native deen asked: How much is this life worth *feels like kene ketuk kepala*
zain bikha said: all what we need is love *spread the love, thats what u want,right*
outlandish said: its feels like saving the world *forget your pain*
sami yusuf said: heal and you will be healed *اللهم اشف شفاءً لا يغادر سقماً*
maher zain said: Insya Allah you’ll find your way *keep pray.dont loose hope*
there some question that i keep asked but its very hard to get the answer.slowly, ALLAH show to me. slowly i got answer. slowly i know the reason. HE is the best planner. mashaALLAH.
zain bikha ft abdul malik said:
This is who I am, this is me
Nothing, everything, can’t you see
Who I am, just let me be
Cos like it or not but God loves me
Who I am
*people cannot be you. you is you.whatever it is*
soldier of ALLAH said: either we make history or we become history *lets create your own history.u want it bad then you got bad.but if u want better u got better*
maher zain said: All praises to Allah, Alhamdulillah *at the end, i thank to HIM. HE know best*
before im off.
outlandish said: if you got no one to call, just let off some steam *subtitle, the OST bad guy is my sound of rebel.it likes to remind me. avoid that pain.ignore that pain.theres too much thing waiting you.be strong whatever it is*
and copy from tina: Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign that you have been strong for too long. *she is my best supporters.jadi kuat deh! sabar deh! thankies*
this pain can not be healed is easily. selalu mintak dengan "doktor" nak ubat bius. nak bius hati ni. nak bagi lali. sometimes i hate this pain sebab tiba-tiba ia akan rasa sakit. before i fall, i stop breathing so, i dont feel the pain. hampir buat saya mati.
keep play sub title
read this.hope its make you strong.
the beginning. its worst.i even can not let myself alone.or else. i will cry suddenly. but that part slowly dissapear.
sami yusuf said: hear your call. *and tipu people, said i'm fine with it*
maher zain said: Hold My Hand,There are many ways to do it right *sebab tak nak jatuh terguling*
MLTR said: give me your hand and hold me *cause i cannot stand*
native deen said: Please please please hold the line now *even its hard. this the best way, sabar.and wait*
momo said: i was not there. yummy was not there. piya was not there. umi and ayah was not there. so you have be strong. take care of yourself. *and i just cried,cause i can not be strong like momo said*
ayah said: jaga solat. jaga pergaulan. *tears go down when i read this again and again*
piya wrote on my box: jaga hati.jaga ibadah.jaga iman. *oh, piya.if you know this pain.*
yiba a good listener: go solat sunat dan read luvletter *even she speechless when heard i crying badly at that time.thank you.
send text to umi: what i wish * and when i go back home, i got my wish. i missed to be her driver*
and yummy-chan make a call *feels like checking whether im okay or not*
after coming back home. heart and mind cannot work well. body got sick. i got strength. but semangat masih tak sampai-sampai. dan menangis lagi. oh, ujian ini terasa sangat berat.
native deen asked: How much is this life worth *feels like kene ketuk kepala*
zain bikha said: all what we need is love *spread the love, thats what u want,right*
outlandish said: its feels like saving the world *forget your pain*
sami yusuf said: heal and you will be healed *اللهم اشف شفاءً لا يغادر سقماً*
maher zain said: Insya Allah you’ll find your way *keep pray.dont loose hope*
there some question that i keep asked but its very hard to get the answer.slowly, ALLAH show to me. slowly i got answer. slowly i know the reason. HE is the best planner. mashaALLAH.
zain bikha ft abdul malik said:
This is who I am, this is me
Nothing, everything, can’t you see
Who I am, just let me be
Cos like it or not but God loves me
Who I am
*people cannot be you. you is you.whatever it is*
soldier of ALLAH said: either we make history or we become history *lets create your own history.u want it bad then you got bad.but if u want better u got better*
maher zain said: All praises to Allah, Alhamdulillah *at the end, i thank to HIM. HE know best*
before im off.
outlandish said: if you got no one to call, just let off some steam *subtitle, the OST bad guy is my sound of rebel.it likes to remind me. avoid that pain.ignore that pain.theres too much thing waiting you.be strong whatever it is*
and copy from tina: Depression is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign that you have been strong for too long. *she is my best supporters.jadi kuat deh! sabar deh! thankies*
this pain can not be healed is easily. selalu mintak dengan "doktor" nak ubat bius. nak bius hati ni. nak bagi lali. sometimes i hate this pain sebab tiba-tiba ia akan rasa sakit. before i fall, i stop breathing so, i dont feel the pain. hampir buat saya mati.
keep play sub title
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
fairytale
been influence by plurker friends - mahera.
and dedicated to yiba, who really wanted to read the entry. *ye ke?*
at late night, went back to the hostel. walking slowly and weakly to the room. and open the doors.
*wooosh* feel the wind at my face. oh, my. saw blue-sky and clear beach.
slowly got to the beach. oh, i miss the beach. but saw there is a guy at the beach with others 3 people. feel like i knowing him and the other. walk near to them. and the guy notice me and wave his hand.
curious.mind keep thinking.who is that guy.oh,my. he is peter. the high king of narnia. now, i'm speechless. run to get him and he smile. follow him to the castle. am i dreaming stay in narnia?
after few days, feel like never want go back. like stay in narnia. there is live tree.lives animal. they very nice. play with pola bear. *haha*
told peter, i want stay here. i'm in pain. i like narnia. narnia give me peace feeling.i like it.
but peter said i have to go. he will send me back to my place. i was very sad i dun want go. my heart still in pain. but he said i must face the reality and have to be strong.
he send me at the same door when got into narnia. i just walk to the door and never look back.
*change*
selangkah masuk ke dunia asal, tiba-tiba rasa macam jatuh melayang tapi ada seseorang yang pegang tangan kanan.tengok ke atas. oh,my. sangat kenal dengan muka itu. dia kata, jangan mati. dan dia selamatkan aku.
dia, shim gun wook. muka dia sedih sgt. ada airmata dihujung matanya. lalu, bertanya padanya. apa yang telah berlaku?
dia kata, orang yang dia sayang bunuh diri dan dia tak mahu aku juga jadi sepertinya. bagai seolah-olah memahami dirinya.saya juga sakit, shim gun wook. dia memandang wajahku dengan persoalan. sakit yg sama apa yangv dia rasai. bukan kerana hilang orang sayang tapi kerana mereka yang telah buat dia juga sakit dan sengsara.
lalu, kami berusaha untuk sembuh. sehinggalah suatu hari, dia mengetahui perkara sebenar setelah kami hampir sembuh. tapi akhirnya dia pergi meninggalkan aku.
dia sempat berpesan, jangan berdendam. aku pasrah.
dan aku kembali ke tempat asalku. sebaik saja menutup pintu dan bersedia utk teruskan hidup dgn semangat dia.
*change*
hear a sound and was looking the music. like nasheed. the voice. yes, i knoe the voice. maher zain. its maher zain. he's very near to me. i see he smile to me. unbelievable. try to understand what his sing.yes. i know.
thank you ALLAH. insha ALLAH.
and he's gone. and dark. and i open my eyes.its a dream.
i wish its not just a dream.
would be amazing.
fairytale adalah dunia yg kita cipta.fairytale takkan jadi kenyataan. :)
yiba, puas hati? satisfied?
escapism
and dedicated to yiba, who really wanted to read the entry. *ye ke?*
at late night, went back to the hostel. walking slowly and weakly to the room. and open the doors.
*wooosh* feel the wind at my face. oh, my. saw blue-sky and clear beach.
slowly got to the beach. oh, i miss the beach. but saw there is a guy at the beach with others 3 people. feel like i knowing him and the other. walk near to them. and the guy notice me and wave his hand.
curious.mind keep thinking.who is that guy.oh,my. he is peter. the high king of narnia. now, i'm speechless. run to get him and he smile. follow him to the castle. am i dreaming stay in narnia?
after few days, feel like never want go back. like stay in narnia. there is live tree.lives animal. they very nice. play with pola bear. *haha*
told peter, i want stay here. i'm in pain. i like narnia. narnia give me peace feeling.i like it.
but peter said i have to go. he will send me back to my place. i was very sad i dun want go. my heart still in pain. but he said i must face the reality and have to be strong.
he send me at the same door when got into narnia. i just walk to the door and never look back.
*change*
selangkah masuk ke dunia asal, tiba-tiba rasa macam jatuh melayang tapi ada seseorang yang pegang tangan kanan.tengok ke atas. oh,my. sangat kenal dengan muka itu. dia kata, jangan mati. dan dia selamatkan aku.
dia, shim gun wook. muka dia sedih sgt. ada airmata dihujung matanya. lalu, bertanya padanya. apa yang telah berlaku?
dia kata, orang yang dia sayang bunuh diri dan dia tak mahu aku juga jadi sepertinya. bagai seolah-olah memahami dirinya.saya juga sakit, shim gun wook. dia memandang wajahku dengan persoalan. sakit yg sama apa yangv dia rasai. bukan kerana hilang orang sayang tapi kerana mereka yang telah buat dia juga sakit dan sengsara.
lalu, kami berusaha untuk sembuh. sehinggalah suatu hari, dia mengetahui perkara sebenar setelah kami hampir sembuh. tapi akhirnya dia pergi meninggalkan aku.
dia sempat berpesan, jangan berdendam. aku pasrah.
dan aku kembali ke tempat asalku. sebaik saja menutup pintu dan bersedia utk teruskan hidup dgn semangat dia.
*change*
hear a sound and was looking the music. like nasheed. the voice. yes, i knoe the voice. maher zain. its maher zain. he's very near to me. i see he smile to me. unbelievable. try to understand what his sing.yes. i know.
thank you ALLAH. insha ALLAH.
and he's gone. and dark. and i open my eyes.its a dream.
i wish its not just a dream.
would be amazing.
fairytale adalah dunia yg kita cipta.fairytale takkan jadi kenyataan. :)
yiba, puas hati? satisfied?
escapism
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