feeling much better i guess.

think he's really pissed. or i scared him off.

*sigh*

or the magic phrase is really magical.

but i'll never hear it again.

nothing much to blog abt.. actually.

chimpanzee made me breakfast today!!! =))))~

& i found a cool spot to slack & stone...

that's about it.

& i think i bathed with a small lizard.

omg.

i think i'm very stressed.

cried today. there's at least a shoulder for me.

i'm so sorry for just breaking down like that.

i'm unsure, what's gotten over me.

gosh.

maybe i broke your heart for being so stubbornly stuck in the past...

i don't know.

but today.. you did kept yr promise of bringing breakfast to me. thank you. & it was really nice.

why... you told me i was answering w/o thinking...

that the best thing that could ever happen now is...

him... coming back to me.

i said no. repeatly. becos i know that it'll never happen.

& i'm seriously not pending for it.

but,

maybe you're right.

3 more days...

be it good or bad.

today. was like any usual day. working. slacking. sleeping. lol.

was thinking too much once again..

got a ridiculous dream.

& i couldn't wake up, as usual.

there was another WEIRD customer again. this time a lady. was being so nice to her.. reserving the phone for her.. (as she keeps calling & calling) & she came to the shop to shed dry skin & keeps banging on the table when *vivian was being so nice to serve her. oh well... everyone obviously was shocked by her.. but she keep apologising after that. at least better than the china man whom existence i not known of anymore. lol.

& told *vivian abt my.. life. she showed me to a new path. but i guess.. i won't take it bah. cos everyone will be against it... i'm so sure of. besides.. i will never have the guts to do such a thing... i'm not someone who will take initiative & maybe that habit sticked wif me since a very long time already.

anyways. yep. i'm pending for wed. my mind is so ever flooded.. with...

*you.

it's so stupid of me. i know.

& btw. i DON'T have male-attacting hair hors... stp *ber spreading ridiculous nonsense. lol. but i got nice hair okok! lol.

whatever will be, will be.

all i need to know...

is that the butterfly which slipped from my hand...

flew to a happy land.

maybe i was never so selfless. but i have to learn.

don't i?

...seems like so yesterday.

okay. so next wed, 1st March is the big day.

or DOOM's day. whatever you called it, i call it that.

*sigh*

i was getting so freaking paranoid ever since i got the confirm sms from *weipng. gosh. i think *peifa can just die from my whinings.. lol. he look like chimpanzee!!! i just realised today. lol.

met *horey for awhile too.. @ BK... i duno when was the ever last time i saw him.. probably on the bus when me & *ber was going bugis or home.. & she keep laughing @ him cos he was so paiseh.. lol. something like that la. that was ANCIENT ago already i think.. lol. when we're still in CCHS?! but luckily i didn't get to the wrong person. HAHA.

*arugh*

PARANOID.

i seriously think i won't be sleeping well for the next few days.. =(((~ gosh.

yep. & i think there's something horribly wrong with my brain.

really. come & think abt it.. you freaking mug for 2 years, wait for 3 mths.. & 3 letters (ranging from A-F) are all that will determine your fate of future. damn it man.

& i think he's really pissed off or something.

but why do i still FREAKING CARE.

yep. i was the 1 that wasn't ready. i admit.

i hope that some1 can just brainwash me.

speaking of which.. today was 3 months...

since...

i'm actually quite amused. by my body.

i feel so drained. really.

had been having throbbling headaches since 3 days ago. & i feel so out of breath now.

but i was never really sick till the extend i need to see a doc.

so i'm fit & well. i supposed.

*cey & my sis said i looked so ever tired. i think my parents also thought so. cos they just let me sleep & keep asking me to rest more. but did i cause all this tiredness myself?

i think so. (>.<)

so I M RESTING NOW. lol. finally a day i'm having DINNER @ HOME after like 1mth?! omg. lol.. & i only went out for awhile @ town to meet *cey & *ziyan for Final Destination 3. & the headache was killing me. took nap & i'm still so freaking tired.

the movie was.. ew. lol. i didn't catch the 1st 2.. but it's kinda freaky. imagine that you have got such vision. but in the end, you're the last to die anyways. the pain that you will go through.. when your bf is the 1st few to die. *sigh* when you could have stop it.

was supposed to spend the day wif tai-tais... lol. but last night they decided not to come over to my place after clubbing @ MOS. (we were supposed JUST to stay @ the balcony lol...) *yay! i'm finally there. ladies night!! *woots! lol... was somewhat disappointed by the smallness... but i did have hell lots of fun last night! keke. me & *shiling, *peizhen & *ter did alot of stp moves... & we only got high when we went the retro room!! haha.. alcohol's fault. must be. & actually i was kinda the 1 that suggest to club. HAHA. well.. just to see see mahs.. nvm de whats. hope everyone had fun last night!! =)))~ we sort of celebrated a early bday for *ter.. i bought the cake okays!! hope he enjoyed it though me & *shiling was trying so much to make it a surprise.. lol~ & *peizhen was so cute. i don't know why she keep holding on to me.. or *silvia.. lol. (she's not supposed to be THERE. lol) but oh well.. as long someone don't know abt it.. haha. *winks*

next trip will be to Zouk! lol. everyone will go jump (not off buildings though) after getting back A's results... just now was talking abt it wif *cey... ew. it'll be out latest by next week. & somewhat i got so anxious over it. i'm just pending for that day lor. god knows what i'm thinking rights...

but actually.. he asked me to meet me today. but i told him i was taking off... which was true. guess he's kinda pissed. =X *shiling & *peifa asked me not to drag it on anymore.. just get it over & done wif.. but.. *sigh* i'm just afraid of what will happen when i really get to see him lahs.. actually.. sometimes i also duno wth m i doing. & my decisions... i never knew they are correct or nots.

& i'm thinking too much once again.

i was wondering... why... he just... don't love me anymore.

must be i see ah gong aka *cey today. makes me gong gong also. =S

-bish-

tues night.. i enjoyed my date too! keke. & i solved the vexing problem of getting my dad a new (NOT BLACK COLOR) hp.. lol. so i'm using the Samsung i-mode phone now lorx.. lol. not that bad la. at least my screen doesn't go 180 degress upside down.. wif the colors fading away.. lol. but all my photos.. *proof* with the wind~~~

*weipng came to pick me up after work.. & he got lost. lol.. & he gave me that forever friends bear lor.. keke!! =))) so cute hors!!! & i actually believed that he was trying to meet me since 1 week ago... lol. but we still get to meet up la.. (>.<) he was being so secretive in bringing me to some place for dinner.. in the end he wasn't decided. zZz. but when we get to Coronation Plaza (our primary school was just THERE lol.. nice memories.), we thought of watching a movie instead... so we chiong to WestMall (somewhere in sg i NEVER go b4) to watch 49 days.. (actually wanted to watch wif some1 else...)

the movie was.. okay i guess. but i keep getting scared by the stp sound effects.. then *weipng so FUNNY.. he actually got frightened too!! HAHA. but he insisted that it was ME who scared him.. 1st time seeing guys like that.. haha.. so funny lor!! but i really did enjoyed myself alot that night. hees! =))))~

& i'm still feeling so giddy now... =(((~

& i guess... i'll never get what i was looking for.

actually.

hees. i got this today... =)))

happy thinking day to all guides & scouts!!! lol~

update later... v tired.. nights!

i'm like.. SUPER VEXED NOW.

arugh.

basket. why can't i have some PEACE?!

today i almost died @ work.. lucky i was smart. i brought my pill for headache to work. i felt so horrible.. ate the pill & slept on & off for 1 hr plus.. then slowly ok le.. why will i really get sick when he wasn't around??? eeewww..

i was getting all ready to leave by 7pm.. to collect my lens, update my bankbook, top-up ezlink cards for me & my brother & to reach Ubi by 8.40pm... my 1st night driving lesson.

but NO. May came.. not that it was her fault.. i left only like around 7.40pm... i was rushing around like mad. but thank god i did almost anything, except the fact to check up on my pay.

driving was really.. dazzling. the headlights. & it was really nice wif SO FEW CARS @ the circuit & roads! seriously!!! so much easier to drive & can speed. i was happy to be out of the circuit today... finally can go over 20km/h lol... the instructor was nice.. =)))... he asked me to DO EVERYTHING LOR! then i like.. oh sh*t.. all 4get le.. haha. but he's very nice... he revised everything wif me.. tell me all the tips also... =))))~ & i realised practice really makes perfect de... & he's the only 1 to correct me the way i'm holding the steering wheel after 14 lessons.. lol.

& i said NO in meeting him tomorrow.. okay. i put it off, with no lies... but it's just not really the main reason la. i don't know. just somehow have the feeling of better not seeing him, when (the other 1) he's not around. maybe i'm just afraid of the feelings that i'll get. but maybe i'm again thinking too much.

alas! i missed him more today! =S

just waiting for him to be back lor.. & ask for his opinion.. cos i sort of decided to quit my job le.. lol. cos got lobangs le whats.. go look for other.. less time consuming jobs lor.. think better barh.. must enjoy & find schools le ma... another vexing issue. eeks. but actually i got a few ideas in mind le la.. as in the job issue & not the schooling 1.. lol. i really don't know what i wanna persue YET lor.. until NOW. sucks right. hate this kinda decision-making.

& i suddenly feel so broke cos i don't dare to take pocket money from my mom anymore.. like so paiseh la.. =X so maybe i can eat less. haha. & lose all those fats away. HAHA. my ass lor.. like as if i won't feel hungry... =S

okay! presenting the promoters!!! =)))



(ya. that's what i WEAR @ work. lol)



me & *jenson.. at our "booth"!!! lol.



ah beng (real 1) & AH LIAN (of cos it's a fake name for ME. wth)

just 2 more days!! hees! (wait till he sees my blog, sure laugh @ me. =(((~)

wahhh... sucky.

i think that my legs don't belong to me anymore.. =(((~

today was the last day of the promoters being together. lol. we took alot of photos! but i don't have them NOW becos my freaking phone is SO LOUSY.. that it doesn't even have BLUETOOTH! lol. but i still love my phone!! lol...

really. nice bunch of pple.. =))) and they said i was lucky, cos not all promoters can clicked off so well 1... some even report the bad doings of others.. i guess i'm really lucky then.. keke.

*dominic's here too, today.. he keep asking me abt... lol. well.. at least i managed to shut him off.. he's one nice guy la... then he updated me abt his girl also.. haas. funny eh.. i realised now i talk so much more to guys than girls.. oh well. but somehow you just don't get to talk to those that really matters the most right... =S

& i got abit pissed last night. i also duno what to say already... whatever la.. i guess i'm just expecting too much.. pple busy whats. where got time for me de. & i freaking DON'T understand why am i still pending that perhaps i could just spend a little bit more time wif him. EEKS. someone SLAP me pls... & tell me it'll really really make me wake up.

& i did think of you.. somehow i guess. esp when they're playing the song of yr ringtone. lol.

wahhh..

FREAKING TIRED. never so tired b4 @ work lor..

really must WHINE tonight!!! lol.

i got headache, menstrual cramp & leg pain. WOOTS!

& today it was ROADSHOW.

May (some higher manager of cherry mobile) posted me downstairs! so i had to stand the whole day (not that it's some bad thing, but the problem existed when you have to endure all 3 types of pain standing & walking, smiling at every customers you served, being nice.. even you attend to SUPER unreasonable customers. ARUGH)

wahh.. i think my cheeks muscles are so torn can?! i think i speak to over 50 different persons today. wth.. lol.

& i knew a great bunch of promoters! haha. we only meet one another today!! & we clicked so well. there's... *me aka i-mode promoter, *garry aka motorola's, *janson aka NEC's, *joanne aka Sony E, *jack aka Nokia's & *ming aka Samsung's. we did tried to slack together but not as slack as when i'm upstairs @ the shop la.. lol. they're all nice pple! & we tried taking photo @ the roadshow downstairs. damn funny.

& i.. *RAR* didn't buy my w800i. COS apparently I STILL HAVE TO TAKE THE I-MODE PHONE FROM MY DAD!!! arugh!!!!!!! so PISSED! & today i saw my account balance in POSB. MY PAY LIKE VERY LITTLE NEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........ i'm not sure how much did they paid me for 3 weeks. but like only $500?! wtf. i duno la.. must go update my bank book... i also duno how Recruit Express is going to give me my receipt for my pay. -bah- whatever la.

& my mom stopped giving me pocket money lor... SUCKS MAN!! how am i going to survive?! =(((~ tell me i'm pampered. SO BE IT. =(((~

but somehow.. i love my job lehss.. duno why. lol. & i thought of going over to Motorola to be promoter after my contract ends wif Starhub.. the pay's better & has comission damn it! lol.. Nokia is the MOST lor.. wth! & i'm like the MOST lowly paid 1 there.. EEKS!

today i just keep whining rights!? haaa.. cos i'm tired whats. i'll be whiny if i'm tired.

okay. headache's working up again. gosh. nights!

& today, went past quite ok. w/o you.

hope things will be ok for *j... just don't want to see him ending up like me.

*yay*

*ber said that my new blogskin was nice!! keke!!! =)))

i spent like duno how long finding it lorx.. but then it took only a little while to edit it. =)))

had driving this morning. gosh. i couldn't even wake up. =X i was having erm... will you call it the sweetest dream or.. sth you'll never want to dream of?! it was sOoOOOOoo real la. oh my god. but i got out of my dream, by myself.. suddenly. i could feel myself sweating @ the neck area... & the sky outside was still dark. then i thought to myself.."okay.. just a dream." & i went back to sleep.

& i told *ber & *peifa abt my dream. *ber was like.. diao. (haha) & *peifa said that i shouldn't have said it.. so maybe it could come true. but nah. seriously.. it's too scary i think. but in the dream it WAS so real. &... happy. *gosh* -bish- (*ching pls go bang some wall)

did parallel parking today. at 1st i was very buay zai again. haha. but i remember wat to do le larhx.. 1st. full-lock left. 2nd. return 2 rounds to the right. 3rd. full-lock to right. haha. whatever la.. & my vertical was ZAI. haha. i was surprised too.. then the stp instructor said that i'm a very pampered & whiny little girl.. then he guessed i was the youngest kid @ home.. i'm NOT. *growl* but i also duno why i whined to him... haas!

took cab down to work cos today roadshow.. think i better not be late. had hans breakfast wif *ber.. yummy! =))) but in the end i still choose to stay @ the shop... i don't like roadshow. =(((~ cos i'm not used to that environment. the feeling's weird too. i get to know 4 new pple today.. *cindy, *limei, *aisha & *wayne. (he's good looking lol.. but too bad)

my boss & hazel & lots of pple actually came down to novena roadshow yest.. i'm so lucky! keke. but duno weekend they still coming down nots leh.. i scare i tio the boss!!! who's so MEAN. lol. & i think i'm getting my w800i tomorrow lerx... whahahaha!!! =)))~ but i definitely miss my samsung E800C. funny ehh.. all the phones is 800 series like that. lol. i changed phone from nokia to samsung then to sony ericsson... lol.

he called ard noon time... sneaked out to talk. lol.. =))~ but i guess no one really cares. somehow i guess the feelings i'm having are WEIRD. lol. will only hear him like almost a week later.. but i guess i'll be fine. =)))~ yep.

work was exhausting. gosh. roadshows are crazy. seriously. the crowd can just come so suddenly.. then everyone crowding around @ the shop (i already tried to hide) for N6111. wao lau.. i know the price dropped la.. dun need like that.. lol~ the phone also nothing fantastic though i wanted that phone in pink @ 1st.. lol. then i really seh-ing lor.. i keep taking the wrong colour. i thought all black de ma.. how i know novena's stock got pink wor.. lol. then *cindy keeps calling me i-mode.. now i understand how *erina felt. lol. but i'm fine wif it la...=X

then i become some photocopy auntie.. then i jammed the machine... wao lau.. =X become sai kang warrior also buay zai. =S... but in the end it was fixed la.. i also duno what happened too.. i was running up & down.. doing alot things that i'm not supposed to do. i checked stocks for novena's outlet too. *peifa will be so proud of me. HAHA. then *vivian was like.. he never teach you mehs?! no lor.. that idiot always chase me to go home 1... lol.

& i realised that if it's gotta work,

i need to get used to the new set of rules.

of love.

maybe one of the few best things to do on your off day...

is to spend the whole day wif yr bestie. =)))

lunch wif parents..my mom was complaining that she'll never get to see me around anymore.. & my dad told my mom that i sneaked into my room immediately i got home on valentine's day. where got lor?! i didn't even have any flowers.. what's there to HIDE. haha. my dad's so cute. in the past he is never bothered abt such things.. lol. i was seriously just holding my bag wif my presents inside. lol.

bestie & i met on the TRAIN yeah know?! on my way to meet her.. lol. how coincident rights?! & we were wearing (almost) the same thing!!! black v-neck tee.. hahas!

did french manicure wif her, k-boxed (*dominic called to scare me abt my boss & hazel, who both went down to the toa payoh outlet i think... but i was OFF. HAHA. i don't even know they went novena nots.. no1 informed me. but who cares. lol. they might be there.. spot-checking on me anytime for the next 3 days of roadshows. lol), had dinner @ seoul... lol. so long never eat there ler.. =)) saw *yang & *xuexia i think..

then we went to pak tor @ ps tcc. =)))


*muacks (& i think our hair colour is the same too! lol~)

&... i'm missing...

one who is not quite there when you wanted him to be around.

oh dear.

well.. late Valentine's day post for me.

looks like the word "valentine" only appeared from my blog for this year.. now. lol

well.. has been quite a different one for me this year actually.

becos.. i think i spent the most 1hr shopping for one present. haha.

no kidding.

past years, what had i been doing? well, from what i remember now.. baking cookies, making chocos, folding zillions of stars & hearts , making flowers, roses & cushion, writing cards & little pieces of "happy valentine's day notes from ching, wrapping sweets &... making myself ever so mulu & my dear friends to bth me. HAHA.

it's always so sweet to exchange gifts in school with close friends, friends, classmates... what have you.. & everyone will be so excited. & last year. got my share of valentine's day wif a valentine. so to speak of. lol.

this year. i'm working! @ novena, starhub counter @ level 3!! not that it kinda sucks but it really DID. oh man. no more gifts exchanges... wanted to spend the way wif my dear friends but everyone was WORKING. =(((~ sigh.

tell you why it SUCKED. lol.

cos. i was a little late (not that it really matters but the manager was there so i shouldn't be late)

& this friend of *peifa came.. we went shopping wif him @ cold storage.. he was a romantic guy. shopping for grocies to cook for his darling.. then i sort of seh-ed.. cos this year v day i'm doing NTH! yeah.. NTH @ ALL. & it just somehow felt funny. haha. serious!

then the GREAT part of the day came.. wao lau. there was this CHEENA UNCLE. omfg la.. he came then he keep shouting until the WHOLE DAMN level also can hear.. zzZz.. just becos his dear nokia phone 6101, part of it was LOOSE. & there's no way we could do anything abt it.. becos he die die also dun wan go down to nokia care.. & *peifa got pissed then they shouted @ one another & i got freaking scared. haha.

so the guy was making a HUGE scene, as you could imagine & we couldn't do anything abt it.. so when we left, he left the shop too.. he was like assuring us that he'll be back.

& he really did, today. (ok i saying the whole damn story haa) around lunch time.. so he was making a big who-ha again... this time it was *vivian & me.. & *coleen came down.. we called the security & the POLICE came. oh man. i was still wondering why they were so slow... lol. so in the end i was on the line so don't really know abt the conversation. oh & got this passer-by got himself stupidly stuck in the scene & left becos the police came. CRAP MAN. so finally that cheena uncle was esorted off the building by the police... whatever happened to him, i don't know. but most probably he'll be sent off back to china. then was saying.. he'll come back from revenge de lor. haha. come back to the shop & make a scene again. but the police told us to call for them again if he really DID came back.. (i want to say wif a chopping knife or sth)

so. i shall be @ the shop.. when he strikes again. cos that's my 2nd home le anyways.. i'm THERE more than any part-time la. be it *peifa or *vivian.. they got so much more off days then me! -arugh-

okay. but after those nonsense, i enjoyed the rest of my valentine's day left. keke. =)))

went to watch *casanova... nice & funny show!!! obviously it was a love film la.. v day neh.. but the seats was freaking uncomfortable.. & my shoulders were so sore...then the stp idiot spilled the ice tea onto his jeans... lol & me dropped my blusher.. (thank god it didn't roll off)

after the show was abt 20 mins b4 midnight.. so we rushed to "shu liu shan".. cos i promise to bring him there de.. until now then got chance.. i was so scared that it was closed la.. =((~ but we still had our dessert! *yay. ever tasting so good man...

then we exchanged presents.. well. no flowers, but still as happy. (lucky i didn't really see many girls holding flowers. HAHA. late le ba i guess. =X)

well. got a new wallet!! wif 3 things dangling haha.. (at 1st there was only 1 on the silver wallet & 3 on the pink 1.. but i liked the silver 1 but wif the 3 danglings.. haha. ok crap. so he got it fixed. after saying he didn't buy whatever he wanted to buy b4 this.)



& this braclet.. (i swear i caught him buying it but i didn't say until he gave it to me then. lol)



then we went to eat mac becos we didn't eat dinner... & he sent me home!! =)))

& when i got home.. saw a NUS letter.. & this...



i was really shocked & happy... wat a nice surprise. =)))) really, really appreciated. thank you *bear.

& i got a drawing.. of roses.. with butterflies.

the night b4.. i met up wif *shiling, *ru, *butt & *sai for kenny rogers @ suntec.. a nice gathering.. =)) & everyone got crazy, tearing those coupons off the espirit golden angbaos.. lol.

speaking of angbaos.. i only recieved like.. $230. =(((~ & i still havn't check whether i got my 1st pay already not... -shrucks-

& i really feel so pek-cek-fied.. talking to him. oh man! zZz. but... he called. =)))

maybe,

somehow,

finally.

i took the step to cross that line...

however.

still as insecured i guess.

& the obstacle is still...

there.

& it wasn't my obstacle.

went to see fireworks @ the esplanade.. =))

just made it to meet my family b4 the fireworks keep flashing up in the sky.

i must say, nicest show i ever seen in sg...

shapes of flowers, hearts & stars. very pretty.

& i got myself lost.. somehow going in the wrong direction. haha.

but i made it, in time. =)) just nice.

fireworks is always a romantic thing to me, esp watching it, together with your loved ones.

& i remember the first date wif... was @ esplanade too, watching fireworks.

& it was also a special place for... us. (past tense)

today, very strangely... i got this idea in the head.

ringing ever loudly...

"why do i feel that he's so over, long ago?"

what abt me???

3 mths. soon. so to speak.

pretty much single. yes. but locked up tight.

bittersweet. eeewww.. yeah.

anyways, today work was fine.. SUPER BUSY. 10 lines. freaking hell. hahas..

& good luck to *peifa.. having some difficult times too. lol.

somehow i guess being busy is fun too.. but tiring... & there was this boy, so funny. he was so pissed becos he just couldn't get a new phone.. he could not stand waiting anymores.. haha.

& i saw this couple.. 1 ang moh & 1 chinese.. married wif 2 sweet-looking kids... eeewww.. & the mom was talking to the little girl in chinese. it just appear to me that the family is very, very loving..

yest was fun too... i accompanied *peifa to town to shop 4 his friend's present.. lol. apparently in our "break-time"... lol. & i thought my boss & hazel came down la. damn it... i still thought i would get fired le.. lol. wif such freaking low sales anyways. yep..

after that i left early & headed to *alvin's house for mini 4ep gathering.. got angbaos!! keke. i'm going to open all of them later.. guess i'm the few who will wait until the last day to open de... then they played UNO, went downstairs to eat & we played blackjack... it was fun la.. *jeffery pek cek until he fall off the chair. HAHA. & duno why, WEIRDLY, the stp *pengyan keep picking on me.. what's his freaking problem?! *arugh* i didn't even step on his tail or sth la.. stp sh*t.

then *gummy won AGAIN. omg la.. she really shld gamble this year. cos she keep winning... i think she won like $10 bucks can?! i lost like $2... lol. sucks de... but we had fun la... =))))

& i shld continue to be superwoman.. =)))

developed some photos.. can go stick in the room liaoz.. lol. come to my room's museum ok! lol.

just a short one b4 bed.

today was a happy day after work! lol

nah. work was slack as usual.. me & *peifa had nap @ starbucks.. haha. i was thinking abt stuff then i guess i dozed off... =X

& he is still such a sickening idiot..

after work i went to buy a cake for *yilin.. then met the she, *shiyu & *jo @ taka.. *shiyu brought sth for her cos we celebrating her bday early... so long never see her le lorx.. like almost 2 years lol...

it was fun. we took neos. lol. girls just go crazy over that rights... anyways i spoilt 1 of it... =X so sorry.. but it was still nice wif 4 pretty girls. HAHA. =pPppp



walked to cartel @ PS (again) cos there's no place @ all @ the freaking small balcony.. lol. didn't go mos in the end...

it was always fun to have a girl's gathering.. =)))

& *shiyu.. good luck on monday!! you'll be very happy. then. lol. i just KNOW it. =S

-emu-

& pple are scaring me wif A's coming out on next fri.

whatever will be, will be. i can't be bothered anymore.

seriously.

but.. does that mean...

i could...

ok. shall not talk abt it. =X.

sweet dreams to me! superwoman!

today was.. seh-ing & sian.

duno why. i think i'm pms-ing. feeling damn bloated.

my mom drove me to driving..then she talk until she cried. oh man. what's wif her menopause? but i seriously didn't know what to say.

& i think i'm not v zai @ learning how to park today. must practice more le.. but still, the instructor gave me his chop. lol.

& my practical test's on 7th april. wish me luck okoks. if not i can get my licence on the spot le.. i think.

went for mos breakfast wif *ber. we said to play daytona... lol. try out our "driving" skills. lol. crap. but we didn't in the end.

went to work. boring boring boring. lol. i guess it was just me. & someone was pa-ing game beside me. & i finished the book *cey lent me. some freaking teenager series. haha. =X i think the princess was how freaking paranoid can?! eeks. not my cup of tea.

& my jie brought me ai xin lunch & dinner.. end up me eating the same thing. lol. oh well. don't waste my mom's effort. & by right i'm getting a new phone. but still didn't know what to get for my dad cause apparently, i'm supposed to use the i-mode samsung phone my dad's using. but my mom says he doesn't like me.. so i'm using it lor.. then i called bloody samsung & they said that repairing my spoiling phone was $200?! siao. must as well get a new one. but i really love my phone lor... it's so chio & it's antique liaoz cans?! lol.

ya. that's abt it.

& today was peaceful. =))) actually that's nothing bad.

just that i'm still missing that...

someone.

i asked.. "define break-up." he said: "he doesn't love you anymore. he doesn't.. blah ( i can't remember)

i was like.. "why he?"

then he smiled. & asked me back for my definition.

i told him.."when 2 persons are no longer together. physically... & the love has kinda become one-sided."

he shook his head.

why on earth am i still pending for the same thing over & over again everyday?!

ignore me. this is really pms.

but he promised to dote on me. =)))

sucks man.

for no reason. my mother scolded me. becos of my freaking brother.

damn it man. zzz. spoil all my mood.

my phone is spoiling too. -bah- i really love my phone alot lor.. but it's failing me. at 1st i didn't want to trade in the phone.. becos of all the photos in it. but now, i guess not. besides, everyone is telling me to let it go. ok. but the problem now is that, i don't know what i want to get.

this blog is going to be super random ok.

or perhaps not.

today was my dad's bday. i did all the planning. i swear. shared cost bought a hp for him.. i bought the cake.. i treat my whole family @ StoneGrill.. the restuarant *ber & *stef is working at.. wah.. today i book the whole place now like that.. lol. but i guess *ber's needed in the kitchen. didn't see her much also.. anyways.

i was freaking tired becos i think that my time is pretty much, very occupied. lol. i'm not getting all those sleeping times i need. seriously. today i went to *cey's house to bai nian too.. very long never see her parents le.. prob a year??! & her mom said i put on weight. guess wat have i been doing the whole of last year. gaining weight. oh damn it. =(((~ sucks.

me *cey tried to do manicure but failed. lol. poor girl having a hard time @ work..

yest i reached home ard 3.30am becos went over to *ber's house to play mahjong.. all 3 lost to *stef... she asked to play too.. so probably she had calculated her winning long b4 we start playing... but i was freaking seh-ing & stoning.. i really not getting enough rest man..

& i think my bomb billing again.. lol. but today my phone was more quiet.. lol. gosh.

yest oh. went for advance e-trials & i passed my ftt le. =))) i can go for the test like 2 mths from now le. but i havn't book yet.. see tomorrow got nice slot for me nots... ya. & everyone is still telling me it's crap t fail auto's test. why is the world so freaking stereotype? i hate it man.. so auto isn't WORTH a course?! whatever lor.

was working wif a new staff called *vivian. she was nice.. but crazy. she keeps calling me somebody which i kinda think sucks. lol. at 1st we didn't really talk but after that we kept crappng lol. & some idiot let me wait for 20mins. arugh. when i was freaking tired. but then he bought me chocos.. & i start to think i'm the idiot for making such a big fuss. =X. well.

it's weird.

yeah. damn weird.

it's like how i'm trying to be there & not the cross the limit at the same time. where is the balance? the line? i can't tell @ all. i want to be there. but... just who am i to him? i duno. but i guess just let things be i guess.

but will that be even harder for me to get out of it?

*jeremy had his problem solved. glad for him. at least he waited & got the pretty side.

the pretty side which i didn't get.

but the thing is that... i guess i have dipped myself into a world never like before. ya. & i start to think i m selfish. very selfish. but it's just self-protective mechanism right?

tell me it's right.

but why. i always think things on the other side. the side that was bad. but people always don't agree wif me. so whatever you're saying won't make sense to me. cos i made my decisions no matter what others say.

bah.

i'm blahhing rubbish.

but i really hope i'll see some light. the correct direction. yep.

actually i'm kinda sick of the life i'm leading now.

it's not really that bad. but it's wearing my...

heart.

off. from me.

& i guess my heart has pretty much been locked up once again. rememeber that very long time ago, i watched windstuck wif *cher.. she was asking me why i didn't cry. cos my heart has hardened. & now. the i'm not stupid 2 has the same effect on me. *ber & *cey asked me why i didn't cry. when they all had prepared tissue for me.

& suddenly. i feel bliss.

being alone.

just me.

& probably my heart thinking of that someone.

someone...

now slacking @ work lol.

this morning i couldn't even wake up lo.. feel v tired & sick. then i waited for the bus so freaking long..& it sudden starts to pour while i was waiting for bus. wanted to look for any rainbows then the the rain pour in.. lol.

ok crap. i dunno wat i talking abt..

yest.

had work.. was late a little cos i missed the bus... then had lunch wif *fanghao.. then customers keep pouring in lor... quite a busy day. & i felt so horrible but i wasn't really that sick so never see doc lor.. no fever lehhh..

then i met *weipng after work... wah sian. i was late for ching gay's fireworks. but the atmosphere on the streets was v nice... everyone was going home when i just got there. like so funny like that.. lol. there are these machines blowing out bubbles at some corners of the street... i think so romantic lor.. plus the lightings... haha. 2 bad. i still want to say this...

where got pple wear shades @ NIGHT one?!

ok so he think like that he more handsome.. lol. ok lor. 1st time going out wif him... at least not that awkward la... we like start to actually talk more after knowing each other since p5. lol.

& we took neos. so spastic la... he is still wearing his shades. omg. haha.

see for yourself...





then went cartel for drinks & ice-cream lor.. i was so tired le. but i guess i'm starting to get the hang of it.. i'm superwoman! =pPPPp

& i almost went crazy... lol. guess i wasn't my normal self or sth. *rl said i was drunk. but i didn't even drink la.

fri..

had work as usual.. @ night went supper wif *peifa. wahh... some canto dim sum place @ geylang. (wan do sek 126) WAH. SUPER NICE LA... i love the cheong fun!!! omg!!!

me looking stp wif all those nice dim sums...



thurs..

my off day!!! lol. but not so off day also leh.. cos i went back for OT lor!!! but then no pay.. lol

in the morning went for e-trial test wif *ber.. i never study then keep failing lor. haha. but then when *ber helped me... i passed. haha. ok i lousy la.. whatever..

then *stef came to enroll for her driving.. i think nobody will dare to sit on her car when she drives lor.. =X we cabbed down to see blades..

then went back to MY shop.. haha. i rescued *peifa lor... shouldn't have went back can. let him suffer! lol. then *min came.. KNITTING for her beloved bf. omg la. the last time i ever did just things was a scarf for *kevin. haha. that's like ancient times liaoz.. we went to shop for *jiawei's present.. then we stayed @ the shop to wait for the rest to gather.. lol. we having gathering @ MY shop sia.. haha.

finally reached *ber's home!! lol. 2nd year po-piah party!! *me, *ber, *stef, *cey, *min, *lettie, *gum & *chelle made it.. *yay. i think this time the most pple le lor.. & i still suck @ folding po-piahs. they forever laughing @ me.. =((... but then now i can laugh @ gum ler.. haha. cos she's worse.. =))))

then i drink vodka until i was blahhing rubbish.. lol. i duno was i drunk nots. but i drank the most w/o knowing.. =X then i decided to stop.. but the spinning head feeling came back when i drank again.. lol. shiok.

like that still can win 7 tais ok!!! lol!!! i won my qi diu zi!!! lol!! zi mo somemore.. + 2 animal tiles.. lol. so happy!!! =))) win back alot. then we all v high. go take asupicious items like mandrian oranges & put beside us.. lol. really is siao 1...

me & *ber allied. *stef lost the most... me & *ber lost 20cents. lol. *gum got beginner's luck & *chelle's help.. she's pro lor. can tell..

& i finally got to eat all my chinese new year goodies @ *ber's house.. lol. *yay*

these few days no sales on i-mode phones leh.. =(((! but then got pple wan to buy Nec 412i but no stock. SIAN. duno why this week so many pple come in like that...

[actually, sometimes i don't know wth i'm doing. lol. whatever will be, will be.]

-emu-

wah biang.

1+2+3+4+5= total madness.

go figure. lol.

i'm out late for consecutive 3 nights. back home ard midnight. & never did had any rest after my hk trip.

song. =)))

so. i'm sick now. but no fever yet. just flu & bad throat. if not i'll take mc le. cos i still need to work like almost freaking everyday?!

time for bed i guess.

5 still cared i guessed. i was happy. really.

-& baby, you'll never be replaced-

*sigh*

things always don't go the way you want it to.

maybe i shouldn't sound so sad starting this entry.

yep. i'm back. anyone missed me? =)))

had work today. ok i was late becos i missed the bus & partly becos i couldn't find the shoes i wanted to wear. lol.

*peifa & *junde was shocked to see me. they thought i was taking off. but it's tomorrow la. *bish* then i was stoning until *cey came! keke. she really did perked me up sia. *hugs* we like exchange presents like that. brought her lots of small little things here & there. lol. had lunch @ delifrance.. & we went shopping! haha. brought 2 tops each (not very ex de la. lol) then there was this cute guy working there. too bad that *cey overheard that he's not working in that outlet anymore.. if not i can see him everyday sia. haha.

then went back to work lor.. cos left for like quite long. lol~ then *dominic came!!! =)))) surprise surprise!! lol. then i very happy haha. *peifa got jealous. =X nahhh.. then they very funny. talk alot rubbish. *nic treated me ice-cream.. ate big cup somemore. so full. =S then we went shopping again. =X i really don't need to work sia. after that he asked me to go toa payoh wif them.. i felt guilty then never go la.. really must work le. lol.

oh. *peifa very ZAI. he sold the Nec 412i!!! *yay. so far we sold all the i-mode phones sent over lor. now got 2 Nec 411i left. *yay. so happy!!! =)))) it's like the most ex & difficult phone to sell la. but it's gone. keke.

then there will be roadshow @ Novena later this month. think that 5 days will be v busy le... must bush up my marketing sales also le. lol. must jia-you!!! cos i'll meet alot of new faces. cannot so lousy... (>.<)

ya & guys are filling up my life sia. & i don't mean 1 or 2. i wonder the year of dog really so good for rabbits not.

anyways. CNY. guess everyone had a break. i see many updated blogs lol. =))) good la. can know how have your friends been doing.. as for me...

Hong Kong trip!

lol. but i feel kinda bad. cos i couldn't reply all the CNY greetings i got from my friends. many didn't know i'll be away. but i was really glad to receive all those SMS-es in hk. thank you all. =)))

my trip was hectic. hectic & hectic. i did get to eat all those i wanted to eat except for my bo lor bao... lol. nvm la. everything still tasted so nice. esp chicken. yep. the taste of it is always so different from sg.. Disneyland was flooded. the day i went. cos it was chu er. (full house) damn lots of cheena pple. eeks. & they keep cutting queue. bloody irritating. but it was a small, nice place. the stuff was too ex le.. i only brought this..(sth to put over the tissue box)



(well. the Swatch i brought last min @ the airport b4 i came back to Singapore. omg so freaking chio la! my precious now! lol. i didn't see this design in sg yet. hope it'll not come here. lol. it's much nicer than the heart 1 i think.. & cheaper. & my dad brought it for me..... keke. was so happy then)





a badge that you''ll get on the day of yr bday. well. i just went to get it. keke. =))) chio ma. souvenoir.

but really had fun there la.. must say. the Space Moutain rocks & scared the sh*t out of my brother. damn funny lol. my only regret was that i never take photo wif pooh & tigger!! =((~ cos no time & alot pple...

& the shows are really really nice. i must say. i watch until i feel that i was so much younger sia. well. it's where magic works. lol.

& i missed out of alot of shopping cos all the shops are closed. sian. but did managed to buy something la. at least *cey & *peifa liked their presents i think. lol. =)))

& i suddenly remembered that i was supposed to watch the fireworks over the disney castle wif... someone. but it was nice too, watching it. alone.

well. forget abt all those "promises" i guess.

that's abt it le ba. oh & i watched Fearless wif my family. i came back to sg then realised it was NC-16 here. & my brother watched all that violence already. crap la. lol

then i went to the "fa shi" (sth like Chinatown during CNY) wif my family also on the eve. well. not the larger 1 over @ hk island.. all those u see on cable tv. i went the 1 @ kowloon.. it wad flooded also la. wif alot of youngsters. the flowers are all so cheap & beautiful.. then the IN thing was those air-filled plastic toys brought a few lol. the other cam wif my jie so cannot upload photo.

& i wanted to buy the pink Nokia 6111. then i changed my mind. i'm thinking of Sony Erisson now. lol. can't decide.

& i still can't sleep. wonder wth is wrong wif me sia.

oh. i'm supposed to read up for my FTT. sian.