blog revived.
24-16=8 days since my last post.
(not that long wat *cher. =pPpPpp)

so, i'd finished my 2 months internship & FINALLY get to enjoy my 1 month holidays!! =)) whee! [but i still had that stp report to work on. dammit!]

been to *bangkok for 6 days & back alr. pleasant trip wif my girls. think i won't be blogging in detail, so pls click on *xiaoqian's link on the right-hand side thank you. =)) [that stp girl posted a SUPER DUPER ugly photo of ME. OMG!!! but thennn i'm fat & ugly now so i guess it's pretty ok lah. i can't be bothered.]

i'm kinda still having the feeling that i'm not back in sg yet. but i have to say the trip was pretty fun, except for the fact that we kinda wasted the 1st day in *pattaya. i lubbbb the *watersports!!! got to try out *para-sailing, *jet-skiing & *banana boat!!! soOOoOooo funnnn!!! i totally have to say this, that i'm still such an outdoor person!!!

[& if you had READ *xiaoqian's post, apparently she'll miss out some very IMPORTANT details, so i'll top them up lol.]

*para-sailing. my 1st experience. =)) (in fact all 3 are) it was fun. really. except for the fact that the round was pretty much too small. so i'm dragged into the air, maybe 2/3 storey heights from the sea (idk man), dangling in the air with yr body swinging in a pendulum motion. the scenery of *jiotiem was great. & the *boatman will dip you into the sea to let you wet yrself a little so you won't be that hot while dangling in mid-air. lol.

*jet-skiing. i took the wheel 1st. i was trying to get used to the speed & accelerate & all, so i didn't go that fast. but when *xiaoqian took the wheel over. I ALMOST DIED I TELL YOU. she's CRAZY. MMMMMMMAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDD. she practically push down the accelerate handle all the way & my face was splashed wif waves & waves of salt water. even wearing large shades didn't help to prevent salt water from getting into my eyes. omg lah!!! then when we changed position again, i took my revenge! HAHAHA!!! our boat went bumping away wif the waves, which resulted in my knee knocking into the boat TWICE, which resulted in a huge blueblack. & *weichen is such a wols driver. =S

*banana boat. the only 1 we could all play together. it was also fun lah... the *boatman has to try to drop us all into the water. but i think we quite zai. for the 1st 10/15mins, we were still quite steady. think he bth & he finally did 1 BIG turn, we all landed in the water. being thrown into the sea was OKAY. the difficult part was to GET UP the slippery banana boat! omg lah~ we used all our strength jus to climb up the stp boat. i think we're supposed to have 3 falls but think the *boatman see us bth after our 2nd, so he brought us back to shore.

so that's abt *pattaya. (& of cos the really nice buffet *breakfast & hotel room!!! =))

& we get to see many *bapoks. really MANLY. they have female bodies but i guess most of them havn't undergone surgery for the face yet. seeing them in women clothes & shoes are just yucky. =X but oh well. it's their culture. & i hate those uncles that keep pestering us (a bunch of girls) to go for *sex shows. omg lah. zzz!

the rest of the days were really shopping shopping shopping!!! i'd spent all the bhat i'd changed, abt SGD$700. i spent all of my internship money alr. lol! but oh well. at least my *family & boyfriend* did like the presents i've bought for them. =))

massages in *bangkok is so cheap noe! abt SGD$8/hr. me & *qian had 2 massages. woohoo!! i got the 2nd massage becos i hope the *auntie will rub my poor ankle for me. yes yes i fell down. most unglamly. i was trying to get down to the main road & i guess i missed my step. my left ankle cracked so loudly to the point i thought that i had sprained my ankle. (but i didn't) some *thai uncles nearby were quite friendly. they offered me water to clean my wound & my feet. one still asked whether i was okay. [& stp me keep knocking my ankle time & time again till it really kinda aches now. i think i need to go *tie da alr. *sobs* very pain 1 lehhh. but i'm actually quite worried as my left ankle is still quite swollen. =((~]

ya & everyday we walked (shopped) so much until we're all so TIRED!!! my heels were aching!!! omgg~~ becos as we shop on, we'll buy more things & there'll be more & more things to carry. lucky our luggages aren't overweight!!! next time can buy more HAHA! =S

the food was ok i guess. but i think that their *fast food all not nice 1 leh. we tried *kfc & *a&w. so-so only. i was surprised that sg' *kfc tasted even better than theirs!

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today i went to *science center & *snow city wif my fellow *PFM-ers. =))

nice outing but i came back feeling so TIRED!! havn't recuperate from my *bangkok trip yet!!! *huifang told us all NOT to be late, in the end she was SOOOOO late!!! lol~

we couldn't even finish exploring the *science center!!! our *lunch session @ the *korean resturant @ *snow city was good i guess. got to know a BIG secret!!! lol~

i knocked my left ankle once again & had another huge blueblack on my left arm while sliding down the slide @ *snow city. zzz TMD!!!!

& as for now. i need to take a look @ the stp modules for the coming sem. i need to seriously pull up my *CAP!

P.S *mirumo hasn't call me yet!!! hmph!!!

many thoughts recently.

overwhelmingly many. i shld say.

i'm the type of person who thinks way TOO MUCH. but idk why... after been in love once again, i'd become (quite) a mentally lazy person. =S idk how to descibe the feeling...

ah yes. like just how random thoughts pretty much don't surface anymore. everytime i feel that something is not right, mr lam* will always make me not to think abt them. (becos it's impossible to change anything anyway) so they kinda *proof* disappeared.

but they had been re-surfacing more recently. prolly becos of the "depression" state i'm current in, plus the time of the month & events that had happened.

but to all that are concerned, thank you very much. =)) i think my defensive wall was built up (too) well, to the point that i don't really know how to open up anymore. i think it's a (very) bad thing. i was on my way home jus now & wanted to pour out something to someone/anyone, but no names came up to my mind right at that instant. i was jus unhappy & attention seeking, yet idk what to say or who to pour out to. maybe i'm exaggerating things here. but idk. i jus don't like that feeling. i could even think of "it has been a hard day for me, trying to smile @ work" though it pretty wasn't the case. (minus the parts that i actually smiled becos my eyes met wif pple in the office) or maybe i jus wanna be zombi-fied & not do anything today.

tml, my *laison officer will be down to see me. i don't even know this *indian guy! but he'll be coming down & i'll be tokking to him anyways. *sigh* totally can't stand fake r/s. i find facing them sooooooo tiring. i still had to think of wat to give the staff on the last day of my intern. (which is NEXT FRIDAY) it's not sth that i wanted to do (becos i totally DON'T wish to por any1 there), but it's kinda bo bian. -sian-

& if my *boss ever talks to me again, i'll tell him straight that i'm not gg to write any paper, but to concentrate on my work in office. i'm seriously not keen to do anymore extra work alr, esp when my intern is finally ending. but if 'the incident' did not happen, probably i wouldn't have this kinda switch-off attitude.

& may i proudly exclaim: i pon-ed work yest. took some 'urgent leave'. well, was tempted by dar* (=ppPpp) but it was a day well spent, together. =)) but i seriously misses outdoors. i've been so indoors! so lazy! i wanna go camping too!! =((

i guess pple always want things that they'll never get.

& by popping out late on msn last night, 2 random pple msn-ed me immediately. 1 was my primary sch friend, who wished me happy belated bday out of random, but i still can remember her bday, even though we aren't close anymore. & 2nd wasm mr. *kevin so.

but anyways, the main thing i wanna blog abt is that they both (finally after 7mths) saw my dp & asked me: "r u married?" i know my dp has been very misleading, & they aren't the 1st 2 to ask me the same qn anyways. butttt (yes yes i'm really getting to THE POINT)

convo wif *mr so:

him: r u married?
me: nope
him: oh. yr photo like marry those kind. (blah)
[then i think there was quite a pause & i kinda typed this]
me: jus happily attached i guess.
me: so how's you?
[pause. stp him. duno wth he doing.] .
him: happily detached wif my gf for 3 mths.
him: so do you still talk to marcius?
me: yes. why not. in fact we jus met up a few weeks back.

ok end of the stp convo.

seriously, idk what's he's problem. when *marcius also (always) telling me the same thing. "oh, so do you still tok to ching?" wth lah. -_____-" yah. both of us totally agree that he's an ASS who doesn't treaure our frienship. i think for every single year, both of us wish him "happy bday" on that rightful halloween day, but wat has HE done over the years?!

[wait. actually i totally didn' have ANY intention to bitch abt him. haha. it came out completely random.]

thennnn i was lol-ing in my mind abt his statement of "happily detached from his gf for 3mths". [yes this really THE POINT.] & i wondered did he find my statement above smirking. but oh well, who cares abt his feeling. i was thinking does he REALLY REALLY have a gf to begin wif? hahahaha! my impression of him was being half a loser who always can't get the girl he want!
=X (ya i'm slapping myself but it's the PAST OK. PAST PAST PAST. PAST TENSE.)

yah. idk why my statement came out jus like that. maybe i was tired & my subconsious mind did take the lead. so in conclusion, i'm a happy & 幸福 little girl (woman). =))

i'm also happy becos i kinda find back a long lost friend. =)) talking abt personal things that we used to share... jus a very heartwarming feeling.

this blog entry is totally nonsensical. =S idk. jus feel like blogging random thoughts becos i feel that i've NOT been doing so. (as my cantonese posts all die-ed)

my phone is still so silent. =((

mundane of my life.

p.s *steffie says i'm spoilt. but in a good way. =))