For the guys out there feeling the same way...
It all starts from the first day you see her...Initially, you are living your life just fine but after just glance, you are wondering how you managed to live for so long without her by your side...
So you decide to get to know her and eventually spend more time with her...however, you know what you want in the end but uncertainity starts to creep it...what will happen in the end...
You want to ask her out, but fear hinders you..how will she respond? How will her friends respond? Will you be blown off? Be humiliated? Or ignored totally? The confusion starts to mount but you can't get her off your mind..you decide to ask her anyway...
The day approaches...you managed to grab some time to pop the question...Maybe some other time is the reply...Now what? What does she mean by that? Is she totally uninterested in you? Does she want a another time? Or does your activity seem unsuitable...These questions just make the rejection worse..and she isn't going to tell you which is it...
Ask her during another time? Nah..seems too hasty you think to yourself...I'll wait...but its a bad choice...days turn to weeks..weeks turn to months..before long, theres really no more time left...
Could she be seeing someone else? Why are you not the one? Am I not handsome enough? Not enough character? Or am I lacking something...now the inferiority complex starts to set in...jealousy comes soon after as you notice her chatting animatedly with other guys...why can't you get into such a conversation with her?
Does she even know you are thinking about her? Does she even care? Spending time with her friends, classmates and family..maybe she doesn't really need you in her life...what could you really provide? Just coming along for the ride I guess...The pinnacle of depression hits here...
If she could only see the way you answered her few short messages....so much thought going into each individual message because you want her to feel comfortable...the speed at which you rush for the phone when you hear a ringtone..You mean so much to ther but what does that get you? Absolutely nothing but regrets and more regrets....
:( ......
Raced at || 5:28 AM
They say that life is similar to a journey on a train...
You first get on the train from a station and the first people you meet are your parents...they start to show you around the train and your journey of life begins when you start to explore the other carriages present...
You then start to meet others that have similar interests while strolling down the carriages on the train... you get along with them quite well and these are your friends...
As you continue to explore the other carriages, you will find others whom you dislike, admire..etc..these are the others who will shape your life through their short but meaningful appearances...
You might meet someone who has just got onto the carriage and your parents will introduce you to the person as your brother/sister..in short, your siblings....
Eventually, you may find a certain person in a carriage that you want to sit with for the rest of the journey..sometimes the seat has already been taken by someone else and so you move on...
We have to remember that our parents are also people experiencing this wonderful journey of life...they will eventually have to get off the train and leave you behind...and you will never know what that happens..
The people you meet will also have to get off at some time...friends, siblings and ven your life partner...their journey will definitely conclude at some point along your whole time on the train...
You will leave the train eventually and as a result, it would be better to make the people you meet during this wonderful journey feel loved and welcomed....in short, being a better person for them...
I receieved this story from my aunt a couple of months ago..may not be the exact transcipt as I wrote all this straight from my memory..hope you guys find it meaningful...
Raced at || 8:33 AM
"Dreams are targets for life....love is the feeling of life"
I really like this quote..epitomises my purpose and dreams for the future...
Finally an update eh?
Raced at || 9:10 AM
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Darryl Lee
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