Sunday, September 26, 2004
i'm so sad so sad so depress and i'm afriad that i'm might resort to wat i used to do to myself last time so scare i tried to endure but i can't really can't it just simply hurts so bad i had actually forgotten her after my trip to aust last year and there she is back in my life after all the trouble den now when i actually love her so deep she walks out of my life again... WHY do u do this to me time and time again and yet i'm foolish enough to believe u...
Thursday, September 23, 2004
sigh now in sch suppose to meet her to get my colour pens but ya she did not bring it but still i have to return her her virus scan disk so ya.... i was scare to see her its does hurts so bad when i saw her all the memories all the time i had spend with her all the happening that i had with her all the teasing and qurrel i have with her all just flow out. Seriously i do miss her a lot but deep down in my heart i know that she does find me annoying, irritating and troublesome. I recalled the last bus journey to sch with her which was on the 21/9 she was chatting on the phone and from her conversation with her best pal shelia, i can see that she has fallen for another person le and she oso state that she is angry with me, i just dun get it lor i did nothing yet she is angry wat the fuck! i beleive that she is kinda attach waith a person call patrick ba if i'm not wrong lor.Wat the hell lor she told me she wanna break is cause she is sick due to stress and the doc told her not to be in a relationship thats the whole damn reason y she broke off with me and dun tell me now she is getting another stead i mean i feel so cheated if she were to do that....TO BE CONTINUE.... 
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
actually i have written a damn long entry but ya the stupid webby hang and guess wat i din save it argh.... so i have to re-write the whole entry and see how much i can rem hee...hmmmm its been a long hot day today due to this freaking weather precelia and i both kena headache. It is simply too hot today. cannot ta han sia. during my 3 hours of break precelia, michelle, xiao feng and i oh ya not forgetting kenneth lolx went to tamp for lunch and after that we went to the arcard and play a few games. After that we went to but bag. hahah tml u see a group of pple carry the same bag haha lame.... but nah i'm just kidding ya so if not later my gang members see liao den i die sia lolx... hmmmm i have a sudden urge of running dunno y maybe i miss my sec sch's track training ba but ya no one to pei me go jogging...sobz hmmmm had a chat with dia yesterday night hmmm she seems soooo stress out with her art haha she and her gates of hell??? lolx hey ger great voice ya hahah "but we loat it all nothing last forever sorry can't be perfact" ?? rings a bell hahah nah just kidding... kinda miss u wor just by chatting with u brings back a lot of sweet memories with van khor, guan and u wor...lolx anyway my xiao lao po birthday coming le got her the bag as a early gift from the 3 of us haha which will be carrying tml hee....oh ya had conversational test today...sigh i guess i din do well for this time as i have no chane to speak that michelle and don keeping bombarding each other and once in a while me and weixiang will say some stuff but ya even so i think i lost to him sia we can talk from piracy cds and vcds to cd writter to os and linux gosh that how far we go and i only get to say 3 sentence sigh... xiaofeng was worst coz whenever she wanna say something, someone will just say faster den her and she just keep quiet and waited for her turn...lolx had fun overall la...sigh been rather sick recently bad sore throat argh... pain pian haha hmmm maybe too much problem recenly ba...hmmm chat with my best pal just now haha disturb her and ask her something hmmmm i still dunno wat her answer is hahah lolx anyway hmmm is it a better choice to turn str8?? hmmm wonder who will fall for someone who cannot pass off as a ger lolx. I guess i have make up my mind le its not my lost in any way as she lose someone who love her dearly but i gain stronger as i fall hard on my knees guess like everyone said its time to forget bout her no point giving in so much to her and treasuring her as she does not even care?? right hmmm i guess this entry is damn long ya hmmmm its late le guess i better slp le nitey muackies hee =)
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
hmmm this my brand new blog decided to put down all my past memories behind its just too hurting to hang on. Today ask her if she has feelings for me and yea she said YES well thou she said yes i'm sure that is not the truth as i know she is just fu yan me. I guess she just wanna hong me only ba as the exam is close she knows i will not be able to concentrate de but even if she say that she love me so wat big fuck ar i mean it make no diff from saying she dun love me coz there isn't any kind of love left i guess....i mean i guess she has got someone else le i dun feel her love her care and that tenderness that i use to get its all gone. All is left is just a heart that is being smash into unmendable state ba. Should have listen to my friends before patching with her. i so regret as i fall in tooo deep so deep that it just hurts like hell...exams is just around the corner but ya can't seems to get anything in...sigh i guess things gotta take things easy ba...hmmm gotta try to study le so will blog again ba....
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