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Monday, February 27, 2006

why just can't u understand me?
it is not my fault dat things dun work out...
why must u put the blame on me...
ya i'm a jinx
cuz everything dat is between us does not turn out well...

tink i dun feel sad...
tink i dun wan it to work...
tink i dun feel like seeing u...

u just dun understand...

staying here suxs....

cuz of u...
u make me hate it to stay here....

r a ! n a _____________*

Friday, February 24, 2006

i'm again a happy n blissful ger....
cuz i know...
i'm loved n missed...
hee... (",)

sometimes a phone call will just do wonders for me...
a mere 10 mins call is enough to strengthen my beliefs...
just hearing his voice will calm me...
and just a simple msg from him...
will take me out from the dumps...
and be a happy ger again...
i just love him so much...

r a ! n a _____________*

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i saw fireworks in the nite sky just now....
within such a close view....
it was beautiful....
very beautiful....

as most will know how happy i am to be able to see fireworks...
the display of lights in the nite sky....
simply breathtaking....
though it is a just a short moment....
it is enough to make me very happy....

but just now...
when i went of of my flat to watch it...
the feeling.... different...

the feeling of loneliness crept in...
the feeling of missing overwhelmed...

hard to bear...
difficult to bear...

piled on with the lousy internet restrictions...
it makes it all the more much difficult...

with the pinning getting more and more each day...
the more i feel turning into a different person....

a fake person...
all smiles....
so friendly...
so talkative...
behaving as though nothing is wrong...
dat's me

how i hate myself now...
so fake... dat even i cannot stand myself...

tears to bed...
wayward thoughts...

feel as though....
it is slowly eating into the real me...
and soon i feel...
i will lose myself...

r a ! n a _____________*

Sunday, February 19, 2006

i'm missing...

my darlin...

my beloved furry bear...

and my xiao tou...

very very much....

its been a week since i'm here...
been running around...
buying things for my place as well as my sis's place...
officially shifted in only today...
cuz from today onwards i will be staying at my own place...
previously was staying at my sis's place....

my address is:
Flat 50, Room 5
Erica Underwood House
209 Kent Street
Karawara 6152
Perth, Western Australia

anyone who wans to mail me letters post to dis address okie....

well, life's here is fine...
really got nothing much to do...
but guess dat is cuz sch has not officially started...
and the campus is so huge dat i have difficulty looking for my classroom....

i stay opposite campus...
so i just have to cross the road to get to school...
but den.... the road is so busy....
dat i have to stand by it for like 5 mins before it gets cleared for me to cross...

and my timetable is cool....
classes only on mondays, wednesdays and fridays....
the rest of the days.... free!!
but have to study one lah...
haha....
but can relax at home...

guess dat is all for now...
nothing much to update le....

miss my darlin so much....
haven seen him for so long....
haiz....

miss my xiao tou too...
haven heard her voice for so long...
and it seemed so weird when we parted...

miss everyone.... =(

r a ! n a _____________*

Saturday, February 11, 2006

in less den 6 hours time...
i will be leaving...
feeling very weird...
neither upset nor excited...
just very weird...

i wanted to leave on a happy note...
but tink it will not be dat way anymore...
cuz i quarreled with him just dis morning...
over things dat i would never ever learn how to do...
always committing it all over again...

anyway...
take care everyone...
miss me loads....

r a ! n a _____________*

Saturday, February 04, 2006

never once does my so called parties ever been a success....
that's the reason i have not been clelbrating my past two birthdays....
even to the extend of not having a cake...

never once there was full attendence....
never once all those who agreed came...
so much so....
the number of pple who came can be counted with one hand...

i still remember the numbers....
zero...
three...
and practically that's all.....

crap to all those pple....
who agreed and confirmed....
but in the end give lame reasons for not coming....

and for those who are still deciding....
wan to come den come dun wan to come den forget about it....

i dun need to go down on my knees to beg u to come....
and i dun need u around.....
this refers to pple WHO AGREED DEN AFTER CHANGED THEIR MINDS!!!

i will be a much happier person without u all around....

i dun tink i will be flying back for my birthday already....
there is no reason for me to...
dun wan to have my 21st birthday end up the same as all my others which i celebrated....

CRAP....
hate all those pple....
STAY AWAY FROM ME....
NEVER LET ME HEAR UR NAME AGAIN.....

r a ! n a _____________*

The Ger

~*Serene ` Raina*~

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