Saturday, May 20, 2006
一个人的性格和个性都是天生的，落是要她改变，不是一朝一夕的事！ 你对我的感觉越来越陌生。 我之间隔了一道桥，一个不让对方走过的桥。 我的幸福的理由又是什么？ 我也不知！
Friday, May 19, 2006
i feel so cheated
Friday, May 12, 2006
just got back not long... celebrate my uncle's 37 birthday... and ya enjoy today a bit... but not wat i expected it to be la...went mos last night with jas kee, xinhui, cheow and sok with some other of their friends la... was suppose to go double o as it was free entry for ladies.. but sadly when we reach there, the queue was damn freaking long and not to mention that the queue was being freeze as there were too many people in the club and the full house sign was out for both double o and o bar.... isn't that scary.. i guess coz today was a holiday thus everyone club last night. was at smoove damn the crowd is killer.. lets say if a bomb were to drop on mos i guess 1/4 of s'pore population will be gone... thats how pack it was...! talk abt space for dancing when there isn't any breathing space.. the area of dance space was like the surrounding of ur foot.This is the 1st time i go mos which is this pack la... oh ya glenn was there too haha he forever clubbing de lehz...haha jio me go rich man room but in the end can't go in too... sigh i wanted to go my fav PURE room but argh must be 23 and above den can enter... wat the hell... i miss the huge bean bag.. after mos went mac drink and rest leggy, den go back home... took NR6 home with xinhui on the bus chat alot on my past with jw and my present with ys... come to think of it i do miss thoes sweet memories... but i shall nv compare them... jw treats me the best and this kind of treatment i could nv ask for more... but ys... haiz... not say he treats me bad or wat but just that he dun really care if i'm happy or sad... or if i have any xin shi?? sigh.. sometimes i just think back why did i accept him in the 1st place?? like wat my kitty always say "路是你自己选的，没有人拿刀避你。" i have no one to blame but myself... i dun ask for my just a lil more care and concern will be enough... haiz... reach home this morning at 430... went to bath and waited till it was 5 and gave him morning call for his gym. confirm our date and i went to slp. abt 3 hours later at 8 he called and ask me wake up he wan to meet at 10 as he was gg to ponggol there pray. know me la how piggy am i... i start whining and say very early den i tell me 12 meet la... and it went on and on till he say ok [unwilling]...back to slp...and my arlam din ring gosh when i woke up was already 1130 i saw his sms "are we still meeting" i quickly reply ya and went to bath... at 1150 he called... and say to meet at 1215 i was like stun la... told him to meet at 1 but he refuse to hang up till 1230 see wat i mean by ibf argh~ my intention for gg out today was to speak to him at the same time celebrate our 5th anniversary. We went to the new cathay cineplex to watch M.I.3 woohoo its damn big and grand... good sound system had a lover's combo and the popcorn taste yummy hee... enjoyed myself *winks* after that i pass him the nike top that i got him... well it seems that he dun really like it... haiz..watever it is i still took the time to choose it for him... when i ask if he like it，he just answered woah it must have coz 50+ hmmm... but in fact it was not. sigh why do u have to judge a gift by the value and not how it is?? sigh... been having very bad head pain that affects the neck and my back brain killer pain and it happen today din tell him else he will start saying i'm a weakling and dunno how to take care of myself...bla bla...so i just kept quiet and walk with him lor... baby even if i dun hold ur hand... you still won't hold mine... what has happen there is this gap between us... or are u too concern over ur muscle and look?? i really wanan know what is my standing in ur life... even vivian seems more impt den me... i really wanna know wat are you thinking all the time... and i so happen to come across this lil paragraph:
爱一个人，要了解也要开解；要道歉也
要道谢；要认错也要改错；要体贴也要体谅；
是接受而不是忍受；是宽容而不是纵容；是支
持而不是支配；是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而
不是控诉；是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而
不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求而不向对方
诸多要求。可以浪漫，但不要浪费，不要随便
牵手，更不要随便放手 how come u nv see the good of me.. but instate u keep picking on my flaws... sigh~
你发觉了吗？爱的感觉总是在一开始时甜蜜， 总 觉得多了一个人陪，多了一个人帮你分担，你 终于不再孤单了，因为至少有一个人想着你、 恋着你，只要能在一起就是好的。 但是慢慢地，随着认识的加深，你开始发现了 对方的缺点，于是问题一个接一个出现，你开 始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，有人说爱情就像捡 石，总想捡到一个适合自己的，但是你又如何 知道什么时候能够捡到呢？她适合你，那你又 适合她吗？ 其实，爱情应该像磨石子儿，或许刚捡到的时 候，你不是那么满意，但是请记住，人是有弹 性的，很多事情是可以改变的，只要你有心， 有勇气，与其到处去捡未知的石头，还不如将 自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨光，你开始磨了 吗？很多人以为，是因为感情淡了，人才会变 得懒惰，其实人是先被惰性征服，感惰才慢慢 变淡的。 在某个聚餐的场合，有人提议多吃点虾对身体 好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说：“十年前，当 我老婆还是我女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只 虾，我就剥二十只给她。现在，如果她要我帮 她剥虾壳，简直就是开玩笑，我连帮她夹菜都 没 兴趣了，还剥虾壳呢。” 难怪越来越多的人只想谈一辈子恋爱，却迟迟 不 肯走入婚姻。因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。 如果每个人都懒得讲话，懒得倾听，懒得制造 惊喜，懒得温柔体贴，那么夫妻之间，又怎么 会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？所以请记住，有活力 的 爱情是需要适度殷勤来灌溉的，谈恋爱，更是 不可以偷懒的。 有一对情侣，相约下班后去用餐，逛街，可是 女孩因为公司会议延误了，当她冒雨赶到时候 已经迟到了30多分钟，她男朋友很不高兴地 说：“你每次都这样，现在我什么心情也没了， 我以后再也不会等你了！”刹那间，女孩的心 决 堤崩溃了，她在想：或许，他们再也没有未来 了。 同样，在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样 的处境，女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头， 她的男朋友说：“我想你一定忙坏了吧？”接着 他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套披在 女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪却是温馨幸福 的。 你体会到了吗？其实爱恨往往只在我们的一念 之间！爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可 能只是在于你心境的转变罢了。如果有个人爱 上你，而你也觉得他不错，那并不代表你会选 择他。 我们总说：“我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈 恋爱。”但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱 的时候，你却无法回答他，因为你自己也不知 道。 没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很 爱 很爱的人。可是后来，当我们猛然回首，才发 觉自己曾经多么天真。假如从来没有开始，你 怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？其 实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多 事情之后才会发现的。每个人都希望找到自己 心目中百分之百的伴侣，但是你有没有想过， 在你身边早有人对你默默付出很久了，只是你 没有发觉而已。 所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧，他或许已经 等你很久了。当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分 绝对刚刚好。所有的期待和希望都只有七八 分，剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱 得更多，很可能给对方造成沉重的压力，让彼 此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。 所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要 超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分。如果你 正在为爱迷惘，下面这段话或许可以给你一些 启示：爱一个人，要了解也要开解；要道歉也 要道谢；要认错也要改错；要体贴也要体谅； 是接受而不是忍受；是宽容而不是纵容；是支 持而不是支配；是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而 不是控诉；是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而 不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求而不向对方 诸多要求。可以浪漫，但不要浪费，不要随便 牵手，更不要随便放手
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
been a long time since i have last updated!! well life been rather smooth lately but as for my love life i'm starting to have many uncertaincy arising. Is it because lately the both of us have been busy with projects and stuff...? or have ur feelings fade?? i dun really wanna find out. There is this stone in my heart that i wish i knew wat it was all about. But, maybe ah ma was right about speaking out my feelings to him... if i do so i have a very strong feeling we will end up arguing and maybe it might just end... maybe thats the reason why i dun wish to bring the matter up ba. he is my boyfriend but in wat way does he portray as one?? i was sick the whole of last week all u said was to ask me to take care of myself... why din u ask if i need you to accompany me home... aren't u worried that anything might just happen to me on the way home??? i know i dunno how to take good care of myself... but would you take care of me is another part of the story. he said " if you yourself dun take take of yourself well why do you expect people to take good care of you" sigh~
I miss the closeness
i want a boyfriend that would be able to Pour me with tender loving care that's all i ask for is it too much?? you want me to change... i'm trying very hard but did you even notice.. all you know was to be unhappy with my dressing the shoe i wear my attitude everything dun seems to match ur liking. I endure but i'm a ger i have feelings too... its been a long time since we had a sweet moment together... when was the last time u said i love you? when was the last time u sent me home? sigh~
i have a boyfriend but his girlfriend is always guessing his thots coz he doesn't speak up... why... all that you care was you and yourself how abt me??? was is my place in your heart?? sigh
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