Saturday, December 31, 2005
MEN ARE SO INSENSITIVE...!!!! wat's with all the guys today sigh... i begining not to understand u... your inside world ur thinking and ur feelings... i just dunno anything!! sometimes its better to say watever u feel out den just shoo me off and say that there is nothing!! sigh i'm ur gf la but its seems that u dun share ur feelings out la or do u reckon that i'm gf... i'm always guessing lor sigh... i only can assume!! wth lor~ sometimes i wonder la "are u my boyfriend? / am i ur gf?" although we both know it la... but does it seems as it is... i dunno lor... wo de an quan gan zai na li!! i dun feel any secure lor... maybe u are not as sensitive as i am ba... but sorry to say so la i love to have the attention of my bf la.. and maybe i'm not geeting enough of it lor... i know u dun like me to club and i know u are scare whenever i go clubbing... but this is wat i enjoy doing with my friends!! and i know my limit... and stop thinking as if i'm a lose ger la.. i'm telling u that i'm NOT la!! i know u r worried but... isn't it the same as i feel whenever u go meet ur brothers and stuff... u should know wat i mean when i say that la... and u know i dun like de lor... whenever u say u miss me!! do u mena it or u just say it coz u wanna say! from my p.o.v la...when a person misses a person he/she will find all ways and excuses juat to see that person... but u r diff u just say u miss and ya thats it... its like meaningless... but when i do say i miss u i really wan u to be by my side that very moment! haiz.. watever la... do u care about me!! i really wanna know la! i can dun look for u the whole day and u can simply dun look for me too la... wake up wun msg me to say u wake up le... slp oso wun say! say call back...sometimes u do but most of the time u dun lor... haiz... maybe i'm hard to please or maybe my expectation is simply to high... take for eg just now i msg u at abt 1030 plus and there is no reply at all lor i have to call u den i know wat u doing la... u know how i feel ma... u dunno lor... all u care is about urself la... u say u are tired la...den i dun disturb u but when i called u you are playing la wth lor... i have bf like no bf like that la.. damn sad whole day lor... afternoon say go see doc... u oso can't be botherd to ask wat the doc say la...where is the concern that i should have!! like i told u before i nv felt ur care and concern when u were after me..and u said that u will only give all ur care and concern to ur gf...now gf le but still where it is... i totall have no say le lor... or maybe i just dun wanna say much le la... just wondering if this r/s will last not lor... damn sad lor~ i dunno wat to say to u le... wat's wrong when pple knows that we are together ur gf so jian bu de ren mehz... if so den wats the point lor... ya maybe i'm so jian bu de ren ba!!! or maybe u just dun treasure wat u have when u yong you it lor... u once told me that ur expectation for ur gf is a xian su de ger and ask too be one... sorry la i'm not that xian xu ger u wan lor... haiz... fuck la why am i feeling so down argh hate teh feeling la... sobz i need a hug i need a shoulder i wan a listening ear... *cries*
Saturday, December 10, 2005
yesterday was the BEST night out at black i mean the best of the best coz i saw my handsome kinda flirted but watever he's just simply so cute arghhhh... hahaha got myself drunk so throw face sia ahha drank alot i think starting just drank a small cup of vodka lime den after that came the jars and den 6 tequilla pop [pardon my spelling] *burp* after that the whole dance floor was spinning~ dance awhile and after that went to toilet and that was the 1st encounter wib him haha so peiseh-ing coz firstly i was drunk and could not recognize him when he brush my chin and called me ahha and i got the cheek to ask who is he [omg so throw face] den immediately i sms-ed my kitty to inform her and ya if not wrong oso send dunno who else sms and watever i sent or watever the content is i seriously dun rem any!! gosh i hope i din send out any offending sms!! And watever that seriously happen while i was drunk i dun rem all i knew was that my friends keep asking if i'm ok!! its so dumb lor~ yeap went dance floor dance a while and den back to da toilet to puke!! OMG =stinks= haha 1st time drunk wtf...after puking was feeling not that drunk but still drunk? ahha dunno la all i knew was that the music last night was GOOD!! kept me dancing all night long! and ya the second encounter with him was on the stairs [forever de lor] so close held waist and chat a while~ *yippy smiles* haha so damn happy lor arghhhh but in another way i'm feeling guilty of my actions would be unfair to "him" but watever it is i din do anything wrong can le whahaha~ went back home at 6 this morning sms him to let him know that i've just reach home and told him to give me wake up call at 830!! slp a while den off to sch to do assignmnets!! came back at erms...2 plus still till nearly 9 plus 10 den wake up! woohoo if only every fri i go black den can see him more whahhaha -shy- ahha =)
Friday, December 02, 2005
wah fucking angry today sia... wat the hell she wans if wanna bitch around or watever say infront la dun behind say say... hum say la~ dun act till so big lor i know u head big so big fuck la... know ur limit hor... now i endure only when i really cannot endure ar i cannot assure that nth will happen so better shut ur mouth~
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