(南拳妈妈)

不该结束

窗外的雨停了 天空还是灰的 因为爱情也停止了
回忆在播放着 在笑容里停格 画面会永远留着

给多的是付出 少给的不算输 感情不需要胜负
我给了你全部 你还是想结束 我祝你永远幸福
快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束 付出多才会了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始 祝福的结束

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束 走到了末路还是会留下祝福
我会牢牢记住 你给的 全部 的全部

窗外的雨停了 天空还是灰的 因为爱情也停止了
回忆在播放着 在笑容里停格 画面会永远留着

给的多是付出 少给的不算输 感情不需要胜负
我给了你全部 你还是想结束 我祝你永远幸福

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束 付出多才会了解什么是幸福
不该悲伤的结束 了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始 祝福的结束
喔~的结束

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束 走到了末路还是会留下祝福
不该悲伤的结束 还是会留下幸福
我会 牢牢记住 你给的 全部 喔~
我会 牢牢记住 你给的全部

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束 付出多才会了解什么是幸福
不该悲伤的结束 了解什么是幸福
快乐的开始 祝福的结束
快乐的开始 祝福的结束

快乐的开始不该悲伤的结束 走到了末路还是会留下祝福
不该悲伤的结束 还是会留下幸福
我会 牢牢记住 你给的 全部 的全部
我会 牢记住 你给的 的全部

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经历了这一波波崎岖又曲折的一切一切，我成长了。我为我对你所说的最后一句话竟然是一句祝福而感到自豪。

我从来没责怪过你，而且将来也不会。

我诚心地祝福你！

一定要比我过得更幸福喔！

Isn't it saddening when someone you care about so much and thought you are so close to cannot trust you at all? And it's really upsetting to know that someone who matters to us so much thinks so lowly of us.

How can we tell what a person is really made up of? By merely what we see? Or just what we hear? And perhaps what we feel, in other words, intuition?

I have come to agree with shitty shit friend's words again. That is, we should learn to trust people, and not to be bothered by whether they will trust us in return or not. We must have more compassion for the people around us. Many people do things without knowing what they are actually doing. Either that or they simply cannot control themselves, even though they don't want to do it at heart.

We have people suffering everywhere at every single moment in this world.

Be compassionate, be compassionate..

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Is the universe showing me compassion by putting me in no.9's class? Haha that sunny smile.. =)

Congratulations dear Shuyi! =)

Photojournalism:

National Song Writing Competition
(JC and Secondary School category)
My dearest cousin and his partner.
Waiting for the results to be announced.
Mama, him, aunt.
Us. We are like this since young. Hehe XD

Oh man, my craving for sour foods is getting from bad to worse. I'm wasting so much money each week on gummies, green apples and sour tasting fruit juices!!

How?!

I was telling my mama that during my pregnancy period next time my husband will confirm go bankrupt for buying sour foods for me. LoL!

And oh no! I've gained 2kg since the start of school! Omg! Sigh..

Anyhow, I absolutely enjoy every single moment of my trainings each week. A then close friend of mine used to tell me that he was taught break falls in the army and it was very painful. But it's not true loh. I have been doing break falls for the past 4 trainings and I didn't really feel painful anywhere man. The only occasion was when I didn't land properly, as in I didn't apply the technique correctly. Other than that it was perfectly fine. I think maybe it's partly because of my flexibility. I think it really helps if you are more flexible, somehow. Guys, any comments on this? Or do you have any tips to offer? Haha.

I think Year 2 is really as stressful and busy as what many others have said.

Technical Communication is just like doing PW back in JC. Just that this one is much more formal and of course, much more technical. And for the newly added subject, I had no idea of what was going on during my first lecture today, since I had already missed the first 4 lectures. And 2 weeks from now I am supposed to hand in my formal laboratory report for another project. Sigh. I cry!

And I thought I can kiss goodbye to Probability and Statistics after JC. But NO man, that's so not true. I have a whole module on that this semester. But at least my tutor this time is better. I seriously don't think I disliked the topic for no reason. Guess it was my then JC tutor who made me resentful towards it. I mean, I had done Probability since Secondary 4 and I was all happy during that time, for I liked my Maths teacher then. I shall keep my attitude positive this time, I want to give it another try.

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Alright after all the complaints, I need to explain why there hasn't been any photos lately.

Uhm, well, I've just purchased my new baby, my new laptop that is. And apparently the dealer is supposed to give me Adobe Creative Suite 3 Premium as a complimentary gift. However, there's no stock yet. So basically I waiting to install Photoshop CS3 onto my baby first before uploading my photos. As many of you have already known, almost all my photos need to undergo some kind of colour adjustments before they can be uploaded.

I'm exploring the benefits of shooting in Camera RAW mode now, for it seems that almost every Photoshop guide book I read do touch on that and some even recommend it. Also, I think I'll look more into the pros and cons of sRGB and Adobe RGB 1996. I can't stand it when the photos turn out to be so different from what I had edited when I sent them for development. RaH. Feed me with more information should you know any of the above! Thanks!

Anyway, I shall post up some of the photos taken on Zz's 21st Birthday party, since they have already been edited (priority list) for the birthday boy. Haha

Enjoy =)

Photojournalism:

Zz's 21st Birthday Party
Happy 21st Birthday Zz!
Ruth and Yingxu =)
Yummy food waiting to be eaten by me. Hehehe.
Tada!! And dinner started..
Group photo of the 'gang', as claimed by Zz. My face appears extremely white here because the flash only managed to reach me (duh, since I'm nearest to the camera), not that my make up was too thick alright? Haha.
Handsome birthday boy buried by his presents. HAHA.
Zz's yummy pizza. But I was too full to steal a slice =(
Lovely Ruth, aka my da jie!
Zz's cake!
The 'gang'. With many missing members, sadly.
Birthday boy getting ready to cut his cake =D
Dear Yx and I.
Yandao er zi!! My er zi is getting more and more charming each time I see him lah.
One of Zz's presents, which resembles him extremely. MuahAHhaha.
Ruth and I again!
Paul! Take care in US, dude!

P/S: I only posted photos of those I know of. There are many other good looking guys but oh wells. Hehehe.

This song was sent to me by my best cyber friend 6 years ago.

Things went wrong last year and we totally lost contact up till now.

I'm using this song to commemorate our 5 years of cyber friendship, one that really shaped my life in a way.

Josh, you are still remembered =)

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Finally finished watching the movie PS: I Love You.

I can't stop smiling towards the end.

*You made my life, but I'm only a chapter in your life.*
(Something Gerry told Holly in the movie at the end.)

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I'm only a chapter in your life, but you made my life.. =)

After monitoring the course vacancies day and night, I finally got myself another core to take for this semester. This also means I have to take at least 2 electives in the next semester.


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No one has the right to stop me from supporting China for the Olympics.

If you can support your favourite foreign football team in the Champions League, why not me?

I am a PRC Chinese by birth and that fact will never change.

Mind your own business. Thanks.


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Anyway, I think shitty shit friend's words are true. I don't know where I learned the 'black-face' thingy from also. The biggest difference is, when I was unhappy with someone or something in the past, I would try my very best not to show it. But now I don't even bother hiding it, I have no idea why. Perhaps my tolerance level has gone down. Or maybe I'm just sick of pretending to be unaffected. Oh wells.

The way the tutorials are conducted and the commitment for online assignments is killing my interest for psychology. Perhaps some may say that it's too early for me to judge now for I have yet to attend my first tutorial. However, having to check the online discussion board every now and then for new discussions or instructions is a bit too taxing for me.

Psychology itself is an interesting subject to me, so I don't find it content intensive. I'd say it's more of the high demands and expectations of the professor/course-coordinator for active participation from everyone that makes it stressful, repelling, and a turn off.

I prefer the OTOT (Own Time Own Target) method of studying. And I seriously think it's a little to much for me to handle.

I'm thinking of dropping it and just attend the lectures so as to boost my own knowledge. I want to keep my textbook though, so don't ask me for it.

RaH.

I absolutely love the trainings =)

The training today (Wednesday, I reached home after 12 midnight) at Tanglin CC was an eyeopener to me. Everyone was very friendly to me and the senseis were very patient with me too! I was even invited to a dinner with rest of the team this coming Saturday! Haha! =D

Guess what? One of my biggest surprises is that I found out that one of my Secondary 1-4 classmates is training at Tanglin CC as well! Oh man! It's really a small world afterall!

I learnt my lesson from last week and did cooling down exercises on my own after the trainings to avoid muscle ache. It was so torturous to have severe muscle ache all over my body! Grrrrr.

My sensei even treated me to supper and gave me a lift home just now. I'm so glad to have known these people.

No regrets, really!

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Thanks pf, for your advice. I'm thoroughly enjoying myself now =)

Why is it when something matters to us, we still choose to say the opposite?

Is it because of ego? Or what?

Are we really being honest with ourselves?

And are we being responsible for our own feelings by doing so?

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Many of the times it's not that it really doesn't matter, but because we don't want it to matter to us. And ironically, the more we don't want it to matter to us, the more it bothers us.

Sometimes we lie to ourselves without even realising it.

I think.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY

ZHEZHANG!!!

Dang. Is it really a torture to take photo with me? hmph!

Hello dear friends!

After about a month of isolation, I'm back =)

Many asked me why I chose to make my blog a private blog. Well, all I can say is:

In Life, Shit Happens.

Actually I was going through one of my toughest times (or maybe it is the toughest) of my life in July. But no worries, I'm alright now and I am all ready to fly again =)

I want to take this opportunity to thank my dearest, dearest shitty shit friend (that's my pet name for this friend, don't think too much), who has been with me all these while, listening to me and talking to me. [I won't have made it without you =) ] Also, I would like to express my gratitude to a guest listener, who gave me a push in my final lap. [I won't have alleviated from my pain so quickly without you too =) ]

Anyway, I didn't know I have some faithful readers. Thanks for all your support, guys!

Photos will be up very soon.

P/S: Do visit my travel blog to check out my Europe photos.