Saturday, November 24, 2012

The Meet

While we don't have any new updates for our specific case, it sounds as though India is taking note of the sluggishness of the adoption system at this point.  CARA, India's branch of government that regulates adoption closed things down last fall as they implemented several new guidelines with the hope of streamlining the adoption process.  I cannot say what it has done for in-country adoptions, but a year later, things certainly do not seem to be "streamlined" on this side of the globe

CARA has announced that they are once again putting a hold on all new adoption registrations as of this past week.  They have announced an invitational gathering ("The Meet") to reevaluate some of the new guidelines and hopefully make some changes that will, in fact, make the adoption process much smoother.  Until then, no new applications are being accepted.  We are under the impression that those of us who are already registered will continue to move through the system.  While I feel terrible for families who are just getting started (because we were there last fall), I am relieved that CARA is not going to continue to flood the system with cases when it is not doing a great job of handling the cases that are already in process.  I do know that they want to look good in front of everyone at The Meet in February, so I hope that means they are motivated to continue to iron things out in the meantime.  Of course, "motivated" to me probably has a much more urgent efficient course of action attached to it than it does for a foreign government.  

Sadly, while we have heard that many RIPAs (orphanages) simply move slowly over there, the truth is that they have very much had their hands tied on inter-country adoption by the 80/20 rule: being forced to maintain the ratio of 80% in-country to 20% inter-country adoptions.  There could very well be children who are available for international adoption in our RIPA (having been rejected by three Indian families), but the RIPA is unable to refer them to us if that would upset the ratio.  Rumor has it that the 80/20 rule is one of the regulations that will be reevaluated at The Meet.  I know there are a lot of prayers going up that it is done away with completely

In the meantime, we are still waiting.  We were told under the old regulations that a referral was estimated to take 9-18 months.  Although under the new rules, there was a delay in our ability to be eligible for a referral (we thought it would be in January upon completion of our home study, but it wasn't until we were matched with a RIPA in April), we are still only seven months out from entering the "line".  That is obviously well within the range, even though we are the guinea pigs and no one really knows how long the wait for a referral will be under the new rules (particularly since they keep changing).  However, it is devastating to know that there are many, many children who desperately need families, and are spending unnecessary months and years in orphanages instead of loving homes, all because of bureaucracy and inefficiency.  I hope and pray that we have good news for at least one of those precious children very, very soon.            

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Funding milestone!

As of today, we have hit a major milestone in our adoption funding!  We're now at... (drum roll, please)... $15,109!!  We've put out just under $18,000 at this point, so we're closing in quickly on knocking the financial obstacle out of the way.  Although there will be several hundred dollars in fees involved with renewing our home study and dossier this fall, the final major expenditures will come with really, really good news!  

Our next agency fee of $5,000 will need to be paid immediately upon receiving a referral that we choose to accept.  We can't move forward without paying that fee, so we are working hard to make sure that it is not a barrier for us in accepting a referral for our child.  I think that will probably be the most excited I've ever been to write a check that large, at least, until we get notice that we can travel to bring our child home!

According to other adoptive families and the research I've done, traveling to India will end up costing about $10,000.  We will probably have about 1-2 weeks notice of when we need to travel, so we will have to have all of the funding in place as soon as possible.  

We started our business with AdvoCare in part to fund our adoption, and it has been such a blessing in our lives providing growing resources, as well as a close community of friends and prayer warriors locking arms with us.  A friend from high school who works with AdoptTogether recently contacted me about providing a platform for tax deductible donations toward our adoption.  Not everyone is called to adopt a child, but if you feel led to join us on this journey and care for an orphan through adoption support, you can donate through PayPal on our blog, or through AdoptTogether on our behalf.  

We can't control the waiting in adoption, but we can remove this obstacle as we prepare to bring our little one home.  We are so grateful for those who have already supported us on this road, and for those yet to come who will step forward as we continue this amazing story.  God is so good!

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Catching Up

As many of you know, we had to create a private blog for our more personal adoption journey after an unfortunate backlash from some unknown readers.  If you would like access to that blog, please contact me directly.

I do want to keep our extended network of readers up to date on our adoption, though.  It seems like ages since we were matched with an orphanage back in April.  We wrongly assumed that our dossier had been forwarded to our orphanage at that time, but found out that at the end of June, our agency's representative in India physically flew to that region and hand-delivered it to the orphanage director... who promptly gave us three referrals.  I can't describe the joy of opening my email and seeing "referrals!" in the subject line.  Unfortunately, all three of them were well outside the margins of our home study clearance, as well as India's own requirements for the age difference between adoptive parents and children.  We are still unsure as to why they would refer children to us that would not meet their own country's regulations.

It was heartbreaking, but after much prayer and consideration, we had to turn down those referrals.  That was just over a month ago, and the reality is, we could wait for a long, long time for another referral.  After that difficult situation, we are hoping that it not only comes sooner than later, but that they refer us a child that more closely reflects our home study.  We have been very flexible on age, so we are hoping they will at least be within our range the next time around.  In the meantime, we are back to waiting, wondering if we'll get word in a week or a month... or a year about our little Lotus Bud.   

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Ask and You Shall Receive

I have spent the past ten minutes laughing and capering about our bedroom.  I will keep this brief, because I just can't sit still.  It's incredible how you wait and wait for something, and then BAM, it happens in a flash and your life is changed forever.  That's how it was when I opened up my email a few minutes ago and found out that... we have been matched with and orphanage!!!!!!!!!

Our Lotus Bud is waiting for us in northwest India.  I will now commence being a shameless nerd and researching everything I can get my hands on about this state.  I can't wait to learn more about the culture and traditions of that specific region.

Ah!  I still can't believe that just happened!  Do you know what that means??  The next contact we get from our agency will be to inform us that the orphanage has given us a referral for a child!  

Friday, March 2, 2012

USCIS approval

We got our USCIS approval in the mail today, just before we crammed three people and three dogs into a closet as all the tornadoes passed through.  We were doubly blessed today with safety from the storm, and the last piece of the puzzle to send to India.  Thank you, Lord!  India will review our application, and then match us with a RIPA (a facility/orphanage) that they feel will best meet our needs.  

I know some of our agency's families who were registered back in February have been matched with a RIPA already.  We were originally told to expect a 9-18 month wait for a referral once India had all our documentation.  With all of the changes that have occurred, no one really knows what the time frame will be now.  Everyone will be adjusting and feeling out these new regulations. Who knows? The wait may end up being shorter since they have limited the number of families that can be registered each month.  Thankfully, it is all in God's hands.  It always has been, but now our part of the physical work is complete, at least until we have to renew all our documentation at the end of the summer.  So now we wait.  And pray.  And wait and pray.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Paper Pregnant!!!

WE MADE IT WE MADE IT WE MADE IT!!!  We just got word that our agency was able to register us with India today!  Our dossier is finally in their hands, and that puts us one step closer to getting a referral!  I haven't felt this elated or cried like this since we found out N was on the way.  I am weeping with joy.  How lavish the Lord is in his blessings!

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Pray for registration!

Calling all prayer warriors: Tomorrow is the day India opens its registration for the first 100 adoptive families from all placement agencies. If our agency is unable to register us, we won't get another chance until April. PLEASE pray hard with us that our agency can get us registered so that all our time sensitive paperwork will be in India, making us eligible for a referral!

We just found out last night that all of India's changes are necessitating a change in the payment structure as well.  Instead of $10,000 being due at the time we accept a referral, it will be $5,000 at the time of registration, and then $5,000 when we accept a referral.  That means we could owe an unexpected $5,000 as soon as tomorrow, and the money was not in our adoption account!  Thankfully, the concerns about JMI helping us fundraise have been addressed and are no longer an issue.  So with a possible immediate need for $5,000, I walked to the bank with a check for over $6,600 from the Puckett's fundraiser and other donations previously made in our name through JMI!  Wow!  That timing cannot be coincidental!  I won't assume anything, but I am hopeful that we will need that money tomorrow because we will have been registered with India!  PRAY!

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Support adoption and get healthy!

You may have noticed the lovely logo on the side of our blog inviting you to get healthy while supporting our adoption.  We have been so blessed by the team of people that has come around us through AdvoCare to help us work toward bringing our baby home.  In fact, we are now seeing this as our primary means of not only funding our adoption, but providing the ongoing income we will need to care for our little Lotus Bud post-airport.  

For those of you on facebook, you have probably seen me post about my love affair with Spark and the 24 Day Challenge.  I am not at all exaggerating when I say that it has revolutionized motherhood for me.  In short, the 24 Day Challenge is a comprehensive wellness program that gently cleanses your digestive system, and then fuels your body with elite nutrition, while jump starting a long-term, healthy lifestyle.  Sammy and I were already very healthy people, eating well and working out regularly, and were blown away at how much better we felt with the only change being the addition of these products to fill in the nutritional gaps.  It literally took me from lying on the floor praying for nap time while N played around me, to having the energy to engage with her all day, and still have the energy leftover to do the other things that I love.  After almost two years of napping when my daughter napped and passing out at 8pm, that truly was revolutionary.

Right now, we are offering an opportunity for anyone out there to try the 24 Day Challenge for FREE.  Anyone who has ten folks who order the Challenge will get theirs from us for free.  The only rules are, all orders must be in by 11pm on Tuesday, 2/21, and each person can only be counted once.  I will also be awarding prizes per Challenge Group.  Everything is better within community, and I have seen first hand that people tend to get better results when they are part of a group doing this.  The accountability and encouragement, and even a little friendly competition make it fun!  And of course, I will be here not only to share details with anyone you have who might be interested in this, but to personally walk through the entire Challenge with everyone.  This is not a drugstore where you buy something off the shelf and are then on your own.  I am passionate about helping people get healthy, and I truly enjoy holding peoples' hands as they embark on this journey.  Give me a shout if any of this sounds appealing.  I will be happy to get you some more details.  Even if this isn't something you're looking for right now, it could be beneficial, even life changing for someone you know!  I want you to feel like your best you.  As you pursue that, you are also helping us bring our baby home!  It doesn't get any better than that!

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Registration with India

Things have been a little crazy for everyone as we try to figure out and readjust to India's changing requirements for adoption.  We were originally eligible for a referral as soon as our agency had our completed home study.  That changed to needing our home study, dossier, and USCIS approval before we could be registered with India.  However, I just found out that since we have filed with USCIS, we can be registered with India, since our approval will be following soon!!

India is now only taking new registrations the first of every month, and only allowing a certain number of total registrations from all agencies before the website locks down.  In good news, our agency was able to register all of their eligible families at the start of this month.  We are now eligible for the next round on March 1st, and are hoping that they are able to get us registered within India's set quota so we won't have to wait another month to be eligible for a referral.  

That probably sounds overwhelming to those who have not been through this process.  It's overwhelming to me and I have had my finger on the pulse of it all for months now.  Please just pray with us that our agency is able to get us registered with India on March 1st.  Thank you for your prayers, friends!  That will put us one giant step closer to our little Lotus Bud!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Blown Away

I sang "Shackles" last night at our Puckett's event because it has become my theme song for our adoption.  Not an inch of ground has been given willingly by the enemy, but our great God has once again overwhelmed us with His provision.  I came off of an incredible weekend surrounded by a group of people who I know will be in the trenches with us no matter how long or hard this road may be.  I went straight into another night that completely blew us away with the community, love, and generosity that we saw.  We came home last night feeling like we had a whole army with us!

I can't even begin to list all of the people we are grateful to for last night.  In all honesty, we don't even know all of their names.  We had some folks walk into Puckett's off the street, and once they heard what we were doing, they not only paid the cover to come in and eat, but they gave over and above.  Our church family packed the place out, and we all had a blast listening to great music, and our very own George and Diane rockin' it out as our professional auctioneers!  Our fellowship group has been so faithful to come around us and support us for the long haul, and they put in incredible amounts of time and effort planning and making sure the evening ran smoothly.  Gary, Steve, Lori, Steve D., Chad, and George were awesome about planning out all the little details.  It's hard to believe that Gary ran his idea for this by my only a few weeks ago.  What a difference community makes.  We could never, NEVER have done this alone.

So the moment everyone has been waiting for... I am still waiting to receive a final count as some last minute donations from those who could not attend are still coming in, and we're waiting to find out what the credit card fees will be.  However, from the initial count last night, it looks like the evening brought in...

<drum roll please>

$6,500!!!

Honestly, that is about one and a half times of what we have raised over the past four months, all in one night!  What an incredible blessing, and what an encouragement to us to see not only the financial provision for this adoption, but the spiritual and emotional support of such loving people.  Words cannot describe how grateful we are.  To those who were a part of this evening in any way, thank you from the bottom of our hearts!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Puckett's Benefit Show and Auction



Friends in the Nashville/Franklin area:

Please join us Monday, January 30, at Puckett's in downtown Franklin for an Adoption Benefit Show and Auction.  The doors will open at 6, and we will have some great music, as well as some rockin' items to auction off, from photo shoots to Titans tickets!  We will be playing, as well as two fantastic friends and talented musicians: Chad Jarnagin and the Randy McLellan Band.  Puckett's will be donating the full $10 cover charge for every guest directly to our adoption!  Come on out and join the party!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Dossier is DONE

Would you like to know what a completed dossier looks like?  I can show you!!! <insert applause>


95 documents
30 notarizations
33 certifications
30 apostilles
1 completed dossier, ready to mail as soon as I find a large enough envelope.  And all God's people said...

AMEN!


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

If at first you don't succeed

Our social worker did a great job getting our home study redone last week.  The content has not changed, but we now have the information re-sized to fit on nine pages instead of thirteen.  I've finished all of our county notarizations and certifications today, and I'm hoping to have our last two documents notarized tomorrow and ready to go downtown for certification.  We can then get all of it apostilled and mail it out to our agency.


Unfortunately, with India's new regulations, our agency will not be able to register us with India until we have our USCIS approval.  It has been mailed (and we won't need to send a new home study since the content is the same... thank you, Lord!), but it will probably take 2-3 months to get that approval.  So we thought we would be in line for a referral last week, but it now looks like it will take a few more weeks.  Thankfully, we can just fax that in as soon as it comes and then we'll be good to go.  

India will only allow agencies to register a certain number of dossiers each month, but special needs and "older child" adoptions will not count toward that quota.  I am hoping that requesting a child between the ages of 2-5 will be considered an older child, and therefore will not cause a delay even with that new regulation in place.  We shall see.  For now, I am just continuing to trust the Lord's timing as I wade through all the red tape and finish up the last leg of this paper chase.  S's big January deadlines are finally over, so feeling like I have a husband again will be a big stress relief!  It's been a long month, and this soldier is feeling a little weary today.  Please keep those prayers coming, dear friends.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Momentary Setback

Well, I have good news, and I have bad news.  Let's get the bad news out of the way.  You know how very excited I was to finally get everything finished up with our home study and get it to our agency.  It should have arrived yesterday or today... just in time for an update from India saying that home studies must be nine pages or less.  Our home study is thirteen pages.  Sigh.  I have emails out to everyone involved in our home study and placement agencies and am waiting to hear back on what we need to change to make it an acceptable length.

If our world of communication does not implode as it did the week before Christmas, I am hoping that will be a fairly quick fix.  So we'll just set aside all the feeling that busting my tail to get that home study finalized, certified, apostilled and mailed out just in time for it to be obsolete is rather cosmically ironic, and focus on what needs to be done to complete this step (again).  Unfortunately, that is out of our hands until our social worker and placement agency are able to discuss this issue.  From what I understand, we now need to have our home study, dossier, and USCIS approval to be registered with India and eligible for a referral.  The first two have potential to be ready next week.  We already mailed out our USCIS application and will need to send an updated home study, which will hopefully not confuse them or delay our approval.  Even without delay, approval usually takes 2-3 months.

In good news, our dossier should be complete and ready to file some time next week.  We found out in the above mentioned update that India will be accepting new families and dossiers starting this Friday.  They are only accepting a certain total number from all adoption agencies per month, so that could slow things down, but at least the doors are open again.

So we've run into another momentary setback, and are holding on to the belief that what may seem like harm can be used for good by our great God.  I was due for a good cry today after a tough few weeks, and I let myself take a few minutes to indulge in that sweet release.  But now it's time to get back up, roll that burden onto mightier shoulders than mine, and keep on marching.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Prayer request: CARA and new dossiers

After mailing out our home study on Wednesday, I contacted our placement agency to find out what steps remained between their receiving our home study and our eligibility for a referral.  Surprisingly, they told me that as soon as they receive our home study, we are officially "in line" for a referral!  That is exciting news, because they should have our documents by Tuesday!  

Unfortunately, CARA (India's adoption authority) is not currently accepting new dossiers.  From what I understand, they closed things down for a while last summer while altering some regulations, and are trying to catch up on the backlog now that the wheels are turning again.  That was supposed to be finished in December, but now the word is that they will possibly be starting to accept new dossiers some time this month.  
I'm not certain, but I believe that we could get a referral without that changing, but may not be able to secure said referral until they are ready to accept our dossier.  India's priority is always to adopt their children out to Indian families.  So while losing a referral is not necessarily common, it can happen.  

So, all of that to say that we need you to join us in praying that that waiting cases in India are resolved quickly (I know my friends waiting for word that they can travel to get their daughters are already on their knees), and that CARA will officially begin accepting new dossiers THIS MONTH.  Let's be bold and specific in our prayers.  Thank you for your support!  

USCIS application on the way!

I've been a little nervous about my OCD tendencies lately when it comes to double and triple checking all of our adoption paperwork before mailing it.  Ok, ok, it's more like a couple dozen times.  BUT, in good news, it paid off this morning.  

I've been simultaneously working on organizing our dossier with my handy color coded page tabs, and putting our USCIS application and supporting documents together.  As I rushed out the door to the post office on my way to work out this morning, I realized that I had everything needed with our application... except S's signature.  Brilliant.  I admit, the realization of what I was about to do made my stomach lurch.  I'm so thankful the Lord brought it to the forefront of my mind at the last minute, because there was a whole slew of other distractions racing around up in there at that moment.  I'm sure the other folks at the post office were giving me dubious looks as, in my renewed paranoia, I triple checked my list, envelope contents, and USCIS address before sealing everything up and dropping it down the chute, past the point of no return.

I believe it takes a couple of months to process our USCIS application, but we're one step (and one more hefty check) closer to the goal!  I think I'll go flip through our dossier again... <eye twitches> 

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Home study on its way

If you read my last post, you may recall that I was hoping to make a "quick" trip to get our home study certified, apostilled, and off to our placement agency today.  Once again, let's all pause to chuckle to ourselves.  

My travels took me on quite an adventure to an abandoned building, which was definitely NOT the County Clerk's office, to the real County Clerk's office where I tried to politely (and briefly) answer the small talk of a somewhat creepy old lech during my 30 minute wait.  I then took a quick jaunt over to another part of the city and a not-so-quick jaunt around the adjacent blocks looking for parking.  Thankfully, the apostille was obtained very quickly, and I even discovered that there was a post office in that very building, which was, of course, closed.  Since I was hesitant dead set against going on another parking hunt, I just decided to leg it up a few blocks to the nearest post office.  It's a pretty day, right?  Might as well get some exercise!  I finally found the post office and mailed that home study to the west coast.  

Three hours after leaving the house, I've just arrived home, and I'm looking at the stack of dossier papers that will require the exact same process (with a few other notary and County Clerk visits in between) as soon as we get our last bits of information.  Perhaps I'll just block out a whole day for that little adventure when the time comes.  Oh, and I'll pack snacks.  Food is good.  

Thank you, loyal reader, for allowing me to briefly indulge my sense of humor on yet another hoop that we managed to jump through.  And on a more serious note, thank, you faithful prayer warriors for your continued intercession.  It is very obvious that in this war, our enemy is not going to give up even the tiniest bit of ground easily.  So be it.  I can still laugh, because he is beaten before he begins.  Today, 24 years after the day I turned my life over to Christ, all I can do is laugh for sheer joy, because my Savior moves mountains and breathes stars into place, and He will bring us to our Lotus Bud no matter how many obstacles are thrown in our path.      

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Paperwork, paperwork, and oh yeah, more paperwork

I knew there was quite a bit of duplicate paperwork in the home study and dossier, so I wasn't really expecting the dossier completion to be quite as intense as the home study process.  Please take a moment to join me in a peal of laughter at my silliness.

 In good news, there is a lot of duplicate documentation, so as far as hunting down a bunch of information, we've only got four things left.  The part that makes it a little squirrelly is that our lovely state requires that each notarized document be certified by the county in which the notary has his commission before we can have it apostilled.  So the notary verifies that we personally sign our documents, then the county clerks certify that the notary could, in fact, verify said documents, and then the Secretary of State can apostille the documents to certify all of the previous certifications for international purposes.  At this point, either your head is spinning, or you are laughing out loud at the ridiculousness of it all.  I am experiencing a combination of the two.

So, we have several documents to take to three different County Clerks.  This afternoon, I was rather dismayed to discover that the notary at our doctor's office is commissioned in a county an hour and a half away!  I had to get on google maps and zoom out half a dozen times before I could figure out where the blazes it was, and was muttering darkly, wondering why in the world our notary here was commissioned all the way out there.  I called their office to find out if I could mail that one lone document in to be certified rather than driving all the way out to the boondocks in person.  The gent I spoke to told me he would take care of it, and even waived the fee.  Bless him. 

So, as soon as I collect our final few documents, we'll travel around to our various County Clerks (I'm sure glad the state is getting its money out of us with as many certifications as possible), and then head over to dump a mountain of paperwork on the Secretary of State to get all those bad boys apostilled.  On a side note, is it strange that no spell check recognizes the word 'apostille'?

I am hoping to make a quick trip - if it is possible to do anything in this process quickly - downtown this week to get our home study certified and apostilled (yes, spell check, it is a word) so that we can go ahead and get that to our agency and India.  Let the paperwork madness continue! 

Monday, January 9, 2012

Home study: Complete!

 It's official!  I am sitting here looking at our completed home study!  Next steps: getting it to USCIS for immigration approval, and even more importantly, to India so that we are eligible for a referral!  Thank you, Lord!

Friday, January 6, 2012

Divine intervention

I suppose it is always much easier to see in hindsight.  I was so frustrated that people and agencies who had gone over and above to clearly communicate every step of the way thus far could suddenly seem so befuddled and confused, like the people building the tower of Babel.  Didn't they know how crucial it was that our home study be complete by the end of the year so it could be ready to send to India at the first of 2012?

Well, it seems that what could not be resolved over the course of a few days before Christmas was taken care of in a few hours yesterday.  Our social worker emailed me yesterday to let me know her questions had been answered, and our home study would be finished in a few hours and in our mailbox by Monday at the latest.  

I felt the steadying hand of my Father on my shoulder at that moment, reassuring me that what had held us back over the past two weeks was not the sudden ineptitude of man, but the hand of God.  He knows.  He sees.  He was gently but firmly keeping us where we were to ensure that our paperwork would be in exactly the right place at exactly the right time.  The thought that His plan is so incredible and precise in this brings an ache to my heart.  I absolutely cannot wait to see what amazing things He has in store, but I will.   

Monday, January 2, 2012

Pressing on

It's January 2nd, and our home study, with all the time sensitive documents that I busted my tail to finish before the end of 2011 is still aging on the wrong side of the ocean.  I'm still not exactly sure what the hold up was, but apparently it was not resolved before everyone scattered for the holidays.  I believe our agencies are supposed to be open again starting tomorrow, so we're hoping that we can get the final corrections done and get the finished product in the hands of someone who can do something with it.  Not that it means a referral will come any time soon, but it will be nice to know that it could.  

We also need our completed home study to apply with USCIS, as well as some other grants and funding sources.  So we truly are at a stand still until this is finished.  Please pray with us that it can be completed this week.  

My even-keeled husband's thought process is, there's nothing we can do but wait, so why think about it?  My goodness, the Lord knew what He was doing when He paired us.  Our strengths are completely different.  The thing about a having a very intense personality is that I live and breathe whatever I am passionate about- all day, all the time.  I have internal conversations constantly reminding myself that what is front and center, 110% for me may not even be on other people's radars.  When it is, and we are surprised or blessed by others coming around us and working hard to help bring this to fruition, it just overwhelms me with gratitude.  It confirms in my heart that people really do want to be a part of this (my internal monologue is going, shyeah! Who wouldn't?! Adoption is incredible!).  The support of my immediate family and a group of sweet friends at church has been an absolute Godsend for us in our journey thus far.

But there are times when I feel utterly discouraged as well: When we work hard on a task alone, because no one is there to help; when I offer opportunities to include others that I think will be simple and doable, and no one even responds.  It's then that the cynical voice in my head says, They don't give a flip about helping.  You're on your own.  But if I listen more closely I hear a whisper. Have I failed you before?  Don't you think I will give you what you need to do what I've asked of you?
Of course He has, and will.  And even if we didn't have a soul in the world standing with us, there is nothing on this earth that will stop me from fighting for my baby, because I know His sovereign hand is at work every moment orchestrating this entire journey, and we are exactly where we are supposed to be.

So, by the Lord's grace, I can choose to be at peace in His perfect timing instead of getting tied up in knots over a temporary setback, even when waiting breaks my heart.  I can resist discouragement over lack of funding at this precise moment, because I know that He will make a way when it's needed.  I can find strength in knowing that our God is mighty to save, and fully capable of moving mountains for his purposes.  And nothing, nothing, will keep me from pressing on for our daughter.

The dreams and visions the Lord has put in my heart leave me speechless.  I can't even begin to ask or imagine them.  But my prayer, my resolution for the new year, is that the vision never diverts my gaze from the One who cast it.  
   

 

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