We talked a lot yesterday .... Thanks to U... Being the chatterbox.... Never have i seen U talking non-stop like yesterday...

After dinner, as we walked hand in hand towards the carpark, U make me feel as though I am walking on a bed of roses filled with pure love... Thank u baby ....

Soon in a few days time, marks our 5th month of engagement... Alhamdulillah ... till date, we have been the same since the day our love starts to bloom .... Thank u for being such an understanding fiancee... my sexy love.. my huggable buCok... saya sayang awak sangat sangat .... :

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On another hand, I m listening to my loved ones, listening to others and most importantly listening to myself... I am angry and upset... but how long am I gonna be angry? Yes, I admit at times, I am frustrated with myself being like this... I blew up when I let the emotions overruled my mind...

And I wouldn't wanna be at the losing end when i lose a friendship that was built way too long... I think its time for a change in me.. a change to the OLD me... thats not a promise but I will try ... trust me.. I will.. but it takes time...

There were things that were misunderstood, we will talk it over any sooner because I might be at fault too... Deep inside, I still treasure the friendship... I still treasure U ... Because U have seen me grew up ... U have seen me cried along my journey of love... U have been so nice to me.... And so ... how could I be such an idiot to treat u this far....

And when i wrote this entry ... my eyes filled with tears... Till the day comes... I hope we can talked a lot more.. because I do miss the moment when we were so close...

Till then ... work awaits for me...

Always remember, Allah grant us the serenity to accept the things that we cannot change, the strength to change the things that we can and the wisdom to know the difference.

Just when you think, things can't get any worse, they do. You've gotta learned that life is like an hour glass sand. Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom, but all you have to do is be patient and wait for something to turn everything back around. Trust us (Shida Ryan), things will be ok .... ;)

Take this as a learning experience, that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.

For 1 good thing, do remember, don let those morons... overrule your mind. I say, they wanna play this game, ok bring it on .. coz 1 thing for sure, only pple who hv realise and admit their mistake will be the one leading this game and not those LOSER out there....

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fail in order to know, Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

If he/she wanna bitch abt u behind your back, let them be.. coz pple can nv stop bitching ... When they r tired, they will keep quiet and the best thing of all ..those morons will feel left out... or should i say guilty for instance, if they don have the feeling of that, then they are not human afterall.

If he/she wanna be the "HOT STUFF", who lurrrvesss pple to talk abt them, let them be..treat them as 1 attention seeker or pple who lack of LOVE... ...

Last but not least, Siapa makan Cili dia terasa Pedas, tepok dada tanya selera, sendiri mau ingat...

Atau masih tk faham jugak .... either u read between the lines... or u read between the fingers... u choose.... LOL~

Kasihan Delo!!!!

Its sad to know and heard there are some girls out there, still using their assets or beauty to make guys go "goo goo ga ga" over them .... kesian nie mcm peh orang ....

Do think of the other party feelings for goodness sake... yes you are pretty... ur one hot stuff .. but still... bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi.. nie semua anugerah dariNYA.... tanpa anugerahNYA... tiadalah KAMU kelihatan sebegitu rupa.... isk isk ...

Yang lelaki plak satu hal ... mcm dah takder pompuan lain kat dunia ni.. yg dah berpunya.... dia nak .. yg single tk nk plak dia layan ... nie apa citer nie?

But in that scenario... i truly believe... guys are not to be blame.. coz its the main attraction has to be responsible for all the unhappiness that occurs... and i.e the GIRL... come on girl... wake UP!..Leading the other party on.. thats not the way baby.... just to keep urself occupied... ..

Don do this... coz... at the end of the day, those guys that were after you are not at the losing end.. but U baby .. U ... U will be the one facing the public... where all of them knew the whole story . and there it goes.. your moral went down ... went deep down ... as a result you will be the one filled with embarassment to face them .. to face those guys.. to face your friends...

Kesian kan ... muka lawa.. tapi perangai ... OMG!

Our new addiction..... :)

Treasure d friendship... it is indeed beautiful...
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Had a long talk with U... U decided to continue the study to the next level to upgrade yourself... that is to Diploma level..... Insya Allah with patience and perseverance, U can do it... 3 yrs is not long... Without U realizing it, 3 yrs gone... and i can see in 3 yrs time, there u are holding the diploma cert in your hands... :)...

U have my support... no worries...

BUT... i hope u have the time.. for THE planning.... THE resting hours... THE working hours....

and I love u ..