People.. i gotta admit this. I just simply admire GAY LOVE. Its the purest of the purest form of love. After reading my friend's blog, i almost melted. Its as though its written in a story line, a very interesting storyline. The love for each other and the smallest care and concern for the other party. Even the daily stuff like having dinner and watching movie is a routine to us, but to my friend, it meant a whole lot to them. Its the only time that they had together and they really treasure it. Though its simple, it just froster the bond between them.

We always thought that people will accept we are as who we are. However, what about the small percentage of people who are not accepted as who they really are? Being gay and being accepted by the family are two very different things. It just takes a lot more effort to covince the family that you are in love with the son. Therefore, i guess thats why aj's treasure a relationship and will always pour out 100% of their feeling for the other half.

From the deepest place in my heart.. may bee and honey be together always. Honey will always attract bee...
I guess i am turning more and more like a faghag.. oh well.. haha

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Have you ever tried before listening to ever songs and they all seems to be the saddest song in the world? Even the cheerful beat songs all sound so dreadful. It just seems like they are screaming out how you are feeling at that very moment.

Have you ever felt that your life is aimless and worthless? Have no idea what to do and how to carry on? You do not feel tired even though you only sleep that few hours? And when you really feel like sleeping, its really when you are mentally exhausted. Walking on the road, you are just in a daze. Even the car zooms pass u also have no idea.

Have you ever felt that no matter how much you eat, you still want to eat somemore? You just want to keep yourself busy and occupied. Perhaps even to the extend of exhausting yourself so that your mind is too tired to carry on working. And to the extend that people say that you are emitting out the emo aura and thay really care for your well-being.

Have you ever had these? What do you call these signs?

Labels: Life'08

Yesterday is probably the most tormenting day ever since the start of 2008. Its worst than the piles of porject stuff that i gotta do in sch. It was just a full day event.. and i mean 24 hrs non-stop.

Early in the morning, go to work and as what i was 2 days before, I just sat there and do the stupid research. It somehow is getting on my nerves as its like wasting my office hours. I can jolly well do my research at home! And not run all the way to Eunos to do research the whole day. Besides.. i think i didnt learn anything much from there. I am just sick of research and research.

Just after lunch, boss asked me to do a HUGE task for him. And I JUST HATE THAT TASK. Cox we are now handling a project on printing a booklet(both english and chinese) for a spa company, my boss actually agrees to help them check the word errors. And yes.. maybe you know wat my huge task is abt. Its sitting there for a damn good 2 hours and reading word for for. Checking for alinement mistake and spelling errors. For both English and Chinese version! And i mean it. WORD FOR WORD. If 1 single error is found, 4000 copies of book gotta be reprinted again. And my boss is going to tell the client that he personally has checked the spelling errors before when he only asked me to check. So, i cannot afford to make any mistakes! If not we gotta pay the client.

After checking, Vince asked me to do something. Halfway through, boss printed the final copy of the 2 booklets and asked to to arrange and recheck everything again and write down all the mistakes that I hav spotted. By that time, it was already 6 something. I have to rush for wanjun's bdae. But at the same time, i got this job to do. Seeing how my ex-colleague nearly ruined this project before he left, i told myself that i HAV to do it properly. Check through everything in order to shut the damn client up. I check through the chinese version and waited for the English version to be printed out. By that time, its ald 6.45. I am late. I know that I am late and i am rushing! After checking everything, i still gotta staple nicely for my boss. All in all, i left my office at ard 7.30 after some miscommunication.

I rushed down to City Hall. On the way, something disturbing happened and i nearly cry on the train. Sometimes good friend might not seem as good. Best friend might not be the best when u tot that thy would understand ur situation the best. When i reach there CityHall, i received an sms from sista that she is going home. Only 2 things cum into my mind. One is she is emo, 2 is she is sick of waiting cox i was late when she had been waiting for 1.5 hrs. Later did i found out that it was cox she is pissed at me. I was not angry for her leaving cox i know waiting is a very tormenting thing to do as i used to wait 3-4 hourse for something. I am just literally heartbroken.

That same night, i went to did Full Body Prostration till this morning 6am. I am exhausted and aching all over. Partially I wanna exhaust myself and stop thinking of what happened earier. But i couldnt. It was just stuck in my brain.

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4 weeks have passed and I am left with another 4 weeks at MD2 studio. I boss asked me if I like working with them a not. I say YA! SURE! THE ENVIRONMENT IS NICE AND SIMPLE. And I meant every single word I say. I simply love the place. My colleagues are just full of nonsense and the environment is not stressful. I love the red wall, the pool table, the radio that always on 91.3FM, the library of books, the baby sesame street, the couch, the glass table. Everything! And the distinctive smoke smell when I step into the office every morning. I am so gonna miss this place in 4 weeks time.

Although my boss is a very weird person ( which I still thinks he is now), his kindness and sensitivity towards things covers that up for him. I remember he asked me to cut papers on Wednesday. And the papers that I have cut were not straight. He told me off by saying.. Aiyo! The person that knows how to cut straight lines should be interior designers wat! How can you b a interior designer like that! Tsk tsk. Than he will sit down and show me. I am surprised at how serious he is when it comes to work. He is really serious and patient. Whenever I do wrong things, he would tell me off lightly and show me how to do it. Sometimes I really feel dumb.. causing so much trouble for him. When we were both sitting down to cut papers, he would chat with me about songs, his favourite songs and some other rubbish stuff like “eh, Jolene. You suck!”. Than I would ask him why. He would just say I like to say people suck.

Wednesday that time, I also went out on a site visit to this couple house at Hoy Fatt road. The journey to there, my contractor was speeding a little, as he was rushing for time. My boss, who was then on the phone turned around and say “Jolene, remember to put on the seat belt, its dangerous.” Wa! I almost melted. Half way through the site visit, my boss left for another appointment and I was left with my contractor. When I ask the contractor where did my boss go? He replied, he went on for appointment and he ask me to bring you for lunch. When I run errand for my boss the same day, the first thing he asked me was “Have you had your lunch?” So touched!!! I mean.. how in the world could this guy be so sensitive and manage to take care of so many things!! I really admire him. Maybe that’s the reason why he is surrounded with girls. Hehe. I must say.. he is a one of a kind boss.

On the other hand, seeing his seriousness in work, I am very inspired by him. In university life, he was a nobody to the top student in the course. From a no-one to someone that had been offered plenty of scholarships, admired by Singapore’s famous designer, interviewed and featured in Straits Times newspaper for a furniture design. I admired at how the way he handle and does stuff. Though he is talented, but I must say he does work hard too. I believe what I see.

Labels: ITP 08

Friday was a pretty weird night. I actually chatted with my boss for almost 1 hour. Not on msn, but through the phone!! Haha.. i actually called him to ask him about some printing stuff, but we ended up crapping some other stuff other than work. Like he wan me to intro girls to him.. we talk about his ex girlfriends, talk abt the kinda guy i like, talk abt some designer stuff, talk about clubbing, talk about taboo, talk about my working colleagues and a bit of their background and of course how rubbishy my boss goes around working. He claims that if he sees the girl that he like, he give her 5% off the total design fee. Not so pretty 1% and so on. Oh well.. haha.. he is just joking la. Haha.. nevertheless, boss is still a very sensitive and talented man who likes challenges. Oh.. he is damn rich also la. Other than having a share at MD2 studio, he is also one of the share holders for Jet Star Asia and Tiger Airlines (those budget airlines). The main contractor also super rich. He collects cars!!! He got 2 brand. One Picanto and dunno wat. One brand he has a rainbow collection of it. Meaning 7 cars. So 2 brands.. he got 14 cars.. and he himself is driving a designer car!!! OMG! 1 person owns 15 cars!!! Thy are all freakingly rich. Thats all i could say. haiz.. and look at me. Poor pennyless student. Thats life i guess.

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