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♥date: Thursday, May 31, 2007
♥time:17:23
手机出奇响不听。
但始终冇出现过,那似曾熟悉的名字。

又卑自己打败。
太过麻木,往往睇唔到好多嘢。
又太介意无畏琐碎事物。

想写篇劲感人嘅 blogentry, 但从来冇为自己写嘅嘢心动过。

难事?非也?
自己心水未定卦。

反复想笔下自己嘅感触,但其实连自己都唔清楚?
内心嘅挣扎,点去平衡?
又或者,我一D都冇复原过?

渴望快乐,自由,被爱,无忧无虑嘅生活。

难事。绝对难事。

***

*bestie: 一路顺风,我会想你的。=))





♥date:
♥time:02:53
如果想发颠,可以做咩?

唉。

我想失常。





♥date: Tuesday, May 29, 2007
♥time:23:53
自欺欺人,就会好过D?

活在于世上,就一定要有所为嘅:目标。
一但人生冇昨目标,生活自然日日复日。

活得开心,当然系件好事。
但如果活得唔开心,又可做D咩弥补?

矛盾心情,难以笔下。

無緣沒故別離, 其實為了甚麼?
全為了準許*你再愛一個。





♥date: Monday, May 28, 2007
♥time:00:11
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tadah!

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my present from work today! =))

very pretty hor hor hor!! my favourite colour & it's butterfly somemore lehh!! 1st time see pple make this kinda balloon into butterfly. ZAI!!!

saw *bear today wif *shrew ears! but not say very 'orge-y' becos

1.) he's supposed to be a bear
2.) he's wearing RED elmo shirt. (too red already)

work has been fine. at least i'm enjoying myself with this new job. the pple there are really nice & i'm getting closer to them. =)) guess i'm more of a team-work kinda person. haha!

but it's really tiring. =X my legs are so sore now. & weekends will be burnt working. but it doesn't really matter lah... since it's hols now. &.. i don't really have much of a life anyways. working is good. it keeps my mind off stupid things. =))

& yesterday i had my 1st ever ice-cream that didn't cheer me up at all. (when i'm not supposed to be eating it but i totally 4got that i was sick... even *jasmeany 4got cos she treated me lol.)

ok. off to bed.

happy birthday *lettie! =))





♥date: Saturday, May 26, 2007
♥time:22:51
another disappointment.

it felt even worse...

when all i could think abt is *you.

why life is just going down & down and never on its way upwards?

*sigh*





♥date:
♥time:14:56
photo post. =))

last friday: sentosa trip wif *Kaka peeps.

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all of us. minus *darren.

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cutie little girl we saw @ *vivo.

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look what happened to *sentosa's old ferry terminal!

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last sat: met up wif *shiyu & *jo.

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my yummy creamy *udon!

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beef beef beef!

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*jo's paper steamboat.

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*sashimiiii!

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our dessert! *tempura ice-cream!

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happy (belated) birthday *jo!

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us~ =))

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yest: celebrating lettie's birthday.

had dinner @ *billy bombers then we headed to *chijmes then finally settled @ *clarke quay's *Brezwerks for drinks.

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birthday girl-to-be!

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me & *bestie.

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our sideview! lol.

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photo perfectly taken. our *beer tower wif *ber & *ruru. =))

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me & *bear whom just passed his *ftt. one step closer to driving me around! *yay!

***

& i realised... it bothered me that much.

oh well.

whatever.





♥date: Wednesday, May 23, 2007
♥time:21:57

又病咗。
第一次睇医生咁贵。omg.
要吃好多,好多药。

但心病还需心药医。






♥date: Tuesday, May 22, 2007
♥time:00:08
1st day of work...

tiring but i did learn alot of things from my manager, *jeremy. =)) nice pple @ the cafe too!

& i think my arm muscles will grow! keke.(muscle muscle jiu shi liiiii-liang! ok random)

i guess it's better to work my ass off then to rot at home. but i keep having the feeling that i'll be very busy... juggling work, tuition, family and friends & yesssss my 2 camps in-coming!!! omg.

*jasmeany become my new twin! omg. 3 aunties & our manager said we looked alike! hmmMm.. since when sia? but i'm glad to have her there on my 1st day of work. =))

PS. i'm bimbo-virus free! keke.





♥date: Monday, May 21, 2007
♥time:00:55
当我烦闷时,你仲会出现。
只是巧合而以吗?
不过,还是要对关心我的人说一声:谢谢。
=))





♥date: Sunday, May 20, 2007
♥time:01:44
i think i re-wrote this post for the 3rd time.

i seriously don't know what to feel anymore.

"i'm just disappointed wif you."

this line somehow summarised it all.

there i was, minding my own business on this faithful saturday night, and here i am, stabbed. i don't even know how did it happened. but i'm not in any bit interested as to how the conversation went by. becos it's just so redundant.

*sigh*

perhaps i wasn't in the best mood. or maybe i really did misunderstood, & indeed, in the wrong. but for all that matters, i had decided not to explain anymore.

why bother?

somehow i just couldn't please everyone eh?

or maybe even my loved ones, no matter how hard i try.

why does it feel so taxing? so tiring?

& sparkles (the bad ones) just fly like nobody's business.

it really hurts.

but to some extent, i think i have grown... in dealing wif relationships. blowing up is definitely the worst thing to do. it'll just make matter worse.

ahh, whatever.

what goes up have to come down eh?

it'll just keep hurting until i'm too numb to feel anymore.

ps. did it ever occur to you that i'm too, that disappointed?





♥date: Thursday, May 17, 2007
♥time:22:32
conclusion: i cannot even eat coffee ice-cream.

head's throbbing again. dammit.

anyways, yest was fun fun fun. =))

lunched & walked thru the new buildings at *novena wif my *mom, after which it was mj session wif *ruru, *jas & *ber!! (okay we watched *open season dvd together too.. & is my tv spoil, not the dvd) so long never mj le!! so happy to play again! keke!

*great world city will be our most frequent place for the few following months becos we'll be working there!! (for *me, *jas & *bestie only) we'll be working at *saycheezecake! hope it'll be a nice experience! must come find us okok! whahaha! =))

& we watched this togther...

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the movie was super funny!!! lol.

then it was *mambo mambo mambo!! wheee!!! very long never club alr!! & i guess we went there much later therefore we could tahan until almost 4am. lol. we only had a toliet break in btw okok!! seems like all of our alcohol tolerance has gone up once again. lol. 2 *sex on the beach, 1 *tequlia shot & 1 glass of *long island tea (YUCKS!) each, and nothing happened. NO KICK! hahaha! =X but i guess the amount was just nice for us to dannnccceee!!! =))

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*saycheezecake!!! =pPp

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i like this photo best lol.

& *jiejie (ahem: *stef's mom) was actually in the toliet while we're cam-whoring!! lol. omg!! none of us saw her lahh... HOW BLIND CAN?! =X then she never come over to say hi becos she scared that we'll call her *AUNTIE!!! haha! so funny! but i think i will really call her auntie lehh.. i'll try my best to call jiejie next time okk *stef!! =PPppPp

& so, i duno how to end this entry. lol.





♥date: Tuesday, May 15, 2007
♥time:22:39
Keep waking up, without *you here.
Another day, another year.
I seek the truth, we set apart.
Thinking of a second chance.


Just need to get closer, closer.
Lean on me now, lean on me now.





♥date: Sunday, May 13, 2007
♥time:22:51
*tired*

it's so weird. when i actually had ALL the time in the world to sleep, i just couldn't sleep. -__-" dang!

duno what's wrong wif me.

anyways, 1st week of my long holiday had been pleasant. =)) *whee!

went for *NUS SeaSports Camp from wed till friday.... grouped wif a nice bunch of pple. =)) & yes i'm in the same group as *jasmeany & *juliet! whee!!

1st day of the camp...

witnessed an astonishing storm at the further end of *ecp. omg! 1st time experiencing such harsh weather in sg! i thought this kinda thing (like tyhoon) will only happen in anywhere else but just not in sg. the branches of the trees literally *SNAPPED*, trees were uprooted, dustbin caps flying everywhere. & the poor red ants were left home-less.

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(don't have all the photos yet, but these are from *jasmeany's phone)

& thanks to *ruru's (wu ya zui), we actually had some games skipped due to the bad weather. but the night's *candle-soccer game was fun! haha. though SUPER annoying. we're supposed to protect our base (a long string tied btw 2 chairs) from getting burnt by our opponents' candles. omg the game really got rough. my group was seriously disadvantaged due to our small group size. & our opponents cheated! hmph! but we lost wif dignity! haha! & a stp idiotic *YELLOW man (becos he was wearing a yellow jersey) just pointed his candle straight into me!! omggg!!! hengs my shirt wasn't burnt, if not i think he'll be dead by now. haha! he left ugly white wax marks on my black shirt! eeyer! dunno can wash off nots!

oh. the most exciting part was actually our supper time. lol. *bestie came over & drove us to *macs! then being curious, we headed to *carpark H to see for ourselves. & omg. we really DID saw pple *ahem*. hahaha! i guess we totally spoilt their mood lahh.. they damn suay! hahaha! we were making sooOOoo much noise in *bestie's car. i really wonder how sound-proof her car was. & i was trying so hard to be engaged wif my *bestie. HAHAHA! =X *jasmeany was screaming like nobody's business, trying so hard to PRETEND to be innocent. =PPp

2nd day of the camp...

the most tiring day becos we did like almost all the seasports that day.

morning was over @ *SAF yatch club for sailing. i didn't really enjoyed myself though. becos i didn't get to SAIL! again! i guess i really jinxed not to sail or sth. i had a sail boat ride that's all. but the scenery was indeed very nice!! had the chance to see the *Americas' ships over @ *CNB. =)) & maybe seeing something that i had never seen b4 too... becos i had never been to that part of sg b4.

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me! it was really bloody HOT that day.

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the nice nice ships afar.

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beautiful sail boat wif clear blue sky. =))

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haha!

afternoon was back to *ecp for *windsurfing & *canoeing. omgg!!! i was so PISSED when i could not windsurf!!! i'm so determined to get my level-1 in *windsurfing!!! YESSS!!! i will PERSEVERE! canoeing was hilarious becos i was paired up wif *jasmeany, & the best of it all is that we canoe-ed in an almost half-filled-with-water canoe. & not say we very LIGHT, plus the choppy waves that day, i think we could have drowned for 10 times & above. but we didn't, of cos! becos we are ZAI. we can balance wif our big butts! hahaha! =X we keep screaming & screaming. i guess even if we really capped pple also won't notice until moments later becos we just keep screaming. =pPpp & my *level-2 kayaking wasn't really that useful also. hahaha! but i used *j-draw horrr!! & i sterred the boat!!!

dinner was *BBQ @ *PA east coast seasports club. i was the *chicken-winger!! my chicken wings super nice okok!!! =)) & i started the fire also lorr.. the guys buay zai 1!! =X

the performance part kinda sucked becos every1 was so un-enthu. omg. like every1 is only close wif their own group & also won't bother to compete wif other groups like that. oh well. my group was fun!!! *Group 3 Group 3!!! the *mmmcheeschees!! =))

then they had this cake-cutting session for all *may babies. omg! then i ganna lah!! then i got to eat cake again! lol. i got sooOOoo many cakes for my birthday this year lorr!! but i was too tired then alr. hahaha! i was so burnt & bruised. (due to getting up the windsurfing board like 20/30 over times in 2hrs non-stop) & i got hit right on the head by the mask of the sail. METAL POLE leh. omg lah!! got *baluku on my head till now! =(( & whenever i close my eyes, i feel like i'm still in sea even though i'm on land bathing, resting or sleeping. (& thanks to some idiot whom laugh at me becos i got SEASICK! so idiot! *rar*)

last day of the camp...

it rained very heavily in the morning. but we still got to wakeboard lah! 1st time wakeboarding lehh!! okay lahh.. i'm not very zai but at least i stood on the board for 10 secs!!! =)) woohoo!! & the scenery was so nice. we're like some rich pple, getting a day out on a wakeboarding trip!! =)) i really felt so relaxed during the camp.. prolly becos the non-urban environment i'm in bah.. best of all, i have nice company wif me. =))

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on the *powerboat.

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there you go. =))

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*yayyyYyyy!! lol.

& oh. we wakeboarded @ some *marina club @ *ponggol. omg lahh!! how farr can?! my group had lunch @ *kfc hougang b4 i cabbed home. i ate 2 pandols to curb my throbbing headache (most prob due to over-exposure in the sun) & went k-box wif my family.

my brother 1st time so enthu cann!! wahh.. must be training hard to impress girls! =X i didn't really sing cos i had no voice.. but hengs i never fall sick!! =))

sat i celebrated my birthday (again) wif *04s06. i dun even have the birthday mood anymore but thanks to all who managed to come down yest. =)) i have a fun time unwrapping all my presents! whee!! ))

we had dinner @ some *fish & chips resturant opp *central. we ordered like 6 diff types of *fish & chips but i dun even know who's fish i'm eating anymore. hahaha! all of them looked the same can?!

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my (dunno-what fish) *fish & chips. =))

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my birthday cookie!!!

afterwhich we headed over to *settlers to play games! omg it was so fun!! =)) & it wasn't really that expensive also, considering that we played for 4hrs straight on a saturday night.

we play some fighting-monsters card game, *smap & *taboo! *taboo was the MOST tiring game. omg. lucky i have telepathy wif *ruru & *terence! hahaha!

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group photo minus *js becos he left early.

& see wat my *surprise* from my dearest *ruru is...

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*rain's concert DVD!!! autographed 1 somemore!!! omg omg omg!! sort of the only thing i said i wanted for this birthday! & she managed to buy it for meeEeeEe! =))

but hey.. take a good look closer okk.

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there's a note from *RAIN!!! yes yes yes! my beloved *Bi!!!!

okk. i even zoomed it in for you.

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okk. so did any1 feel cheated? HAHA. it's just an act from the principle of the *sickening ruru's cirus once again!! lol.

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the inside.

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another shot wif all the really autographed postcards. lol. THANK YOU *RURU!!! *muacks muacks muacks!

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*pencil box from *js! so cute right?! was really surprised that he bought sth for me though. keke. but he duno the exact date of my birthday!! =((~ but nvm lahh.. at least he got xin yi. (better than some asshole who never wish me for duno how many years alr! =X)

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my *sexyback HOT PINK dress from *peiyu & peizhen! omgg.. i still thinking how to wear it. hahaha! like can only wear for clubbing.

thank you all my dearies!! this year's birthday is really very very well spent. =))

lastly, happy mother's day to my beloved *mummy.

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love love. =))

my palms are peeling. so ugly! & i sooOoo dark now!! =((

P.S. suddenly my name become *Amy Tong Ching Ching. it's not okay. stop misleading everyone around me. thank you. lol.





♥date: Tuesday, May 08, 2007
♥time:23:00
i'm finally done wif packing!! havn't been to camps for a very long time! lol.

kinda *excited* but the stp camp pple like forgot abt me. =(( nobody called me. *sobs* but then maybe like that also good.. so me & *jasmeany & *juliet could be together! keke!

my sis was digging her stuff in her room today, & she found this randomly:


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the front.

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&the inside of the card.


(note: the above is drawn & written by a 8-year-old kid.)

haha. THIS IS SO STUPID!!! (>.<) i totally conclude that i cannot blame my *p5 tutee for the constant grammar and spelling mistakes she always make! haha. hope she can do well 4 her exams man.. if not i'm like how useless!

oh. today i had a great time wif *bestie, and the 2 *Rs. =)) my legs almost broke from the massive shopping!!! but i didn't buy anything!!! mother's day gift is totally driving me nuts! but just shows how important my mother is bahh. i sort of *hinted* that i shopped for 2 days straight JUST becos of HER. hahaha! =X

some things still matter.

but they can't matter anymore.

so am i supposed to feel happy or upset?

*sigh*





♥date: Monday, May 07, 2007
♥time:23:19
seems like the lazy-to-blog bug has hit me. =X

but i'm blogging now! keke.

last friday, i had dinner wif my family @ *the altivo, jewel box on *mount faber. 1st time being there. nice ambience & all. =)) the city view was indeed magnificant! & we went there just in time~ we saw the sun setting & darkness surrounded us when our dinner had arrived. i couldn't really see what i was eating anyways. =X

there was a live band performance too. a romantic place for couples? i would say so only if you're rich definitely. lol. but there isn't much places you can go in sg lahh.. so i would say yes. haha!

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zi-lian b4 we left for dinner...

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wat i told you abt.

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me & my *sis.

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my *brother. pretending to be looking away only. haha!

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me me me!

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*beloved wif dinner & drinks. =))

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sat!! =)) my big bang birthday celebration! haha! duno why i so happy that day also. keke.

anyways, morning was hilarious enough wif *gummy thinking that i bluffed her that we won't be reaching by 11am... by the time she called me, i was already getting out my my house!!! (i'm also 1st to reach) stupid woman! lol. & she bought bikini just for that day!! haha! sexy sexy!

so we went *palawan beach after having our usual brunch @ the same *fried hokkien-mee stall & drinking from the SAME *drink stall. lol.

then it was volley time!!! so happy!! reach then got court le. *SHUANG!*

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*bestie, *gum, *me

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ehh.. random.

then we swam/tried to dragged *gummy into the sea (but she always dun wan)/tanned/blocked/played volley/played *monkey in the sea/buried *jason in the sand/swam again & left. haha!

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on the way back 2 *vivo. [photo wif no intentions at all. =))]

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beautiful scenery.

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group photo @ *sentosa.

i enjoyed myself very much @ the peaceful beach. somehow, the noise of the gushing waves overpowers the crowd... & i felt so relaxed... like nothing in the world could bring me down. haha!

& yeessss!! *bear keeps bullying me that day!!! i hope he's NOT infected wif the *marcius virus!!!! ahhHHhhhhh!!!!! *screams*

dinner was @ *sushi tei after queuing for almost 45mins to get a table for all of us to sit together. the SERVICE there totally SUCKED!!!! but the food there wasn't bad lahh.. especially the yummy *mango golden roll. but anyways, i don't think i'll patronise for the 2nd time.. BECOS THEIR SERVICE SUCKS! okay enough said. lol.

& horr.. i think i suffered from sweet tooth that day. I HAD SOOoOOooo MANY CAKES TO EAT!!!! lol.

1.) *jasmeany's cupcakes
2.)*bear's 1st attempt of baking
3.)*jerome's bday cake for me

omg! but all the cakes are delicious. thank you thank you! =))

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my *B. who worked her ass off just to make it that day. thanks girl!! =))

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*BSR!!! (eh *steffie, i put this photo just for you LEH. lol. can see right!? v big lah HORRR~ hahaha!)

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my birthday present from *jasmeany. =))

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somemore cupcakes.

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part of my dinner.

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group photo b4 *gummy & *weilang left.

after which, the rest of us, together wif *keatming & *shawn, went to *cuppage party's world. omg we totally went crazy! lol. we had contestants up till 6 i think!! but then we never announce who win lehhh!! lol. next time gathering we shld have a prize presentation! hahaha! =X

anyways. i almost had a mini canto concert. *janice songs killed me! *cher!!! faster come back then we can *eason until we go mad!!! HAHAHA!

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who's there?

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BOO! my favourite *B. =))

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wah.. look at that. almost the pirated version of *BSR w/o B, but they got *lettie to help! =X

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pirated *R is pretending to sing only. HAHAHA. =pPpp

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my *bestie!!! who's ehh.. very happy wif her tan?!

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my pirated *R! =)) ok lah. you can sing okok! =pPP

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my *R!!! the real one!!! *muacks!

yepps. & i reached home ard 2++am that sunday morning.. i totally KO-ed! lol. so tired lah!!! but it was well time spent wif my loved ones once again. birthday girl v BIG 1 horrr!! =pPpp

we shall go *cafe del mar some other time okokok!

***

just now met *ber & *chee in town. in the end only i bought something... & i totally dunno wat to get for my *mom for *mother's day.

*peiyu! enjoy your date tml! whahahah! =pPPp