choice is something we often take for granted,

we know what we are capable of, we know what can change, in fact, we can figure out what are the options for every circumstance, and we are capable of deriving which choice would lead to the best results.

but more often than not, we let other things get in the way.

some of these other things that i could think off hand would be, laziness/ some prefer to call it comfort zone, “priority”, stubborn head, and most of the time, negativity aka refusal to accept that there are other options.

and then, we let a perfectly great outcome, slip away. we pick the wrong choice, screw it up, and “wonder what went wrong” (most of the time is the case of finding excuses for what went wrong when the you already know the cause)

then here comes the “perfect solution”. whine.

 

today i decided not to whine.

today i acted, based on the options i had, and picked the best.

today, i ran, i washed, i clean my room, i did my laundry, i bought my grocery, i blogged, i researched, and i enriched myself, all within  the span of 4 hours.

today, i have achieved what i thought was best, for me, and for some others.

 

lets hope future days will be as great as today.

 

have a great week people!

 

Rockets, moon shots
Spend it on the have nots
Money, we make it
Fore we see it you take it

Oh, make me wanna holler
The way they do my life
Make me wanna holler
The way they do my life
This ain’t livin’, This ain’t livin’

Inflation no chance
To increase finance
Bills pile up sky high
Send that boy off to die

Oh, make me wanna holler
The way they do my life
Make me wanna holler
The way they do my life
This ain’t livin’, This ain’t livin’

Hang ups, let downs
Bad breaks, set backs
Natural fact is
Oh honey that I can’t pay my taxes

Oh, make me wanna holler
And throw up both my hands
Make me wanna holler
And throw up both my hands
This ain’t livin’, This ain’t livin’

Crime is increasing
Trigger happy policing
Panic is spreading
God knows where we’re heading

Oh, make me wanna holler
They don’t understand
Oh, make me wanna holler
They don’t understand
This ain’t livin’, This ain’t livin’

nothing i really wanna say.

 

hahahaha oops, just wasted your time, sorry!

“ I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life. I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. — Maya Angelou

today a fellow friend tried to hug me, and i went WHOOOAAAAAH “i don’t do hugs”

i think she read too much into Maya Angelou’s words. so here’s an add on from me.

“I’ve learnt that if you are uncomfortable with someone or something, you should keep your distance or tell the person off once and for all, so you won’t have your mood ruined, and you will automatically MASTER the art of living Maya’s words.”- Shin Fei

a great example of annoyance

there’s something about it

that i like, and hate.

Like the food, the reunion, sometimes, the people and how i am always hungry

Hate the leeches, the furniture destroyer, the nose digger, and the weight gained.

How can i change to make myself like it all?

Life is a gamble. You can get hurt, but people die in plane crashes, lose their arms and legs in car accidents; people die every day. Same with fighters: some die, some get hurt, some go on. You just don’t let yourself believe it will happen to you- Muhammad Ali

 

Work has just begun, and on the first day, it has appeared to be more challenging than i have expected.

Got to hold on to the positivity i had, and my beliefs.

 

-float like a butterfly, but sting like a bee-

the butterfly bee.

the butterfly bee.

 

 

 

bacon_love

bacon_love

 

i am on the internet

a platform of ample information and knowledge

and i don’t know what to look at besides facebook and yahoo news.

so i have decided,

in this coming new year

i will learn and absorb everything i could find

like never before.

whistle from the heart

whistle from the heart

For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early
 to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever 
you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to
this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make 
the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you
 feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a 
different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you 
find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
”

 

— The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

” i’ll wheel you to the surgery room”

i laid down and stared at the ceiling, and as he wheeled me, my mom and friends tried to catch up from behind

the journey was about ten minutes, so for ten minutes, i was staring at the monotonous white ceiling with flickering lights, and occasionally catching glimpses of my mom

” your family can wait here, i’ll have to wheel you to the waiting room”

*waved goodbye and was wheeled into the waiting room*

waited for 10 minutes and a philipino man came by

” i’m your anesthetist” and i have to mark the knee with the injury, is it the right?”

“no, it’s the left”

ok, smile.

*another 5 minutes in the cold room*

“ok the room is ready, lets go”

and i was wheeled through this long corridor of nothing but white ceilings, then to another corridor that’s jam packed with surgical equipments, some of which were bloody *not kidding*

” then i arrived at the room, where the previous anesthetist was waiting”

i spent 10 minutes looking at the ceiling, the lights, the camera, and the anesthetist who just surf the net for random stuff, before my surgeon finally arrived.

” we have to wait for a while, the anesthetist is not here yet”

*but that phillipino guy  who told me he was the anesthetist was sitting right there…. so apparently, he’s just an assisting nurse* -_-;

ten minutes later, after my body was shivering under the room temperature, the anesthetist arrived, opened a box, did a handful of putting syringes together and all, finally apologized and announce that we are officially starting

” this is going to make you feel giddy, then i have to inject your inner thigh, while you’re conscious, and it will hurt a little”

“okay”

*inject*

” why is it that i have to be conscious while you inject my inner thigh”

” well, it is better because !###$^#$!$#T$W%^$!#!@$#@%$^%$@%^%&^#$@#”

“i don’t understand”

” !@$#%#&^%*#@$%#@$%@$^@$@%@#$%”

next thing i know, i blacked out before he injected

 

and when i was awake, i saw the male nurse smiling at me

” hi are you feeling cold”

* i was shivering very badly, and was chattering my teeth*

” yeah???”

he pumped more hot air under my blanket.

mom popped by and asked if i was ok, i nodded and gave a faint smile, and told them to go away so they don’t have to watch me in my unglam state

” why is she developing rashes?” mom asked.

” er.. i don’t know..” male nurse said, and immediately called my surgeon.

” the surgeon said maybe it’s because of the hot air”

” we’ll see if it subsides, or i have to call the surgeon again”

*luckily it went off*

(30 minutes later)

woke up and saw mom standing in front of my ward.

“mom, go back and have some rest, i’ll see you tomorrow” i said in my drowsy state.

“ok see you”

.

.

3 hours later, i woke up.

with three people screaming around my ward…..

i was too disturbed, and went back to sleep

* nurse woke me up 3 times in two hours to change my ice pack, ask if i wanted food, or to change my icepack*

finally at 1am, i asked for minyi’s home-made shen yu soup, i finished the entire tub.

and “regurgitated”  / puked it all on the floor

had to apologize again and again to the nurse.

and then asked if i could pee

and peed into this metal bowl thing.

and asked to pee again

until the uncle next door also wanted to pee

and then the funniest part came

“mii see, wa pun tio wa eh xiong kao liao”

*translation: nurse, i accidentally peed on my bandaged wound*

 

i laughed till i fell asleep.

 

 

 

 

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