So at work today (i work at a hospital) there was a newborn baby at the nurses station. I decided right there and then that I wanted to have a third. Not any time soon 2-3 years to be exact but I just love that feeling of being in the hospital with your new baby.
But then I got home to my two sweet, adorable children to find them grumpy, bratty, and downright annoying! I suddenly became very torn as to if I even wanted the two children I already have let alone having another new one to annoy me.
I'm having a hard time thinking that this is all I'm supposed to do with my life...being a mom. I'm starting to enjoy my independence (working, not nursing, leaving the kids with whomever whenever (not really). Do I really want to add another to the mix and start all over again?
ANd sometimes I just feel like a really bad mom. Like I don't know what i'm doing. Why is being a parent so rewarding yet so stressful?
