souvenirs
When I travel I usually try to pick up something that reminds me of that place or that moment. If all else fails we pick up a magnet and add it to a board where we keep them all. It is fun to look at all of them. Since I have not traveled in a year (I know it has been sad for me) that means I have not accumulated much to remind me of where we went. I have many souvenirs that bring back many fun memories and even a sad memory too. A few years ago we were in Germany/Netherlands for Thanksgiving break. Thankfully some of the Christmas Markets opened that weekend so we went. I was so excited and to introduce them to Colin too! Man oh man what great memories I have of all the German Christkindlmarkt that I have visited. It makes my heart so happy. When I was pregnant with Colin my doctor's office was right across the street from the Weiden Christkindmarkt. By that point I was making weekly visits to Weiden for check ups which I did not mind at all! So when we were in Germany a few years back we stopped into Obi (hardware store). We really stopped to find a rest room but ended up looking at all the Christmas decor. There was a tree that had these small cordless battery operated candles that I kept going back to. I loved them but just wasn't sure that I really needed them. So I got them and let me tell you they bring me such joy and many smiles every year that I put them on my tree. By the way my tree has not been decorated yet but I wanted to put that garland on it this year and the candles so it doesn't look totally naked.
Now here is the kicker to the story. They work on batteries and turn them off/on with a remote. I can even make the flame flicker or be solid. I love them so much! There is one that will not turn off. I have tried to see if I can adjust it and nothing works. Then I stopped trying to fix it because that my friends is my sign! If you know me (or have been reading this blog from the beginning) you know that I believe in signs and my first sign after Sean died was an article that mentioned a teapot. And you know what else? That one candle does not flicker either . . . it is a constant solid flame that only goes out if I take out the battery. This time of year from mid November to Christmas is always a bit sadder and sometimes the smallest sing gives me that extra push that I need. This small candle reminds me of the love I have, had, and will continue to hold in my heart . . . it is solid and never flickers . . . never fades!
