What seems to be the only way out now is avoiding.

The ugly truth.

The pain.

Everything.

As I was sitting down staring blankly at the walls around me, memories start filling my head.

Memories that is carved upon my heart.

Memories that I'll bring along with me to my grave.

And even to my afterlife.

If only a genie would pop out of his lamp right now, I'll ask him to bring me back to when I was 15. Yes, my form 3 life. The year that I have to go through PMR. The year that everyone seems to have high expectations from you. The year that everybody things that you should be studying 24/7.

Don't ask me why I choose to go back to when I was 15 out of these 16 years. Thats the irony that I myself can't answer. Lol. It's just that the year 2009 brings a lot of significance to my life. And the things I did last year, all the crazy and stupid things I did last year is still so distinctive. So transcendent. HEE.

And most importantly, the people who I spent the year with. The outrageous and nonsensical friends of mine. :) The people who are part of the memories that is sown within me. Okay, I'm not trying to say that I'll forget those of you whom I didn't spend time with last year. NO OKAY. :) Thats not what I mean.

Wowkay, this is all for now yo. Bejeweled is calling out for me. :D

She is a girl. She has feelings. She overeact. She underestimates. She overestimates. She over thinks everything. She looks too deep to everything's meaning. She dreams big. Her expectations are high. She can tell when she is being lied to but sometimes wishes that she doesn't. Yes, she gets jealous and she's always scared she'll lose you. Thats why when she asks you how are you she means it. When she asks you how was your day, she genuinely wants to know. And when she says she loves you, she really means it.

It's getting so routined.

Been patient with it for a very long time.

Hence,

I. Am. Done. With. Everything.

Okay, thats about it. :)