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Detox just to retox, And ill promise you anything, For another shot a life. Imperfect boys, With their perfect lives, Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy. half dead semi sweet I live with her all my life She loves Design, but somehow suck at it. Born on the 20 Feb, she is sign of the Fishes Her friends call her Emo Panda tagalert Your Cbox their so hard to forget Kenny.T Yun Rui.L WeiLin.B taking back yesterday December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 take a bow Designer; %chicken/nuggets Basecodes;inspired_love Basecodes;The-curtaincall Hosts: Blogger | Blogskins
Too Poor
Sunday, February 15, 2009 at Sunday, February 15, 2009
Hur Hur.. what am I doing so early in the morning at 5.10am? Trying to arrange my portfolio for Monday's submission. But alas, I am clueless on how I wanna arrange it and I still got things to touchup. I AM JUST TOO LAZY TO DO MY THINGS!!!ROAR! Finally got a wee bit of time to blog. Last few days have been hetic. Been rushing for Friday's submission which includes - TOD Dossier, Panel Mockup, Library thingy, Intech Journey, ePortfoilo of all 3yrs work. Its MADNESS. So many things to do and so little time. Seriously, we were all exhausted, sick and tired of all these submission that we have to do. Initally the tot was that after the FINAL SUBMISSION of the project, we would be free. WHO KNOWS WE GOT MORE SUBMISSIONS THEN EVER! Bloody hell! Everybody is yearning for graduation day to come. This is taking far too long! argh!! ***************** Slept 20 hours straight. It felt good!!! Dun say that I am a pig. I didnt sleep for 2-3 days. Or rather.. 2-3 days of sleeping hours adds up to 5 hrs? Only pandians would understand the pain n torture we have to go through. Sigh ***************** Weilin got cheated.. FINANCIALLY. The stupid printing shop eat her money!! Spent 37 bucks and her dossier was not in good condition. Bloody uncle still blames that its her fault! STUPID UNCLE! **************** Life is in mess now. So many things to do and so little time. Things are dying on me. Some of you might have know that my phone is dying. It has turned mute.. totally. When people calls, no sound. Sms.. no sound.. Alarm.. no sound. Best part.. i cant even hear what the other party is telling me when i pick up a call. No money to buy new phone, scare that it will costs quite a lot if i sent it to service. Sigh... and my line terminates in dec.. Shit phone.. what a good timing to DIE ON ME! Lappie is getting older and slower each day. Programmes on lappie are going haywire..thy get hanged for no reason. Its so scary when I am using it, cox i am afraid that it would crash on me.. and thats the end. School Bag is torn. Its ziplesss, but nevertheless.. i am still using it. As long as it still can contain thing.. then its good. Shall last me till I graduate.. which will be sooooooon (I Hope!) I AM SO DEAD.. WITH SO MANY THINGS DYING SLOWLY. GOD.. PLEASE LET ME STRIKE GOLD OR PRINT MONEY.. SO THAT I CAN BUY A NEW PHONE AND A NEW LAPTOP. Life definitely sucks this year.. and this is just the beginning.
Another EMO post
Sunday, February 8, 2009 at Sunday, February 08, 2009
As ridiculous as it may sounds.. i have have been staying in this stagnant state of mind for 3 days. My eyes are swollen from all the tears, and yet thy seem to be flowing out every now and then. I refuse to let it flow. I know that it wont do any good to the situation.. but i cant help but to feel useless and sad and worried. I want to go out everyday, away from the work load, away from my room. Everytime i sit in front of my computer, my mind would wonder away.. and i start emoing again. I look at my mom, i feel that i have let her down. With her working so hard to provide for my studies, I should have do something to make her proud. All I did was the opposite. I dun want that day to ever come. On top of all these miseries, there is something that hurt me even more.. intentionally or unintentionally. I feel weaker and weaker as each day goes by, I wonder when will I just drop dead and die. I need energy to move on.. and the source of energy is no longer there. Will I last? Submission is on the 13, 16 and 20 of Feb. We have so many things to do. I dun even have the mood to celebrate my birthday. With all the recent upsetting things, lets not celebrate this year ba. I only have 1 thing in mind.. and i will use up all my birthday wishes in advance.. i just want to graduate. Similiar to previous years, bdae is just gonna be another day, with a twist this time. I will pray hard that I graduate. That will be the best present I can get/give myself.
不好的回忆
Friday, February 6, 2009 at Friday, February 06, 2009
事情已过，但画面还是不断的在我脑海里从演。同样的字就像箭一样，刺进我的心里头。 但是，幸好同样的东西，我不用从说那么多次。朋友们都会帮我述说，真的是感激还来不急呢。因为，我不用在想回那恐怖的画面。 每天都在跟自己说“要振作，要拼到底。还有机会的。” 可是机会好渺茫。好怕我做不好东西，好怕大局已定。真的很感谢一直在帮我打气的朋友，你们的一凡鼓励对我来说真的很重要。 我不想以路人甲的身份去祝贺你们。。。我不要！！ 让我在消沉多一天吧。。。 然后我们大家一起努力！
IDK
at Friday, February 06, 2009
I tried and tired for the tenth thousand time. Slowly slowly getting use to it, but still sends chills down my spine whenever I learnt about it. I applause myself for the effort put in. Sometimes I just wanna avoid it, but at times I cant help but to peep at it. I have the thought of leaving everything behind, but I can predict the outcome. Assurance are given, but insurance dun even prevent death rite? I fear that "death"is creeping near, but i will do my best to ignore it. The chapters written are changing every minute. Will I get tired of reading the ever changing chapters? Or will I adapt to reading it? I will wait and see..
今天的我
Thursday, February 5, 2009 at Thursday, February 05, 2009
今天的我。。是如此的沉默 今天的我。。是如此的失败 今天的我。。早已疲倦了 今天的我。。想要放弃 今天的我。。不知所措 今天的我。。是如此的伤心 今天的我。。是如此的想不开 今天的我。。不是我 今天的我。。是如此的假 今天的我。。正在想我的将来 今天的我。。觉得自己很没用 今天的我。。真的很想做傻事 今天的我。。能撑到明天吗？ 今天的我。。迷失了方向 今天的我。。。。 累了，哭了，做了，错了，或许该放弃了
DE month
Sunday, February 1, 2009 at Sunday, February 01, 2009
Yeah yeah!! Its the month of February!! Meaning its the month of end of CNY, the BIG V DAY for some and birthday month! haha!! I wanna make a wishlist!! or rather a SHOPPING LIST for the future should i ever got the money. Here it goes! 1) I need money! MONEY MONEY MONEY! Who would ever find money is too much? =XX. But still I am pretty broke luh.. No work=No Income. 2) I need a bigger space hard disk! The 2 hard disk that I have currently is running out of space! Both of them adds up to a good 250G, but its still not sufficient for me! (thanks to all the movies, shows, musics, project works, photos) 3) I want a new laptop! My lappie is getting handicapped. I am so scare that it will die on me when i am using it to do my project. ARGH. 4) I WILL need things like caps, hats, scarfs etc for the month of august. You guys know why! OR A WIG? 5) I want a poloride camera! Cox its so vintage and cute! haha.. but a digital cam works well also. haha!! 6) I want nice bags! I never find bags are too much! haha.. becauseeeeee.. DIFFERENT BAGS ARE USED FOR DIFFERENT OCCIASIONS! 7) I want nice jackets! Though i am fat, but seriously.. the fats serve no purpose. It doesn help to insulate at all. 8) I have been aiming for IPOD CLASSIC for a long time. I will GET THAT when i have the damn money!! For now.. i am contented with my Beanie! 9) I want nice shoes!! Somehow, I find nice shoes are hard to find.. LOL. 10) PINEAPPLE TARTS!! LOL. i just love them.. but more of the tarts then pineapple. Cox the fillings are just too sweet. =XX 11) Subscribe to FRAME mag!! Its a very nice design mag.. but ex. haha! 12) More earrings/Belts!! I never find them too much! haha. 13) New wallet! My current wallet.. Hur Hur. 14) Those top that u can wear as a second layer.. thouse who know me well knows wad i am talking abt. LOL. Or scarfs also can!! Can't think of anymore things le! haha!!
Free Show!
at Sunday, February 01, 2009
Just reach home not long ago after going house visiting with the emo crew aka a2 gang. Went to Minyi, Kenneth, Kenny and Alvin's house. Gambled all the way from noon 2pm to 2am in the morning. Call me a gambler.. I dun care. Bleah. Its a ONE YEAR ONE TIME THING! I lost some money, but it was alright.. lesser as compared to previous year. I was so facinated by all the girls cox thy were facinated about the thing on my butt. -.- The dress i was wearing happened to have a smiley face on my butt.. and everyone actually took turn to take pictures with my BUTT!! Or rather.. the face.. =XXX The next thing that they were asking about is my pink stockings. -.- I wore them along with my white dress.Haha.. dun ask me why i decide to buy a pink stocking. It just so happened that i wanted to go all bright colour this year... and my pink stocking sure brought about some commotion. LOL. Couisn: WAAAAAA!!!! YOU DARE TO WEAR PINK STOCKINGS OUT UH??!!! Me: Um Hum.. Why not. Couisn: I only saw people wear it when i was in Taiwan!! Me: oh.. then now you see me wearing lor!! haha! Cousin: then i know wad i can get you next time. I get u a blue stocking! Me: Hum.. i have that colour tooo.. Cousin: -.........................- And a stupid aunty actually swept her eyes up and down up and down me. -.- Maybe its just too bright a colour for old people. The last thing they were talking about are my shoes.. LOL. The girls were pretty suprised when i told them that i bought the shoe at Northpoint. LOL.. cox no time to look around le! So practically everything that I wore today became an "exhibition". LOL QingHui was pretty funny too.. she was sitting there and going " wa.. super bright.. super bright". LOL! Shall upload the pictures when u get my hands on them! |