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Monday, June 19, 2006

many things had happen within a week... happiness, laughter, smiles all have turn to sorrows, depression, tears.... just on monday we celebrated our 6th month anniversary it was a great day thou there was a lil'unhappiness...what would u or how would u react when u tried to hold on to his hand and all he do is either refuse to let u hold or just shake off ur hand... why did he do that i really wonder... but all i do is just keeping quiet... why because if i flare he would flare back... and being so "weak" i will lose even if i'm not at fault... i am a ger i need to be coax and need to be pampered.... but i ain't getting any of this from the day we are together till now! i'm always making the 1st move whether i'm right or wrong... its either u r just to egoistic or u simply can't be borthered?? when i confronted u abt the problem arising in our r/s u will only put the blame on me... telling me that when i tell pple abt us he will drift away from his gf...the more pple know the further we will drift a part.... wat is this.... if u truely love someone u will not let gap in-between the both of us. unless our love is nothing... or u had a motive for begin together?? i have no idea all this are just my point of view...

like wat pple always say "happiness are short lived" it so true soon after monday was mp meeting on wednesday... den friday sigh sucky... starting off mp with high sprits ended off with tears... he lied to me right before my eyes even thou i know the truth... why do u do such a thing?? u know how hurt was i to hear that from jas kee that u were actually with her.... and u din even mention anything abt it... why do u hide it from me...unless u have did something jian bu de ren?? hopefully no la... but why why did u lied to me once and again~ haiz... the thot of giving up is there but i ask myself time and again... "what is holding me back?" fear of losing u coz i can say i have feelings for u.... its been 2 days since u last called and sms... i not gonna give in this time i had enough le its time for u to make the 1st move NOT me....

I cannot think,
My heart is shattered.
If I’d live or die,
Would it even matter?
No one will catch me,
I’m falling fast.
I’m all alone,
In this tomb like cast.
You stole my heart,
Like it was nothing.
I want it back,
I would give anything.
Anything to forget,
Everything of your face.
Just grant my wish,
In this one special case.
You don’t know how,
Much pain I’m in.
The way your head is turned,
My tears are like rain.
My heart is caged in,
I can’t get out.
I keep wondering,
What are you all about.
When I first meet you,
My sorrows melted away.
I love you,
Was all you had to say.
But then I feared,
Your lies soon came.
It was over in a minuet,
Are you the one to blame?
There was no other one,
That could take your place.
I felt happy inside,
When I saw your face.
You can’t feel the pain,
I feel when I start crying.
You write of lost love,
When I’m the one dying.
You stole my heart,
Like it was nothing.
You whispered songs,
Of love in my ear.
You now act as if nothing happened,
And so I come to fear.
My eyes are darkening,
Soon you’ll see.
There is no hope,
No savior in me.
No more feeling,
I’m alone in here.
You can’t help me,
I’ve killed my own fear.
No blood shall,
Be ever spilled.
No that easily,
Would I be killed.
I’m giving up,
On loving you.
I’m moving on,
Get the clue.
One more page,
For the book of my soul.
In my heart this one poem,
Has left a massive hole.
You stole my heart,
Like it was nothing.
These games you play,
Are killing my heart.
You killed my soul,
You ripped it apart.
I’m giving up,
On loving you.
I’m moving on,
If it is possible for me to do so