Never in my life

Have I been so

Confused, as I am right now.

Which way to turn,

Which way to go.

I'm lost and don't Know the right lane.

I don't know where I'm going,

don't knowWhere I'll end up,

I don'tWant to make a mistake.

To do, or not to do That is the question

That is tearing me apart

From the inside out.

Do what is right,Or what is easy?

So much pressure

Like never felt before."No pressure, I assure",

But then what is this

Hurt, indecisive feeling

Radiating from within me?

Tears from my eyes

Can say neither yes,Nor no.

So that leaves me

With no decision- still.

A ball of nerves, all in

My head, startle me into

A place that I don'tWant to be in at all.

I scream, hoping it's not

Too late, that it won't scar.

Me, but especially you.

No harmWas meant to come your way.

My stupid indecisiveness

Caught me, at a time when,

I needed stability most, and doing

Am I strong enough?Please tell me so.

sigh~ rather troubled i would say... too many things are happening at the same time... how to handle? shocked, dumb-founded, tense, zzz mixed up emotion... wth.. why suddenly so complicated... been thinking alot lately which has cause me sleepless nights. Was it better that i play ignorant? should not have led him to confession... everything was just too fast.. *slow down* awww i wish i could.. i should have noticed it earlier... din really felt it till recently he ask me for a movie... no doubt he's nice, caring, hilarious guy and no doubt i feel a lil... but it all came too fast for me to react.. maybe the good lord has heard me?? and this is his answer? its the begining... afraid to hurt anyone... coz i feel that he might regret if i... were to say...my condition? argh~ *cries*

oh well what has happen already begun... no point dwelling on it... let's take things a step at a time... if able to progress is a bonus i would say... or am i too soft to not let all this happen... sigh~ how much do i wanna know, how much do i wanna hold back... protecting myself neglecting the other party?? am i selfish... or just, still do not have that kind of faith in guys... many doubts and many questionable areas which would eventually affect the overall conclusion?!? Yes, i do not deny the fact that i'm quite happy when i receive his sms-es or call but still.. but still why do i feel so weird?