In another few hours, I will leave for the land of no Facebook. It is not the place I will want to go for a holiday, at least not at my current age. Perhaps I am unable to appreciate the country as much as I probably would, in future. It's my 2nd time there. First was Shanghai, now Shenyang. Chengdu will probably come, in time to come too. See you next week when I am back.

To me, it is indeed "yet, another miracle". I am so glad that my prayers came true. My dad has recovered 60% from the epilepsy and mild stroke.

A lot of things can happen in 1.5 months, a very good example - my dad.

Very independent individual -> 2nd time stroke -> Epilepsy -> Bedridden & often in a confused state -> Slowly gaining back awareness & wheelchair bound -> Able to make small movements from bed to wheelchair and wheelchair to bed -> Walking with the help of walking aids -> walking like normal without the help of walking aids

Many people did not expect to see my dad fell ill just like that. They witnessed how independent he was, to being a wheelchair-bound person and now able to walk up and down independently again. I must also say I am pretty proud of my dad's strong will. It is his strong will that kept him going, of course with the support from family, it definitely helps.

Having more than a month of anxiety and what not, things are finally back on track. My dad is now able to take care of himself and even can cook simple stuff for meals. It is also time to re-think of my future. I had wanted to quit my job many times, but it has never been successful. People who know me would probably think - are you sure....its all talks and no actions. I had my reasons of course. First was because of my brother, and now because of my dad. It's time I need to sit down and think of my own future.

Points to ponder:
What do you think of an AM who asks for work to be split and done over the weekends for a presentation on Monday, 9 am, and ended up not coming to work on Monday because she claims to have a headache and she cannot produce the work done? I find it super irresponsible because people (me) have to cover her work by rushing it out before 9am on Monday morning when she informed at 7am.

It has been very tiring working here because of her. She is the most irresponsible AM I have ever seen. Many a times, I tried to be sympathetic keeping a positive mind that her actions is most probably because of her new born daughter. After some time, I get so tired hearing her excuses about her daughter, She has this topic on every single day and it kind of irritates me because she was practically using her daughter as an excuse for her irresponsible.

Hais. Life sucks sometimes right. One problem comes after another. Ok, I will update again,

10 years ago, I didnt have a happy birthday. My dad fell very ill right before my birthday and even before I begin my polytechnic studies. He had stroke, but miraculously, my dad recovered 90%. This year, I hope miracle will happen again.

This year, 2 days before my birthday, my dad fell very ill again. He has been in and out of the hospital 3 times throughout these 3 weeks. The doctors did many tests, scans, etc on him but no report could give an answer on why my dad was often giddy & had seizures. I pray really hard for him to recover. It has been a tiring 3 weeks not just for him, but the whole family. When the phone rings in the middle of the night, I get very afraid that it is the hospital calling or my dad calling.

We've tried rushing down to the hospital in the middle of the night to check on my dad after getting the hospital's call, arriving at the hospital to see that my dad is being tied up because he was always trying to run out of the hospital or hearing him talk about many many weird things. It aches to see him like that and makes me feel so helpless about it.

Dad, please recover soon! I know you can do it with your strong will, to overcome this obstacle. 加油！

I havent on my laptop for the longest time - perhaps a good 8-9 months at least. I dont know why but it suddenly occur to me that perhaps its time to back up my photos from this laptop, in case it crashes without me knowing.

It has been almost 3hours and I am still sorting out my photos and trying to back them up in the external hard disk. I was looking through all my photos - it was really a "those were the days" moment. Pictures were dated back as early as 2008. My goodness, its almost 6 years already and yet they still seem fresh in my mind, like each event happened only recently.

I saw some of my friends from single to attached to married to having kids while some friends have either drifted apart or probably no longer even friends. It struck me a little. What happened to the friendship where we used to hang out together very closely in the past? I read an article, it says that if you have been friends for 7 years and more, chances are you will be friends forever. It's not true. There is no such thing as friends forever, at least that has not happened to me yet. It made me realise that friends come and go, friends changes their priority as they move onto different phases in life and you might not be a priority anymore even if you were once a priority.

Family seems to be a different thing. I once had very bad relationship with my family. No, I dont mean my parents, we have been perfectly fine. I meant my 2 brothers. We dont used to talk about our lives, but after so many things happened, we all changed our perception towards having a good family relationship. We try to make time for the family every weekend and on important occasions, making an effort to give one another some small gestures and wll wishes. Perhaps, our priorities have changed too.

Oh well, I guess that's life.

Usually, weekends have been my resting time. The last 2 weekends, it was different. I attended 2 weddings - my secondary school friend, Jun Shen and poly friend, Yong Yik's.

Each wedding is like a mini reunion for all of us. We often chat about the old times and what we have been doing or are doing. All of us are busy with our lives - some are pretty successful in their work life, family life, etc.

Each reunion at different stage of life, there will definitely be a different type of topic. After graduation, it would be - Have u found a job? What do you work as now? After having worked in the society university for awhile, the next topic was - Have you found a boyfriend? (for those single) or When are you getting married and... Have you applied for BTO?

It is funny, isn't it? Well I supposed, that's life.

My house recently underwent a major makeover - no more wooden furnitures. We are into walnut colour and leather material these days. Dad and mum are very happy with the outcome and glad that after so long, we (my brothers and I) are finally able to help out with giving our house a fresh new look.

I have been wanting to revamp my room for the longest time, giving myself more storage space for all the "so not frequently used" things. In the month of April and May, I happily declare myself - broke! Spent a bomb on my tiny weeny room & parts of it on the house (well it may be cheap to others, but certainly took us awhile to save up), but im satisfied with the outcome. =D

During the revamp, I also counted the no. of years we have been using the furnitures. The oldest furnitures were almost 20 years old! My goodness. But one thing i have to say is.... we really did a good job in protecting the furnitures. They did not look that "old", just that some of it are falling apart.

The irony thing is.. when we discard the furnitures, we saw some people pushing our old furnitures back to their home.. Those which are old to us.. may actually be new to them, that makes us a little guilty. But on the other hand, doesn't this also reflect alot about our society and how we look at things? *some points to ponder*

I am finally able to place the magnets up and giving them some exposure, but this didnt last long. The magnets fell on my face last night. So sad! Tonight I have to find a new way to keep these magnets and see how to put them in place securely.. I dont want to wake up at 4am again in the midnight.... =.=

It's scary how time flies sometimes. It's almost mid of 2014. All's good. This year, I have hit some milestone. Experiencing snow for the first time, taught my parents to use smart phone(finally!), purchasing some of the most expensive things in my life. So far so good. But I hope my system could work better too. At the moment, it can get quite torturous and scary when I cannot even make my way to work.  Please 加油!

Last year, I lost a very good friend whom I can get along with and confide in. It would be very nice if the world can be filled with lesser mistrust, more open communications. I admit I kind of miss this good friend of mine, but perhaps sometimes some friends are just passerby in life. I hope such incidents will no longer happen. Cherish all friends and everyone in our life.