Seriously So Cute: May 2010

Monday, May 31, 2010

Happy Birthday Little Man

Today is my chubba wubbas birthday.

3 years ago my Little Man joined our family. He was a welcome addition and spoiled rotten!

He was loved by his sisters. More than he could even know or even comprehend.

They loved to hold him and mother him and take care of him.

And especially watch movies with him and act silly.

Sometimes it hurts too much. But sometimes I can feel some peace.

He would be 3 years old today.

I seriously can't believe that he has been gone for 2 years.

Is it really possible that we have survived that long?

Today Mikenna wrote this:

I can't believe how big Mikenna is getting. When did she grow up? When did she start writing and spelling and putting sentences and thoughts together without prompting?

And my Friends left me this:

What did I do to deserve the greatest friends and family in the world? That would take the time to collect over 50 letters of memories and the most kind thoughts for me on this day. I appreciate all that you all do for me. My eyes were blurred with tears, my cheeks stained with mascara, and my shirt sopping wet from my boogers.

Just when I thought that all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and NEVER come out, I am reminded of the love that is given and shared through all of you.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

We went to the cemetery like Mikenna said and wrote notes to Daxton to send to heaven on balloons.

Savannah said, "I love you Daxton. I miss you."

Mikenna's said, "I love you Daxton. I liked going on walks with you. I miss you."

Mine went something like this, "My chubba wubba, how I miss you. Watch over us. Take care of us. And save me a spot up there next to you. Love, mom." (and some other stuff :))

My little brother said it best, "I am so glad that you had Isabella because I don't know what I would have done without her. I love her." Ain't that the truth. We all have broken hearts and they have been healing over the past few years.

Someday, Just not Today. Although it sure would be nice if it were.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Survivor

I am a survivor.

I am in this for the long haul.

I will not quit.

I will not be run over.

I am a good person.

I will stand up for what I believe.

I will fight for what I deserve.

I will be stronger and better.

I will beat this.

I will not be overcome.

Because that is what I do.

Because

I. AM. A. SURVIVOR.

Today is brought to you by Alphabe Thursday

Change

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you do with it.

I won't bore you with the details, but change has been occurring all around me.

It is interesting because life happens.

The good, the bad, the ugly, the crap, the happy, the devastating.

And you can either let it happen TO YOU or you can take it by the horns and beat it.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Organizing....

Sometimes I feel like my life is is TOTAL chaos!

And it is.....

But sometimes there is nothing I can do.

I have been reading this book called Getting Things Done. It is pretty eye opening to just how much I need some more organization in my house.

Its funny because if you go to my moms she has everything in her pantry organized just so in tupperware, pete containers, buckets. You can find just about whatever you want....

Then you enter her laundry room with an assortment of drawers that hold EVERYTHING. As Mikenna would say, "Mom we should just call Grandma. She has everything." And she is right.

But then you come to my house and I can't even count how many junk drawers I have. Ok I can, but I am SO not telling you. I am constantly going through clothes, shoes, closets, under beds, over beds, pantries, toys, crafts, and tossing out garbage bags and garbage bags of stuff I have no idea where it came from. I also have a habit of buying something 'in addition' to what I already have rather than 'in place of.'

I have recently found a website New Nostalgia that linked me up to Becoming a Minimalist. Watch out honey, I may have just appeared in your dreams. Spending less? Buying only what we need? Not collecting clutter? Oh my goodness. (should I thank you now or later Jenny?)

Here goes nothing.

Wish me luck!

Loves

PS Happy Birthday DAD!!!! You. Are. Awesome. But you already knew that. We bought him this AWESOME game for his birthday. I mean seriously. What do you get the man who has EVERYHING. A game called SNORTA. Ages 4-50something... or older. Can't wait to play it with Grandma. This is going to be a HOOT!!!! Thanks Heather.

Three Twins

Yesterday I had the three twins (that is Lily Layla and Isabella) and I took them to the mall for a bra fitting, is that too much information? Maybe, but I suppose I keep the results to myself :). Now lest you think I am crazy, I had my friend come with me, with her two kids.... So we had 5 kids under 4. It. Was. Awesome.

It was even more awesome, because we were at Nordstrom with 5 kids under 4 and Prada flip flops for $200. I guess they missed that Old Navy is having a sale on theirs for $1.... Hmm I wonder who will sell more.

I digress.

So we are in the dressing room with bucketloads of fishies, ritz (which by the way make a HUGE mess), grapes, and veggie sticks. We lasted about 55 minutes before the kids had had enough. I was SO proud.

But the best part was when we went to the play land and I had 3 babies who look SO different, but are the same age...ish. One of the moms asked me if they were triplets. I said yes. It. Was. Awesome. I am sorry I lied. But it was sure fun to play it up. If she would have looked closer she might have realized that two of them were dressed the same, had their hair the same, and were riding in the same stroller. Maybe she did.

Crazy day, but FUN.

Loves

Sunday, May 16, 2010

New way of Cooking

Dear Family,

I want to know why you don't like my new way of cooking?

Is all the good food I prepared just too good?

Would you prefer to eat cereal, cheese crisps, and frozen pizza over chicken tetrazzini, beef empanadas, and twice baked potatoes?

Fine. As you wish.

Lucky for you I just stocked up on the frozen pizzas and cereal

when they were on sale.

Love, Mom

Friday, May 14, 2010

Priesthood Encampment

AKA: Fathers and Sons.

You see this is the politically correct way, 'Priesthood Encampment.'

It is said such so as not to discriminate from those who are not Fathers. Or from those who do not have Sons. Or from those Sons who have lost Fathers. Or from those Fathers who have lost Sons.

This said Fathers and Sons is this weekend. Yet another reason why May is hard.

Daxton would have been old enough to play in the dirt, make a mess of the food, escape into the woods, and be very unhelpful setting up the tent. AND he would have been the perfect age to pee in trees, make a fort with sticks, and drop his hot dog in the fire.

One day there will be a Fathers and Sons. And MY son will be able to go with his FATHER.

Until then. Maybe we can borrow yours :)

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Our New Addition

Carter Craig Daxton Walter

Isn't he adorable? Don't you love him already?

I do.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Early to Bed Early to Rise

There is something to be said about the old adage, "Early to bed, early to rise."

Grandpa Walter lived it to the 'T.' He was the most productive man I have ever met.

I find myself the most productive in the early hours of the the morning. When I wake up to exercise at 6AM I am never surprised to find myself having cleaned the bathrooms, swept the floor, empty, put away, and loaded the dishwasher, and sometimes I even throw in a loaf of bread or a load of laundry. All before 10AM.

I look at the clock thinking it should be at least 3 in the afternoon only to find myself just 2 hours after breakfast. This also makes for a great NAP TIME.

Which speaking of Nap Time. When did we stop taking naps? And why in the world would we do such a thing? I love when I have a few hours to kill after a very busy morning to take escape into dream land.

Which by the way, I have had some seriously GOOD nights of sleep lately. Maybe it is all those early mornings I have been pulling. Being productive does have its drawbacks. You get TIRED earlier :).

Loves,

Britt

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

THe Big E

The other day I went in to get my eyes checked.

I covered one eye like I was supposed to and read the lines in front of me.

Well I tried....

On to the next eye.

Nothing.

Only to learn that I could not even read the

BIG E!!!

SERIOUSLY???

And so it has been officially decided.

I am having Lasik or Lasek or whatever. I am going to SEE without glasses. And maybe. Just maybe. I can read the BIG E once again!!!!

The big day is May 21. PRAY for me that I don't go blind. That would be very very sad.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

HapPy MoThER's DaY

Dear Mom,

I love you big as the sky.

Was there ever a better mother?

To teach me. To love me. To hold me.

Was there ever a mother more forgiving?

When I was a teenager. When I am selfish. When I need to be forgiven.

Was there ever a mother with so much love to give?

To her children. To her grandchildren. To her friends. To her hubby.

Was there ever a mother with so much patience?

With a son in law. With a stubborn child. With life itself.

No. I don't think so.

I am so glad you are my mother. Happy Mother's Day.

_______________________________

Truth be told. I am not a lover of the the Mother's Day. Sure I like to honor my mother. Because seriously, she had 5 kids and that is something in and of itself.

Yesterday we all were in the temple. Together. That says something about my mother. A lot actually.

I have been thinking lately. (I know. Trouble)

Being a mother is hard. It isn't what you expect it to.

There is nothing like holding your brand new baby in your arms. Who depends on you 100%. To love and to take care of. It is a feeling that can't be matched. The joy. The love. The peace.

There is also nothing like holding your lifeless child. As they enter into Heavenly Father's arms.

Much sorrow. Much sadness. Much devastation.

Eventually peace. (although I can't say I am there)

May is a tough month for me in general. It hasn't hit full force. But it is coming. June is harder. And it is just around the corner.

But no matter how hard it gets. I am still a mother. I have 3 beautiful little girls. Who need me. Who love me. Who depend on me. Their mother.

_____________________________

Today we were driving in the car and Savannah says,

"When I am my age, I want to live"

My reply, "When you are my age, you want to live?"

"In a apartament"

"You want to live in an apartment?"

"Yes. A new one. Like that one. OK?"

"OK"

Seriously? Where did she come up with that. I laughed. Hysterically.

______________________________

Isabella LOVES to play peek a boo.

I will look back at her in her carseat, hands over her eyes, "a boo" SO CUTE!!!!

She also loves to play patty cake. Once again... we were driving around and she is la la la la rolling and clapping her hands.

LOVE HER!!!!

_______________________________

Mikenna is about ready to start reading chapter books. She is doing multiplication. And she LOVES to play Wacky Six. (a speed playing card game like solitaire but with a lot of peoples so not really like solitaire) YOu should see my grandma play it. SOOOO fun. LOVE my grandma too!!!!!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Dieting?

Lately I have been watching what I eat and making sure I exercise....
the scale tipped an all time HIGH (non pregnant) and it terrified me into doing something about it.
SO here I am.
I have a little something to say.

Dear Diet,

I don't really like you.

If fact I have a real distaste for you.

You loom over my head every day.

Calling my name.

Can you please go away and leave me alone?

I really like to eat whatever I want. Whenever I want.

But alas. The scale has tipped an alltime high.

I can no longer escape you.

Its time.

For us to be friends.

But who needs enemies when I have a friend like you.

Britt

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Cooking Frenzy

I don't know why, but lately I have been in a cooking frenzy.

I got this new book

Frugal Mom's Guide to Once a Month Cooking

And it. Is. Awesome.

I don't think that I have actually saved any money, but I have found some great recipes. Fast. Easy. Yummy.

That is where we got all the yummy recipes from our cooking day extravaganza.

In the last two days, I have made 58 stuffed pizza rolls (like calzones) and 30 Beef Empanadas. From scratch.

It has been fun. I take pleasure in cooking meals that will last a long time. And who doesn't love the thought of NOT cooking EVERY day! I sure do.

I just go to the freezer and pick something out that I have previously made (and if I know that Mikenna won't eat it then I can just grab her some pizza rolls or chicken quesadillas) and TA DA. All done.

Toodles

Britt