Saturday, January 22, 2005
my drum idol: Akira Jimbothis man is just one highly talented man.
who can ever imagine the day,
when u can play all kinds of music,
lounge, jazz, rnb, pop
complete with melodies,
just with a pair of sticks and a drum set.
of course coupled with the aid new technology.
whereby, hitting a pad will produce different sounds.
u can even record ur own voice,
and hitting the pad will produce that voice of urs.
and can u imagine,
that this man is a self-taught drummer and musician.
he learnt everything by ear and watching how pple played.
awesome strokes, nimble feet.
i can never imagine myself playing fast bass beats using a double pedal.
let alone playing triplets.
and his limbs...
they seem to have a life of their own.
all his limbs play different rhythms,
and yet they sound very much together.
akira jimbo has just redefined what a drummer is.
a drummer isn't just one who provides the pulse of a band.
a drummer can also be a band on his/her own.
the 2 characteristics of a good drummer:
1. He/she has a good sense of timing.
2. He/she can bring out the sound of the drum.
and of course it helps when he looks cute,
and has a cute japanese accent,
with really funky hair,
and a great bod to go along with.
oh well,
but it's just a fantasy to be able to play like him.
how many talented people can there be on this world?
i think i'm more talented in shopping and watching movies.
okay, fine, there's no need for talent in shopping or watching movies.
but just wanted to state my point that i have many fantasies and dreams.
which i know can never be realised.
but it doesn't matter.
it doesn't harm anyone fantasising myself being able to perform like mr jimbo.
rocking the drum set and looking like i'm enjoying it like it's the best thing one can ever experience in the world.
back to reality.
oops.
still waiting at 10:31 pm
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Okay. I just typed 1 whole bloody long entry, and it's all gone.But I really gotta type all this down tonight,
'cos Im gonna change my life from today onwards.
I'm gonna start doing what I say,
and I'm gonna make sure that i finish whatever I plan to achieve.
It's gonna be a steep climb up the slope of being disciplined,
but I'm gonna try.
And the reason why I decided to start making a change is due to wat u read below.
I'm glad that I remained in AIESEC till now.
Though the elections started 2 hours late, and I wasted 2 whole hours waiting for the latecomers;
Though the elections were very draggy, and there were so many procedures that we had to follow;
(eg. Taking attendance before every vote)
Though it took 5 more hours before the elections finally ended;
It was not a wasted trip after all. :)
The speeches made were so sincere, touching, heartwarming, and just basically,
inspiring.
Most of the elects were recollecting how they felt 1 year ago,
that they wanted to quit AIESEC,
'cos they didn’t know what their existence in AIESEC meant.
And then their seniors came along,
and got them doing stuff.
That's when their passion for AIESEC began snowballing.
Till they've gained so much from AIESEC,
that they feel that they shld contribute back to AIESEC,
and hence they decided to run for the posts of MCP, MC or LCP.
The speech that really struck me hard, and got me thinking about my own life was Hui Fun's.
This sentence which she said really motivated me a lot:
"As long as you have confidence in yourself, if you believe in yourself, you can achieve anything."
Anything at all…
I know many people have said that before,
but I was never moved by it.
I guess it's the way she said it,
and how sincere she was when she said it,
which made me feel that I can achieve anything too.
If I believe in myself and set my mind to it, that is.
Up till now,
I've totally lost confidence in myself in my studies.
From sec 3 onwards.
I always felt that I could never make it.
That I will never be able to get good grades like the others,
no matter how much effort I put in.
it really doesn't help when pple around u aren't encouraging.
Especially pple close to you.
I seriously do not need to know who got better than me.
and I really do not need people to keep reminding me why I did badly.
once is enough. Thank you very much.
what I need is for people to encourage me.
and I really thank those friends who constantly reassured me that I can do better,
that I just need to be more focused.
I wonder why I never listened to the matriarch's and orange's constant reminders to get my priorities right.
Perhaps I was just too caught up with all the excitement of the things going around me.
and forgetting that the main purpose that I was in school was to graduate with a good certificate.
And it is only now, when I'm almost 2 decades old, that I finally see the light.
I’m slowly beginning to set my priorities right.
Yea, it may be easy for u…
But definitely not too easy for me,
when I've not been setting any priorities correctly for the past 4 years…
hence leading to my ill-disciplined behaviour,
which seriously needs to be corrected asap.
I should really stop slacking.
and make better use of my time…
I really don't dare to count how many hours I've wasted in the whole of last semester...
Used essential time for completing tutorials and readings on watching tv.
Watching senseless shows.
Yes, I even watched that really bo liao show starring lin yi ming on Fridays at 8pm.
It’s high time I shld stop all these nonsense.
Time-management is the keyword here.
All that nonsense has led to the results which I felt was rather unsatisfactory.
Upon seeing the results,
my mind was filled with many, "If only I..."
and then I was highly motivated for a while to strive to do better next sem.
But when holidays started,
I never really got down to concrete plans in planning how I'm gonna solve this major problem of mine,
which is the lack of self-discipline and lousy time-management.
Instead, it was back to the good ol' slacking days.
and so now,
I've decided.
I'm going to start to believe in myself more.
and not be put down by what others say.
I'm gonna try my best to make things work.
I'm gonna carry out what I say,
and not be a ATNO(all talk no action) person.
I know I sound like some brainwashed person now.
But nope, I don't think so.
I've just become a very much more motivated person.
Who's just striving to become a better person.
Btw, those of u who hvn't gone to see Botero's works, u should.
At the same time, u HAVE to go check out Russell Wong's photographs too.
Just one word to describe: amazing.
still waiting at 2:24 am
Saturday, January 15, 2005
INSPIRATION. MOTIVATION.F*CK.
MY ENTRY IS BLOOODY GOONE.
ASSHOLE CONNECTION.
still waiting at 8:24 pm
Thursday, January 13, 2005
textbooks: the elixir to insomniafell asleep once again, reading textbooks..
was attempting to start reading chapter 2 of mkting,
and i was feeling SO ENERGETIC before that.
(having had a bath, and 1 bowl of tasty chicken curry at 10pm)
but just 3 pages of it,
and i surrendered to my eyes and body.
the mkting text was really so sleep-inducing man.
the day before,
it was the notes on Arbitration which put me to sleep.
or perhaps.
studying on the bed is just a bad idea.
i really gotta buck up man...
and stop nua-ing my time away!
"ah hur hur hur hur... ok... right.. hur hur hur.."
- as quoted from the cute cybercrime lecturer
HAHAHAHA...
this man is majorly funny.
okay.
funny as in his laughter is funny..
i really don't get his jokes, because his jokes do not seem like jokes.
but his voice is not monotonous at all.
and it's amazing how he managed to catch my attention for 3 hours.
really amazing.
plus i was rather hungry and tired,
(the lecture was at 6pm and ended at 9pm)
so being able to make me attentive for 3 hours is really an amazing feat
and so we learnt abt trojan horses, hacking, cracking and i can't rem wat.
okay, and i gotta run for stats lect now.
still waiting at 10:55 am
Monday, January 03, 2005
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Travel with sis around supposedly dangerous China
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Haha.. don’t remember making any resolutions. But yep, I’m gonna make some concrete ones for ’05. :)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Neh.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
My cousin.
Travel with sis around supposedly dangerous China
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Haha.. don’t remember making any resolutions. But yep, I’m gonna make some concrete ones for ’05. :)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Neh.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
My cousin.
5. What countries did you visit?
China: Beijing, Shanghai, Shenzhen, Taiwan, Hong Kong
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Discipline. I’ve always lacked this since young anyway. Not only in 2004.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
hmm.. I’m lousy at remembering such details. No special event really that happened.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not doing a better job for the MINDS Christmas Party. I could have made it a much more fun and fulfilling one.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not doing a better job for the MINDS Christmas Party. I could have made it a much more fun and fulfilling one.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Got a serious abrasion on my right eye while working in McCafe, and it’s been hurting ever since whenever the air is dry.
Got a serious abrasion on my right eye while working in McCafe, and it’s been hurting ever since whenever the air is dry.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My Nokia 6230. bought with my mum’s money. :) hmm.. many happy memories stored in there.
My Nokia 6230. bought with my mum’s money. :) hmm.. many happy memories stored in there.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Hmm. A few pple actually. But not too nice to name them out. Oh well. But such people exist everywhere anyway.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Hmm. A few pple actually. But not too nice to name them out. Oh well. But such people exist everywhere anyway.
14. Where did most of your money go?
FOOD for sure!
FOOD for sure!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Being a freshie in university!
But it really wasn’t as exciting as I expected it to be.
Being a freshie in university!
But it really wasn’t as exciting as I expected it to be.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
my boo!
my boo!
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder: for sure happier.
Happier or sadder: for sure happier.
Thinner or fatter: unfortunately fatter cos I eat more when I’m happier.
Richer or poorer: richer from working of course.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Studying and reading books to enhance my soul.
Studying and reading books to enhance my soul.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Slacking my time away in front of the black box.
Slacking my time away in front of the black box.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I’ve already spent Christmas ’04. went to watch na and lai perform in their CO, and ate super over-priced duck rice at Boat Quay.
I’ve already spent Christmas ’04. went to watch na and lai perform in their CO, and ate super over-priced duck rice at Boat Quay.
21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Yea, I fell in love with the
Yea, I fell in love with the
colour green and purple.. but more so green. ;)
22. How many one-night stands?
I’m not a horny slut.
I’m not a horny slut.
23. What was your favorite TV programme? New one?
Hmm… Happy Fish? New one would definitely be ‘The Family Guy’!
Hmm… Happy Fish? New one would definitely be ‘The Family Guy’!
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yep. Definitely. Still hate that person, but with not so much intensity.
Yep. Definitely. Still hate that person, but with not so much intensity.
25. What was the best book you read?
The curious dog of the night time incident. Very interesting. Had a peek into the world of autistic kids. Different perspective in things.Wanted to smack this guy who said damn loudly in Kino Bugis to his friend that this book is DAMN BORING, and it’s the worst book he has ever read in his life.
The curious dog of the night time incident. Very interesting. Had a peek into the world of autistic kids. Different perspective in things.Wanted to smack this guy who said damn loudly in Kino Bugis to his friend that this book is DAMN BORING, and it’s the worst book he has ever read in his life.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Lounge music!
Lounge music!
27. What did you want and get?
My kinda clothes. Love that pair of jeans with the patch of flowers.
My kinda clothes. Love that pair of jeans with the patch of flowers.
28. What did you want and not get?
My driving license.
My driving license.
29. What was your favorite film(s) of this year?
Really don’t know actually. But I thought Les Choristes was good. And so was harry potter. :) loved the effects.
Really don’t know actually. But I thought Les Choristes was good. And so was harry potter. :) loved the effects.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Usual Lem Mondays. Econs class in the morning with my good friends and my fav tutor. Programming tutorial and lecture in the afternn after FNA lecture. Then it was time to take photos for my MNO grp video. And back home for some cake. One of the most uneventful birthdays ever. But no procrastinations at all.
Usual Lem Mondays. Econs class in the morning with my good friends and my fav tutor. Programming tutorial and lecture in the afternn after FNA lecture. Then it was time to take photos for my MNO grp video. And back home for some cake. One of the most uneventful birthdays ever. But no procrastinations at all.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Getting attached. Ha. Nah! Hmm, getting my driving license.
Getting attached. Ha. Nah! Hmm, getting my driving license.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Haha. Interesting. Loads of green/purple tees, with funny jeans.
Haha. Interesting. Loads of green/purple tees, with funny jeans.
33. What kept you sane?
People. Definitely orange. Ee Iyn, Na, Lai, Grace, Lem.
People. Definitely orange. Ee Iyn, Na, Lai, Grace, Lem.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Ooh… sly of cos! Haha. But I’m over him.
Ooh… sly of cos! Haha. But I’m over him.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
That war with iraq.
That war with iraq.
36. Who did you miss?
Lots. my juniors and seniors in crez and nj. my classmates in crez.
Lots. my juniors and seniors in crez and nj. my classmates in crez.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
No best new person. 2 best new persons.
No best new person. 2 best new persons.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Loads of opportunities are out there, waiting to be discovered by you. It is up to you to look for them, and find that few which appeals to u the most. Life is really too short.
still waiting at 10:10 pm
my new year starts in August 2005feels so funny to be starting a new year without having to wake up early to go to school.
for the past 13 years of my life, i ALWAYS anticipated starting school so much!
'cos it meant either meeting new friends, or hving new teachers, and learning new stuff!
oh! and not forgetting using new uniforms, new school bag, new pencil case, new books etc.
i love all things new!
well maybe most things and not all...
shopping for stuff for the new school term has always been one of the highlights of my life as a student.
trying on the new white school shoes,
smelling the new books,
using the new lunchboxes and waterbottles.
it's a fresh start to a good 'ol year!
who doesn't want to start the new year with a fresh beginning?
looking in retrospect,
year 2004 has been a very very eventful year for me.
many 'First Times' were done in 2004.
First Time earning 'real' money(i.e. teaching in crez, working in McCafe, tuition)
First Time not wearing school uniform to school(duh. it's uni.)
First Time meeting so many foreigners of my age in one single place in my life.(i.e. in AIESEC NUS)
First Time being away from home for almost a month and w/o parents (Backpack in China)
First Time being able to choose what i really want to study
First Time losing someone quite close to me and regretting not saying a last goodbye to her.
First Time spending the holidays w/o hving to fear that i hvn't completed this particular holiday homework, or that i have band prac or meetings to attend.
First Time studying the same stuff with people who are 3, 4 years older than me.
(just feels weird that they are somehow more wisely in everything than me, not that i'm very wisely to begin with)
First Time baking my own cookies at Mad's house with lem and de. hmM! :D
perhaps there are many more first times,
but i can't remember them offhand now.
but these are memories which (i hope) will remain with me.
and of course not forgetting the new friendships i've made,
and old friendships made stronger.
much thankfulness to na, lai and lem(the new friends) for keeping me sane in crazy BizAd.
lem and ur weird and crazy antics.
hahaha. gosh.
u really make going to school less of a chore.
lem mondays are days i really looked forward to... :D
na and lai for being there for me.
i know u guys will not read this,
but i'm really so grateful to have met u 2.
never thought that i would have been able to make good friends in uni.
and i hope u 2 will be the exception.
haha...
u 2 always entertained me by replying to my silly sms-es.
those long phone chats and late night MSN chats we had,
trying to get to understand each other better.
all the 'Yati.....! Yati.....!'
yes, i do respond to this other name now.
and of course not forgetting gracie wacie who introduced me to the world of lindy and acapella.
thru which my love for swing sunk deeper.
and to quite a no. of her friends.
it's kudos to her that i was able to fit in properly in BizAd. :)
thanks for all that too!
this is dumb.
why am i making a thank you speech?
anyway,
i think the world is going to end.
yes it is.
just like how some of my Christian friends said before.
this is it.
slowly... slowly.
disasters creep into our lives.
oh no.
they do not creep in.
they pounce on us and give us a shock of our lives.
leaving no time for us to react,
and just ravaging through the Earth.
allowing no mercy to anyone.
soon...
we'll just be waiting for that disaster to strike us.
maybe we'll get struck by a huge lightning.
the power supply will be cut off.
or just maybe,
some terrorist group discovers some innovative way of attacking us.
i don't know.
still waiting at 11:50 am