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Monday, May 30, 2005

went for my CDS today...
Business Mandarin & PRC Culture
and i felt that i was brought into China for that 2 hours....

everything is taught in Mandarin...
and i was like oh my gawd...
trying my very best to understand wat the lecturer was talking about...

中国5000年历史
63万5亿人名
能学到的知识可真多啊!

wish me luck...
i so need to brush up on my chinese...

From next week onwards....
Life is going to be busy...
cannot see him so often anymore...
have to go to school....

School's on every Monday, Wednesday n Fridays...
Monday n Friday at Tampines Campus...
and Wednesdays at Sentosa Campus...

dat leaves 4 days in the week....
its not enough......

sob....

Jia You!!!!
Last semester already....
after dat....
Graduation!!!

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i dunno when we patched...
there is no exact date...
so means...
i dunno when to celebrate the "number wat" month anniversary...

but whenever i ask u when we got together...
you dun answer me with an exact date...
ur reply will always be...

" when we got together... does not matter... wat matters is whether we are together forever..."

tinking about it....
it is really true...
celebrating each and every month together...
does not mean anything does it....
wat are we counting?

2 years n 5 months...
known u for...
the day is coming...
n i've not prepared anything...
got to stop slacking soon....

i miss u...

r a ! n a _____________*

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Sentosa at last after so long...
never been there for so long...
erm... around 3 years?

anyway.... went there to the Tourism Academy @ Sentosa
to get my pass n enrol for CDS...

reached there... to find empty barren land....
with huge patches of undeveloped land...
sux like hell man....
totally dun feel dat i belong to the sch....
prefer TP so much better....
yucks yucks yucks...
dun like TAS

the pass turned out to be a sticker on my matric card... -_-"
den enrolled for my CDS.... but no english phonetics.... =(

den walked around the island taking pics...
hee hee... never go much places cuz all need addmission fees...
so just all the gardens n fountains...
boring....

but fun... cuz was taking nonsensical pics...
n talked alot with nes...

took neo prints after so long.... =x
so nice... hee hee...
and i got my neo print book...
was sitting in nes house for so long...

was looking at it and found out dat i changed so much....
know how to pose already wor...
know how to smile already wor...
grow pretty already... =x
hee hee...
*blush*

anyway...
fun...

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hmmz... just wondering...
why does one copy another?
is it becuz not enough confidence?
is it becuz there is a need for compare?
is it becuz of inferiority?

it is just weird...
copied stuff...
when shown to others...
will u feel proud?

i know when i do things...
i will feel a sense of accomplishment after dat...
cuz i did it myself...
and it is not copied from others...

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i miss you so much too...
though u are not by my side...
you are always on my mind...

everytime...
when i'm with you...
i wish time will stop...

everytime...
when i'm with you...
laughter never stops...

everytime
when i'm with you...
just pure lookin will make =)

i just love being next to you so much...

nothing will ever replace you in my heart...
no one can ever replace you in my life...

i'm here to stay in ur ("v")
and here to stay in ur life...

love you in the past...
love you in the present...
n love you in the future...
promise...

r a ! n a _____________*

Saturday, May 21, 2005

i'm sorrie for the things i did....
i'm sorrie for disappointing u...
i'm sorrie for irritating u...
and i'm sorrie for being a nuisance...

it won't happen again...
i promise it won't...

apologies might not work now...
but i can only say dis to u now...

i will be better...
i promise i will...

believe me...

i'm really really sorrie...

forgive me... will u...?

my name is Serene...
but i just wonder why...
i dun like to be called dat name...
or rather..
i dun like to be addressed by my name...

i like nes to call me tou...
i like my darlin to call me anything...
erm... with some exceptions though...
i dun mind everyone to call anything...
except my name...

it is not dat i dun like my name or watever...
but i just dislike the sound of my frens calling me by name...
for teachers or lecturers to call me by name its okie...

i dun like pple saying "hi serene"
i dun like pple saying "thanks serene"
or watever...
juz exclude the serene behind...

it would be gladly appreciated...

r a ! n a _____________*

Friday, May 20, 2005

Star Wars Episode III

Revenge of the Sith

watch this show today... haha....

n it was way cool....

okie... though i'm not a sci-fi movie person...

i still loved the show cuz of the story behind it...

very nice plot....

ooh n i love yoga...

the master of all jedi...

he is so cute...

small sized n green...

with long ears...

and his lightsaver...

it's short like him...

just the right size for him...

hee hee...

reach home to search for watever star wars disc i haf....

haha... wan to watch more...

n so lucky...

found one...

Episode I

maybe watching it later....

haha....

r a ! n a _____________*

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

if i'm 21...

will i get all the freedom i wan?

will i get to make decisions on my own?

will i need not report everything to u?

if i'm 21...

will it be different from now?

will i be treated like an adult?

will i be allowed to do as i please?

haiz...

life suxs...

r a ! n a _____________*

Saturday, May 14, 2005

the reason to life....
lies in ur smile...

the reason to happiness...
lies in ur love...

the reason to smiles...
lies with u being with me...

n the reason to love...
is something totally unexplainable...

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wrote something dat i feel so suitable for me in friendster some time ago...

~* a ger in ("v") *~
~* needs her darlin to be around 24/7 *~
~* contented to be just next to him *~

~* From Him to Me *~
Never want to see u with another guy in the future...
Jus only want to see u by my side always till our time stops..
Cant find anyone more better to u already..
You are the best in my life...
Till now.. I realised i did too many stupid things not worth doing..
I realised u are my real happiness..
I realised u r my one and only... I realised i love u so much greater than anyone..
I realised what is cherish n treasure, i will never throw away my happiness, never!
Lastly, i realised i set u free is the wrong thing to do in the first place..

~* From Me to Him *~
I'm so happy that you returned...
all that waiting really did not go to waste...
though i'm not ur ideal dream ger right now...
i really hope... like wat u said... u will wait for me to change... even if it takes forever...
i would rather things remain like dis right now...so you won't feel like leaving again...
i will try my best to find the missin portion.... and make up for it.... so nothing will ever break us apart...
Lastly, having you by my side is the best thing dat ever happened...

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been thinking about things recently...
why does one have a blog?
to write down ur inner most feelings....
or to let others noe about how u feel?

i feel dat writing a blog helped me grow...
throughout the whole "blogging" period....
i discovered so much sides of myself...
enabling me to become someone better...

although some entries i admit were rather saddening...
n some are directed to spite pple...
but they were all part of me...

only pple with a simple mindset will tink dat blogging is childish....
and wat's worse... have a blog of their own at a later stage...
dun worry mq.... not directing at u....
but someone else...

r a ! n a _____________*

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

been having a topsy turvy lifestyle nowadays...
sleeping when everyone is awake n awake when everyone is sleeping...
have been faithfully playing maple everyday...
funny thing but it just seems to take ur troubles away for a period of time...
it doesn't strain ur mind thinking of problems dat can never be solved...

it is not a very fun game after playing for long...
it gets bored...
but i'm still stuck to it....
drowning myself in it might be the only form of escape from reality....

i will never understand the feeling of being despised by someone....
nor can i ever understand the feeling of being looked down...
cuz i've never experienced anything like dat before....

but u will also never understand the feeling to be sandwiched in the middle...
to cope with the stress from 2 sides...

but for everything....
i choose to avoid...
i choose to escape...
i choose to pretend its inexistence...

call me timid or watever...
but really facing the problem...
and doing something to solve it...
will be a huge feat...
and the chances of successing now...
is near zero...

In the future....
will be a different story....
i know u you will be able to do it...
and wat u need is just time....

borne into a family...
is not be choice...
cultivating one's character...
is by the trials n tribulations one goes thru...
depends on everything....
ur family background...
ur childhood...
ur friends...
and ur experience...

having a character that everyone destest....
is not a very proud thing...
having friends that are together with u cuz of ur position...
is a even worse thing...
thinking that u are superior den everyone....
is the worse of the lot....

i am not like u....
i wan to be well-liked by pple...
i dun wan to be hated by pple...
i cannot live ur life...
i have my own life to lead....
in the way that i wan...

r a ! n a _____________*

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