life in transit.

OK feeling upset (I only have four emotions – happy, upset, confused and angsty) because I cannot unlink my bloody WordPress from/to Facebook. I don’t need anyone to know I have updated my blog maybe that was 10years old that I craved for traffic to my lonesome blog but now I am 10 years older I refuse to let anyone in now. Alternatively I could lock this up but then again I miss those good old days when strangers write nice comments or ask weird questions about my unbehaving past.

I don’t know how long I will keep up with these updates going. I feel like I have a lot of inner things to say but I am repeating it now because I talk daily to Mouse about everything under the sun even the wedgies in my panty. I know too much information, that’s what you get from reading my blog. Like xiaxue says, don’t like don’t read.

I am just putting up my legs up on the chair now at work not because I am like lazy or what (I am lazy) but my knee is still hurting me. I should see a Dr should I? But I feel like its a small thing like no big deal I shouldn’t be wasting their time to see such a minor injury of cos we won’t know its minor until they subtly brush us off. But what if I tore my meniscus? But I am not in such a great deal of pain only when I make uncalculated movements and like when I am limping away.. Pain is soooo subjective.

We are going to Tetsuya. If you don’t know tetsuya its OK I didn’t know too but you can google. Not sure if its worth the price but we will go anyway. It is for our 5th year anniversary. After all that’s happened in between, I was discounted to 5months. Lame like my leg but whatever lah we know can already lah.

If you made it through to this sentence here you are officially like boring like I am.

OMG I just realized that my last entry (before the recent one) was also about TJJN. Fuck you fat bitch I like think of you quite often like mainly sad stuff but yet you tell me you are too busy to visit me. Bitch you are going to get like big ass scolding from me and I would understand if you want to steer clear of my dreams for another 8 years or alternatively you can get it over with when I go to sleep later.

Time to dust this spot for a while.

Its almost a year since I’ve last updated. Terrible. So much for really updates. But I guess no one is actually reading now so that’s fine.

Dreamt about TJJN for a bit and I got very teary in the dream and after that dream, you told me you no longer had the time visit me anyway and that you were busy (?!?) I was like wtf and I was so upset. You visited me like 8years or more ago and argh how dare you say such things and yes you are still fat and chubby. Hate you anyway had a good cry thereafter talking to Mouse. But I am still glad you made your presence despite almost 12years ago I was very important in your life and now I am just a vacation visit bitch.

Reeling a bit from what I’ve typed above. I must maintain and insist the fact that I am truly sane despite spiting a spirit. 

I am feeling sort of above the clouds and skipping on flowers kinda feeling. I had a great holiday with plenty of dancing singing and drinking. I am not a big party person. I used to get drunk at 12am at Avalon and like sleep it off until bitches are ready to go lol. But truly I had fun and I am feeling this contentment inside. So happy that if I have to call Dr. O for anything and get some snarky comments back I would just be..like whatever and skip along the hospital corridors. I am that relaxed.

Now talking about muscle relaxing, I am getting tense trying to get around money, jobs
, housing blah blah adult issues. I am poor and unsatisfied worker. OK unfair statement because technically I get paid way more than I did before and the job is much easier. I am just a bullshit shitfaced grass. I am not getting much. Why can’t I just win that 70million lottery and get some other problems like tax problems or stuff like this.

I am basically just a whining bitch. OK I can’t believe my first post on 2014 is about my amateur adult issues.

I have a crooked knee now because I geikiang limboed during the wedding. Now…something is wrong apparently with the meniscus. I think, I am just wrapping and limping anyway.

I might update further because I get bored really easily.

🙂

waiting for the world to change.

claypot rice coming up! always missing mom when I’m cooking this. oh dad too because of his chilli awesome!