Friday, March 20, 2009

Is Absolute Possible??

I like my things in black and white. I absolutely hate greys.*I dun mean clothes* But I've realized that I've got so many greys in my life! I have so many things that I've kept in my old luggages, thinking, oh maybe someday I will use it. Someday I will wear it. Maybe I will need it. Blah blah blah.*or does this happens to most people??*

It all boils down to my indecisiveness with these stupid little things!

I've kept so much stuff.

Old hopes, old dreams, things I hang on to, waiting around so that if it does happen, I will be there to embrace it. People that I've hung on to, old friends that I hope to continue to...old hobbies that I still want to take up, old ambitions etc. Though I've subscribed to the simple, quality not quantity life. I don't want a complicated life so I ONLY want a small collection of everything, my stuff, thoughts, things that I will do with my life, friendships, relationships.

So I should let it all go now. Or at least take a more stringent inventory. Move on, woman! Forget sentimentality. It does nothing for anyone!!!

I never "collect" but in a way I'm so over "collecting" material things, friends, activities, new interests, pleasing everyone etc. It's a woman's nature to be accommodating, no?

Away with complications! Nothing should ever be complicated. It's complicated because I allow things to be. Just as BC told me yesterday about “complication”. In fact, it was she who said this to me.

They clutter my life! They clutter my head, my mind, my space, my breath.
Away with these things! I don't need more things, I will now only go for quality.

Everything shall be a quality investment of time.

To the end with complicated matters. Stuff it all.

Back to work on a Gloomy Friday……..

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

At The Crossroad......


Recently I've been rather quiet because I've been writing a lot internally. Things about the future are still uncertain and I've been feeling rather impatient. Everything's on hold right now and its not even in my hands to decide my own crossroad. Although, it was my choice to allow this to happen prior to that. I stand by it with conviction.

I think there is a time to just enjoy the day as it comes and trust that we can overcome it.

I've been going through several creative periods where I just feel so creative!*singing my tunes in the bathroom and talking to myself before I goes to bed probably has been more of distressing to being creative*
I remember the last periods of quiet time of my life was probably about five years ago when I stayed most times in the room reflecting on myself and the road I should take from then .

It was peaceful.

I was alone often but not lonely because I could feel the many friends waiting to see me moving to a new direction, always with me.

Perhaps I'm in that mode again while preparing me for what is next?