Sometimes, we just struggle to find the right words to describe our feelings but i guess this song is meaningful in a way. Just wanna shoutout to the guyz Duncan and Co. for introducingz this song, had a good time with u guyz!

Our love has changed,
It’s not the same,
And the only way to say it
Is say it
It’s better.

I can’t concede,
This way I feel,
For all the time we spent, together,
Forever
Just gets better.

See what I’m trying to say is
You make things
better
And no matter what the day is,
With you here
it’s better.

I’ll stand by you,
If you stand by me.
I think time that I, reveal it,
‘Cos I believe it
It’s better.

See what I’m trying to say is:
You make things - better
And no matter what the day is,
With you here - it’s better.

Ooooh the more
I talk to you
The more in love with
Every thing you do

Doo doo doo doo doo doo

See what I’m trying to say is
You make things
better
And no matter what the day is,
With you here
it’s better.

Our love has changed
It’s not the same
And the only way to say it
Is say it
It’s better

So many changes around for me lately. I've gone through the best and the very worst at
the same time. While the best will always be my pocket of sunshine but the worst has
affected me as well.

Let me just put it this way, people problem are hard to solve. Machine problems are easier
to solve or at least you have a rather definite solution to it. Sounds like an
engineer kinda statement eh? considering i'm not an engineer but i still keep that in mind.

Conflicts.... i just don't know how to solve 'em and i don't think there is a solution to it.
It made me realize that relationship at workplace is pretty important too or maybe it's just
because that we were closer before this till shit happenned.

At some point, i feel that i am partially to blame too. I could have handled things better but i just
did not think of it at that very moment. There were chance that i should have made things
clearer but i did not. Anyway it's too late......

It has been a very difficult week for me, truly a rollercoaster ride. I've experienced joy and sorrow virtually at the same time. There is totally no word to describe my current condition. But thanks to this weekend i had a bit of breathing space and came to my sanity.

I've also smell the air filt with betrayal. There will be time where i rise from the dark and beat the hell out of this mother fuckers. Fortunately, thank god that i still have the 'insider' to be my eyes.

While there are problems that can't be solved at the moment. The more i think of it the more complicated it gets. Nevertheless, i believe that time will fix everything. Time is all i have....

*Awaiting for divine intervention*

Cheerz
EJ

Week by week it feels as if my schedules are getting more and more packed. Worst of all, it's eating into my sleeping time. I still remember the time when i just started working, my Zzz time was like between 10-11pm. At the moment it's like between 12-1pm or worst still later. Anyway, the most important thing is i'm satisfied with life at the moment.

Every tues i have my personal Karate committment. I've seldom skipped my training unless there is a damn good reason to do so. Even if Jessica Alba were to ask me out for a date on tues, i would still attend my training but i would date her after the training ;).



Weds is a rest day for me. I've been religiously watching The Contender Asia for past few weeks and now that it has finally ended last Wed, gotta find something else to turn to. :)

Thursdays are always a rush for me as i have my kickboxing training in Hartamas. Most of the time i enjoyed my training as it helps a lot in improving my stamina and also helps to tone my body more but i'm still not sure how long more i will continue the class.



Fridays are always reserved for special events ;)

In fact, yest i went to Pavillion to tried out the FIsh Spa. I'm not sure how effective it is, but the fish are suppose to feed on the dead cells on your skin and this allows new cells to regenerate and you'll get new, fresh and delicate skin like mine ;)



The fish are called Garra Rufa fishes are pretty aggressive if you ask me cuz the very moment i put my foot into the water, it's like a swarm of bees started chewing my foot. Worst of all, if your foot does not have much fat but more veiny like mine, i think the tickling sensation is pretty strong.



It took me a few mins to make my self comfy as i kept moving my foot especially when there's a bigger fish dropped by and started chewing my foot cuz the bigger the fish, the feeling is stronger.



But i have to admit that, it's quite fun and relaxing once you take your mind off the fishes. From what i observed, guys seems to attract more fishes that girls. I guess too much pad-kicking forms causes too many dead cells which is why the fished that accumulate at my food is damn a lot!!!

Btw The pic above are not pics taken by me but i sort of copied from other blog cuz i'm just darn lazy to copy mine. But i can tell you that the fishes accumulate at my foot easily double that cuz i dipped till just before the knee. :)

That's all from me guyz... enjoy ur weekend =)

ChheeeRz
EJ

It'z been a while but here i am again. I felt inspired yesterday after having the privelliage to listen to our MD, Dato' Seri Idris Jala present for our route meeting and spoke a few words. I'm not too sure how is it in other companies but he's influence was quite amazing that almost all the staff has high regards for him. The believe that he instills in everybody in the company is amazing. Everybody from the bottom level right to the top are eager to hear he's views. I was the lucky few ones that had the opportunity to meet him and this just after few months working here and it'z great!

What was evident that he is very positive and that is something that i really like. Something that i am making sure too. I believe that we should always exert a positive vibe at all times and at the same time eliminate all negative vibe. It'z always important to attract all the positive things in life =)

Lately, haven't had much time to update my blog. Updating my blog in the weekdays is almost out of the question. Weekends are more for leisure which means that i should stay away from PCs and just chill. Fortunately, this week i am allocating a bit of time to store a small part of my life online. Work as usual is a never ending process and i'm startin to feel the pressure at work, not because of work but something else.

A few weeks ago had the privelliage to attend a grooming course and it was kinda fun and informative to be learning so much things to enhance ourselves. The only thing was i think that it has made me a little more aware of things to lookout when dressing and therefore more self-conscious.

During the workshop we were literally being accessed, the guys were more harsh when we had to stand in front individually and the trainer will judge from head to toe. At the same time, you have all the colleagues looking at you and you know at that very moment people are judging you. Well, actually it wasn't as bad as it sound cause' we're all pretty close to each other and we joke about everybody so in a way it was entertaining.

Some of the new things that i've learn is to know the difference between formal, semi-formal , smart casual and casual. For men's if you're wearing a long sleeve shirt with tie and tailored-pants, guess what? Your only categorized as SMART CASUAL. Well, you don't wanna know what is semi-formal and formal means. I wouldn't want to elaborate about the ladies dressing as it's far more complicated. One thing about ladies is that they are encourage to make-up to give a professional image and i do believe that should be the case at least a thin layer would be fine. :)

After the course i have decided to stick to some of the lessons that i have learned and i have to resist the temptation to roll up my sleeves and loosen my tie or going tie-less. That really sucks, but i really do need to get used to it. The worst part is i don't have much tie to choose from and i'm looking at those that will cost me about RM70-80bucks each and i need some time to accumulate a number of ties.

Alrighty, enough about me, just wanna wish my bro and sis congratz for winning RM30K lately.



Also, few days ago, sis just got to know that she is pregnant again. What a great month for her.


Till my next update, adioz

EJ

Hectic month it is, barely had time to update my blog. Normally, i have a lot of things to write, but that is when i don't have internet access but when i do, the inspiration is just hard to come. If only i have a high-tech gadget that can enable me to blog directly whatever crap comes to mind, then i'm sure i can update my blog pretty often.

Just a brief recap of February. Chinese New Year was a bit different this year becaouse of two things.

1. For the first time in in my life, there was no reunion dinner. As long as remember, the reunion dinner was always at my mom's eldest brother's place, but this year, they've decided not any more. It was the elderly's decision and not much that i can say. Rushed back during the new year's even and was shocked to found out about that.

2. My 2nd sister just got married last year, so this is her first CNY and we Chinese have a rule that they, the wife has to be at the husband's place for eve of CNY. Frankly speaking, I don't quite like this rule cause my reunion dinner are only left with 3 person, me, my mom and dad. Ok, i know i'm suppose to bring back one right but i don't thing is gonna happen anytime soon. So don't bother saying it.

To sum it all, New Year for me was plain Jane. The following Tuesday, started work and there goes the New Year mood and back to work. Many of my colleagues were still on holiday. It wasn't till on the 14th day of CNY, a day before 'Chap Goh Meh' where our dept was hosting the CNY celebrations and it's a treat from all the Chinese for the non-Chinese.

It was actually quite fun to help organize and help around to decorate the hall as well, cause i feel that this is the time to be able to get to know new people. We had to organize several meetings to plan, to estimate the budget and divide task. The funny thing thing for sure is there is no fix language, it's all rojak, English, Mandarin, Cantonese and Hokkien. When i first joined, i was quite surprised that there's quite a number of Chinese who can speak Hokkien and it's those Penang Hokkien. A small part of it makes me feel at home, lolz. Even my manager every once in a while likes to use Hokkien and she speaks English well too, maybe cause it helps to ease communication and it doesn't sound so serious or rather formal.

I think this celebration brings up my mood even more than the first few days of CNY, partly cause all the Chinese need to dress up in traditional style. I shall upload our pics when i have it and if i deemed it suitable for viewing and with me not in a compromising position. There were lots of Chinese food including the delicacy; Yee Sang, Chinese songs etc. This is my first time celebrating CNY with colleagues in the company and it was quite fun.

The following week, i was given a new responsibility, i can already feel the weight even though it has yet to be placed on my shoulders. Regardless of what, i relish it and i'm glad that things are moving so fast for me that it feels like i'm high on adreanaline. With the MATF fair around the corner, i knew that i had to get things right and up to now i'm pretty satisfied with the summary.

As for now, glad that February is coming to an end, as my budget is being stretched here and there and thank god salary is already in, lolz.


Cheerioz,
EJ

It's been a while since the last time i had such nail-biting match. I'm referring to the Carling Cup Final, Chelsea Vs Tottenham. The game started well for Spurs as the control the game and Chelsea were pinned back to their own half for over 20mins. Even though we controlled the game, which in fact i think we controlled it too well at the start and it somehow does not feel good cause sometimes possesion football can back-fire.

The moment Chelsea were given a freekick, my whole body felt uneasy and i somehow knew that something bad was gonna happen. I was damn relieved that Drogba and Lampard fired wide for the first two freekick. Unfortunately, the capitalized on the 3rd freekick and we only have ourselves to blame for giving them 3 chance to shoot from such a damn promising position and having a goalkeeper that loves to watch the balls flew past into the net.



2nd half i wasn't expecting much though i was hoping for so much, at the back of my head i was a bit pessimistic that Chelsea might be able to see it through to the final whistle but it wasn't until Wayne Bridge 'handed' us a lifeline, yes literally.



Dimitar Berbatov, one of the most complete striker that you ever find at the moment. He was the coolest man on the pitch and even our regular penalty taker, Robbie Keane had to step aside to let THE MAN take the spot kick and of course, he cooly converted it, sending Petr Cech the wrong way...awww sucha 'b e a u t'.




After the equalizer, my faith for Spurs to go on and win it, renewed and with a slice of luck, Woodgate plays a one-two off Petr Cech and it's a goaallllllllllllllll!!!!!




*Singing* " We're are the champion, my friends and we'll keep on fighting till the end... we are the champions!! we are the champions, no time for loseers! cause we are the champions of "Carling Cup". I know the last two words doesnt really rhymes but it's alright. ;)





Oops, this is nothing related but while we're busy celebrating, our fellow rivals had an incident,a player with broken foot in the form of Eduardo... what a pity.


The only thing for me that was lacking was the company of my dad but for sure in Malaysia you will hear one die hard Spurs supporter shouting in KL and another one in Penang. At least, we still had a good chat about it over the phone.


p/s Fellow rivals, watch out for EPL next season, we're gonna hump u all, we've already thrased Arsenal's ass 5-1, beaten Chelsea 2-1 and Man Utd 1-0 up to 90mins.


Ciaoz,
EJ

As time goes by, i'm kinda glad that i took a litte more time to be more picky and indulge myself in the right field that would get me ticking. I would like to think that my ideal job should not be something that eats out so much of my life that i have to devote all my life trying to earn a living. I believe that there's more to life than committment for work.

I wasn't willing to settle for long working hours, working on weekends, too much travelling, limited increments, limited opportunities for growth, boring working environments, limited holidays, short lunch time, sucky benefits and list goes on and on, but those are the main ones...lolz

I'm glad that i managed to hold out long enough just so that i have the chance to obtain the lifestyle that i want and the working life that i want. Today marks a very significant day for me as i'm starting to feel more weights on my shoulder. The challenge and excitement that i felt is marvelous.

Being a person that enjoys playing FM (football manager, duh), i've always enjoy coming out with strategies and tactics. Although this is the aviation industry we're talkin about but my jobs are pretty much about devising plans, tactics, analyzing market behaviours and routes. I'm pretty sure i'll feel at least 10% of what Christopher Columbus felt when he found America, if i do found a new route to fly to next time. lolz

Since i'm trying to be professional here i shall limit what i can say about my job scope since a lot of it is really P & C. I still have yet to think of a proper answer whenever people ask me what is my job scope cause when you look at it, the scope is pretty wide and there is no boundaries, no limits but yourself.

Till the next post,

Ciaoz

EJ

I've just adopted a new pet on facebook, so guys don't forget to feed it ok, else it's gonna 'die' soon....



EJ

Was hell of a busy week, occupied most of the time. I'm glad that i have sufficient appointments to fill up my time else it would have been filled by boredoom. Unfortunately, all the fun that i've had comes with a price to pay.

Anyway, as time goes by, i'm extending my map more and more. My map in KL is like Dota/Warcraft. Everything is pitch black till each time when i explore new places, my knowledge increases. (Please take note that i do not play Dota/Warcraft). There's something that i learnt from roads in KL, if your goin to one of the prime locations and all of a sudden there aren't much cars around, most likely there's a toll coming up. Reminds me of Robert Frost, 'The road not taken' ; "i took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference" cuz there's a damn bloody toll and i need to pay!!!!

Let's move on to the brighter side of my week. Met a couple of my old friends and the most surprising thing was they told me they read my blog and i was like...stunned..cuz who the hell reads my blog? The best thing is i ain't blog for nobody. Most of the time i blog when i'm feeling a bit emo or just to engrave a piece of my life. Who knows what will happen 50 years down the road. Probably EJ Jr.'s gonna get some inspiration from this writings..lolz. Just to give my thoughts about blogging, as for me i don't care about the grammar part, i dun' check d subject-verb-agreement thingy, i don't blog to make myself sound smarter. But, I do wonder how the trend is gonna be in the near future. At some point, i think we're gonna eliminate the judging a book by it's cover thingy but who knows in future ppl are gonna judge others by their blog. The advantage of blogging is that your' pretty much in control of what people think of you, assuming that you know ur contents.

Damn, i seem to sway off topic, i'm supposed to talk about myself. The hot question for me the last few weeks was what do you do? as in the nature of my job. Hmm... it's actually pretty simple to explain but i guess it's too general that i kept thinking where to start. I'm not too sure if it's appropiate for me to elaborate too much as working matters are always P & C, like a true professional eh? lolz.. I shall elaborate more in my next post. *fingers crossed*

It'z time to Zleep

ciaoz...

EJ

The last 14 days has been pretty fun. I’ve managed to do most of the things which I have been neglecting for the last few months. I managed to join my ex-MMU friends for paintball, night out with my colleagues which were quite happening, bowling tourney, futsal and last but not least Karate!! Whooo…

Let me start with my bowling tourney. Well in the beginning I was worried that I’m gonna finish last but in the end, it did not turn out so bad after all, I managed to set my personal best of 129. I know it’s not a high score but if your somebody who bowls a handful of times a year I think it’s decent. The only thing that took the cherry off the cake was when my teammate did a 132 on the same game and it’s a SHE, damn.

While as for futsal, I was so off the pace that I feel so off the game at the moment. I am seriously severely lacking match fitness. Did not enjoy the game so much, probably because I was new there also and it’s always gonna be difficult playing with new people in the same team. But I learnt something new too, never have MCD before you play futsal. I’m not sure if it’s just me, but I feel that I always need extra time to digest my MCD. Hopefully I can catch up with my old friends Kolo ‘Duncan’ Toure, Turbo Khek and Kean ‘Scholesly’ Chien. Lolz

Even though my knee my injured while playing futsal, wounded I knew that I have to attend Karate cause I’ve been absent for so long and it’s good to be back. It’s nice that we have a new training area and it’s good to meet up with old faces, Jasmyin, Sathesha, Tzeh Pin, Kuo Shen, Alvin and of course my beloved Shihan. Unfortunately, due to my injury, my kicks and stance were so damn awful, still in need of time to catch up with everything. Lately I’ve been contemplating on whether to attend kickboxing classes as I felt that it’s the best for of exercise to help me gain back my fitness and sharpen my punch and kicks again. My desire to join kickboxing is partly due to stimulation from watching ‘The Contender Asia’ which really rocks.

This is all from me for the time being, till the next post,
Ciaoz peepz!


EJ

On the other hand, the day before i had watched Cloverfield which i find quite crappy. I think i'm not the only one that finds it difficult to focus on the movie as the view from the video camera really makes me feel dizzy. I heard people actuallly puked watching this movie and frankly speaking, i'm not surprised.
Despite all the things that happened lately, life has been pretty good. It's like there's so many things that keeps me occupied and time passes so quickly especially during non-working periods. At the moment, it's all good...

My teammate's shirt - "wanna step outside" - step outside means die d la bro

Last week was perhaps my most enjoyable week this year for whatever reasons i do not know. Each day was filled with joy and fun stuff to do. At the same time i think working life has been good to me apart from the brief moment where the alarm rings and it's rise and shine.

Let's not stray off-topic here, i had a paintball session with my ex-MMU buddies and it was pretty fun BUT...yes BUT! I was seriously lacking patience compared to the rest.
It was a 6 on 6 and my teammates are Chiaw Yin, Kimber, Gan, Navin, Kenny and myself.
Out of 4 rounds, i did a 'Rambo' 3 times and yes..i got shot. The first time was shitty, i ran into a tree and it failed to cover me sufficiently as i got shot on my hand. I'm not sure if theoretically i should be considered dead cuz who the heck dies being shot on the hand rite? *pondering*

2nd round i ran up front till it was only one barrier separating the enemies and my teammates were far behind. Yes, another early exit.

3rd round, i ran towards the enemies's base again and yes, i was too far to be covered by my teammates and i ran into Duncan and we took each other out. He tried to shoot my balls but i was wearing jeans luckily. Not too sure what the Tan family has againts the Lai family, trying to end my generation there, but it's all good ;)

4th round, i tried to be a camper but i got shot on my other hand while raising my gun.

Overall, i did not have a good run but did had a good time. To think of it, the amusing part was all our strategies that obviously did not work the very moment we step into the battlefield. But my teammates were brilliant with Kenny as our top marksmen, Gan was distracting our enemy with he's 'bright' shirt while Navin at one point was out of bullets and he continued firing CO2 to cover. lolz And both girls, Kimber and Chiaw Yin survived longer than me in all the rounds i think.

I guess that's all from me... maybe next time we should check out other venues for paintball.

" No Pain No Game"

EJ

There's been so many things going through my mind each day. Even at work at times i tend to drift away. At the moment, there's just so many things that i would like to do and all these things have one thing in common, it requires something...MONEY. As fresh grad, salary can never be enough. I'm in such a dilemma that i'm still trying to prioritize the list of things that i would like to do. As much as i would like to go out party during the weekends, at the back of my head i am still thinking of saving money for travelling. While i'm saving money i'm still thinking whether i should use it for travelling or investment perhaps?



Lately, i've been hearing so much stories about travelling and it's one of things that i look forward to during lunch break, listening to my colleagues travelling here and there. As far as i know, most people travel to places for sight-seeing but for me i'm kinda looking for something adventurous. Let's face it, i'm not gonna be in a better shape when i reach 30 YO or more. Well, not to say that i'm in a very good shape now, but i doubt i'll get better in future. Guys, let's face it, when we get older...performance degradation but not if your datuk CSL....lolz just kidding. I'm still need to look for some 'kakis' to go for more extreme and adventurous tour. Imagine, a once in a lifetime jouney on the ancient trail to the lost city of Incas, Machu Picchu in Peru.



or

exploring the ruins of ancient Mayan civilisations which is the pyramids of Chichen Itza in Mexico.


The idea of it hypes me up so badly. EJ! Snap back to reality!! Need to save more money first. *fingers cross* Need to resist the temptations of.....



Anyway, I feel very lucky and thankful that my family, sisters and brother in law are helping me out in the form of accomodation, food and transportation too. It reduces things to worry but instead it makes me feel uneasy. I really hope i can do them a big favour in the near future.



EJ

2007 year Review

Another fantastic year with lots of ups and downs. The first month, had a taste of working life followed by the pressure of final year project and after 4 years of studies - Graduation! From there, transition for study life to working life and the burden sinks in.

1) Where did you begin 2007?
*Recall* Recall* Recall* , was at Gurney

2) What was your status by Valentine's day?
Still single

3) Were you in school (anytime this year) ?
Yes, in fact graduated mid 2007. It's like a milestone after 4 years of studies.

4) Did you have to go to hospital ?
Fortunately no. Guess i was pretty healthy apart from one or two sports injuries.

5) Did you have any encounters with the police?
Thank god no, nothing like the previous year, the miserable urine test.

6) Biggest surprise
The past 3 months

7)What concerts/shows did you go to?
The biggest for me was Gwen Stefani's concert. It was alright.

8)Favourite TV series?
I think it's Heroes for me. C'mon...who doesn't like Hiro Nakamura??

9) Favourite Movie?
This is pretty easy, Tranformers!!!

10)Describe your birthday
Nothing special but the next day was special.

11) What's the one thing that you thought that you'd never do but did in 2007?
I think it has to be the one which was sort of againts my integrity. It was sort of a conspiracy, but it was for a good cause...lolz. Definately will remember this forever.

12) What has been your favourite moment?
Having someone special

13) What's something you learned about yourself?
I'm a very demanding person

14) Any new additions to your family?
Yes, a brother in law

15) What music will you remember 2007 by?
"Now it's raining more than ever, know that we'll still have each other. You can stand under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh". Song of the year ok - Rihanna

16) Any long term plans?
Yes, one of it is to check out the latest 7 wonders of the world as released last year. 1. Great wall of China, 2. Petra in Jordan, 3. Christ the Redeemer in Brazil, 4. Machu Picchu in Peru, 5. Chichen Itza in Mexico, 6. Colleseum in Italy, 7. Taj Mahal in India and 8. Great Pyramid in Egypt. I hope i can kick off around end of this year but i still need to decide which to go first as you can see two of the places are in South America and one in North America. I think those are the tricky ones or rather interesting ones which i think i'm gonna visit first.

17)New Year Resolution
As mentioned earlier i'm demanding, so i'm hoping for a long and successful career, stress free with plenty of time to balance work and personal life. I wish to enjoy life more and try to save more money while i make more money.


' May you have a relaxed MIND, a peaceful SOUL, a joyful SPIRIT, a HEALTHY body and pocket always full of MONEY'

Happy New Year guyz! and HappY new year babe!!

cheerios,
EJ