Vision

 Asenath cracks me up. I love this little soul of mine. She's so stink en cute! I kiss her so much each day because she's so adorable. It's extremely hard to ever get upset with this one.





It's amazing how experiences can help you discover your desires. For me I was just embracing the moment with my keiki's for Mark on the other hand he was thinking of ways how we can move and live in Hawaii. He noticed how happy all his girls were because we love the beach so much. Like I said we'll see. You just never know with us;)

We are living in New Jersey in a predominantly Puerto Rican town. Mark sticks out like a sore thumb and we absolutely LOVE it! I go to the grocery store and everyone speaks Spanish. Everyone talks to me in Spanish confident that I would respond back to them in Spanish, instead I give them this blank look saying "no hablo espanol". I'm to chicken and not humble enough to try out my Spanish with the people here. I'm afraid that they'll think I have some type of learning disability. For Mark it's the opposite, he'll start speaking Spanish and the Latins look at him with a blank stare, wondering why this gringo speaks Spanish. Yah we get a kick out of it. We love our little ward. Never been in a  Relief Society that averages 5 people in attendance a week. Mark and I just got new callings that we are both excited about. I feel that God is really transforming my heart into the one that I've always wanted but never had the courage or humility to try. It's been a process and will forever be with me. I'm learning a lot about myself, my desires, passions, my dreams etc... I still have yet to find a midwife, pediatrician etc... all the things that you do when you move to a new place. I finally got my NJ drivers license and registered to vote so it's official I'm a Jersey girl. I'm 6 1/2 months pregnant but look like I'm 8 months pregnant. Pregnancy hormones for me are ridiculously CRAZY! I'm always overly sensitive, insecure and ferociously hungry. My babies come out healthy because mama keeps them well stocked up through each trimester. My latest cravings have been foods that I never really liked before when I was pregnant with the others, like eggs and garlic. I love eggs and garlic. I put 8 cloves of fresh garlic in my eggs and vegetables the other day. Didn't even dice the suckers, just sliced it once and threw it in the pan. I love bananas! I go through about 5 bunches in one week and as well as a jar of peanut butter each week. This little guy inside me has turned me into a protein queen. We also go through about 4 half gallons of soy milk a week. I'm hoping my taste buds will change shortly especially with the garlic thing, poor Mark. Over all things are going pretty well for us. Mark just finished his 5 week training in NY, so I won't be a single mom anymore. Hip Hip Hooray! He'll sign his contract with a high school in about 2 weeks. I registered the girls for school, and we are on a waiting list. I sure hope it works out for them, because that would be sooooooooooo awesome! They have free dual immersion preschool out here and both Eve and Esther meet the age requirements. Asenath will be able to go next year, which will leave me one on one time with my little baby boy. I'm excited to start all over again. A new chapter in our life. These next few months will be a little crazy but there will be peace after the storm. In 2 weeks I will just have 2 more classes to complete and I will have earned my master's degree. I'm so excited! I'm long overdue. I dropped out of grad school twice and decided this time around that I HAVE to finish. I really want my kids to know that education in our family is a must. I'm still debating on starting my doctorates next fall. Only time will tell. I'm just going to take one day at a time and embrace the present.