Hey there,
I FINALLY started a new blog posting about pregnancy and becoming a parent after IF. Follow me to the next stages of unknown territory! I hope this post find you all well and on your way to your dreams...
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Cherm
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Thursday, October 13, 2011
U/S #2
Sorry I didn't get to post the results right away. Got home kinda late on Tuesday and was pretty tired. Then last night our Internet decided to be lame. Booooo!
The good news is...everything went great at our second ultrasound! Everything is measuring just as it should be, the yolk sac looks good, the placenta is forming and most importantly we saw the heartbeat!!! It looked strong and beating fast at about 120. It was certainly surreal to say the least and the NP said everything looked "perfect". The experience was much more pleasant than last time and she explained everything wonderfully.
We are 8 weeks and one day today. It's really feeling real now. We are finally starting to experience the joy of this. I'm smiling spontaneously at the thought of future planning and getting chills when I think of what's to come! Our due date is May 23rd...Mr Bag's birthday!
Although I haven't officially heard from the RE's office, the NP released me to make an appt. with my OB. It's scheduled for 11/15 which will be towards the end of 12 weeks.
Still pinching myself even though it's feeling more real everyday.
In the interest of sensitivity and logic. I'll probably be starting a new blog to focus on where this journey is headed. I'll certainly put up a link so you can follow me there if you wish. In the meantime please take whatever you want from what I've written and know that it IS possible to have success on the IF journey! I write that with caution as we still have a long way to go until May but it's a level of success none-the-less. I hope you all are well out there and don't lose hope!!! xoxo
The good news is...everything went great at our second ultrasound! Everything is measuring just as it should be, the yolk sac looks good, the placenta is forming and most importantly we saw the heartbeat!!! It looked strong and beating fast at about 120. It was certainly surreal to say the least and the NP said everything looked "perfect". The experience was much more pleasant than last time and she explained everything wonderfully.
We are 8 weeks and one day today. It's really feeling real now. We are finally starting to experience the joy of this. I'm smiling spontaneously at the thought of future planning and getting chills when I think of what's to come! Our due date is May 23rd...Mr Bag's birthday!
Although I haven't officially heard from the RE's office, the NP released me to make an appt. with my OB. It's scheduled for 11/15 which will be towards the end of 12 weeks.
Still pinching myself even though it's feeling more real everyday.
In the interest of sensitivity and logic. I'll probably be starting a new blog to focus on where this journey is headed. I'll certainly put up a link so you can follow me there if you wish. In the meantime please take whatever you want from what I've written and know that it IS possible to have success on the IF journey! I write that with caution as we still have a long way to go until May but it's a level of success none-the-less. I hope you all are well out there and don't lose hope!!! xoxo
Monday, October 3, 2011
The Waiting Game
Ahhh the waiting game. You quickly realize after getting a BFP that the waiting doesn't end with just the 2ww...you then wait for the 2nd beta...the 3rd beta...the first u/s, then the second u/s etc..etc....etc...
We are now in between the first and second u/s. Originally we were going to have the second one this Thursday, but we decided to go to a different physician. After the underwhelming response from Dr. Charming we decided to reschedule the second u/s with the lovely NP that gave me my second shot back in May. We figured good or bad news it will be much more tolerable coming from her. The other upside is that her office is an hour and a half closer to where we live.
In the meantime we wait and twiddle our thumbs. Symptom wise the following is taking place:
1) Crazy hungry ALL THE TIME!
2) Peeing just about every hour
3) Starting to have some nausea (woke up last night at 2AM and thought I was going to hurl)
4) Very tired in the afternoons and evenings
5) Super bloated and have quite a pooch (my mom is convinced there's more than one in there..eeek!)
6) With the bloating comes lots of gas much to Mr. Bags displeasure...sorry honey! : P
7) Aches and pains in the lower abdomen along with periodic groin pain
8) BBS getting bigger and achy much to Mr. Bags delight...:)
I think that about sums it up for now. Thanks for all your lovely comments and support it means so much! It's finally starting to sink in that this might be really happening...but again I don't think I'll get really excited until 12 weeks.
We are now in between the first and second u/s. Originally we were going to have the second one this Thursday, but we decided to go to a different physician. After the underwhelming response from Dr. Charming we decided to reschedule the second u/s with the lovely NP that gave me my second shot back in May. We figured good or bad news it will be much more tolerable coming from her. The other upside is that her office is an hour and a half closer to where we live.
In the meantime we wait and twiddle our thumbs. Symptom wise the following is taking place:
1) Crazy hungry ALL THE TIME!
2) Peeing just about every hour
3) Starting to have some nausea (woke up last night at 2AM and thought I was going to hurl)
4) Very tired in the afternoons and evenings
5) Super bloated and have quite a pooch (my mom is convinced there's more than one in there..eeek!)
6) With the bloating comes lots of gas much to Mr. Bags displeasure...sorry honey! : P
7) Aches and pains in the lower abdomen along with periodic groin pain
8) BBS getting bigger and achy much to Mr. Bags delight...:)
I think that about sums it up for now. Thanks for all your lovely comments and support it means so much! It's finally starting to sink in that this might be really happening...but again I don't think I'll get really excited until 12 weeks.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Ultrasound
Another hurdle cleared! The ultrasound went well. At 5 weeks and 5 days the RE found a yolk sac and a fetal pole. He said everything looks good so far. There wasn't a heartbeat yet but he said it's probabaly pretty close. We will go back next week to hear the heartbeat. It's also looking like one bean in there at this point.
The underwhelmed reaction of Dr. Charming made me a little uneasy but I think that's just him. My fav PA came out to talk with us afterwards and she mentioned that they think there was a delayed implantation which isn't a big deal but explained why the first number was on the lower side.
Overall we're stoked! Just have to get over the next hurdle. Hopefully the good news will keep on coming! Hope you all are well out there!
The underwhelmed reaction of Dr. Charming made me a little uneasy but I think that's just him. My fav PA came out to talk with us afterwards and she mentioned that they think there was a delayed implantation which isn't a big deal but explained why the first number was on the lower side.
Overall we're stoked! Just have to get over the next hurdle. Hopefully the good news will keep on coming! Hope you all are well out there!
Monday, September 26, 2011
First u/s day
Just wanted to post a quickie on u/s day. We go in early this afternoon for our first u/s after three positive Betas (still weird to write that). I feel like this is the moment of truth. We're either REALLY pg or not. I've been feeling butterflies in my stomach off and on all week and as it's gotten closer can't help but fantasize about the outcome. Mr Bags has been really cute and asking me everyday if I'm hungry and tired. :)
Whatever the results we will survive and hopefully of course will be delighted. If dreams really do come true I hope the one I had the other night does. I dreamt that they saw the little bean in there and it was eating! (maybe because I've been eating so much :) ) Very strange indeed but a good sign I hope!
I'll update later this evening with the results....eeeeek!
Whatever the results we will survive and hopefully of course will be delighted. If dreams really do come true I hope the one I had the other night does. I dreamt that they saw the little bean in there and it was eating! (maybe because I've been eating so much :) ) Very strange indeed but a good sign I hope!
I'll update later this evening with the results....eeeeek!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Presence and Absence
Over this past week and a half we've been floating through our day still trying to wrap our brains around whether this is really happening or not. Because of the disappointments we've faced in the past we are hesitant to jump up and down yet. That's part of IF I suppose...it sort of robs you of that assured excitement; being able to POAS and run to show your DH that it worked after you've been trying for a few months; being able to just call up your OB and make an appointment for your first exam. Instead we have a feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop and for someone to tell us....sorry not this time...again.
Mr Bags came up with a great analogy the other day while we were discussing our feelings about this last week and a half. He told me that what he's feeling is compared to how he felt about the Gia.nts winning the Wor.ld Series. At first he just couldn't believe it and after being so disappointed time and time again he felt like he didn't quite have the presence of joy, but there was the absence of heartbreak. Once he had some time to let it sink in and after reliving the great moments from the final games, he finally could feel that "Joy" and celebrate. He is having that same experience now accept on a MUCH bigger scale. I told him he described what I am feeling too.
Once we pass our first and second u/s; further still (hopefully) reach that 12 week mark and ultimately when hold that baby in our arms we will be able to finally experience the "joy" of this good news and celebrate all that we have been striving for in these last 4 1/2 years. By the time this baby comes it will have been 5 years. I know for some it has been longer and for some shorter...I suppose it's all relative to your situation and perspective. Where ever you are I hope your dreams of becoming a parent come true very soon and that you can find the joy in it sooner that you think...
Mr Bags came up with a great analogy the other day while we were discussing our feelings about this last week and a half. He told me that what he's feeling is compared to how he felt about the Gia.nts winning the Wor.ld Series. At first he just couldn't believe it and after being so disappointed time and time again he felt like he didn't quite have the presence of joy, but there was the absence of heartbreak. Once he had some time to let it sink in and after reliving the great moments from the final games, he finally could feel that "Joy" and celebrate. He is having that same experience now accept on a MUCH bigger scale. I told him he described what I am feeling too.
Once we pass our first and second u/s; further still (hopefully) reach that 12 week mark and ultimately when hold that baby in our arms we will be able to finally experience the "joy" of this good news and celebrate all that we have been striving for in these last 4 1/2 years. By the time this baby comes it will have been 5 years. I know for some it has been longer and for some shorter...I suppose it's all relative to your situation and perspective. Where ever you are I hope your dreams of becoming a parent come true very soon and that you can find the joy in it sooner that you think...
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Beta #3
Sorry I didn't get to update until now. Was kind of a crazy day yesterday. Then I worked this AM.
OK..now for the results....it doubled to 120!!!!!
The news did not come without drama though...let me elaborate. So I know I've mentioned my favorite PA. She's been the one calling me with the results the last couple of times. Well she was out of town on conference so I knew she wouldn't be calling me and she told me that her coordinating nurse would be. So I waited patiently until about 2:30 (they normally they call between 11 and 1) and called the clinic. Sounds like the fax came in, but they hadn't given it to the nurse yet. So I waited another 45 min and who calls me?...Dr. F. my stomach dropped a bit when I heard his voice. If he's calling me it can't be good. After we exchange greetings he says to me, "well here we go again." My heart starts pounding and my stomach is now in my shoes. SHIT!
He precedes to tell me that since the PA has been following me he wasn't sure where my numbers were at so he asks me about Wed. numbers and said, "Oh, well today's was 120" and I said, "that's good right?", he said, "yeah that's fine it doubled". So then he preceded to ask me about Monday's numbers and said he told the PA that it was OK. She had told me it was in the average range. ANYWAY..all is good and I am breathing again. I think my RE is good at what he does, but damn the man needs some training in bedside manner! The only thing I could figure is that he was thinking of another patient. I'm planning on giving him some shit when I see him next! :D
The next step will be to go in for an u/s on Mon. 9/26. He said they're looking to make sure it's not ectopic and to see the gestational sack and fetal pole. Wow...can't believe I just wrote that sentence!
Still cautiously excited and I don't think we'll rest easy until 7-8 weeks from now...or even 36 weeks for that matter! Thank you so much for all your beautiful thoughts and comments! xo
OK..now for the results....it doubled to 120!!!!!
The news did not come without drama though...let me elaborate. So I know I've mentioned my favorite PA. She's been the one calling me with the results the last couple of times. Well she was out of town on conference so I knew she wouldn't be calling me and she told me that her coordinating nurse would be. So I waited patiently until about 2:30 (they normally they call between 11 and 1) and called the clinic. Sounds like the fax came in, but they hadn't given it to the nurse yet. So I waited another 45 min and who calls me?...Dr. F. my stomach dropped a bit when I heard his voice. If he's calling me it can't be good. After we exchange greetings he says to me, "well here we go again." My heart starts pounding and my stomach is now in my shoes. SHIT!
He precedes to tell me that since the PA has been following me he wasn't sure where my numbers were at so he asks me about Wed. numbers and said, "Oh, well today's was 120" and I said, "that's good right?", he said, "yeah that's fine it doubled". So then he preceded to ask me about Monday's numbers and said he told the PA that it was OK. She had told me it was in the average range. ANYWAY..all is good and I am breathing again. I think my RE is good at what he does, but damn the man needs some training in bedside manner! The only thing I could figure is that he was thinking of another patient. I'm planning on giving him some shit when I see him next! :D
The next step will be to go in for an u/s on Mon. 9/26. He said they're looking to make sure it's not ectopic and to see the gestational sack and fetal pole. Wow...can't believe I just wrote that sentence!
Still cautiously excited and I don't think we'll rest easy until 7-8 weeks from now...or even 36 weeks for that matter! Thank you so much for all your beautiful thoughts and comments! xo
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