said what i wanted and what i could
now, its only wait. and perhaps leave it to fate

since when is that the case?
perhaps since the start of time
anything that you don't know,
just leave it to fate
it may just help, who knows?

didn't quite leave it to fate, though.
was still insistent in my own ways
because if it was just a "leave it to fate thing"
i wouldn't have said a single word
but i said a chunk load of them

and at the end of the day
whatever happens, sorry it wasn't intentional
it isn't just a convenient excuse simply taken off the shelf
if possible, i wouldn't want to use it. at all.

had flag comm dinner at khansama
it has been one year, though slightly delayed.
the marking of the closure of last year's comm
and the start of a new life
and yet, all seemed just too vivid
from the first meeting when i was still a year one
faced with a whole group of strangers
to completing a year in flag with them becoming friends;
and then it proceeded to year two
the first time in the meeting as a director
with a great group of friends who eventually worked alongside
which then got us much closer;
and finally, taking a different seat, as an upperstudy
feeling great that huizhen and terence took the step forward
do hope you guys would make the coming year a great one,
regardless of the challenges that you both may face
there will definitely be people supporting you guys.

well, talked of the many "if-only" over dinner
the absence of these if-only really made the difference.
otherwise, alot of stuff would have been different,
just like what audrey said.
didn't regret making the decision
for otherwise, i wouldn't have this comm
a comm which despite our small size worked on fine
there might have been other unhappiness elsewhere
but the comm made it all worthwhile, i must say.
and in fact, to current-day's situation.

whether i was a good director or not, it's not for me to say
but i do hope i didn't fare too badly.
and now, i hope i can be a good upperstudy.
i'll try. and i'll learn.