Monday, July 25, 2005
my dream is to be with u....if its possible i would rather stay in my dreams and nv would wanna wake up again...i dun wanna open my eyes and see that u are not here with me anymore...i'm not use seeing no messages from u...i'm not use to have no phone calls..wo yi jing xi guan ni ask me to pom, ask me to eat, pei me when i'm bored, look after me like a lil kid, hong me, ask me eat medicine when i'm sick, i miss the hugs the kisses the sweet words and thotful acts from u...i feel so empty without u... and i know this time it happens for real...i will nv get to be in ur arms again...nv gonna see u sleep before my eyes...everything all my happiness have change drasticly within a week...why?can u mend back this broken heart of mine...will u be there when i needed ur shoulder the most...you said i was ur missing pieces of a puzzle and i guess ur puzzle has just been trash in the rubbish bin coz its no longer a puzzle that u wanna hold on to....MOODLESS for anything sobz...cry...poor nui nui have been drown with tears....COL
once again...i'm hurt by u! you brought me up to the sky flying and now u throw me in the sea drowning...why give me promises when u know u are going to break it...when u know u can't achieve it? WHY can u feel how much u have meant to me? sigh~ i guess i was such a fool all along~
Saturday, July 16, 2005
been a long time since i last updated my bloggy haha...oh well just finish the term test guess kinda screwed up yea...just pray hard that i'll pass everything ba...been rather happy and cheerful lately coz i know he has started to give me 100% of his attention le wor...i look forward to each coming day...sometimes i would just wonder to myself "will he be waiting for me?" "wat is he doing now?" "he got eat ma?" bla bla haha the list will go on and on hee...dang xin ta bu chi dan xin ta hui ji mo dang xin ta de yi qie...haha... i rubbish ba... i'm falling deeper and deeper in love wib him...the fear of losing him is there the deeper the feeling the deeper the hurts is...i dunno what he really feels for me thou the feelings is there but ya...i dun wanna lose i dun wan...but i really very scare till i've teary eye each time i thot of it...how can i get rid of such feelings it sucks i dun like to feel this way i'm very very miserable I HATE IT!! i know its hard decision as i know he dun wanna hurt anyone but ya eventually someone will get hurt de... i once ask "ai wo de ren hai shi wo ai de ren?" that was when i was with ys...i felt comfort but i just dun have the sparks with him he treat me very well wait for me after sch send me home call me everyday and gives me wake up call to check if i have really woke up but he was just too over-protective not caring enough too talkative(irritating) too strong which is very scary...sigh...he was ai wo de ren na wo ai de ren ne? ka shi wo hai yi wei shi wo zhi zhuo duo qing...shi wo cai shan le ni men shi yin wei you le wo de chun zai ni dui ta cai you ta bian hua ma?zhi dao ys de chu xian ni cai fa jue qi si ni shi xi huan wo de...na ru guo ta bu chu xian ni jiu yu dong wu zhong ma? wo bu ming bai wei shen me ren zong yao deng dao shi qu cai dong de yao zhen xi ma? dan yong you le que mei hao hao dui dai...wei shen me??????? ai wo que zi neng zuo peng you ma hai shi...hai~ ni dui wo de hao wo chi dao ye heng xi xuan ni teng wo shi fei chang de teng ai...xi huan na me jian jian dan dan de ai qi... ke shi zai chi ta de chu xian ran wo gan dao fei chang fei chang pa...bu chi sou cou de wo zhen de hao pa na chi fa shen de shi...ze ji tain wo xiang le hao duo hao duo wo jue de ru guo shi wo de yi ding shi wo de zhen yang zhen qu ye ke neng zhen qu bu dao...mian qiang mei you xin fu wo ming bai...shun qi zi ran ba zi yao ta kuai le wo ye hui kuai le de...3 ge ren yi ge bei shang hai hao guo 3 ge duo bei shang hai... i choose wo ai de ren...am i wrong? have i make the wrong decision... haiz
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