MEANINGLESS RAMBLINGS....

has slowly started to creep in....

i'm not as flexible as i used to be

i cant run as fast as i used to run

i don't have as much stamina

my knees ache so bad after dance practice and exercising

in fact.... my whole body aches like mad

i wake up automatically in the morning and have trouble sleeping when there is sunlight.

sigh.... i'm becoming old.

I need to move back to hall NOWWWWWWWWW. My mother is irritating the CRAP outta meeeeeeeee!!!

i can't wait for monday to come for me to move back.... then i can have free access to the NUS pool, i don't have to pay nearly 5 bucks every trip back to hall for dance practices (which happens to 5 times a week!), i can go joggin at nite and i can sleep and wake up whenever i want without feeling guilty!

PLEASE LET MONDAY COME NOW.

While I love meeting up with friends, catching up on what everyone else is doing, but sometimes i cant help but feel really useless. Like my useless-ness is magnified when everyone seems to be doing better and better.

I've got friends who are scholars, doctors, one working in the investor relations for world's largest palm oil company, accountants, insurance agents, civil servants.... everyone seems to know what they want to do with their lives, they know their goals.... and i'm 1 year from graduation and i have ZERO idea where i am heading, i have ZERO working experience, i have ZERO clue how to write a CV, i DUNNO if i wanna be an engineer....

i've always been slower to react.... like forever 慢三拍.... i dunno what i am good at, nor where my interest lies.... i think i'm quite screwed.

Sorry for the lack of updates.... unfortunately, life has become a lot more monotonous after coming back to Singapore. Everyday is just the same old routine of waking up at 9, checking emails, watching some tv, having lunch, napping and going off for dance practices. Kinda miss drinking..... a lot. And talking cock with friends....

Bought a new phone thou.... 3G. I'm still no used to it. Always have been a technophobe. There are probably tonnes of functions i can use, but i'm just to turned off to read the manual. But i love it! Cos it's white slider phone (Nokia N6288). I'm quite sure it's an old model cos its so big and fat.... but after trading in and having some promotion, it was down to 48bucks. HELL YEAH give me the cheapest phone pleaseeeee.

the weather nowadays have been really nice.... cloudy, zero sunlight, nice cool breeze, which makes me wanna sleep even more in the afternoons, when i really should be heading to the pool to work out those lard hanging over my pants and having a nice bronze tan. Where is the sun when u need it?? I'm so fat i've resorted to unbuttoning the button of my pants. i feel ashamed.... so ashamed.

I wanna be alone, but i've never felt lonelier. Is there something wrong with me?

i need to move back to hall asap... because

1. i hate it that i have to emotionally blackmailed into sleeping early everyday

2. and have to be forced to wake up early, awoken by the incessantly telephone calls from my mother

3. i hate to be forced to iron my father's and my clothes, JUST BECAUSE i have nothing to do at home

4. i hate to have to off my internet when i go and sleep (i am ususally environmentally frenly but not when it comes to internet usage)

5. i dun like to have chinese newspaper SHOVED into my face and forced to read them....

6. I need to be able to invite hot random strangers over to my room to have hot random sex whenever I want

ok scrap point 6.

I NEED TO MOVE BACK TO HALL NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWw!!! Saadiah SAVE MEE!!!

okok.... a certain Mr Li was complaining that i wasnt blogging enuff after returning to Spore so ok, here goes:

1. It's wierd when u are abroad you crave local food, but when u come back and eat it.... you will be like "huh, like that only ah...." hahaha. Like it's better left imagined.

2. Dancing rocks.... was a little tough getting back into action again after what feels like eternity, but today was really AWESOME!!!! and i wanna dance like Blake Mcgrath dammit!!!



3. Just caught Transformers today and it was so cool i nearly pee-ed in my pants. Transformers RAWKS man....



4. Apparently i am not as fat i think i am.... despite what my family keeps saying. people think i look nicer fatter..... they say i was too skinny last time. YAY!!! I'm still HOT!!!

5. The non existant "close" button in France has got the better of me... now i go into the lifts and just hit the floor button and then i realise the doors doesnt close by itself

6. actually there isnt much to update.... life has returned to normal. i cant wait to move back to hall so i can do whatever i like, sleep whenever i like, wake up whenever i like without being under the watchful eyes of my parents....

YAY!!! i am back in singapore!!! actually it has been a few days already but it seems like i'm constantly lying in my own pool of sweat.... so i dun really have the mood to blog.

But i'm getting accustomed to everyhere surprisingly well.... no reverse culture shock of any kind. So thats always good. My good old 8days is still serving me very well. heh....

my bed is still as soft (or hard for that matter, just the way i like it) as i remembered. Everything is so god damn efficient.....

Everything except the weather.... SWEATY is my middle name.... eeeks. (The world is dying!!! use less plastic bags PLEASE)... and wear green on the 7th and 8th of july....

And dance prac starts tmr.... OMG cant wait!!!

And please. got mahjong please jio thanks