Sunday, November 30, 2008

Will I Ever Catch Up?

Just a note to say I am still here. Well sort of. We are actually in Arizona. I brought my laptop to catch up on some things but I don't have access to wireless Internet and I am too lazy to hook up. Therefore, no pictures. But I will post again later.

We had dad's funeral last Monday, on Doran's birthday. Doran got to conduct the funeral for his birthday. It was a wonderful service. I will miss dad and I am having a weepy day today. I am so glad that Doran got home the Saturday before. It was a rough week. I am glad that I have my brother. He is wonderful! My kids and mom and Stan were a great help too. Thank you so much!!

We then left Wednesday for northern Arizona for Thanksgiving. Our plan was to leave on Sunday for the valley to visit Lisa and her family, Cortney and Doran's cousin Shelley. She is on my blog. She has been fighting cancer. After we arrived in AZ, Shelley's family called and said that she has passed away. Our prayers are with her family at this time. Today, Sunday, after church we came down to the valley. Phoenix/Mesa. We will be able to attend Shelley's funeral but wish we could have talked to her before.

Can I just tell you.....I BROUGHT THE WRONG CLOTHES!!! I had the right clothes for northern AZ, but not down here.

I got on to start reading my buddies blogs but I feel so overwhelmed. I don't know where to begin. I don't think I CAN catch up. And I don't know how often I can get online while I am down here. Know that I miss you all and hope you are doing well.

Again let me tell you how thankful I am for all the kind words that you wrote, either by e-mail or as comments. They really did help!!

Audrey, I went running yesterday morning. I missed you! 3.66 miles. Can I walk today?......No. I guess the starting over has begun. ARGG!!!!

I'll be back............

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Overwhelming Gratitude!!

I am overwhelmed by the love and support that I have received from my bloggy buddies and those bloggies I don't even know. And I thank ALL of you from the bottom of my heart. Never gone through this before makes me realize how important your words really mean!!

I thought I would give you a short note to tell you about my dad. Mainly so my children can read this and that I can remember what happened. There is so much more than I am going to write. My dad has been suffering from strokes the past couple of years. These last few months have been rough. He has been fine enough to be at home. A week ago they decided to bring Hospice in. The day Chelsea had her baby, Doran and I stopped to visit him. He was doing good and sitting in his recliner. We showed him pictures and he was thrilled. He LOVES children. I talked to him on the phone after that. The next time I stopped by was last Thursday. He was in bed, still doing pretty good. He was talking and I showed him more pictures that I had taken.

Late Friday night his wife called me and said he was not doing very good. I called my brother that night and told him I was going to go out in the morning. Saturday morning at 7:30 they called again so I called my brother and got ready and headed out. By this time he was not very responsive. He wouldn't open his eyes much and he couldn't talk. BUT when I hugged him and told him I would be back in a couple of hours and told him I loved him, he said, "I love you honey". He always told me that or "I love you hita". I will forever cherish THAT MOMENT!!
As I sit here and sob on my computer, I am so grateful that we were there. And I am so grateful that Doran and my brother, Jon, was there. Chelsea and her family was there. Dad held the baby AND he hugged her. He knew he was holding her. After meeting Jon's family, we ALL went back for a few more hours. The next day Doran was to fly out to Florida for work for a week. We had a tough struggle with that. He could stay home but we decided that he should go ahead and go because we didn't know how long dad would be like this. So Sunday morning he flew out.

Sunday we ALL went out again, minus Doran. They moved him to his own bed instead of the hospice bed. Jon shaved him and we got him in some clean clothes so he would be comfy. He responded even less that day, but Jon helped him sit up at one time and dad let Jon just hold him and he even opened his eyes for a long time.

Jon and his family went back home because the kids has school the next day. Jon was going to get some work done in the morning and come back down. (He lives 1.5 hours away). Paulene called last Sunday night and said since we left he has been so comfortable and sleeping peacefully. So I called Jon and told him and was able to go to sleep.

At 2:48 the phone rang. It was Paulene saying she didn't know if he was still alive. She had called Hospice and they were on their way out. I called Jon, got up and headed out there (Dad lives about 15 minutes out). Camri was just coming in the door from work and she went out with me. Right after I got there Hospice came, but before that Paulene's daughter-in-law got there. She is a nurse. She told us that he was gone.
I can't believe it. These last few days have turned into one blurr. My heart hurts, my head and eyes hurt. And I miss Doran. He would probably have to be out to work anyway. I can't seem to get past my eyes leaking to get ready for work. I still haven't made it and it is 1:00 pm.

We have most of the arrangements made but I need to find some songs. Maybe more later. But thanks again for your support. I will SO MISS HIS SENSE OF HUMOR AND LOVE. He is a wonderful dad!!!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Get Your Own Dinner

Doran's mom sent THIS to me. Ya think she was trying to tell me to bring my own turkey for Thanksgiving dinner? I better get huntin'...... Maybe you ought to also!!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Our New Arrival

Ok. Ok. Our family has been ready to drag me through the mud waiting patiently. Here are the pictures I have so far of our cute little bundle. They are uncut or edited.

(Molly) Brielle Dawn was born at 1:00 pm Wednesday. We picked up Bananie from school at 1:30 and headed to the hospital. Here she is one hour old.
She hasn't had a bath yet but here is witness that she has lots of dark hair.
Proud sister!!! She was so excited when mom and dad called to tell her she has a baby sister now.
This picture reminds me of my 3 little girls. Sniff
Say cheese.
What cute big sisters.
AHH
Momma did a great job. I love you Chels!!!!
Proud grandparents!!!
Ohhhh. I can snuggle and huggle and eat her up!!
She is so cute and teensie.
Proud grandpa.
Mom and the big sisters
It's all about GIRLS!!!
What a cute family!!
Bananie bought this bear for mommy and the baby.
I feel so proud and giddy.
Long day?
Don't ya just want to eat her up?
Welcome home...
OH HOW CUTE!!!!!
Squish, squish, love, love, kiss, kiss
As soon as Molly started to cry, Cookie gave her to mom right away.
And to think she just came from Heavenly Father's house. Everytime she smiles you know she is talking to angels. I better get off the computer and get right over there. I know she wants me to hold her.6 lbs 11 oz - 18.5" long
What an angel!!!!
AND SHE LOVES ME!!!!

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