i miss u bestie. i love u more than ever...

Keching Keching;

I can hear all the kocheks ringing.

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Dah, tak payah nak rahsia-rahsia. I know you-all you-all dah dapat gaji. The boyfriend got his pay today, and we're having dinner at Newton today. Wehoo! Saper nak join? Do you enjoyz?? Yes I enjoyz! (yes, with the minah english-karat version)

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I missed the boyfriend THAT much that I went to the extend of asking him to meet me for 5mins before I get to work. We met at the bus stop, he sent me to the MRT station, and poof I went. lolx. Cheap thrill kan?? I loike.

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I so wana ride the spring-ball-thingy they have at Clarq Quey, but it's so farking mahal lah! 40 bucks per person lah! Thanks ah! Singapore bikin duit ah! And thanks ah boyfriend, you takot heights!

So nice of the boss to make us work during the festive week; with 4 deadlines for me to meet. *heavy sigh*

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Abs and me spent Xmas eve at Mandai jetty eating kueh pao. Kesian eh? But we had to be disturbed by a bunch of minah tudongs who came by to sit next to us. Like hello, give us some privacy lah! Like there are so many other spots bersepah down there, but you chose THAT spot beside us. Urgh.

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To those who simply have nothing better to do and lurrrrvvveee hate-tagging so much, please spare some thought and find a new hobby. Ok?

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I cannot wait for the whatever surprise Abs have in mind for me on the 5th of Jan. Plus, I cannot wait for the surprise I'm gonna give him on the 17th of Jan, when that boy of mine turns tua 26! Bear in mind, 4 more years to the big '3'.

:P

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Merry Xmas to all!!!

Thank you for being THE reason.

<3 u more; every second of every day.

Abs have yet to pass me his SCDF uniform. Having just the barret (Brother's) on my head already got me all excited. Anyone care to donate me a pair of handcuffs? Kinky or what? lolx.

The boyfriend and the good friend have been putting the blame on me for making them fat (or fatter than they already are). What not with the endless McDonalds meal we have been having for lunch and dinner. Like have you guys tried the juicy, oily, fat chicken nuggets?! Like hello, they are so sedap! Too sedap to not have them everyday. And thank you to the shaker fries, UPSIZE is a pasti-mesti!!!

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Never-Ending goreng pisang panas issue - Hady Mirza won Asia Idol. Sudah terang he's cute and a good performer. So those who so disagree with his win, go play with your balls. I am tired of having to argue with you-all you-all on his win. I rest my case.

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It's an MC day. Standard. When the public holiday is on a Thursday, you are bound to get an MC on the Friday; that's when the doctor have doubts in you. Therefore, you might or might not get it, even if you are really really sick like me-at-this-point-of-time. Happy working korangkorang, while I have my well-deserved rest today. *evil laugh*. It's offically the last day of work for the year. It's the Xmas holisssss. Minus the few days I would need to come back to meet the project deadlines, thank you very much.

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Boyfie; Abz finally finally finally got my Enchanted DVD, after so many attempts to catch it in the cinema. Either tickets were sold out or it was showing at a later time. Ataupun, the person didn't wana watch it with me. Cause from the boys' point of view, chick flicks are officially-and-only for chicks, and not Man-ly for their reputation. Yah, like whatever. And making us watch your shoot-him-shoot-me movies is perefectly ok???

Every step of me is being watched.

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The wrongs that I do were spotted; the rights that I do are never good enough.

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I apologise to the friends for not being there when you most needed me. And I thank the ones who have been around for me.

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Hearts <3;

BB Abz,

Nas,

Ayim,

Is,

Nana

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Many ups & too many downs, but am still that strong girl I know I am.

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With 3 projects in hand, I have been trying hard to breathe in some fresh air. Even with the Hari Raya Haji & Xmas holidays, I would still need to come down to the studio to meet the deadlines.

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Recently I had a cut on my little thumb due to a pen knife accident in the studio. Gaha. Thanks eh to the tak guna boys in the studio who are so scared of blood as I am...passing me tissue did not help at all. Anthony thankfully ran out of the design meeting for a while when he saw me with that bloody thumb and quickly washed it, wrapped it and tapped it. But the one who came to my rescue with the bandage was Nas. Thank you brother for troubling yourself up and down. And thank you BB Abz for sending me home. It's the 3rd day but the injured thumb is still bleeding, but NO Ayim, I am NOT going for any stitches for it.

I present you Bang-Bang, Bing-Bing & Kiki.

Photo taken by the boyfriend.

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Yesterday, Abs got the custody to take care of Kiki full-time, ever since that toad has been smelling like me. Thanks to the many nights with me. I dropped Kiki on the wet floor while Abs and me were at the side of the road. What was I doing holding Kiki in public kan? More reason for him to have it now.

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This month alone, I've gotten more teddies than ever. Boyfie got me Boo, I got him Bang-Bang, Bing-Bing & gave away my smelly Kiki, and Nas got me Smokie & Lucky.

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It's the Beary-Season. But you know what?

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The best gifts in life come unwrapped.

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*thinks hard*

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:)

Sometimes you find happiness at the strangest places you could ever think of. At times, it takes a few moments or a later while for you to indulge it in. I found mine after a little bit of hatred, a little bit of ignorance, a little bit of fights, and a bit of non-assurance.

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Despite the rain, and the little time we had left to spare, we headed down to ECP for a little un-planned picnic. But first, we were stuck under the overhead bridge, at the bus stop; having to wait for a hour or so for the rain to stop before we continued riding any further. A few minutes later when we were sitting down having our dinner by the beach, the rain started to pour again. Instead of heading for the nearest shelter, we sat there with a sweater on top of our heads. lolx. I lurrrrvvvveee the rain, as much as I love him. We were actually sitting by the beach with the rain pouring onto us and not caring one bit about what the passerbys were thinking. When it got heavier, we ran to the phone booth, all tiny, looking like sardines in a can.

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Getting back home was another toture; pasal helmet takder visor! Therefore the rain was splattering onto our faces okay. B, pls eh, new helmet ader visor k. I had fun fun fun. Walaupun I got a hell of a fit from the parents when I got home.

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I definitely found my happiness in the stangest place. :)

But I am right now in MY happy space.

My best friend, my buddy, my huggagle bubbly bear, my B - the boyfie. <3

The Saturday morning and afternoon were wasted in the office doing nothing! I shouldn't have came, really. The manager came late, and I was left with zero things to do. For the whole few hours, I came down to the lobby twice for a smoke with Nas. Nas and me got bored after a while therefore I decided to skip the wait, and he decided to skip the work.

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Dee: Shopping today?

Nas: *nods* Let's do it!

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Nas AKA Smart-Mamat is the polo-t, smart-shirt kindda boy, and so we decided to do some magic by getting Mat-looking clothes to dish up that good looks of his. We headed down to Bugis street and I picked out 2 graff Ts for him. Later, we headed down to now known as expensive-Topman and got him a long sleeved-smart-casual shirt which took my breath away for a second there when he had it tried on.

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Who says shopping with boys is not-fun? Pick the right people girls. Pick the ones who wont go choosing 10 bare=back tops for u to try on. Pick the ones who would tell you where the better bargains are. Pick the ones who won't be outside the store waiting for you to pick out the perfect earrings, instead picks out THAT perfect earrings for you. These are the boys who truly know how to shop.

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I got my best buys.

- A snake-textured black handbag for $60.00 from Seiyu

- A black cardi for $18.00

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At night, Abs took me down to Marsling Jetty with his boys. Had fun hearing them crapping away, and was glad I fed the hungry boys with some not-much donuts. His bestie, Hakim was especially fun.

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I am still very much in love with the same person I have been with for the past 1 week and 2 days. "Hello I know you're reading this!" lolx.

It felt like being in love for the very first time. That feeling of having someone taking your breath away. Abs; the boyfriend took me to Mount Faber.

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We were like 2 school kids so happily laughing away over stupid little things that just dont matter to others. I got him a soft toy; a kambing holding a smaller kambing. We named the bigger kambing Beng-Beng, and the smaller one Bing-Bing. Corny I know.

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Boyfie gave me his old beloved sweater which is currently my latest mangsa in bed. Forget the bantal busuk of mine (for now).

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:P

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This I have to tell...since it was the first time he has done something this mushy (or kental-from his friends' point of view) for a girlfriend. Despite my very awful mood swings on that very day, he still tried to make me feel a whole lot better. Boyfie told me to unzip his bag motor, and to my surprise, dalam helmet ader a bouquet of bear. So kiyutttt. So sweet. Im such a sucker for sweet things like this ok. I kudos him for being extra patient with me.

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*smiles*

People, stop feeding me with the junk food. I am getting rounder than I already am. Blame it on others when things go wrong. Never yourself (heh). Smoking Kaki; Nas took me out for lunch by Singapore River. Niceeee. The weather was so good we almost fell asleep on our burgers. Thank u for lunch "smart-mamat". Really ah, can't stand you looking all formal like that! Hah.

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The boyfriend; Abs and me are finally going to meet after our 2-days break, when initially, the plan was to go on a week break. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. We could perhaps try for lets say... a month? ...

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Mum & Dad are still giving me the cold shoulder. No lunch or dinner for me for the past 3-days korang tau tak!!! Such toture. Ugh. Lil sis was sweet enough to pass me her apples and roti last night when I told her I was hungry. My little 3-year old angel loves her sister still, despite the pinches I gave her whenever she annoys the hell out of me. Muax. Love love love her.

My doubts were answered.

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For a day, I spoke to his friend to get the assurance I needed. Before I go on, No, this entry has nothing to do with the boyfriend. So get the facts straight first aight. Anyhoo, that friend told me a lot about what I have to know; left me answers which were right infront of my eyes. And it is my choice now whether or not to live in a lie or to carry myself away from him, because it is just going to hurt be even more in the end of the day. Im not going to make that slut of his bring me down in any ways. I have pride and dignity unlike her. As much as his friend did not wish to betray him, he is nice enough not to see me get hurt in any ways because of him. Im very much upset and felt a whole lot cheated.

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I only wish you will someday grow up and have some sense in that head of yours; start treating people the way they should be treated. I do not regret the friendship (or more) we once had, because I enjoyed that temporary getaways with you.

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/Boyfie Abs, u have been the sweetest, and have given me all that I have asked for and I am thankful to have you in my life...Thank u much for tolerating with my never ending mood swing, and thank you for the bear!!! hehehe.

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/Nas, thanks for the eye-opener my new-found smoking kaki! Trima kaseh for the box of ciggies smart mamat.

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/Ayie, I owe you one!!! If only I could give u more than a thank u. Shopping next week okay brother!!!

Perhaps it's time you brush that ego off, the way I did. You should start learning to be a friend to me, and stop brushing me away sesuka hati the way you always do. After all, I have gone all out for you. To the extend where I cried when you ended up being warded. I did everything to make you happy. I listened to you whined since day one. When truth is, I wanted you out of my life. You told me I make you smile. But do you even mean what you said to me? It tore me apart seeing you in that condition, at the same time I was still very much upset with you...

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Please lah grow up. Im not a temporary something you know. I miss US the way we were before. Get well soon. Because I still care a lot for u.

Bimbo is now my middle name. Ey wait, it's not. It's my first name actually; since my brother and my own boyfriend have been calling me just that. I might be good in words, graduated with my dip, read the dictionary like it's a book, but when it comes to being street smart, I am never that. Common sense things like lets say, erm, simple little things a kid would know what to do with, Im a bit on the slow mode on that. I don't watch the news, I don't read the newspaper (except for the LIFE section), I prefer comics to Reader's Digest and I'd rather hear my ego out, than hearing what others have to say. With that, Im a little dumb really. And to be labelled a Bimbo by my loved ones, ok, I have to agree and accept.

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Anyhoo, happy subject now! If only I could tell each and everyone of you in person on what happened last night! Hahahahaha. I am still too happy; still sniffing my own right palm, walaupun bau dia dah kene overlap with my bath soap. Ok ok, the thing is, last night Abs and me were in town. He was behind me talking to some friends, and suddenly I spotted Ash & Adi of By Definition from faraway. I froze dead, turned to the boyfriend and went like, "OMG! Is that your friend?!" Ok, so Ash and Abs are friends, and I of course have been pestering Abs to let me meet da'-hot-Ash in person. So anyways, they were like HEYYY when they saw each other while I was still smiling so widely macam kambing, and was like so distance away from them waiting for the boyfriend to call me over (like duh!), which he did after that. Seriously, that was one of the candid moments where I looked like a dork ah. Thanks ah, depan Idol ku, my face was like kambing. So boyfriend introduced me as, "your biggest fan; my girlfriend." And I again tersengeh-sengeh macam berok. He shook my hand!!! Arghhh. And then the drummer also shook my hand. Argh!!! My happiest 5 mins ever!!! I thought the boyfriend would be smart enough to take out his camera so that I can have a picture with idolaku, but I think he was too selengeh to get any hint from me at that point of time lah. So I forgave him for that.

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Ok fiuh! Typing the 2nd paragraph made me really happy till this moment ok! I had a blast during the weekends. Went around a lot with boyfie. Had fun, like totally sooo much fun. I haven't gotten enough sleep. Been home really late every single day.

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A friend landed in the hospital last night. It got me all upset. In fact, I am still very very upset now. I do go all out for a friend. But when at times when I just can't be there when they need me to, I feel so bad about myself; which Nana thinks I shouldn't. Am visiting him later to bring him the food and the comics and whatever he needs. And sometimes I do ask myself if they have done enough for me to deserve every attention I give to them. And some friends are the kind who would go all out for you because they expect something in return. When you end up being with somebody else instead of themself, they start being all county about everything they have done for you. I mean, if you're not sincere, please eh next time dont bother being nice. You'll appear as a sore loser after that ok. Ok well, that's human nature ah, that I admit. But tolong ah, if you choose to help a friend, never ever expect anything in return. Deal with it!

My very much missed Trianti; she's been away from Singapore for 2 mnths now, enjoying her stay in Milan. I truly miss her hell lot; jer jokes, her company, and her being around for me in my times of need. Thanks to sms and msn, we're still very much in touch. The juicy juicy updates for her on what's been happening to our friends in Singapore. Babe, I cannot wait for you to be here on July 2008!!!

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My new found glory - my boyfriend. (PS: I know you're reading this!)

Funny how much I hated you back then and how much I cursed you to dissapear (lolx). Funny how we ended up together after the 1001 quarrels & 1002 lines of I-hate-you(s).

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B brought me to Vivo City after work, in my very weak, fever-ish condition. We caught 'The Heartbreaker Kid' which was to me, an OK movie. Just another typical-corny-american-love comedy, so yeh whatever. It was a good laugh in the beginning, but the fun dried down after a while. B & me spent most of our time just lazing around chatting and eating. And hello, yes my dear, it is a HUGE turn-off when your boyfriend is so kusyuk with his PSP on a date! Gah. Boys, that's lesson number one ok. It's best that you leave that PSP of yours at home for the day. Tak akan mati lah!

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I am still very much upset with that somebody. I hope that feeling will soon fade away. That hatred and so much hurt he has caused me. Let bygones be bygones... Gladly, I made the right decision to let him go and start making myself happy.

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I am very very happy now with my bulat one.

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:)

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And thanks a whole lot to my peeps - Indra, Fir & Nana for making me realise what's a genuine gold, and what's a celop one. Thanks to them, I made the right choice this time.

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Ok, this will appear corny, but whatever...

Abs & Dee - 1st of Dec 2007. hahahahahahahaha. Dee u are so lame.

I am sick again even after recovering from the fever, cough and flu just 2 days ago. Thanks ah rain for pouring onto me almost everyday eh. You already know I tak suka bawak umbrella you sengaja rain rain everyday. Haix.

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Nabey lah, 2 days after my bangs-haircut, somebody else in the studio COPIED me. Suchá copy-cat. She's the copy-cat version ah. Bingit sey. Screw you woman.

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BB, you better have more time for me lah setan, if not I am going to keluar with Fir again naik motor pakai skirt lagi. Then don't blame me after that. Hate your night job. PS: Im sorry Im the most unromantic girl ever. Get use to it eh since you've chosen to be with me. Kwang Kwang.

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Friday is here. Whee!!! Town tripping. Gaji masok!!!