Blog de Donovan Tan

Will have my surgery done tomorrow. I've been out of action for 7months now and I will probably have to wait another 7 months,probably longer before I can play football again.

What's the big deal ? you might ask. Well, let's just say football is not just a favorite sport any more. Its part of life now. In the morning I turn the newspaper over to start reading from the back page. I visit websites to check on the latest news in the Premier League. I talk about football with friends. I watch highlights of previous games. Weekend without watching football don't feel like a weekend. So yes, it is a BIG DEAL.

To make matters worst, I've been playing for 10years now since 2002 and suddenly it all ended (temporarily) in a flash.

Tomorrow's surgery is the first step to my return to football. The whole process will start off painfully as I will struggle to even walk without support, then slowly I will build the leg muscles needed for normal activity, and subsequently light sports, then high-demand sports.

I'll have to suffer, but it has to be done.

I knew what was going on at home. I can see him pretending, trying to act like everything is all right. She was more straight forward with me and told me everything. I knew I had to do my best, secure the loan and graduate on time. But their words never really got into me. Until this one time, he admitted and said all this investment on me is costing him a lot.

This time it really hit home. This time it had an emotional impact on me.

Suddenly I looked at myself and I realized that I was being very selfish, so concerned about my own interest that I ignored theirs. I was not willing to work hard, thinking that I have some kind of advantage over other people. An advantage that can be substituted for hard work. I was wrong, very wrong.

Now that I realized my mistakes I had to make it up to them. I.Must.Change.

Some of my juniors are so concerned about making sure their 'opponents' don't catch up. They are so concerned about being the number 1. Question is, is it necessary?

come on ! even if you are the champion in this faculty or university you still have to face competition from outside. what's the point I ask? why can't we just create a win-win situation ? help each other out. duh !
Today's society may be very competitive but other people's scores don't really affect yours in exam. Besides, you have little to no control of how other people do so why bother about it ?