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진절머리 나다: feeling sick of

어처구니없다: feeling absurd


이것이 지금 내 마음의 소리.
다른 도리가 없다. 이것이 내가 만들어내고 있는 내 최선의 절제 방법이므로.

The more I learn to be a teacher the more I truly give thanks.
Not that I think it is such a breeze to me, but it is what I just am incapable of.

It is undeniably so true that
I do have nothing, meaning the capacities that are needed to be a good teacher, even just a teacher.

If it happens to me later, I will know that it mustn't me but God who transforms and empowers the incompetent creature, me. so that's what I am grateful about although I am deadly frustrated and disgusted to see my limited capacity everyday.


Throughout my class this evening, I couldn't get this thought out of my head so I let it out.
My thought might sound like a christian cliche. but I meant every single word.

Total humbleness is to be sought.