Something struck my mind earlier on. The pain of not knowing the reasons or answers to it has been gnawing my brains from the inside out. The killing curiosity, I guess.

Who else can I share this... This experience? Usually most would brush it off, like it is just pure coincidental it happened. Or, just a lucky guess.

It is not coincidence. It is not just-a-lucky-guess. I knew it. The feeling, the sense - was being pressed into me. I know.

So, here goes.

T'was back in 2006 or 2007 when this first feeling or sense occurred. I was just about getting off from my part time retail job to head back home. Once I stepped out of the boutique store, the pressing feeling / sense kept hammering into me. The feeling of my ex-boyfriend is doing or did something. The feeling of his presence.

Mind you. I was already over him and all. There was not any contact or whatever. The feeling just struck me like a lightning bolt would strike the tallest tree.

It was then, I got paranoid.

Throughout the journey, I kept looking around my surroundings. Through the subway, through the pathways, everywhere. That feeling or sense just would not go away. I was deeply disturbed.

Once I reached the footstep of my house, something protruded out from the gate.

It was a small key-chain, covered in plastic. The key-chain had my name hand written on it. At that moment, I knew who exactly left it there. After that instant realization, that pressing feeling / sense just wore off. It went as quickly as it came. I felt relaxed due to the fact that there was not anything pulling me down.

After that, I kind of forgotten what happened after that. I think I asked him and he said it was he who left it there, blablabla.

So there! That was my very first incident. Hmm, what do you think?

Want to read on to my second incident?

T'was in 2009 or 2010 when it was my last year in my polytechnic. We were asked to proceed to a lecture hall to listen to talk by some game production company which I have no interests in at all. So, after the talk was done, they announced that they are having a lucky draw. All we had to do was to fill up a form with our details to join their mailing list or something and the lucky one will win a pair of movie voucher.

HAHA!

At that instant, my heart beat increased. Not because I was excited about the pair of movie vouchers, but it was that pressing feeling / sense that I KNOW I WOULD WIN THAT VOUCHERS. That vouchers were meant for me to win!

So, I went to get the damn form and filled it up. Blablabla.

All the forms were then passed to the speaker and he picked out a form. I could not look at him. I kept facing my phone, because I knew he would say my name. I knew everyone will look at me. I have to keep my head low. I am a shy person like that. Haha.

"Ehh Ehh.. Lee Za.. Koh"

I rolled my eyes. Is my name so difficult to pronounce? Sheesh!

So my classmates reacted in an extremely exaggerated manner by screaming and nudging me. (Yes, I have awesome classmates. Haha.)

I was elated! Not that I have won that movie vouchers, but because I know my feeling  / sense was superbly accurate! After that, my heart beat slowed down. That same pressing feeling / sense *poof* gone.

It was like, once the situation or moment has been accomplished, it was time the feeling / sense will go away. As though its tasks was achieved, so off the sense will go.

Weird?

I am uncertain. So, up till now - 2012, the pressing feeling / sense have not visited me since. I counted, it occurred three years from my first to second incident. I predict, it will be either this year or next year I might have that feeling.

Anytime from now, baby!