Just a little update on Bun (aka "Brooklyn" if you're speaking to Jonathan, and no, that's not the name. I refuse.)...
I'm feeling very much like Humpty Dumpty these days, and even swear that I see him in the mirror with quick sideways glances. Despite this, I still love being pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I feel completely wiped out and wimpy and uncomfortable, but still like being pregnant. I can tell Bun has really started to fill up my belly space, because the movements and kicks and scrapes against my abdominal wall are so just RIGHT THERE. It's my fave part of being pregnant. It makes me smile, and sometimes even snicker, when I imagine the acrobats our baby is doing, with only a layer of flesh between us.
I'm starting to get a little sad, because this pregnancy has gone by so bloody quick, to where I have to stop and ask myself, "Have I really soaked this in and enjoyed every moment?". I don't know - I sometimes feel like I've been too busy to really take it in every single day. It's like, bam!, here we are at 31 weeks. I had already gone into pre-term labor and was on bedrest with Ellison at this point. We are SO excited to meet this baby and have it be a tangible part of our family, but I have to admit that I think we're both freaking out a tiny bit... like, we're going to have a baby within the next 9 weeks! Ah! I'm starting to get a little nervous about the delivery, and still fret about the timing of it all with Ellison and everything, even though we pretty much have a plan.
Ellison loves just randomly coming up to my tummy and patting, hugging, kissing, and saying little things to the baby. She's so sweet about it. It completely tugs at my heart on so many levels. I imagine the moment when we leave her (gosh, this already has me springing tears just writing about it), and how hard it will be thinking of how this will be the last time with just our girl, just the three of us. I by no means want to take away from the excitement and thrill of this sweet baby we have been blessed with - we have prayed for it and wanted it so badly - but, life as we know it is going to change drastically. I am a sentimental fool who inevitably thinks of those sappy things at those very moments when it would be best not to. 'Cause there is SO much love, fun, excitement, and bliss coming right at us!
A few weeks ago I failed the glucose test, so I had to go in for the 3-hour glucose test. Thankfully, I do not have gestational diabetes, but one of the 4 levels on the second test came up elevated. I have been told that I should limit my carb intake (not doing so good with that), and that they will keep a close eye on my measurements because the baby could end up being big. Great. ;-) At 29.5 weeks I was measuring 30cm, so in a decent range at least.
Jonathan and I got a sitter last week to do most of our Christmas shopping and to finish getting the things on our baby needs list. It was fun, and it felt good scratching pretty much everything off the list. I just need to pack a diaper bag and hospital bag soon. Yes, I know it seems early, but again, history plays a role here as well as the holidays.
The baby has a name, we just don't know which one yet. :-) We had finally narrowed it down to THE girl's name and to 2 boys' names, but stumbled upon another girl's name we like the other day. So we have two sets of names picked out for both genders, and the funny thing is, the initials are the same. For a boy the initials are either ALS or SES, and for the girls' names it's the same two sets of initials. We're having fun messing with my family's minds. My mom is calling often with a guess, despite the fact that I told her the names are unusual and she'll never in a million years guess them. Seriously, I'd go play the lottery if someone guessed them. But she doesn't give up, and she makes me laugh with her "unusual" guesses.
Next weekend, Jonathan leaves for Colorado for work, so I'm just praying Baby continues to try to stay put, and that he doesn't get stuck in any snow storms. Makes me a little nervous, but hey, God knows the timing of it all, right? And He knows what we need. The shots I've been doing weekly since 16 weeks seem to be working, knock on wood. Only 5 more of them left before they take me off of them. Time is a flyin'!