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On Nov.6 of 2024, Donald Trump publicly stated: “Many people have told me that God spared my life [from two assassination attempts] for a reason. And that reason was to save our country and to restore America to greatness.”

The institutional ‘Christians’ who still vocally and politically support Donald Trump tend to see him as literally Godsent. Many also perceive Trump’s presidency as divinely-intended punishment against liberals. If anything, he’s evidence of a great evil being unleashed onto a largely powerless world. If Trump’s presidency does end up boding well for the world overall, I believe it will have been accidental.

Last year, American comedian/actor John Mulaney compared the Trump presidency to a horse that has broken loose inside a hospital: “It’s never happened before. No one knows what the horse is gonna do next, least of all the horse. He’s never been in a hospital. He’s as confused as you are.”

The analogy is very funny, however legitimately worrying. Trump is the very unstable, vengefully angry and self-centered/-serving type willing to take the world for a most brutal spin, perhaps even for the sake of him making it into the historical-‘greatness’ books.

Trump, himself, may not really know what he’s trying to accomplish with attacking Iran. Meanwhile, his lame and immoral idea of creating peace is compelling one side or party that: “You’re not holding any cards.”  However, human beings, both individualistically and collectively, want to feel a sense of self dignity, and therefor Trump’s you’re-not-holding-any-cards likely won’t work.

Yet, many Trump fans still admire him as some sort of genius that resists/challenges the Deep State, etcetera. And there’s “the swamp” that Trump claims he’ll drain — although he himself is a part of it. Since both Trump administrations kowtow(ed) to big fossil fuel, mostly via the recklessly significant loosening of environmental protections, he, far from genuinely trying to “drain the swamp”, actually wallows in it.

A revelatory review (by Geoff Olson, 01/10/2018) of the book The American Deep State: Wall Street, Big Oil and the Attack on U.S. Democracy notes that the book’s author describes big oil CEOs and lobbyists in the U.S. as being a notably large part of the American Deep State.

Therefore, it would be a large part of the national Capitol’s swamp that Trump claims has corrupted D.C. and, ergo, was supposedly seeking to destroy him and his presidency. And then he wades even deeper into the filth by siding with big-money military industrial interests and Netanyahu’s Israel in un-provokedly bombing Iran last summer and again now.

… Then again, is Donald not the first aspartame-abusing U.S. president to have also tried smoking pot but never exhaled?

[BEWARE POTENTIAL SUICIDE TRIGGER]

“Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living and, above all, those who live without love.” (the spirit of school headmaster Albus Dumbledore in ‘Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2’).

I read Sigmund Freud postulated that, regardless of one’s mental health and relative happiness or existential contentment, the ultimate goal of our brain/mind is death’s bliss because of the general stressful nature of our physical existence, i.e. anxiety or “stimuli”. It’s important to clarify, however, that it’s not brain death per se that is the aim but rather the kind of absolute peace that only brain death can offer in this hectic, emotionally turbulent world.

From my understanding, even Buddhism [or is it Zen Buddhism?], which in large part is the positive belief in reincarnation, acknowledges that life generally is suffering or hardship interspersed with far fewer instances of genuine happiness.

Among other things, I cannot recall much of my half-century-plus life, and almost nothing positive, probably because I spend my ‘present’ anxious about my future and depressed over my past. … It would be great if some valuable academic or clinical use could come from it — to create or extract from it some practical positivity and purpose — a.k.a. ‘meaning’ — so that all of the pain will not have been in vain.

More realistically for many of us, however, is that the greatest gift life offers is that someday, preferably soon, we get to die — however frightening an anticipation/event death itself will likely be due to its total unknown and finality.

When suicide is simply not an option, it basically means there’s little hope of receiving an early reprieve from our literal life sentence.

Ergo, the following:

__ 

I awoke from another very bad dream, yet another horrid reincarnation nightmare

where having blessedly died I’m nonetheless bullied towards rebirth back into human form

despite my pleas I be allowed to rest in permanent peace.

My bed wet from sweat, I futilely try to convince my dysthymic and traumatized brain

that I truly want to live, the same brain displacing me from the functional world.

.

Within my nightmare a mob encircles me and insists that life, including mine,

is a blessing.

I ask them for the blessed purpose of my continuance. I insist

upon a practical purpose!

Give me a real purpose, I cry out, and it’s not enough simply to live

nor that it’s a beautiful sunny day with colorful fragrant flowers!

.

I’m tormented hourly by my desire for emotional, material and creative gain

that ultimately matters naught, I explain. My own mind brutalizes me like it has

a sadistic mind of its own.

I must have a progressive reason for this harsh endurance!

Bewildered they warn that one day on my death bed I’ll regret my ingratitude

and that I’m about to lose my life.

I counter that I cannot mourn the loss of something I never really had

so I’m unlikely to dread parting from it.

.

Frustrated they say that moments from death I’ll clamor and claw for life

like a bridge jumper instinctively flailing his limbs as though to grasp at something

anything that may delay his imminent thrust into the eternal abyss.

They also tell me my incarnation may be an easier existence due to my suffering in the preceding life.

.

But how can that be? I retort. It’s the same world, regardless — Hell on Earth!  

.

They wonder how I can in good conscience morosely hate my life

while many who love theirs lose it so soon.

Angry I reply that people bewail the ‘unfair’ untimely deaths of the young who’ve received early reprieve from their life sentence,

people who must remain behind corporeally confined

yet do their utmost to complete their entire life sentence — even more if they could!

.

The vexed mob then curse me with envy for rejecting what they’d kill for — continued life through unending rebirth.

“Then why don’t you just kill yourself?” they yell,

to which I retort “I would if I could. My life sentence is made all the more oppressive by my inability to take my own life.”

“Then we’ll do it for you.” As their circle closes on me, I wake up.

.

Could there be people who immensely suffer yet convince themselves

they sincerely want to live when in fact they don’t want to die,

so great is their fear of Death’s unknown?

.

No one should ever have to repeat and suffer again a single second of sorrow that passes.

Nay, I will engage and embrace the dying of my blight!

There are many Jews/Semites who are vocally condemning the/their nation’s prolonged and heartless IDF onslaught (e.g. Dr. Gabor Mate). Also, I read about one of the Jews killed on October 7, 2023, who was a pro-Palestinian activist and therefore a recipient of poetic in-justice.

I’ve long been, and still am, vocally critical of the clear decades-long maltreatment of and large-scale violence against (to put it mildly) the general Palestinian populace by the Israeli government and security/defense agencies. But I was pleasantly surprised at reading the cutline below the large photo accompanying a June 26, 2025 story (headlined “UK’s largest Jewish group punishes members who broke silence on Gaza genocide”) posted on the Middle East Monitor’s website: 

“A young Charedi Orthodox Jew holds a placard during the demonstration. Orthodox Charedi Jews joined many thousands of pro-Palestinian protestors outside Downing Street accusing Israel and Zionists of genocide in Gaza.”

It really must be difficult for decent Jews/Semites with such a strong conscience when they publicly denounce Israel’s atrocities and are then denounced and referred to as “self-hating” by the extreme-Zionism powers, likely in large part to try shaming them into self-censoring.  

They may see that all lives and needless suffering should matter to us all, yet that’s much easier for a conscience to dismiss when one considers another an innately lower lifeform who also looks different. As a ‘gentile’, I can only try to imagine how I would act if in their position; if I could be as conscientiously strong-willed and brave. 

I also read not long ago that there has been an increase in the rate of suicide among younger or teenaged Jews/Semites since 10/7/23. I find it hard not to feel for them, as they (likely) didn’t ask for the horrors that have happened or are currently happening.

Particularly concerning about all of the highly publicized two-way partisan exchanges of verbal fury, especially via social media, is: What will young non-Israeli Jewish, and Palestinian, children living abroad think and feel if/when they hear such misdirected vile hatred towards their fundamental identity? Scary is the real possibility that such public outpour of blind hatred may lead some young people or even children to feel misplaced shame in their heritage.

In the past but apparently now more than ever, the Palestinian-Israeli conflict has seen undeniably widespread partisanship via Internet and news commentary. The politics of polarization outside of Israel and even the Middle East, perhaps in part for its own sake, has gotten quite disturbing.  

Within social media especially, the angry and thoughtless two-dimensional views have been especially amplified, including the majority posted by non-Jews and non-Palestinians. It all arouses a spectator-sport effect or mentality, with many contemptible trolls residing well outside the region yet actively supporting the ‘side’ [via politicized commentary posts] that they hate less. 

I anticipate many actually kept/keep track of the bloody match by checking the day’s-end death-toll score, however extremely lopsided those numbers.

Largely relevant to the worldly social and political turmoil are the words of American sociologist Stanley Milgram (1933-1984), of Obedience Experiments fame/infamy: “It may be that we are puppets — puppets controlled by the strings of society. But at least we are puppets with perception [and] awareness. And perhaps our awareness is the first step to our liberation.” 

There’s relatively little compassion in the world when compared to the very plentiful anger or rage. I’ve noticed myself getting angrier over the last few years, especially about domestic and global injustices, or at least how I perceive them as such. Maybe my anger is largely related to the Internet’s ‘angry algorithm’ sending me the stories, etcetera, it has (unfortunately correctly) calculated will successfully agitate me into keeping the (I believe, overall societally-/socially-damaging) process going thus maximizing the number of clicks/scrolls I’ll provide it to sell to product advertisers. 

At least as individuals, we can try to resist flawed human nature thus behavior, however societally normalized it may be, once we become aware of its potential within ourselves. Once cognizant of it, perhaps enough of us could instead perform truly humane acts in sufficient quantity to initiate positive change on a large(r) scale.

In the meantime, everybody panic — there’s no reason to stay calm!

Seriously, the human race needs a unifying existential/fate-determining common cause; so much so that an Earth-impacting asteroid threat or, better yet, a vicious extraterrestrial attack may be what we have to collectively brutally endure together in order to survive the longer term from ourselves. 

Humanity would unite for the first time and defend against, attack and eventually defeat the humanicidal multi-tentacled ETs, the latter needing to be an even greater nemesis than our own formidably divisive politics and (mis)perceptions of irreconcilable differences — especially those involving religion, nationality and race. 

Yet, maybe a half-century later when all traces of the nightmarish ET invasion are gone, we’ll inevitably revert to those same politics to which we humans seem so collectively hopelessly prone — including the politics of scale. And, yet once again, we slide downwards.

QUOTES to NOTE on MENTAL HEALTH CARE UN-AFFORDABILITY:

_______

“We’re told, endlessly, to talk about our mental health, but so much of it is just hot air.”

.

“But until we talk about how much it costs us all individually, we’re not going to go far collectively toward making mental health services affordable and accessible for all.”

.

“If our health-care system is going to seriously tackle the mental-health crisis, and if it’s going to fulfill its legislated pledge of universality, that has to change.”

.

“It’s a godawful cycle: The poorer you are, the less likely you are to be in a position to afford private care. The more you suffer from a debilitating illness, the less able you are to do the grinding work of advocating for yourself. There’s a chapter heading in journalist Anna Mehler Paperny’s invaluable new book on living with depression that sums it up: Mental Health is for Rich People.”

.

“‘As far as national chauvinisms go, Canada loves being The One With Universal Health Care. But if your illness is in your brain, that universality is a lie’, Ms. Paperny writes in Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me: Depression in the First Person”

.

“If you don’t want mental wellness to remain the purview of the privileged, if you don’t want poverty to doom people to debilitating anguish, you need to cover pharmacotherapy and psychotherapy like you mean it. Universally. For everyone.”

.

“Right now, only 7.2 per cent of health-care spending goes to mental health.”

[BEWARE POTENTIAL SUICIDE TRIGGER]

“Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living and, above all, those who live without love.” (the spirit of school headmaster Albus Dumbledore in ‘Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2’).

I read Sigmund Freud postulated that, regardless of one’s mental health and relative happiness or existential contentment, the ultimate goal of our brain/mind is death’s bliss because of the general stressful nature of our physical existence, i.e. anxiety or “stimuli”. It’s important to clarify, however, that it’s not brain death per se that is the aim but rather the kind of absolute peace that only brain death can offer in this hectic, emotionally turbulent world.

From my understanding, even Buddhism [or is it Zen Buddhism?], which in large part is the positive belief in reincarnation, acknowledges that life generally is suffering or hardship interspersed with far fewer instances of genuine happiness.

Among other things, I cannot recall much of my half-century-plus life, and almost nothing positive, probably because I spend my ‘present’ anxious about my future and depressed over my past. … It would be great if some valuable academic or clinical use could come from it — to create or extract from it some practical positivity and purpose — a.k.a. ‘meaning’ — so that all of the pain will not have been in vain.

More realistically for many of us, however, is that the greatest gift life offers is that someday, preferably soon, we get to die — however frightening an anticipation/event death itself will likely be due to its total unknown and finality.

When suicide is simply not an option, it basically means there’s little hope of receiving an early reprieve from our literal life sentence.

Ergo, the following:

__ 

I awoke from another very bad dream, yet another horrid reincarnation nightmare

where having blessedly died I’m nonetheless bullied towards rebirth back into human form

despite my pleas I be allowed to rest in permanent peace.

My bed wet from sweat, I futilely try to convince my dysthymic and traumatized brain

that I truly want to live, the same brain displacing me from the functional world.

.

Within my nightmare a mob encircles me and insists that life, including mine,

is a blessing.

I ask them for the blessed purpose of my continuance. I insist

upon a practical purpose!

Give me a real purpose, I cry out, and it’s not enough simply to live

nor that it’s a beautiful sunny day with colorful fragrant flowers!

.

I’m tormented hourly by my desire for emotional, material and creative gain

that ultimately matters naught, I explain. My own mind brutalizes me like it has

a sadistic mind of its own.

I must have a progressive reason for this harsh endurance!

Bewildered they warn that one day on my death bed I’ll regret my ingratitude

and that I’m about to lose my life.

I counter that I cannot mourn the loss of something I never really had

so I’m unlikely to dread parting from it.

.

Frustrated they say that moments from death I’ll clamor and claw for life

like a bridge jumper instinctively flailing his limbs as though to grasp at something

anything that may delay his imminent thrust into the eternal abyss.

They also tell me my incarnation may be an easier existence due to my suffering in the preceding life.

.

But how can that be? I retort. It’s the same world, regardless — Hell on Earth!  

.

They wonder how I can in good conscience morosely hate my life

while many who love theirs lose it so soon.

Angry I reply that people bewail the ‘unfair’ untimely deaths of the young who’ve received early reprieve from their life sentence,

people who must remain behind corporeally confined

yet do their utmost to complete their entire life sentence — even more if they could!

.

The vexed mob then curse me with envy for rejecting what they’d kill for — continued life through unending rebirth.

“Then why don’t you just kill yourself?” they yell,

to which I retort “I would if I could. My life sentence is made all the more oppressive by my inability to take my own life.”

“Then we’ll do it for you.” As their circle closes on me, I wake up.

.

Could there be people who immensely suffer yet convince themselves

they sincerely want to live when in fact they don’t want to die,

so great is their fear of Death’s unknown?

.

No one should ever have to repeat and suffer again a single second of sorrow that passes.

Nay, I will engage and embrace the dying of my blight!

___

BTW: By definition, I’m actually not suicidal.

Significantly, there are many Jews/Semites who are vocally condemning the/their nation’s prolonged and heartless IDF onslaught (e.g. Dr. Gabor Mate). Also, I read about one of the Jews killed on October 7, 2023, who was a pro-Palestinian activist and therefore a recipient of poetic in-justice.

I’ve long been, and still am, vocally critical of the clear decades-long maltreatment of and large-scale violence against (to put it mildly) the general Palestinian populace by the Israeli government and security/defense agencies. But I was pleasantly surprised at reading the cutline below the large photo accompanying a June 26, 2025 story (headlined “UK’s largest Jewish group punishes members who broke silence on Gaza genocide”) posted on the Middle East Monitor’s website: 

“A young Charedi Orthodox Jew holds a placard during the demonstration. Orthodox Charedi Jews joined many thousands of pro-Palestinian protestors outside Downing Street accusing Israel and Zionists of genocide in Gaza.”

It really must be difficult for decent Jews/Semites with such a strong conscience when they publicly denounce Israel’s atrocities and are then denounced and referred to as “self-hating” by the extreme-Zionism powers, likely in large part to try shaming them into self-censoring.  

They may see that all lives and needless suffering should matter to us all, yet that’s much easier for a conscience to dismiss when one considers another an innately lower lifeform who also looks different. As a ‘gentile’, I can only try to imagine how I would act if in their position; if I could be as conscientiously strong-willed and brave. 

I also read not long ago that there has been an increase in the rate of suicide among younger or teenaged Jews/Semites since 10/7/23. I find it hard not to feel for them, as they (likely) didn’t ask for the horrors that have happened or are currently happening.

Particularly concerning about all of the highly publicized two-way partisan exchanges of verbal fury, especially via social media, is: What will young non-Israeli Jewish, and Palestinian, children living abroad think and feel if/when they hear such misdirected vile hatred towards their fundamental identity? Scary is the real possibility that such public outpour of blind hatred may lead some young people or even children to feel misplaced shame in their heritage.

In the past but apparently now more than ever, the Palestinian-Israeli conflict has seen undeniably widespread partisanship via Internet and news commentary. The politics of polarization outside of Israel and even the Middle East, perhaps in part for its own sake, has gotten quite disturbing.  

Within social media especially, the angry and thoughtless two-dimensional views have been especially amplified, including the majority posted by non-Jews and non-Palestinians. It all arouses a spectator-sport effect or mentality, with many contemptible trolls residing well outside the region yet actively supporting the ‘side’ [via politicized commentary posts] that they hate less. 

I anticipate many actually kept/keep track of the bloody match by checking the day’s-end death-toll score, however extremely lopsided those numbers.

As a species, we can be so heavily preoccupied with our own individual little worlds, however overwhelming to us, that we will still miss the biggest of crucial pictures. And it seems this distinct form of societal penny-wisdom but pound-foolishness is a very unfortunate human characteristic that’s likely with us to stay.

Unfortunately, in large part due to Earth’s enormous size, there is a general obliviousness, if not a willful carelessness, towards the vast natural environment. There’s a continuance of polluting with a business-as-usual attitude. Societally, we still discharge pollutants like it’s all absorbed into the environment without repercussion.

Too many people continue throwing non-biodegradable garbage down a dark chute or flush pollutants down toilet/sink drainage pipes as though they’re inconsequentially dispensing that waste into a black-hole singularity where it’s safely compressed into nothing. And then there are the corporate-scale toxic-contaminant spills in rarely visited wilderness. Out of sight, out of mind.

Meantime, astronauts typically express awe and even love for the beautiful Earth below while they’re in orbit. I wonder how they feel when seeing the immense consequential pollution from raging massive forest/brush fires?

Like the firestorm that viciously consumed a large swath of Los Angeles in January, 2025? And the largely-Canadian forest fires that choke the air with health-damaging particulates every year basically due to human-caused global warming?

I also wonder if a large portion of the planet’s most freely-polluting corporate CEOs, governing leaders and over-consuming/disposing individuals were rocketed far enough above the earth for a day’s (or more) orbit, while looking down, would the view have a sufficiently profound effect on them to change their political/financial support of, most notably, the environment-destroying fossil fuel industry?

Nevertheless, it must be convenient for big industry’s profit interests when neo-liberals and conservatives remain overly preoccupied with vocally criticizing one another for their relatively trivial politics and therefore divert attention away from some of the planet’s greatest polluters and pollution, where it should and needs to be sharply focused. … Albeit, ‘conservatives’ are generally more willing to pollute the planet most liberally.

While children with ‘low-functioning’ ASD, male or female, seem to be more recognizable thus treated in school systems, high-er functioning ASD students — who tend to not exhibit the more overt, debilitating symptoms of autism — are more likely to be left to fend for themselves, except if their parents can finance specialized education. 

The combination of my CPTSD and ASD was often mistaken for ADHD during grade school, for which I was shamed and scolded. … As a boy with an undiagnosed autism spectrum disorder, my public-school Grade 2 teacher was the first and most formidably abusive authority figure with whom I was terrifyingly trapped. Though there were other terrible teachers, for me she was uniquely traumatizing, especially when she wore her large, dark sunglasses when dealing with me.

Rather than tell anyone about my ordeal with her and consciously feel victimized, I instead felt some misplaced shame: I was a ‘difficult’ boy, therefore she likely perceived me as somehow ‘deserving it’. But not being mentally, let alone physically, abused within or by an educational system is definitely a moral right; I was simply unable to see this.

Perhaps schoolteachers should receive training in high-er functioning ASD, especially if the rate of autism diagnoses is increasing. There could also be an inclusion in standard high school curriculum of child-development science that would also teach students about the often-debilitating condition.

Neurodiversity lessons, while not overly complicated or extensive, might help reduce the incidence of chronic bullying against such vulnerable students. It would explain to students how, among other aspects of the condition, people with high-er functioning ASD are often deemed willfully ‘difficult’ and socially incongruent, when in fact such behavior is really not a ‘choice’.

It would also elucidate how “camouflaging” or “masking,” terms used to describe higher-functioning ASD people pretending to naturally fit into a socially ‘normal’ environment, causes their already high anxiety and depression levels to further increase. And that this exacerbation is reflected in the disproportionately elevated rate of suicide among them.

For a good example of blameworthy legacy news-media manufacturing public consent for an unethical and immoral bloody invasion and occupation, one need only consider the neoliberal New York Times helping create the Iraq War — a ‘war’ that was blatantly unjust and essentially one-sided in firepower — through then-VP Dick Cheney’s anonymous and knowingly-false claims that Iraq had weapons of mass destruction. (By “neoliberal” I mean progressive in regard to basically following “woke” ideology: that of race, sexuality, gender and gender-bending.)

After the severe damage was done, the Times claimed honest-ignorance innocence on the grounds that it was its blogger’s overzealousness that was really at fault. The same Times that otherwise insists upon securing the non-publishable yet accurate identity of its writers’ anonymous information sources.

Also, quite memorable was popular Times columnist Thomas L. Friedman’s appearance on Charlie Rose’s show (May 29, 2003), where he ranted about the war’s justification and supposed success:

“… And what we needed to do was to go over to that part of the world and burst that bubble. We needed to go over there basically, uhm, and, uh, uhm, take out a very big stick, right in the heart of that world and burst that bubble. And there was only one way to do it because part of that bubble said ‘we’ve got you’ this bubble is actually going to level the balance of power between us and you because we don’t care about life, we’re ready to sacrifice and all you care about is your stock options and your hummers.

“… And what they needed to see was American boys and girls going house to house from Basra to Baghdad, uhm, and basically saying which part of this sentence don’t you understand. You don’t think we care about our open society, you think this bubble fantasy we’re going to just let it go, well suck on this. Ok. That, Charlie, was what this war was about. We could have hit Saudi Arabia. It was part of that bubble. We could have hit Pakistan. We hit Iraq, because we could. And that’s the real truth.”

Potential translation: ‘Just to be on the safe side, let’s error in favor of militarily assaulting, invading and devastating Iraq, then likely looting their untapped fossil fuel reserves.’ … What astonishes me is how such pro-War news-media professionals can afterwards sleep at night or look their little children/grandchildren in the face everyday.

But, from another perspective, the Times may have jumped on the atrocity-prone Iraq-invasion bandwagon due to their close proximity to the massive 9/11 blow the city took only a few years prior. And there was plenty of that particularly bitter bandwagon going around in Western circles back then.

P.S. History must also give some blame for the blatantly immoral and unethical Iraq War to Israel’s current prime minister, Benjamin Netanyahu, which is not even his real surname (it’s Mileikowsky). In 2002 he implored the United States Congress to invade Iraq because, he alleged, Baghdad was developing weapons of mass destruction. This, of course, turned out to be un-true; however, the brutal damage had largely already been done, mostly to innocent Iraqi men, women and children. More recently, he’s pulled the same stunt with Iran’s nuclear energy production.