Monday, October 19, 2020

when someone walks away

Another podcast that I'm enjoying is singer/songwriter Matthew West's podcast (with the catchiest theme song ever!).


I remember seeing major news outlets reporting about Jon Steingard, the lead singer from the Christian band Hawk Nelson saying that he didn't believe in God anymore. I recall rolling my eyes and thinking, "Well, I'm sure the media is loving the chance to cover this story." I read a little bit and then it fell off of my radar.

Well! Matthew West invited him on for an interview. They had been on tours in the past so they had developed a friendship.

Very very interesting. I actually took notes for the purpose of blogging about it. Just to be clear, I do not believe that he was truly in the church even when he was singing about God. Obey Acts 2:38 :o)

- Jon moved from Nashville, TN to Southern California  This was a pivotal moment for him. Musicians in his world tend to all live and work in the Nashville area. This was him getting out his "bubble". There is nothing wrong with moving (within reason) but when you leave your sense of community, that could be dangerous.

- Christianity is hard to unlearn  He said that even in the interviews that he is doing with atheists, he sometimes finds himself defending Christianity.

- The power of music/ chord progressions / inspiration / controlling a crowd  You guys. Music is POWERFUL. If you enjoy music a lot, you are probably aware. If you sing/play an instrument in church, you definitely know. He speaks from a place of doing concerts and understanding how working the crowd the right way can illicit the desired response. This is why we emphasize asking God for His anointing when doing anything for God. An emotional response from the people won't do anything in the spirit.

- When he began to question his faith and was dealing with depression, he sought advice not from his pastor but from a therapist.   Yikes.

- At the end of each episode, Matthew asks the guest to share the moment in their life when God was made real to them. Jon has never had that moment.  This was really sad to me. He grew up in a pastor's home and has devout parents but had never gotten it for himself. I just thought of Matthew's song.... 

I don't wanna go through the motions 
I don't wanna go one more day 
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
 
What is the point of living for God if we're not going all in (another song from Mr. West)? It's so sad to me. I look around my local church and see those whose fire looks so dead. Yes, there's always hope for these but wow, to get to that place of complacency makes us so susceptible of being led astray. 

If you would like to listen to this, I've added the links below (it's in two parts).

    

Friday, September 11, 2020

neighborhood walking fiend

Shelter-in-place made me into a neighborhood walking fiend.


I was thankfully able to work remotely for a few months. This was great! But some things occurred:

~ I ate wayyy too much during that first week, just because

~ Being in the house with my parents drove me stir crazy

~ Hearing the latest news updates on the radio / on phones was just too much

So with that, I decided to go walking in the evenings. Apparently, my neighbors had the same idea, HA! There were so many people walking, jogging, running, biking, gardening, renovating or just sitting out on the porch. It was and still is fun to wave and smile to everyone. The crowd has tapered off now though.

I walked so much, I wore out my Puma's. They had never worked so hard in their young lives. I remember buying them in 2009 and they too became a victim of 2020. So I got some Adidas on clearance at TJ Maxx (once they reopened, lol).

creek near my house on 9/10/2020 - weather was in the 60's(!!) so it was a great walk
          

Walking has changed me. I make sure to wear my FitBit to track the number of steps and miles that I've gone. My clothing is a bit looser so I'm thrilled. But more importantly, it has given me mental clarity. 

While everything in the world is going haywire, the grass is still growing, flowers are still blooming and yes, even those mosquitoes were still biting :/. It was a great reminder that nature will still go on and do what it is supposed to. And I've taken to listening to podcasts while walking. So I'm learning while exercising. Mental and physical activity.

My next walk will be tomorrow and I'm definitely looking forward to it.

Do you have a favorite podcast? Do share. :)

Tuesday, September 1, 2020

A Taste of Heaven

I was privileged to hear an incredible message on Sunday night about Heaven. At the end, we gathered at the front and just glorified God for just being who He is. It felt SO good and oh, how it made me long to be there even more. 

Then came Monday.

I'm doing additional duties at work and it's been stressful. And that compounded with my annoying human worries on life's trajectory and the unknown future was not a good combination.

Monday was rough. 

It bothers me how I can get a taste of Heaven and then have to come back down into this chaos. 

We were never meant to make this world our permanent home but it almost feels selfish to want to be there to yes, worship God all of the time but honestly, also as a relief from the everyday mundane of life. 

It's complicated!

I had to take a break to talk to Jesus. During that time, I thought about what I am trying to convey to one of our new converts.... how important it is to build a strong foundation and get the Word in your heart. When He becomes our joy and our strength and our Rock to run to, His grace is able to empower us. We have access to a little bit of Heaven where ever we are. 

And while we're still walking the earth, we have a purpose to fulfill. 

Wednesday, August 19, 2020

8/19/2020

 *tap tap* 

hello? is this thing on?

HI BLOG :o)

It's been so long. Way way way too long. But I think I'm back. 

I think. 

I feel like I need to start writing on here again and writing in my journal. It helps! And it's fun/insightful/cringe-worthy to look back on your past thoughts and experiences. 

So, we've landed in this crazy world called 2020, eh? Within the past few days, we've experienced what may have been the Hottest day on record in Death Valley. Over here in Dallas, this past weekend was our hottest of the summer. 

More heat stuff: Fire Tornadoes also just happened.

We were all shuttled into our homes, a virus is taking over, politicians fighting (well, that's nothing new, never mind), riot, protesting, toilet paper/sanitizer/cleaning product shortages, business for trampolines/pools/home office chairs are booming.... I looked up a tent that I split the cost with a friend last year. It was $70 in 2019 and is now $150 in 2020. Price gouging, I tell ya.

Oh and UFO's were confirmed by the government but in the chaos, no one even batted an eye.

SO! It's madness. But I thankful for a rock in these shifting sands.

Talk to ya later. 

 

Friday, September 1, 2017

Harvey


My heart aches for all of my neighbors in Houston and in the areas along the Texas gulf coast. Two songs reasonated with me greatly-

In a broken world where we cry to feel
Some hope that helps these hearts to heal
You're my strength, You're my refuge
In a broken world, Jesus I'm holding to You

You make sense of the madness
And You make darkness flee
You bring such a calm
To the chaos in me
Show me life
Tell me truth
Day after day I keep running to You


Tensions have been high in the US with so many issues happening all at once. Now we have Harvey's destruction to add to the chaos. I am Daily reminded of the how broken this world is. And you know, I think God doesn't want us to get too comfortable here. He wants us to turn our eyes and our hearts towards heavenly things. The above is a sorta oldie and obscure-y by Across The Sky.

And then there's this one-

If not us, then who
If not me and you
Right now, it's time for us to do something
If not now, then when
Will we see an end
To all this pain
It's not enough to do nothing
It's time for us to do something

Matthew West nailed it. I don't have a lot of resources but have some. I don't have a lot of extra time but I have a little. Once the roads are suitable, we should have a lot of evacuees being bused into the city. Looking into volunteering opportunities today, I was amazed to see so many slots that are filled all the way through next week. People are stepping up to do something and I think I'll finally take that step and join in. 


Monday, August 21, 2017

It's Eclipse Day!

It's here!


Admittedly, I wasn't so excited when I first heard that this would be happening. The lady on the radio was like, "all you have to do is drive some hours to be near an area that will experience totality" and I'm all like- eh, nope. I'll just look up the footage online later. 

But then it grew on me how cool that this was. I thought that I had seen a full eclipse before but learned that the last one of this magnitude in the US happened in the 70's so, nope. 

In the Dallas area, we'll be able to see about 75% of the sun blocked. Come 2024 (Lord willing), we will be able to experience complete totality (was that redundant?) . 

I'll be on the top deck of my office building occasionally peeking at the progress. 



Friday, August 11, 2017

Golden Boy

⚠️ warning: crazy dog lady post ahead  ⚠️

Yesterday was Toby's golden birthday! 10 years old on 8/10

Thankful for this sweet, intelligent, mischievous pup in my life




His PUPcake from Sprinkles. Get it?!? Hahaha! 
No really, they do call it a pupcake.