getting stuff done: creating my life

I have been busy working lately.  Which is a good thing.  I enjoy my work and the income is welcome.  So the decluttering has turned down somewhat, but even so I got rid of some things at a swish ( though came back with stuff in its place, so perhaps that doesn't count!)  and further to that I sorted a bag of clothing for the charity shop.  Today I took out a bag of stuff and I have another assortment of half pots of paint and DIY stuff that also needs to go.  I was hoping that the "Hanover Recycling" method of parking it outside the house and announcing it as FREE on the Hanover Community Noticeboard, would suffice.  But it appears not to have gone.  Dammit.  So dump or gumtree or some such. 

I cleared out the understairs cupboard.  Though it still seems pretty full.  At least its clean and tidy now.  I am also getting advice on a capsule wardrobe soon, so I shalll be excitedly posting about that. 

And  - its my birthday soon.  Perhaps this birthday is what is getttign me all thinking about the future.  They do that don't they, birthdays. 

I do feel a surge of a new direction coming.  I am not sure how or what, but it all is much more coherent and determined.  This is it.  I have some years left to pay off our mortgages and I need to take this career of mine seriously.  In a good and powerful way. 

A bag of really nice 5-7 yr old boy clothes.  I tried to eBay some but no takers. Am going to let a charity shop sell them. Lovely stuff.  Bye bye. I now have a big 9 yr old chap.  Am also ready to let go of some beautiful dresses.  I will never fit them again however stunning I used to be in them.  I am no longer that young woman!  Here's to the new me.  A cool old lady! Cos is my new friend.  :)  

I love that today I  space clearing by getting rid of a book called space clearing!  I've read the diet book and found I made up my own 5:2 recipes anyway.  Icarus Deception was so so.  Not a keeper.  Off to Oxfam these will go.  

I went through my drawers and a shelf.  I don't need these things.  They are in the swish bag / recycling or charity bag today.   

Am taking part in a 365 days of decluttering project. It's a Facebook thing and a private group. Set up by the lovely Viv Lambert. But I am also trying to declutter the Facebook time from my life and want to blog about it.  I am trying out this app. To see if I can blog from my phone.  And then share to Facebook without me getting all caught up in it.   

I wrote this a few weeks back.  Or maybe a week.  I don't know.   Time is moving wierdly.  I re read it again and I am brave enough to press publish on this slightly odd post.  I know what it means and I am happy with it.  This is my personal blog.  Not some sales page anyways. I am who I am. 

I have been involved with a FB project lately.  Which is good and bad.  Bad because I am an addict to it and I spend time there and it generally doesn't do me many favours - I feel like i have been flicking channels and the whole bitter arguing that is spewing forth over the American elections.  And the whole bunch of people who seem to think that Trump is better than Hilary Clinton.  Which just beggars belief in my book.  I can see she is an establishment figure and as such has been involved in politics for a long time.  But to me she doesn't seem worse than the others.  Where as Trump seems like - dear god.  A hideous joke of a presidential candidate.  I just cannot STAND him.  He is a truly hideous human being with no redeeming features as far as I can tell.  There seem to be some out there who seem to think that he is redeemed by Hilary being much worse.  But I don't see how that redeems him.   And none of them seem to be talking about the planet.  So I was gladdened to hear  - as well  -that this morning there has been some attempt at bringing the issue of the Environment into the debate.  Because that it is so sadly lacking totally disheartens me.  Anyways.  yada yada yada. 

The thing I have been doing.  SEE how distracting all that is!!! Is a 365 decluttering challenge.  I may transfer that to here so that I can avoid FB more, and share from here to there.  But its been good. I am shedding old stuff - a lot.  Stuff from the loft from cupboards from my wardrobe, from the bathroom cabinet, from under the kitchen sink.... everywhere.  Every day for a year I am getting something out of the house.  I may play a little loose with the dates and days as some days I have probably gotten rid of 100s of things.  And I may finally run out!!  But the point is to continue.

I got rid of a stereo I have not used, for 10 years.  Not since we moved into this house.  And with it, I am gearing up to shedding ALL the CD's.  Or most of them.  Because.  I can only play them in the car now anyway.  Its a massive getting rid of time.  I want to only have things that are useful, and that I use, and things of beauty left.  Time to move on. 

So - after all that.  Here is the post.  Its a bit abstract.  But its about identity and release.  And yes I am in it.

Identity.

Shifting.  Releasing the garbage.   Peeling away the layers that have covered me up.  Letting go of the covers, the masks the acting out and the costumes. Being pure consciousness.  Being there where the energy is.

Integrity.  Being in integrity for me.  Getting rid of what is off.  Not right for me.  Keeping what feels true and right.

Noticing some narratives that are not helpful to me.  And seeking out a narrative that supports where I want to go.

Intuition.  Getting clear and quiet to hear my own inner voice.

For me - Integrity.