thank you for assuring me. <3

idk why i'm so paranoid these days.

definitely not in the best of mood (yet again) & my period/s is oh-so horrendous.

that's the end of my recess week.

omfg what have i been doing?!

*sigh*

i need to find that peace from within.

on the contrary, i really want to know what else i can do.

i think i might just quit blogging.

idk... i've totally lost the zest in blogging.

it's like i'll just blog abt the same old things all over again... everytime i come to this typing platform.

updates. updates? no. none.

hmms.

i use to think that i shld blog becos it serves as my electronic diary, so when i get older i can always look back... the happiness, the joy, the pain, the heartaches, the funny & corny issues etc. but... sadly it all boils down to mundanity. other times, i feel that i can't even write what i really feel from within anymore.

yeah. i'm a bottled-up person. & i guessed even more with recent events. what's there in my future? *blank* the big question marks (& worse emptiness) are really scary sometimes.

why do pple have to grow up? becos you actually, really get older (by age) as the years pass? or it's all based on the perception of the society? or the pple ard you?

*sigh*

i'm more of a planner. (extremely incoherent thoughts) i like to plan my days ahead... a week maybe? so i'll know what's there to expect or even to anticipate. but... i have to live with conformity that things will just fall in place. so i'll just wake up every morning & wait for things to happen. (so sounded like waiting for $$ to drop from the sky) it's not a lifestyle i adore, but i ain't happy accepting it either. (so why can't i just let it go? *shrugs*)

is it a problem of mine if i'm so bothered abt certain things but they are just clearly insignificant issues to the other party? [taurus are stubborn. yes indeed.] at times i wonder is it worthwhile to feel so unhappy abt things i really bothered abt, becos they are all due to my stubborness.

let it go, let it go, let it all go.

difficult. aye.

(& my stp keyboard like giving me problems again. damn insensitive!!!)

i wanna run away...

away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.
away from every.single.damn.thing.

arugh.