MEANINGLESS RAMBLINGS....

remember i said 2007 was a really bad year with super suay luck? its new years eve and i have been having diarrhea (over 10 times) since 4am in the morning. I vomited once and vomited water twice. I went to see doctor but the medicine doesnt seem to be working..... and i am upset to say that i will be staying at home on freaking New Years Eve, severely dehydrated and tired, but i cant seem to go to sleep.....

2007. One year. 12 months. 52 weeks. 365 days. 525600 mins.

I sort of hate 2007. Despite it being one of the more eventful year of my life. i got to go to france... and met a bunch of wonderful people. I got to live by myself (if you take the snoring roomate out of the equation), and realised i am more independant than i really am. I manage to get myself out of the shit i encountered overseas.... and then shit that happened when i came back home.

But it's been a tiring year, with bad luck bombarding me one after another. and i feel listless and restless and lethargic most of the time. Nothing i have done is REALLY rewarding and i'm not exactly proud of anything and it feels like i have wasted a year... or maybe i'm not giving myself enuff credit. Argh i dunno.

I've never felt lonelier and in retrospect, i've only got myself to blame. Somehow i have this inate talent of shutting myself from the rest of the world and still feel ok. With my super winsome personality and top it off with a face thats perpetually black. Argh. Its not my fault that i have nothing to smile about. Whats there to happy about??? Zilch. Rien. Nada.

And what's there to look forward to in 2008? Work. NICE. absolutely looking forward to THAT.

I need a booster. i need to FIND my booster. I need to stop sitting on my ass. I need to start writing my interim report for my FYP which is NOT GOING ANYWHERE. I need to send out more resumes because no one seems to be interested in a "expected 2nd lower honours" loser. I need to dance. I need to work out. I need to smile more. I need to... stop whining.

Merry Christmas. And have a happy fucking new year to all.

i am SWARMED with so many things i cant breathe.... oh did i mention its the holidays?

My interview went horribly, as expected. Couldnt think fast enuff even thou they asked easy questions.... it's like my mouth just blurted out random words, hoping they wud make a sentence by itself..... and i'm almost certain i sounded like a retard. I just wanted to dig a hole and hide my face in it there and then. SO SO BAD. Hopefully its just the first interview thats so awful.....

Did a written test for some department for Mindef. Quite fun. Thou i'm quite sure i am not supposed to post anything about it online.... so i wun talk about it. Just that it's probably not the job for me if i'm required to write Political Science papers every single day... i wud probably DIE.

Dance camp was fun but mega tiring.....my whole body is aching like shit. Somehow i think i cant absorb dance steps as fast as i did last time.... like the MAX i can take in is 8 8s per day if not its overload....

The whole routine of half yearly meetups are repeating yet again and i cant wait. WOOTS!

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Dont get nightmares over it thou.... HAHA!!

1. Exams are over.... and so is one semester of lackluster performance. And that means one more sem and i'll be SO done with school.

2. Funka meetings so far has been pretty productive.... the song is finally (almost) out... and now comes the tough part. Cant believe i made myself choreo.... even thou i specifically said i didnt want to.... massively looking thru youtube videos so i can come out with something decent to erase past memories of a horrific performance

3. and i got my FIRST JOB INTERVIEW with URA!!!! SCORE!!! hahaha. Its only contract basis thou.... hopefully i wun screw up too badly during the interview and appear like a COMPLETE fool. Frantically looking thru URA's website in hopes of looking more intelligent on Wednesday. Cross your fingers for me at 3.10pm haha.

4. Just received email regarding FYP submission and first presentation.... Have to hand in 5 page summary of what i have done so far on Jan 14. KAN NI NA>..... now is a good time to start panicking...... WHY WHY WHy during the semester i am so free.... den during holidays i am so much busier!!!

5. Still looking for my ideal job, still flipping Straits Times Recruits section like mad.... why arent the hotels having management trainee programs??!! ARGH... thats my dream job

6. Dance camp next week.... cant wait.

i havent been to the movies in a bloody long time.... in fact the last movie i saw was License to Wed....which i am too embarrassed even to say it here.... Which was why i was super excited to have come chanced upon 2 Days in Paris, thanks to my trusty 8 days. Directed, written and edited by Julie Delpy of Before Sunrise/Sunset fame, this shizz is Literally laughed out loud funny!!! And i watched it online.... so it's free... HAHAH but do watch it in the cinema (only The Cathay is playing it) cause there arent any subtitles for the French speaking parts of the film (which is about half the time in the movie).....

Aye watching this movie made me think of France again..... I LOVE FRANCE, despite the shitloads of crap i've experienced there, no thanks to the administration and people. It the mere fact that i was immersed in a culture totally different from Singapore that made it so special, and memorable. Anyway, i leave you with the trailer to 2 Days in Paris

My Saturday nite was spent youtube-ing music videos of boybands of yesteryears. From the usual suspects like BSB and Nsync to the lesser known ones like 5ive, 911 and Code Red. Nostlagia came flooding back to me... with all the funky dance moves and floppy hair (but unfortunately cheesy outfits that consist of tight sleeveless tees and sweat pants). I remembered having to squeeze out a dance choreo for NSYNC's "It's tearing up my Heart" for my VJ's orientation performance in one nite.... which turned out to be GOD AWFUL and the days when carol and skee splattered their files with posters of 911 and Code Red. Oh good god, i'm old.

Good times man.

On my bday itself, we went to my sister's place at Seng Kang for the first time... to pray and stuff. Waited for the fengshui master to come... wait until leg pain cos nowhere to sit. Notice the agony on my face

It's been a long time since i've look forward to growing older and partied this hard... probably because i'm so free i got nothing to think about. Dinner, clubbing, surprise after surpise celebrations, and more clubbing.... haha i dun think i even did so much for my 21st..... THANKS to all my friends for the wonderful surprises, appreciate it very much. in the meantime, here are some pictures from last nite!

Zouk on the eve of Deepavali..... BAD IDEA. Half the Singapore population thought it was a good idea to go clubbing on the same night, and its as if Zouk was the only place open in the entire country. The line to Velvet snaked all the way to the basement carpark of Copthorne and the line to Zouk and Phuture went all the way to the bloody canal. How crazy is that. I arrived at 945pm and only got in at 11pm. And it freaking cover charge at Velvet was 30 for guys and 20 for girls.... EARN LIKE CRAZY MAN!!! and that doesnt include the copious amounts of alcohol people buy!!

And thats not the worst part... they started playing Ye Lai Xiang, Cha Cham Bo and Veneru Valiba..... the Indians present must have hyperventilated. And the best way to get over the horrendous music ..... alcohol. Tequila, Vodka, Rhum, Whisky, Gin and Beer all mixed into one tummy.... i was officially smashed by 230am. And talking incessantly on MSN after i ger drunk seems to be the latest way i like embarrassing myself. Aye. Who's turning 24 again?!

They are baaaaack!!! one million YAYs!! haha. Thou the song hasnt grown on me yet, and its a cheesy pop ballad (shouldnt an up tempo song be more appropriate for a comeback?!)... i'm just excited they are back together for now!

1. I figured since my ippt window was almost up, i'd better take it before getting charged even thou i didnt actually train for it cept for the the last minute running sessions 3 weeks before. And i still managed to get 100bucks!! haha. i was hoping i cud use all my gu lat to do more pullups, but i guessed i've passed my prime and getting silver was wishful thinking on my part. i only managed 6 1/2 pullups haha. So embarrassing.

Quite amazed with the whole automated setup now.... DAMN COOL!!! u just put the tag on the floor, and do situps whenever you are ready, and the screen in fronts flashes the number of seconds left and a voice calls out the no of situps you have done!! macam like automated telephone operator service. HAHA!!

2. Exams are round the corner but i still have projects, assignments, presentation and FYP to worry about. EEeeks. so much for having only 2 modules this sem.

3. Freakish weather. Super cloudy in the morning, then sun out for 2 hours and just when i was about to go for a swim, the temperature dropped a couple of degrees again. Aye.

4. Been getting a couple of comments that i have a black, sometimes a too-cool-to-care face. Really meh>?? i'm just born that way. i am FRENLY!!! right?! and there's nothing to smile about 24/7 anyway.

5. Met up with Seeyong, Song yao and Edina for dinner the other nite. Good times. Old frens are still better...

6. and supper with Aili, Jp and Yunn. Woots! Who said my social life was non-existant?! hehs

7. Looking forward to dinner next tuesday to celebrate my birthday! yay! Turning 24, but non the wiser. Whatever.

Peace out

Sobz, my 4th and final culture night. I cant believe i've done this 4 times. i dun think anyone else has managed to even my record.... aye. from jazz to year 1, to salsa in year 2, contemp in year 3 and funk in year 4. i guess i'm really previleged eh? And i just realised i dun have any photos of my previous years culture nite.... mainly because my comp crashed a couple of times before i could back them up.... so please if u have any of my photos SEND ME NOW!

2 more dance events and i will officially retire from the KR Dance scene. Funka and DU! WOOTS cant wait....

Sorry for the serious lack of updates.... not in the mood to do anything really. been semi busy..... busy with the stupidest things like going swimming, hence the super cao da look. And practising for culture nite..... so unsatisfied with the current state of everything.... but really no energy to change the status quo....

and i realised this blog has serious issues of having too many words and zero photos....

I was on the the bus on the way to the pool this afternoon and suddenly i overheard a very familiar language being spoken from behind me.... 2 exchange students were speaking french and i was like AWWWWW!!! I MISS FRENCH SO MUCH!!! which is wierd cos i hated it when i was in france, the constant need to have to think before speaking.... but now i wished i had someone to converse french with....

and i was so happy i could understand what they were talking about after like 3 months of not speaking the language. Goes to show i did learn something in france. And that xiaowen had to rub salt with pictures of lyon splashed all over her photos.... oh man, those painted walls of croix rousse.... how i've missed them. AYEEEEEEEE

met up with the girls today. always feel happy meeting up with them... cos they will keep blasting me on my seriously lack of GK (general knowledge) and lack of ambition...AYEEEEE. which i like cos it brings me back to reality and push me to not be so..... nua.

and i was shocked beyond words that one of my frens proposed to his girlfren after 3 days of dating... thats like a recipe for disaster man. crazy!!!

haha oh a lighter note, my just bought a new fujitsu laptop!! so exciting!!! but still not used to windows vista and office 07....

i was asked to update my blog more regularly by a certain someone in Germany.... but the thing is, there arent any news to update, besides reporting what i did today...the number of times i went to the loo, what i ate and what time i slept. Wow. Life in Singapore is so DARN exciting.

1. this is pretty muh old news but i did some lifeguard job for my fren whose fren (isnt something ALWAYS about a fren's fren?) was doing some biathalon training at East Coast. We were supposed to be on kayaks.... but apparently the kayak shop closed down and the nearest one was 3 km away at People's Assoc. So what was supposed to be quite a leisure job turned out to be damn fucking shiong. And i was thinking "great, its drizzling...the water must be freezing" but thankfully it was quite warm.

We ended up swimming and threading water 3/4 of the time in the middle of the ocean at the damn buoys. After what seems like eternity (more like 4hours) my fingers and toes ended up wrinkly and super unglam. But it did earn me 60 bucks and re-ignited my passion for swimming and tanning. Which was why i have swam at the SRC pool since then! Woots! the beach boy's back!

2. I finally met my prof with my proposal for my FYP. He thinks its quite good...i think i am in for some major shit. For i have to go do interviews and surveys with real life construction industry people and he seems to give zero hint that he will help me look for some. So basically i have to go source for people myself..... Aye. Sometimes i wished people would like give directions. i cant work on my own.... Just tell me what to do and i will do it.... i hate being out there in the unknown, dunno whats the direction, dunno where i'm heading. But i guess thats how things work as we grow older no?

3. I'm gonna start dancing again.... gonna re-perform the senior's performance item at HDB hub in 2 weeks time and thats gonna earn me another 40bucks (i have become an odd job labourer doing all sorts of chap pa lang jobs now that i am no longer teaching tuition. i wonder if i can dump these in my resume... aye. which looks pretty empty under the "work experience" section)....Culture nite practices should start this week too.... shud be quite exciting.

4. i am still not making connection with freshies..... i take too damn long to warm up to people. i dun wanna sound like a big brother all the time... advicing them what to do. Thats so boring and sounds so self-important. i just praying that i'm not some bore who spends most of the time in his room and stare at his computer. Aye.

5. i have been whining and complaining for far too long. i think i should stop

6. errrrr, i think thats about it. Me aside, no one seems to be updating their blogs regularly anymore....not even those overseas people. WE HAVE OFFICIALLY become BORING. Yikes. Shudders.

*latest update
my comp is officially crazy.... it is working again..... why does it have to tease me like this.... make me live in uncertainty and fear..... fear that one morning when i wake up it will show me the blue screen of death again....
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my god i am having the worst computer year EVER..... my comp just crashed again for the 3rd time this sem..... i dunno wat the hell's wrong with it. KAN NI NA!!!! heng i backed up all my work after the horrible incident one week ago.... (wait it hasnt even been one week. that was only5 days back!!!) otherwise i i have to redo my traffic project which i just finished literally minutes ago, i will just break down and CRY!!!! nA BEI!!!! how issit possible that a new hard disk can just crash 2 times in 1 month>??? i dun fucking believe it.

nows a really good time for me to start reading my fyp books since i have 0 entertainment left...

Random youtube-ing led me to remember those days when i was still a geeky teen trying to be hip and cool with copious amounts of gel lumped into my hair,

being the New Kid on the Block changing classes after the first 3months due to my disatrous higher chinese grades,

to the days when david beckham (yes that was 100years ago) came to my school and created such a fiasco and me chasing him around like some mental stalker.... in fact the whole school turned into IMH for one day with crazy pple running around.....

to the days when western food was the only food i'd eat,

when i would actually WANT to wear my tie cos my uniform actually looks the best out of the entire country and is wearable to orchard road,

and of cos to the days when we memorised mass dances as if they were our religion and always look forward to the next opportunity to dance all 6 (i think) out

and then i saw this....



6 years on, and i finally realised VJC massdance actually looks like shit. WAHAHAHA. retarded.

hopefully 10 years from now, future VJCians wun be dancing to the electronic beats of Savage Garden's I Want You.... That would truly be so last millenium and so so tragic. LOL!!!

My final initiation was that of utter chaos, zero respect, no coordination and total lack of discipline, both with the seniors and juniors.... which makes me disappointed. Somehow i can't help but feel disappointed with a lot of things lately in hall.....

and i can't find motivation to do anything these days.... i wished there was a place, like a supermarket that sells motivation and you can buy it and everything will be fine. Seems like i work better with deadlines or when i am super stressed.

big fat sigh

Woots!

1. Life after Design Project has been quite relaxed..... but i still wake up at 8am everyday. Dunno why. I feel guilty if i wake up too late.... Everyday wake up, on computer, look for information for projects, read readings, go for lunch dates, come back for afternoon naps.... maybe exercise. stare the the computer for longer periods of time. haha. exciting right! Next time no one eat lunch with you, please call me

2. Being freer basically means i can go for more career talks.... which has started since school reopened....and i only knew about their existence last week..... But then again i wouldnt have time to go before. And its quite interesting.... Like i was about 1m away from the ex Minister of Finance for Philippines, who is now the Asia Pac chair for Credit Suisse. When he said "i've joined Credit Suisse for about 2 years now. Before that i was the Minister of Finance in the Philippines", you can almost hear the collective gasp in the audience.

Aiyah but then again, the whole LT was filled with heaps and mounts of people, i doubt they will even consider a mediocre student like me.... and i'm not really interested in bank jobs anyway, even thou they pay you copious amounts of money. I'm just hoping the hospitality thing will work out.....

3. Dance Reflections Hybrid performance this Saturday!!! Super excited! In need of some arty farty elements in my life right now.

4. My blogspot account is in CHINESE!!!! i tried changing it but it always comes out the next day!!! WHY????

5. My space bar is semi spoilt. I dunno why god is torturing my beloved comp. First hard disk crashed..... then cd rom drive almost died.....now he is trying to take away my space bar.... boo hoo. so please excuse me if my messages in msn looksomethinglikethis because my space bar is in a semi-conscious state right now....

Yeap thats basically it for now...... reminder: no lunch dates please call me!!! i very free!!!!

Somehow, this was the best combination anyone can have..... great food, fantastic company. That's what i needed. Thanks for coming and hope to see you guys soon again!

Been struggling with the idea of going or not going to D&D this year..... Yes ok fine, it's my final year.... but i hate it that i have to do stuff just because i am final year..... I mean you might as well say.... "oh it's your final EOGM... or It's your final election rally, you HAVE TO GO"..... that's just stupid.

All the signs are pointing to me not to go.... i have lessons on friday till 9 which i dun exactly feel like skipping.... 50bucks plus buying costume stuff after spending nearly 200bucks fixing my comp, erm no thanks. And somehow, i just dun feel like going.....

ok, D&D was fun.... the first 2 times.... but to do it another time would be.... how should i say this.... overkill. I mean i wouldnt even have gone last year if not for the fact that my ex-bitch paid the 50bucks for me..... i just dun get why cant we just wear proper clothes.... Plus i dun think i would be able to top this:

ok.... i think i have made my decision.... i'm.... not going. *shocker* let's just leave it as it is.... SORRY my fellow FYFs. Good luck and have fun!

My girl is back with a vengeance!!! WOots.... althou it sounds like Umbrella with the incessant repeating of words (Umbrella ella ella eh eh eh)... but this song is FIERCE hahah!!!! Loves it!

this is one of the funniest shit i have ever seen....thanks weiwei!~~~~

YAY my Design Project presentation is FINALLY over!!! *big sigh of relief*....phew. after a few days of non stop, midnite burning... we finally managed to compile a losuy first draft and a pretty decent presentation.....I actually cut short my mother's birthday lunch on saturday, came back to school to work with my team members from 1230pm all the way to Sunday 8am.... i nearly fainted. Now we just need to do some changes and we can submit the final draft in!!!! YAY!!!

but big BOOOO to still being laptopless.... the computer room is basically my 2nd home right now. Apparently there is something wrong with my cd/cdrom drive that prevents it from being rebooted. ta ma de. very not used to being without my laptop... its like i'm vulnerable.... and naked... ok maybe not naked but u get my point. Considering buying a new laptop if the repairing costs too much.... see how la.

Been missing out on IBG.... quite a lot. And it saddens me that i am absent from it most of the time... Due to design project and late nite classes, didnt manage to play frisbee one last time.... in fact i only played in year 1 cos Jimmy was nice enuff to put me in court and didnt play in year 2 or 3 simply becos i was too damn lousy at sports.... and not really into IBG as a whole. hmmm oh well.... we can't have everything can we??

Looking forward to thursday for Bash and friday to submit my final draft for the project and then i can kiss my fat ass goodbye to those losers!!!! haha

boo hoo!!!! my laptop crashed since monday nite.... the blue screen of DEATH!!!! busy with work and i havent got the time to really go fix it. My toshiba warranty just ended and the people at toshiba care centre, comp centre and yih keep playing tai-chi until i dunno who to ask for help.....

i have been stuck in KR computer room to do my report for the past few days and surprisingly, its quite a good place to concentrate on doing work, plus 24hrs free aircon!!!

den came chongyunn aka my comp wizard who agreed to help me reboot. BUDDEN!!!! apparently my cd rom drive is spoilt and cannot read my recovery disk!!!! TA MA DE!!!!

now i got a new 40gig hard disk that i just bought but a spoilt cd drive...i dunno what to do liao

Remember the sucky design project i have to do..... remember i said the other 2 groups each have a Dean's Lister? And remember how i said i think i may be the smartest in my group???

i just realised.....one of my team mate has ajaw dropping cap of 3.... and the other has 3rd class right now..... the other malay girl rarely comes for project meetings and always comes up with last minute excuses like "i've got a wedding to attend" or "sorry i can't come today because i have a fever" or "sorry i got an urgent family issue to resolve".... the last guy is a touch rugby IVPlayer and doesnt't seem very smart to me......So i am quite sure yours truly is the smartest guy in the group with a wonderful cap of 3.67.

Some shitty luck i have to get this group man.....

hey.... not dead yet, just super busy.

1. Currently swarmed with super a lot of things to do. Despite the fact that i am only taking 4 modules (FYP, Design Project, 2 level 5 modules), somehow i feel that its more tiring than when i was taking 7 modules. It's only the 2nd week and i already feel like breaking down.

2. The fact that i got assigned to a lousy group for a lousy design project doesnt help much either. Plus i have to produce the design within effectively 3 weeks. And this has made me question my decision to go SEP.... What if i didnt go for SEP, i wouldn't have wasted 6 months in France not studying anything substantial.... i would have taken more Level 3 electives in NUS... and therefore i wouldn't die so badly for design project.

i dunno what the hell is going on in Lab and i'm the only person in the group who hasnt taken the 2 prerequisite modules..... And the rest of my grpmates who DID take those modules are damn CHUI!!!!! the other group has dean's listers and i think i am the smartest in my group.... with a super duper cap of 3.67..... HAIZZZZZ. Lousy grpmates plus pple with lousy attitudes = die very badly. Even if i wanna be on also cannot.....

3. Just finished running probably the last race of my life.... and probably the last IBG game. Old man.... only managed to get 3rd place for the 4 x 100m. Heng someone fell, otherwise i wouldnt have caught up with and get 3rd.... in the end i pulled my hamstring and had to drop out of the medley last minute. OLD MAN!!!!! Wouldnt have time nor the energy nor the talent to participate in the other games... mainly because i dun do ball sports. Damn SMU for taking swimming out of the events this year.... my only time to shine.... has been robbed away from me. sobz.

4. My wing is damn unhappening..... why is my wing always so unhappening??? And someone has smelly feet/shoes. ta ma de

5. Very stressed.

Ok. by the request of Shanny i've decided to post some stuff.... had formal dinner last nite. For the 2nd year consecutive, i had no date. And thats not the worst part.... i can handle not having a date. i hate small talk anyway.... THE WORST PART is.... having a last minute arranged date pang seh you... But then again i cant blame her.... she had a last minute family thing to attend to. Oh wells.... gives me the chance to hang out with the girls and their dates... and i must say everyone looked mighty fine last nite!

And in conjunction with dating game's formal dinner, the entire hall went down to GV Grand/Marina for a lame movie called License to Wed. Lame because it stars Robbin Williams (whose last hit was probably Mrs Doubtfire), Mandy Moore (whose last hit was..... no wait she has no hit) and some unknown guy. Trust the FWOCers to choose such a lame movie to make us watch, the same weekend as Bourne Ultimatum is released. I wouldnt even mind if they made me watch Knocked Up instead.... at lease the reviews were good.

Yeah that's about it. Design Project is literally killing me.... hopefully the next 4 weeks passes by quickly. And it's raining.... nice cool morning. WHich makes me wanna....zzzZZZZ

First day of school.... finally had the long awaited bluestones reunion. 'Cept for the chio french angmoh. It's great to see my project mates again, since basically almost everyone left for IA and Exchange last sem. Munchie Monkeys still rocks.... for NUS standards that is, or maybe i was just too hungry.

Speaking about the French angmoh, she was from the same school and even the same dept i went for SEP in.... wah kaoz damn small world can. She said she has seen me before in class, no thanks to the big yellow water bottle i always put right smack in front of me.... but somehow i dun have any recollection of ever seeing her. Althou i am quite sure i dun suffer from All-French-look-the-same-to-Singaporeans Syndrome (also known as AFLTSTS Syndrome, something i stole from Weiwei's blog), i just dun remember seeing her.

But she's quite nice, and she speaks quite good english. She even commented that Singaporeans are so damn friendly, unlike the French (yes the french blasting their own folks at home.... what TRAVESTY). And me being the nice local who've just experienced some not-so-nice French hospitality decided to be kind and gave her my contacts. My motto this academic year is to be nice to all Exchange Students who look lost and blur.... but somehow that only transcends and applies to Angmohs.... i cant bring myself to be nice to Ah nehs and Ah viets. Ah tiongs maybe still can.

YEah....

Sorry for the lack of updates... been really busy the past 2 weeks. Waking up at 9am, going for Rag Dance Practices... sleeping at 2am everyday and the cycle repeats itself.

Unfortunately, my final year of Rag was not a successful one.... didn't win any major awards (damn those Sheares bitches) nor did i enjoy myself very much during practices... dunno why. Probably because of the generation gap.... or the fact that i am the oldest rag dancer...

i remember last year when Emily and i were back in the float after finishing dancing, we were practically screaming and yelling in joy and euphoria that we did it.... but i felt nothing this year.... like seriously nothing. i was just glad it's over....ok i should stop harping about the fact that i am old when i am not even 24 and stop all these negativity.

School starts tomorrow and i am sort of excited... but it doesnt feel like it's starting... mainly because my ivle is super empty.... and so is my timetable. Seems like i only have lessons on Monday and Fridays. Ahhhh the life of a final year student.

Going to chiong next wednesday with th girls. Quite excited. other than that, my life is almost as mundane as i left it half a year ago. i leave you now with a picture of the KR Flight.

oh man i had no idea i already past the 200th mark.... which is good.

Currently busy with Orientation.... my 4th orientation. Very bored with it.... Have been doing the same thing for 4 freaking years. Creativity pple CREATIVITY!!!! i dun even give a flying eff if i get a date or not for Dating Game and Formal Dinner... it's just so pointless. I've never kept in contact with the 2 girls i dated which proves to show Dating Game is ... totally lame-o.

Or maybe i'm just old... all those incessant cheering is really quite overkill.... KR yo-yo, yo-yo KR.... PLEASE, like seriously please shut up. Rag dance isnt as fun as last year, without all my bestest dance mates... super big fat sigh. Jaded.... Cynical... and totally uninterested at this point in time.

On a different note altogether.... i can't WAIT for school to start. ok, u can stone me now.

HAPPY 201th Post!! haha

has slowly started to creep in....

i'm not as flexible as i used to be

i cant run as fast as i used to run

i don't have as much stamina

my knees ache so bad after dance practice and exercising

in fact.... my whole body aches like mad

i wake up automatically in the morning and have trouble sleeping when there is sunlight.

sigh.... i'm becoming old.

I need to move back to hall NOWWWWWWWWW. My mother is irritating the CRAP outta meeeeeeeee!!!

i can't wait for monday to come for me to move back.... then i can have free access to the NUS pool, i don't have to pay nearly 5 bucks every trip back to hall for dance practices (which happens to 5 times a week!), i can go joggin at nite and i can sleep and wake up whenever i want without feeling guilty!

PLEASE LET MONDAY COME NOW.

While I love meeting up with friends, catching up on what everyone else is doing, but sometimes i cant help but feel really useless. Like my useless-ness is magnified when everyone seems to be doing better and better.

I've got friends who are scholars, doctors, one working in the investor relations for world's largest palm oil company, accountants, insurance agents, civil servants.... everyone seems to know what they want to do with their lives, they know their goals.... and i'm 1 year from graduation and i have ZERO idea where i am heading, i have ZERO working experience, i have ZERO clue how to write a CV, i DUNNO if i wanna be an engineer....

i've always been slower to react.... like forever 慢三拍.... i dunno what i am good at, nor where my interest lies.... i think i'm quite screwed.

Sorry for the lack of updates.... unfortunately, life has become a lot more monotonous after coming back to Singapore. Everyday is just the same old routine of waking up at 9, checking emails, watching some tv, having lunch, napping and going off for dance practices. Kinda miss drinking..... a lot. And talking cock with friends....

Bought a new phone thou.... 3G. I'm still no used to it. Always have been a technophobe. There are probably tonnes of functions i can use, but i'm just to turned off to read the manual. But i love it! Cos it's white slider phone (Nokia N6288). I'm quite sure it's an old model cos its so big and fat.... but after trading in and having some promotion, it was down to 48bucks. HELL YEAH give me the cheapest phone pleaseeeee.

the weather nowadays have been really nice.... cloudy, zero sunlight, nice cool breeze, which makes me wanna sleep even more in the afternoons, when i really should be heading to the pool to work out those lard hanging over my pants and having a nice bronze tan. Where is the sun when u need it?? I'm so fat i've resorted to unbuttoning the button of my pants. i feel ashamed.... so ashamed.

I wanna be alone, but i've never felt lonelier. Is there something wrong with me?

i need to move back to hall asap... because

1. i hate it that i have to emotionally blackmailed into sleeping early everyday

2. and have to be forced to wake up early, awoken by the incessantly telephone calls from my mother

3. i hate to be forced to iron my father's and my clothes, JUST BECAUSE i have nothing to do at home

4. i hate to have to off my internet when i go and sleep (i am ususally environmentally frenly but not when it comes to internet usage)

5. i dun like to have chinese newspaper SHOVED into my face and forced to read them....

6. I need to be able to invite hot random strangers over to my room to have hot random sex whenever I want

ok scrap point 6.

I NEED TO MOVE BACK TO HALL NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWw!!! Saadiah SAVE MEE!!!

okok.... a certain Mr Li was complaining that i wasnt blogging enuff after returning to Spore so ok, here goes:

1. It's wierd when u are abroad you crave local food, but when u come back and eat it.... you will be like "huh, like that only ah...." hahaha. Like it's better left imagined.

2. Dancing rocks.... was a little tough getting back into action again after what feels like eternity, but today was really AWESOME!!!! and i wanna dance like Blake Mcgrath dammit!!!



3. Just caught Transformers today and it was so cool i nearly pee-ed in my pants. Transformers RAWKS man....



4. Apparently i am not as fat i think i am.... despite what my family keeps saying. people think i look nicer fatter..... they say i was too skinny last time. YAY!!! I'm still HOT!!!

5. The non existant "close" button in France has got the better of me... now i go into the lifts and just hit the floor button and then i realise the doors doesnt close by itself

6. actually there isnt much to update.... life has returned to normal. i cant wait to move back to hall so i can do whatever i like, sleep whenever i like, wake up whenever i like without being under the watchful eyes of my parents....

YAY!!! i am back in singapore!!! actually it has been a few days already but it seems like i'm constantly lying in my own pool of sweat.... so i dun really have the mood to blog.

But i'm getting accustomed to everyhere surprisingly well.... no reverse culture shock of any kind. So thats always good. My good old 8days is still serving me very well. heh....

my bed is still as soft (or hard for that matter, just the way i like it) as i remembered. Everything is so god damn efficient.....

Everything except the weather.... SWEATY is my middle name.... eeeks. (The world is dying!!! use less plastic bags PLEASE)... and wear green on the 7th and 8th of july....

And dance prac starts tmr.... OMG cant wait!!!

And please. got mahjong please jio thanks

6months, 180 days.... wow. As i look at my almost empty corner of my room, i cant help but want to say "well done, i did it."

Being in France, a country that i love to hate.... and hate to love, for the past 6 months was indeed and eye opening experience. New friendships forged, new places visited, doing new stuff. i've probably grown so much more here, than in army.

i have a supportive family back home, and my adopted family here to keep me sane (or insane for that matter). Thanks to them, i've gained so much here. And i realised that in life, there are certain risks and certain sacrifices you have to make if you want something to happen. I managed to pass my courses..... despite not studying that much. To me, studying wasnt the most important thing here... i flew halfway around the world to see the world. And in a way, i feel like the luckiest person right now.

*My thoughts are really random right now so i am spewing out nonsense*

3 more hours before i take the tram.... i am going to miss so many things here..... the sights and sounds of Vieux Lyon, the view of Croix Rousse from Pont Bonaparte that never ceases to take my breath away..... the Fourviere which we mounted countless times.... Parc tete d'or. I realised i may never come back here again....

But i think its time for me to go home.... i am really going to miss this shitty place that i now call my second home. And its always better to leave when u are feeling high.... than to leave hating it....

So. Au Revoir Lyon.... i will miss you. really. And to my friends.... may u achieve the best in life and may we meet again in the future!

Bisous

One last weekend, one last burst of fire, one last BBQ. 4 days from now i will be heading home. And these are the people that have made this exchange possible

Fernando, Me, Marcos, Christiano, Damien

Isabela, Luis, Martha

Tytti and new found love Thomas

Chris, Damien, Jose Miguel

Martha and Dali

Marcos, Me and Sundeep

Ale and Me

We were giving out awards that nite and i'm happy to tell you i won 2 awards. The Drunkard and the Funniest Drunkard award.... hehe. I DID SINGAPORE PROUD!!!

4 days and counting and slightly dreading it.

Nuff said.

fucking pig.... good riddance in 5 days. Not for the fainted hearted...

Well actually more like 4 days but i am almost certain that we will be doing something tonite as well.

Monday:

Kelvin came to visit for the 2nd time. We discovered some new places that i have NEVER seen before... which makes me wonder what the hell i have been doing for the past 6 months.

a gorgeous outdoor pool just beside the Rhone.... totally perfect for me to laze around and people watch and tan myself crazy. i would love to go there someday.... within the next 7 days hehe.

and i never knew that i could walk to Perrache from Bellecour and there was this amazingly grand statue thingy of..... i dunno who.

and then i brought him to Montrochet to see the UGLY BLACK PROSTITUTES!!! ahahah. and they were still there!!! Working under the hot sun!! haha judging from what they were wearing (or not wearing), i dun think they were as hot as we were.

And then we wanted to see Stade de Gerland, and got ridiculously lost for a while. and Kelvin went into a public toilet and got trapped inside while it was auto-cleaning... LOL!!! Luckily only his bottom half was wet.... And after one hour of walking we realised that Stade de Gerland was fenced off.... and we were like asked the security why....

"Pourquoi on peut pas entrer?" (Why cant we enter?)

"il y a un concert" (there is a concert)

"de qui?" (of who)

"Rrr-olling stones" (self explanatory)

"ooooooh!"

HAHAH i LOVE it when the stupid french pple try to gag themselves on the Rs. and then me and kelvin were like oooohing like some suaku person who doesnt know Rolling Stones were performing that evening..... Sorry can. i not that era one.

Tuesday:

Hoirul came to visit..... so i brought him to the usual places. nothing much happened. Except that i guess i now know a lot more about him that i used to. Dead beat... very hot.

Wednesday:

Huilin came from Singapore to visit me. At first i thought it would be wierd, considering since i havent seen her since her 21st bday.... which was 3 years ago. budden it turned out to be quite good actually. talked a lot about dance and primary school people. talk about how shitty it is to study abroad. complain complain complain. haha singaporeans that their best. COMPLAIN!

and then at nite i met the rest at Croix Rousse for a reunion with our french prof. She's the best prof anyone can have!!! second after Nicolas Chaplin!! Had some stuff to drink at an al fresco pub at 7... with empty stomachs.... *growling* hungry hungry.

and then we started to learn how to play petanque! OUR FIRST TRY!!! until it started raining 5mins into the game. LOL. haha

and then we went to this indian kebab stall in Vieux Lyon which i thought looked TOTALLY SHADY... like they served 100year old meat and stuff. But it turned out to be the BEST FREAKING TANDOORI KEBAB i have ever eaten in my LIFE!!! and the indian sauce which was like how spicy!! SHIOKNESS to the MAXNESS.

Thursday:

The highlight of the week! FETE DE LA MUSIQUE!!! something which i read about the first month studying french... but never got to experience it.... so much so that i thought it was an urban festival myth and its just something the french pple cooked up to put in the textbook.

The whole evening was too surreal. I had no grasp of how time passed...

a very pissed Tytti who's sick of waiting for people. HAHA.

We went to Hotel de Ville to listen to some music... new agey crap with wood flutes and chanting of some sort. And then i met Hokito and his group of immersion frens and we started talking and some more complaining!!! and by then i was already half drunk... and then Laura appeared out of nowhere. She seems to be appearing out of nowhere recently. i've probably seen her more times this week than the past 6 months combined. And then some live percussion band interupted the new ageists bullcrap. (thank god) and they were so good!!! thats what i call party music!!

and then we had such a hard time deciding where to go next because we had no idea where the venues were.... and the fact that we were all drunk by the time it was 9.30pm (??)

And then some of us engaged in some amateur Capoiera... FUCKING FUNNY SHIT i tell you. in the middle of the road.... crazy ass shit.

and then i cant remember what we did but we got stuck at some junction for a VERY LONG TIME.....some people disappeared to go to the toilet. and then we had to wait for some other pple who were arriving.... then fernando and i went to a restaurant to use their toilet which was underground. While waiting for him to be done, i was doing some crazy ass dance in front of the mirror..... until i realised a waiter was looking at me from above.... SOMEONE SHOOT ME PLEASE!!! so embarrassing!! (i was drunk, dun judge me)

we got so bored we started drawing on Tytti's arm. (this has got to be the craziest nite EVER)

dancing dancing dancing our lives away!!

and then i dun really know what happened.... someone (i think sundeep) came to hug me and said thank you.... and then i started crying.... i dunno why. Once you open the floodgates, there aint no stoppin. And then i just cried and cried and everyone started hugging everyone else. it just suddenly hit me that i may NEVER come back to lyon again.... and there is a very high chance that we might NEVER see each other again after 7 more days.... despite the fact that we promised to visit one another whenever possible.... i just felt very sad at that moment.

after the waterworks were done.... we walked.... and someone decided it was funny to blow up a condom balloon. AHAHA which was quite funny actually. and they threw it into the crowd. HAHA. and then we cried summore.

some man-on-man hugging.... i am gonna miss them all man.... and then we arrived at place Bellecour after what feels like 10 hours. And we bought some stuff to eat. i bought a crappy kebab and some fries while the rest indulged on some nutella crepes. They were crazy enuff to ask the vendor to give them the empty nutella bottles so they can dig the remainder and eat it using their fingers. GROSSS!!!!!! ahaha

i am super stressed because

1. i found out yesterday that i failed ANOTHER module... and i have to sit for the re-exam next thursday, one day before i leave. And i am still waiting for the results of one last paper. AND IF, god forbid, i fail that one too, i have to take the re-exam on the day i leave!!! (*GASP*).... which means no partying on thursday nite. CRAP.

*update yay i passed my final exam!!! NO RATTRAPAGE!! WOOTS!!! totally psyched right now!!*

2. I am left with 8 days and there are tonnes of shit i havent done. like closing my bank account, PACKING, getting my stupid transcripts, arranging a time for the concierge to come check my room. SOOooo screwed.

3. i havent bought any presents for my family!!!

4. I have to basically choose my Final YEar Project before i leave cos the deadline is 2july. And i have only narrowed down to 10 choices.... when i could have chosen 20.

5. and did i mention i have to study??

so screwed... and so stressed. so little time...

last week, JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE performed in Lyon..... but i didnt go because i had exams that week. And i was super upset.

AND THEN I REALISED CHRISTINA AGUILERA IS PERFORMING IN SINGAPORE ON THE 30th of JUNE.... the day i arrive in Singapore. BUT I HAVE TO EAT DINNER WITH MY FAMILY!!! you have GOT to be kidding me.

i.....am..... devastated. Britney Spears please have your comeback soon and come to Singapore for your Concert. Thanks

havent had much time the past week, having exams and all so here's a rundown of events that happened last week!

1. Nite before Andreas left, we went to Pont Guillotiere and drink ourselves crazy, even with 2 more exams looming ominously. Fantastic weather, great company and booze! what's lacking is toilets.... finding public toilets in europe is like finding gold. u can NEVER EVER find toilets....so you end up peeing in the alleys... or you can always buy a kebab and use their toilet.... which was what i did! i was so drunk i was skipping and hopping to the shop like some spastic wierdo. HAHA. good times.