Sunday, June 03, 2012

in 3 years...

My Darling randomly send me an email which i forwarded him 3 years ago...
In 3 years, many of the below needs/wants are no longer relevant.

Some, because i've achieved it with time...
For others, perhaps i've changed from who i used to be...
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From: Choo, Jiahui (SG - Singapore)
Sent: Friday, 18 September, 2009 02:45 PM
To: Lim, Gwen (SG - Singapore)
Subject: RE: 24 wants

My review pt is why isit 24 wants, not 16 NEEDS

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From: Lim, Gwen (SG - Singapore)
Sent: Friday, 18 September, 2009 02:20 PM
To: Choo, Jiahui (SG - Singapore)
Subject: 24 wants

Immediate needs
1.     A new job

Basic Needs
2.     A laptop
3.     A new mobile phone
4.     Camera cover
5.     Lasik sponsorship
6.     Spa package
7.     A new automatic watch
8.     A Wii set
9.     A kate spade handbag

Intellectual Needs
10.  Newsweek subscription
11.  National Geographic Subscription
12.  Chic magazine subscription
13.  Better memory = Omega 3 +++

Mobility Needs
14.  A Red Car
15.  Subsidize for my Australia Dec Trip

Cooking Needs
16.  Blender
17.  Ingredients 
18.  Bread maker to mix the dough b4 I bake
19.  Professional class on baking techniques
20.  Wine for Tiramisu
21.  Round baking tin

Dressmaking needs
22.  More colourful Buttons
23.  More colourful ribbon
24.  More cloth to make more clothes

Gwen Lim
Senior | Assurance & Advisory Services
Deloitte & Touche LLP

Sunday, March 18, 2012



我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺蝟的坚强 全都是假象..
哭吧
Loving what you are doing

I’m enjoying my work at my current company with its structured focus on employee development and work life balance. *likes*

I’m getting a little stressed out recently. With one of our team lead leaving for a regional role, there will be no replacement but a restructuring of responsibilities. We were not being told what will be placed on our plates yet… but when I’m called for meetings, arrow will come shooting at me… boss will tell BU to liaise with me directly going forward. By that it means – it’ll be my portfolio. I’ll definitely not be able to match his 12 years experience with my 9 months knowledge. I just hope I can learn faster and catch up with the knowledge gap. I need to know more in a short time! *jiayou gwen!

Thank you to people who kept me sane when I am stressed and need comfort! *appreciates!

Missing you

As I was stressed with work and the escalating responsibilities, I needed more than ever the support and your comforting shoulders to tell me everything is okay and I will be fine.

I am not as independent as I want to be… I need you more than I want to admit to… perhaps it’s just a ‘moment thingy’… but at this moment, I needed you.

The little ones

They keep me sane from my insane life. They always make me laugh and remind me of who I was and where I am now. Adore them lots! :)


“男人说谎, 是要让自己觉得好过.
而女人说谎, 是要让对方好过.
我们选择欺骗 , 是因为不想伤害深爱的人
我们不是故意的, 只是没有伤害对方的勇气.”
ep 17 part 3

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Year End Closing

It's the time of the year again! I stressed myself so much today that I wanna just scream and cry out loud in office when the stupid affiliate FS do not tie! 

There is so much to do by Friday! May I please have 24 hours more everyday?

It looks like i'm closing a different set of accounts every year - there comes the challenge I was looking for and here I am complaining abt it!

I know I'll feel accomplished at the end of this dark times... I just need to make some noise now... 

ARGH!

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Wicked - For Good



ELPHABA
I'm limited:
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you -
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
(spoken) For both of us
(sung) Now it's up to you:

GLINDA
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

ELPHABA
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

GLINDA
Because I knew you:

BOTHI have been changed for good

ELPHABA
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

GLINDA
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

BOTH
And none of it seems to matter anymore

GLINDA ELPHABA
Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seed
A boulder, half-way Dropped by a
Through the wood Bird in the wood

BOTH
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?

GLINDA
And because I knew you:
ELPHABA
Because I knew you:

BOTH
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.


~

Dear Best Friend,

I cried the first time I hear this song thinking of you! :)

Thank you, Thank you for being my friend!

Saturday, December 03, 2011

I do not understand and I cannot comprehend.
When this happen, I ask myself, “What am I holding on to? What do you see in your future?”

I am always too busy to think and so I'll just move on because time wait for no man.

But when the night quiet down and the silence sink in, you cannot help but wonder…

Maybe, it’s never meant to be.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Feedback

I recently had my year-end appraisal with supervisor and manager. I’m not confirmed to date but had already done 2 formal appraisals – a company practice.

I’m surprise when supervisor says he is learning new things from me and my positive attitude towards issues - not settled without convincing myself - is infectious and encouraging. I’m very pro-active and always approach him with multiple solutions.

One thing I need to learn is to protect my boundaries – I’m too accommodating such that colleagues make use of the opportunity to arrow me and siam work.

To me, more work means more learning opportunities – it’s critical to know more things especially in an environment where everyone has at least 10-20 years experiences.

I’m still excited to learn the industry and its functions.

It’s funny to know that I have zero interest in oil and gas industry at first. I’m really more interested in the bling bling of crystals and how retail business is close to consumers’ heart.

Luckily I’m someone who is interested in everything which I don’t know.

Till I get bored, I’ll still be curious and interested in the things I do.

Rational Choice

"When you analyze happiness, it turns out that the way you spend your time is extremely important.

Decisions that affect how much time you spend with people you like are going to have a very large effect on how happy you are – not necessarily satisfied with your life but happy."

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Today

I felt fainty on my way to work today – again! I dropped at braddell to get a breather but I still can’t last till raffles place. End up dropping at douby ghaut and cab home…

Why am I so weak? :(

Thanks Jie for accompanying me whenever I land myself into such trouble.

Love my family for always taking care of me!
~

I feel guilty skipping work cos technically I’ll be fine after resting a while but as I always tell people around me… nothing is more important than your health. If work has to wait, then it gonna wait…
~

Performance appraisal happening next week… it’s like a 4.5 months instead of 6 months appraisal… either they intend to give me my aws earlier or they want me to leave asap… we shall see… :p
~

Recently

My mood swing has been very tough for darling to handle. With hindsight, I see a totally unreasonable and ridiculous self giving darling a really hard time to please me.
Thank you darling for holding on and not walking away from me!
You are the best best! *loves!
~

Wedding Bells

It’s end of the year and the peak of wedding dinners… Angie on 11/11/11, Vincent on 20/11/2011, Bee & Hong Han on 20/11/2011, Mei Jun on 11/12/11 and recently added… Liting on 17/12/11.

It’s a joyous occasion and we always wish for them to have a blissful marriage and live happily ever after.
~

Shanghai

Darling will be seconded to Shanghai for half a year for his job rotation. I’ll definitely miss him and I’ll definitely have a hard time adapting to life without him by my side. It’s a test for us and I hope we can brave through it and be stronger. *loves!
~


The year is coming to an end,
what have I accomplished?

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Perfection in itself is imperfect.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Fainting Spell

I was on my way to work as usual on a lazy Monday morning. I had my tennis shoes, racket and change with my laptop and my handbag. It’s a little heavy, but manageable still.

From Newton I felt dizzy and my head spinning. I tried to bend my legs thinking that it’s due to blood flow. I also tried taking deep breath. I hang on till Somerset and I ruled out getting a seat in the train or squatting down in the train, so I stepped out of the train and got a seat.

I called Jie immediately to ask her to alight at Somerset to bring me to a taxi. I was sweating profusely and everything turned into sparks of blacks and whites. I wanted to drop boss a sms informing that I’ll be taking MC but I can’t even see clearly.

It was so scary! I told darling I was scared I will die without anyone knowing…

Then I called darling and I started crying. His calming voice asked me to keep talking to him, don’t worry, everything is fine…

Jie came and I took a cab home. Mom picked me up from the bus stop.

Doctor said I have low blood pressure. I felt it’s a combination of the period bleeding, the packed train, the long standing, the heavy load, the cough and my weak health.

The last time this happened was at woodlands mrt station when Ru was with me – at least 4 years ago… I’ve aged but have not grown any healthier…

Sunday, September 18, 2011

26th Birthday

A wonderfully planned surprise from Janice, Han Ting, Wee Kwok and Zhi Hao with the assistance of Sister and Weizhi.

They surprised me (and mummy) by appearing at my stairs with a cake & the song just as I walked out of my house. Thereafter, they gave me my birthday card with my passport in it!

As we board Uncle Freddie’s card, we embarked on our day trip to Desaru with lovely company and happy memories.

When we came back to SG, I was expecting Darling to appear to surprise me but hope diminished as the clock strike 12 and he is nowhere to be seen! I was beginning to think that perhaps his flight is really coming back on Sunday and I was just thinking too much… I was getting quite pissed by then… apologies to my friends who accompanied me with my black face! *opps!

He saved the day by appearing with a bouquet of roses and a smile on his face. *loves*

~
We went Salt Grill & Sky Bar for dinner on Sunday in celebration of my belated birthday. Thanks to dearie Janice who tipped him off! *hugs!

~
Although I’m moving towards my late twenties, I take comfort that I have a lovely family and a group of awesome friends whom I can always count on!



~
I still find each day too short for
all the thoughts I want to think,
all the walks I want to take,
all the books I want to read,
and all the friends I want to see.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

I Love Holiday!

It had been a carefree happy four days of rest – Simply loving it!

Spent my last four days mostly resting, spending time with mum, teaching Kayden, spending time with Darling shopping, watched Cars 2 movie, spent time with his family, watched 8 goals manu awesome match , lim ko-pi, played monopoly deal and played tennis too!

Only spend a couple of hours checking and replying emails. I can do a lot more with my laptop if I want, but I choose to decrease time spent at home on work! I should not let work affect my personal life and nothing is more important than my loved ones!

Thank you Darling for spending time with me! Love you for the many little things you did – playing monopoly deal, switching off the air-con when I said I’m cold, playing tennis with me even when you are having bad abrasion. *Loves!

It’s 3 more days to weekend but closing yet again! I’ll pull through! I'm sure!



~
Jiayou Jiayou gwen!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Take it easy

I’m turning blue cos it’s Monday tomorrow and I’ve been working most of this Sunday!! *.O

Met up with Ting & Janice on Fri and Ting point out that I look happier when I was with Swarovski… whereas Janice looks happier in her new job now! :) Happy for dearie Janice!

Yes indeed I am more stressed and less confident in the things I am doing… it’s an extremely steep learning curve causing less enjoyment and as such, less happiness too~ I may have too high an expectation on myself and when I fail to meet them, I'll get real upset.

Actually, I’m just a salaried employee and I should not let work eat into my personal well-being. A job is something you do for revenue and it’s a bonus to derive satisfaction! It should not consume your energy so much so it affects your personal life. If that happens, please quit. It’s not worth it!!

With plenty encouragement from loved ones, I begin to 看开点 and let nature takes it course. I’ll try my best not to be too stressed at work and take things easy. Learn to the best of your abilities and do not blame yourself for anything not within your control! Yea!

I will only do things I want to and not force myself to do things I do not enjoy! Never change yourself to please others. It’s not worth it! :)

~~
Jiayou Gwen Gwen!
!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Finding your place…

There will be random days at work when I’ll feel super stressed and I just feel like breaking down and cry.

Today, I felt this way.

I’ve been working fairly late recently. Straining my eyes quite a bit till I seen black dots emerging from nowhere. I hope this will not worsen so I can retain my perfect vision.

My to-do list just keeps getting longer and the task always gets tougher. I dun seems to be able to resolve a single issue without consulting anyone. I hate depending on people! I want to be independent and I yearn for the satisfaction of exceeding expectations.

I told Darling & Janice that I dream of quitting my Analyst job and apply for a data entry role… just pay me $3k per month and I’ll be glad to work from 9am to 5.30pm sharp doing data entry.

Seriously, I know that is not what I want but the building stress is making breathing difficult and is killing me slowly.

I’m really not good with stress! *argh!

I insisted on meeting Darling after work today although I still have tones of things to do. I just want to fall into his arms and cry.

*sigh!

It’s a vicious cycle. New Job > stress > cry and cry > master job > bored > quit > new job…
I need to find my comfort zone. I need to find something I enjoy doing. Really, is there anyone out there who sincerely enjoys what they are doing? "

I hope I can enjoy my job so I do not have to work a single day in life…

~

Darling left after dinner and tasked me to bathe, write blog and watch tele with mom before I start work again.



Thank you darling! You make me sane again! *hearts*

Sunday, July 31, 2011

The Road Not Taken

Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Time will Tell

I’m still trying to learn the business and deliver to the best of my knowledge and ability.
A little part of me is telling myself that I’m not created for big things.

My perspective of a happy life is to have a (stress-free) regular job, marry a good man and have a couple of kids to watch grow up. I wanna continue to volunteer and contribute to the society and I wanna travel at least once a year with my loved ones despite our busy schedules. We should have a common sport/activity to spend quality time as a family on every weekend.

It’ll be a bonus if I can have a florist shop to manage when I grow old…

Whichever line I go into, however big bonus I may be drawing, I must not forget what makes me happy! I do not need big house nor big cars, I need happy loved ones to keep me grounded and always remind myself the simple pleasure in life.


~
Pretty encouragement from Darling Janice!

*Hearts*


No Stress, No Gain

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Disappointment

With expectations come disappointments.
~
I’m utterly disappointed with myself - my belief, my inability and my poor judgment.
I should not have cared so much, loved so much and let it matter too much.
I should not have let my guards down. I should not have been vulnerable. I should not have shared a tear.
~
It doesn’t matter that you are making an effort – in his work, in his family, in his well-being.

It really doesn't matter...
~


Expect nothing and accept everything
and you will never be disappointed

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Focus

As we start afresh and learn from the beginning, I cannot help but wonder…
Why did we choose to leave our comfort zone?
“We are working towards our better future!” – I told him and he reminded me.
~
It’s definitely a challenging job with diverse items on the accounts and a huge connection of people to liaise with. The people are generally nice and the boss seems generally flexible. I hope things will become better as time tell tales.


~
I need to...
keep breathing and start exercising!

Sunday, June 05, 2011

Blessed with Choices

We were inspiring our little ones the reasons why they have to study - to get good results which will enable them to choose the secondary school they want to get into. The better you are, the more choices you have.

And having choices is the most important thing in life.

~
I went for an interview in April and unexpectedly was offered the position after a couple of meet ups. It’s a Financial Analyst position and hence interest me more than a financial accountant JD.

The tendering, short-serve and buying-out process had been a very ugly one and I really hope I made the sound choice here. I’ll be moving on in July and from now till then, I hope I can get back to talking terms with my boss…

~
Trust is like a vase,
Once broken, though you can fix it
the vase will never be same again.