I'm doing HORRIBLE at my gratitude posts this year. I think about it, but then come bedtime I've forgotten and just go to sleep.
Here are 8 things I'm thankful for and I'm recommitting to a daily gratitude post.
1. My little buddy Nathan. Look how handsome he is!! Oh, my heart. He is kind, sweet, thoughtful, helpful, smart, and determined. He loves the piano, reading, math, sports, friends, Dad, camping, chapping wood, coloring, and doing anything creative. I think his mind has to create something everyday.


He has been going through a bit of a 'scared' phase for the last couple of months. I will admit, it's a little annoying and definitely trying my patience. He won't go anywhere in the house by himself. He has to stay by me. He won't go in his room to get his jammies or make his bed or do his homework unless someone is with him. Or the garage. Or take the garbage out. Or play in the backyard. He's been introduced to 'scary things' from friends at school which have made his imagination go wild. We've talked a lot about it, prayed a lot, diffused and applied essential oils, Dad gave him a blessing, prayed some more. Today, he went in his room alone and did his reading. I didn't say anything or bring it up because I didn't want to jinx it. And then tonight he was actually ok with kneeling right next to his bed (which he was scared of) to say prayers. And he was totally fine with it.

2. I'm grateful for scriptures. My scripture reading has improved so much over the last year and I can really feel a difference. It's easier to listen to the spirit and it's easier to pray more often when I read the scriptures daily. Here is a picture of our 'Ponderizing' wall in the kitchen where as a family we have picked a scripture each week to talk about, read over, and mostly memorize. The kids included. Even Nora has memorized almost all of these scriptures. We added a new one tonight, but I took this picture a couple of days ago.
3. I'm grateful for the country we live it. It's a little scary right now. I feel like our leaders are faltering and losing direction. But it's still a great land that I love dearly. And it's this way because of people in the past who have sacrificed so much, even their lives, to protect it and uphold it's standards. I feel great pride in my heart for the military.
4. I'm grateful for temples. I'm grateful for a place that is so close to heaven and peaceful. I try to have my home feel like that and I do think that a lot of the time it does. But there are days that the spirit is driven out. Like tonight when I yelled at Nathan. And Nora. And Lexie, all at different times and all for different reasons. I really really try not to yell. Yelling for me is raising my voice to loudly, but today I did.
5. So, I'm grateful for repentance. I take my job and calling as a mother very seriously. I'm not saying that others don't, I'm just saying that this is really important to me. I really try to be my best. My best is not someone else's best, it's just my best. And while I know that I am a better mom now than I was 3 years ago, there are many things that I am working to improve. And always will be. I'm not perfect in anything I do.
6. I am grateful for the new friends we have made in our new area. They are great people. Very loving and giving and generous. I'm excited to continue to get to know them better.
7. I'm grateful for homemade yummy food. I love cooking. Most of the time.
8. I'm grateful everyday for essential oils. They are a great tool that I use in my family on a daily basis. They have given us the power to take control of our health in a very natural and safe way.
Here's a couple of pictures from the last few days...
I went to wake up Lexie from her nap and her room looked like THIS (when I put her down, there wasn't anything on the floor), and she's asleep in the middle of the room. It was funny to me.
Here is the 1 year anniversary picture of Lexie's hand. This has been the most traumatic and heart wrenching experience I have gone through. I have struggled with guilt, anger, sadness, discouragement, and finally acceptance. In the end, I learned that I had a CHOICE. Faith or despair. I decided to let light back into my heart.