I Me My Mine My Way of Life

2013 is coming to an end in another few more hours here in UK and it also marks the first anniversary of my blog. Looking back at this, let's see what I have done for the past one year.

1. I accomplished this but ... I failed one core module. Got an overall of 76-ish. Worth the sleepless nights I spent in the library prior to the exam and not to mention the 5kg which I gained during the exam period (I eat a lot when I am under stress xD). Now for the failed module, I won't have to resit it again in uni but I think I am going to pay another a few hundreds pounds to retake it.

2. Just going to write a short one on this. Still am single and available but I don't think I am ready to jump into one yet. I am not "stable" yet. And apologies to you-know-who-you-are. Sometimes I feel ashamed to talk to you again and thanks for letting me know something which I have been ignorant to.

3. Made it up the last summer I went back to compensate for my less than frequent calls back home. I did my best to solve some conflicts within the house. Did everything I could to keep my family happy, especially mum who is alone at home most of the time. No long cold war. I think the only one was when I wanted to drive out at night and mum didn't let me to and I "merajuk-ed". lol

4. LOL. This one ah? I have had people laughing at me for this and still I have not done this. Someone offered to accompany me there already. Hopefully there will be a time when we both are free and go there for a weekend trip or something.

5. Weight has been wandering around that figure. No shape at all. lol. I remembered telling the someone who offered to take me to London this "You know when I look at all those fit and toned body on Grindr or Jack'd, I have this sudden urge of going to gym but when I rethink how long I can keep going, my brain says, "Yeah, Once in a year.", to which he just laughed.

6. Rickman (a British guy who have been constantly expressing his love towards me) taught me a couple of that but I think I have a lot more to learn. Is jumping in bed with the Brit considered one?

7. Mostly gay friends, a couple from blogosphere and a couple from Grindr and Jack'd. Not friends with benefits just pure friends. though for one or two I hope for more lol There are some whom I have not met in person yet, especially this guy whom I constantly flirt with but we know we aren't for each other lol. Then got two hot Spanish and one twinky American.

8. Yes I have and also I am more open to Ron (the guy friend whom I am out to). There was once I asked him whether he would like to see something. He said, "go ahead" and I showed him a photo of my gay friend kissing his bf in a public park. He gave me the o.O face and I literally can't stop myself laughing but yeah he said he was okay with that. lol. And no we didn't talk about sex at all. I still want to keep my good image. xD Oh and while I was in Iceland, we were walking down this Laugavegur street and I pointed to a pub with colourful paint and told him it's a gay bar. I am surprised he didn't know about the rainbow flag. :O

9. I have, the most recent one being a trip to Iceland. It was really pretty. Strongly recommended if you are looking for a romantic kind of trip. Not bad for a family/friend trip too. I can recommend a nice apartment which is like the cheapest of all and very cosy.

10. Spent Christmas eve afternoon with Rickman. It was a sudden one. I was planning to get myself a coat and he offered to take me around. Had lunch in one Malaysian restaurant and we started our gay topic. There were two Malaysian chinese guys in there too, just a few metres away from our table. Errr, I hope you didn't eavesdrop. And if you are gay and happen to stumble upon this blog, come say hi.


Happy New Year,
V

At last, I am done with the switching.

Just a few hours before I was about to leave for my holiday, my friend came to my room and saw the other email address which I created for the previous blog. By doing simple googling the email address, one can easily trace my blog. I panicked as I was still packing up by then.

Phewww. Relieved and glad now that I have done everything I can to keep my blog. Will post about my travel soon.

V

With all tests (which I have been having since term started) coming to a finish, I can finally have some time for myself and more importantly, to go travelling! Yay!

Came back home late last night after hooking up having a Christmas dinner with my friends. My gut feelings were getting stronger that they knew I am bent (not straight?)

Gonna wrap up my first term with a vacation to one of the Scandinavian countries. Did my "research" on guys over there. It took me by surprised as there are only limited number of them (at least from what I can see from app) considered that it is one of the most LGBT-friendly countries in the world. I think I MIGHT come out to my friends during the trip. I have been suggesting to them that I want to go to a pub/club (I have never been to any!). Well anything could happen there. Haha.

Right, gotta clean up my room before I head off for holiday. See you when I am back.


P.s: Congrats to Tom Daley. Though I was heartbroken (I know where I stand so not really sad a lot la lol), I'm glad you found a man you like. :)

Love,
V

Feeling lonely. Feeling empty.

Just realised that I have not many friends that I am close to. Not many that I can relate my problems to. But I'm glad that there is this someone who is always *cough* there for me. You might not be reading this but I just want to say "babe, I love you. Muakzz muakzz!"

Emptiness. *sigh* The moment after he unloaded and pulled out his d***, you are just another stranger to him. I don't know what I am crapping here.

Feeling shit,
V

No more sex post. Tuls laughed at me for being "unprofessional" in bed. *sob sob* lol

I have just come back from meeting someone. Been so stressful for the past few days due to exam and I have been *quite* frisky. lol

Started talking to this white guy in the uni two weeks back. Not very good looking but ok lah. In fact turned out to be better than average. We were chatting last night after I had my test and we both went cheeky. So he invited me over to his (which took me 20 minutes to walk there). "We will just cuddle all night long" was what he said. Padahalnya.

Turned out that we did not cuddle much but we did more than what we were expecting. I was dead tired by the time I reached there. It was near 1am. After some cuddling, hugging and kissing, he whispered to me, "what do you wanna do?". I just said, "I don't know. Up to you." (I did really want to at that time lol) "Let's get more tired then" was his reply so you guys know la what happened next. :p

I was quite surprised with my capability yesterday night (this morning). I have never taken in any white meaty sausage *cough* before. Usually the other half would direct his and have his tool inside me. BUT I don't know where I got the courage and I did it like a pro. AND I maneuvered it. UNBELIEVABLE! So ya that was a little achievement for me today. :)


V

Hmm, the title. ........ Because I don't know what to put.

Hello people!

I have gone MIA for long lol. Not sure if there is still anyone reading my blog.

Wind asked what has happened to me the last time I spoke to him. Well, I have been segregating myself from people due to work and some other complications. Quite a few happened in this period, some good ones and some bad.

I feel like I am getting busier this year. There is so much work to be done. Assignments la (assessed and non-assessed ones), tests la, exams la. *sigh* I have no life man. Yea right. -.- Got time to go flirting around somemore say no free time. And not to mention wanking!

Here to update a few things. I will try to list them all down. ;)
1. I did well in one of my test (one which will exempt me from professional qualification). I was so surprised that I was third among the whole cohort! Oh man, I was literally shocked and ecstatic at the same time. Couldn't feel happier and it's good to start a new academic year with a bang! I mean bang not the BANG type of BANG! :D

2. So glad to recall back the materials learnt back in high school and I had one test which had 70% of the questions based on that! Felt great to have taken/self-learnt it. The test was just a piece of cake!

3. Someone came and gave me a scarf (because I was in cold and couldn't find my scarf). Could be a girl so please don't assume it is always a guy. :) I was so touched!

4. A gay mate of mine asked me out (we haven't gone yet). It could be in the next 2 weeks depending on how tight *cough* my ass work schedule is.

5. Oh and first anniversary for me on Halloween day! ;)

Ciao for now. I will see you when I see you again.

Much love from V.
Muacksssssssssssss! <3 <3

V

It's like a roller-coaster ride week.

Should I or should I not? He is having a band performance tomorrow in the uni and he mentioned it on both dates. I really don't know what I should do. It happened too fast.

P.S: Thanks to Jung for calling me just now. Love you. Hope your Skype session went well. :)

V

He asked if I will be free later tonight. Of course I am! Even if I am not, I will still put my work aside. =p

Hope that it will be another great one. :)

Love,
V

Well, the title says it all. Just came back from uni after meeting him.

Hello people!

How is everyone doing? Hope everyone is alright, boh pua boh mi (Hokkien).
My blog is now full of spider webs now. >.< It's been a long time since I last blogged and I am slowly losing my writing ability. lol

Apologies for the long inactivity. And I am sorry to disappoint you that I will be inactive again till end of June. UK exam season is coming so I will be busy preparing for that. I am also going to quit Jack'd. My Grindr account was banned as someone reported me as underage while I was in Italy. Going to email some documents to Grindr Support so that they lift the ban after my exam. Hope I am not missing out hotties and cuties.

Wish me luck in my exams. Pray for tuls, Ah Jung and also Shin Shin. Pray for me first okay, if got time only pray for them. :p Good luck to those who are having exam too. :)

Thanks to all my readers. I am surprised to see views from Germany, Russia, Indonesia, Hong Kong, Brunei and Belarus (ok la, I know my blog isn't as famous as the other big guns who have more collections than me :p). You guys are awesome. Leave me an inbox message. I would love to get to know you guys. Muakzz. xoxo

See you.

Love,
V

Phewwww! Finally I will have my well deserved break!

Loads of assignment deadlines to meet and I just submitted one moments ago. Too lazy and tired to post anything now. ><

Btw, I will be at Warwick Malaysian Games tomorrow. If there is any of you who are going, I would love meet up with you. x

Tired,
Vincent

A random post. Haha.

Just back from meeting Rich. It's the second time we are seeing each other. We have never met each other outside the department, so is this time.

My spring term has been horrible. Been slacking too much and not have the motivation to study. Plus the lecturers that I have got this term are quite suck-ish. So I told him about that and he offered to lend me his notes. He put the thick pukka pad in my pigeonhole. When I went to collect it, it was attached with a yellow sticky pad saying, "Enjoy! If you have any questions, please DO ask. I will try and help. Rich" (exact words). I was quite surprised as he has always been cold to me. lol

I email-ed him few days ago to ask if he is willing to help me out as I have difficulty understanding certain concepts and he was like 'Knock on my office door. I am free this Friday 3pm onwards'. He was really helpful and now I think under his guidance I am smarter now. lol Ah, something funny happened. He asked me to do some examples and his friend happened to pass by and I was looking at them when they conversed. He turned and said, "Do your work!". lol

Thanks! x

Love,
V

This post is dedicated to that someone whom I shall not name. =)

Hopefully I will have done writing by 23:59:59 and post it by the time the clock strikes 12. Hope that I will be able to make it. :) Initially, I planned to call you later tonight sharp at 12 a.m. but I don't have my phone with me at the moment. *sigh* Don't have your contact number how to call huh? I left my phone in the lecture hall this morning and luckily someone found it. I only found out who got hold of it around 4 p.m. and the honest guy said it was at the porter's lodge. Went there and the person-in-charge was not there so here I am, without a phone for more than 12 hours now! :-(

Anyway, just want to wish you happy birthday. Shall not disclose more about you, as promised. I suck at birthday wish, paiseh. So hmm, wish you stay cute always, stay young forever (in fact you are!), smile always (your smile is charming!), stay healthy and good luck in your studies! I will probably see you soon, either here or there or when we are both back in Malaysia.

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Love,
V

P.S: Still think that the email that you sent me is cute. x

I called you just now.
Didn't know where I should start from,
So I asked if you were already asleep,
Though I knew the answer.

I know,
I am not good with expressing myself.
It has always been like this with you,
Please forgive me.

It has been,
150 days,
Since we dined together,
And I last saw you smile.

"How have you been?".
You paused,
It has been a while,
Since I asked you this.

You said you are well,
And everything is going smoothly.
Sometimes I know you lie,
So as not to keep me worried.

You asked the same question,
Each time I called you.
"Have you eaten yet?".
"Please take care of your weak body".

Like me,
You are bad in expressions,
I bet that is why,
We are together.

You told me loads of stuffs,
While I just listened.
Your voice is so comfortable,
To be heard.

As you were talking,
I heard a sobbing tone over the phone.
I wish I were there,
To wipe away your tears.

It is so contagious,
My eyes became teary,
My cheeks soon turned wet,
It just happened like that.

In another 127 days,
I wish it is shorter.
I will be back soon,
Back to be with you.

I want to tell you,
How much I love you.
I miss you,
My beloved daddy. x <3


Your little kid,
V

continued..

He looked different - like 5+ years older than his photo. That moment I decided that this guy isn't for me as a partner, yes if a friend. He took me to a Chinese restaurant to have some dim sum for lunch. That was when I told myself, "V! Wth are you doing?" I guess I am just stupid.


*We talked about food and I introduced him to Penang*
Tyler : My dad is born in Penang.
V : Oh really? I thought your dad is a German.
Tyler : *paused for a while* Ermm, his father which is my granddad worked in military service and you know *made some weird sign language* my dad is born.

*Talked about his job*
V : Do you have fixed working hours?
Tyler : Oh, no. I am self-employed ... (bla bla bla which I no longer wished to listen)


First, his story about his family didn't seem to be plausible to me. Could tell it was created during those few seconds of pause to make this kid believe in him. Second, you told me you teach in a school. Enough!! We parted way after lunch. Got home and received a text from him.

Tyler : It was lovely to meet you. But I expect that I'm too old... lol. It's ok, please just tell me if that is the case.
Me : A bit old for me tbh. You look younger on Jack'd. No offence.
Tyler : Bye. I'm offended as the pic on Jack'd is recent and I told you I was older. Offence taken.

That's how it ended. I jumped straight into bed and laughed at my stupidity. Jamie and Robbie were whatsapp-ing me and asking me to forget about it. *bear hug* And thanks to Jamie's suggestion, I finished the chocolate in my room. Gained a bit of weight but felt better. Good compensation, no? lol

And the food I prepared. It ended up in my stomach. =P

It just doesn't deserve to be given to you.

I am stupid, ain't I?

Love,
Stupid

I dread to recall everything happened last Sunday. A first proper date which eventually turned out bad. I wish I can not write this post but after promising Shin prior to the date that I would come up with one and Jung asked about that, I am forced against my wills (>.<) to type out the leftovers which have not been erased from my memory. Hopefully it is lengthy enough. lol

Shall just name him Tyler. He claimed himself to be a mix of German and British blood. Look back, I use 'claimed'! I knew him on Jack'd last year which I can no longer remember when (good sign!). He has got a fit body (one of those types which I fancy) and a normal-looking face. Started off with very nice conversation and sometimes we talked about random stuffs. Quite enjoyed talking with him then and one day, weeks before Christmas he asked me if I wanted to meet him up for coffee or movie. I was like "why not right" as life was really dull.

So the date has been delayed a few times until last Sunday. Once was that he was in pain due to toothache and a few times he said he was busy. Eh come on la, you initiated it and always put it off! Was damn pissed to be honest. Then he went to Israel to visit his parents during Christmas. At first, I asked him about his plan for Christmas. He said he would be going to London to see his family. Then the second time he said he would be in Germany with his parents and the third time Israel. Three versions of stories! I was so damn stupid that I gave him the benefit of doubt. Very much regretted now.We started talking again after he came back from fulfilling his filial duty as son (from don't-know-where!). I began to feel comfortable again with him.

Woke up early on Sunday morning to cook him something. Kononnya for a surprise. Stupid me. Robert and Jamie (two gay friends of mine) were like, "Awww V! You are so sweet". At the mean time, they were kind of fear for my safety after I related everything to them. They said if I sense anything wrong I can send a text to them. They would then offered me an emergency call so that I can escape. lol. Thank you Robbie and Jamie! x Got on train and headed there with the lunchbox in my sling bag. Mixed feelings. Reached there on time but he wasn't there. Texted him but no reply. Called him and it was directed to his voicemail. Be punctual please if you want to meet someone. Furthermore, you are an angmoh wei! So I waited for half an hour in the cold breezy weather for him to arrive from gym.

To be continued. I needed lunch.

V

*lub dub lub dub lub dub*

I am due to have my first ever date in 20-odd years!

*heart pumping faster*
*taking a deep breath*

Hope that everything will turn out well. *fingers crossed* It is sunny at the moment. I guess that is a great start. =D Right, I need to groom myself now. Ciao. x

V

It was taken during my visit there.

That is for myself and those of you who spent today alone. Bear hugs to all of you. <3 Hope that you will find that Mr. Right soon. x

For those of you with a 'husband' or 'wife' or in a relationship, I wish you HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! Please fully utilise today to express your love to your beloved. lol

You hold my breath. Please take my heart.

Kissing which then leads to XXX. Hehe.

At least we don't dump babies in the bin or whatsoever places around mid-Nov! lol

Sincerely from V.

See you. x

V

Hello blog readers!

V, here in UK would like to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year! Gong Xi Fa Cai! 

New year, new shirt, new pants. Not to forget NEW underwear also ya! LOL. I am in yellow, just saying. :-p

For those who are not celebrating, V hopes that you enjoy the few-day-long holidays and for those who neither celebrate nor have holidays, V would like to tell you that your life sucks. Joking x. Hope everybody have a great day anyway!

It is V's second New Year without the company of family and relatives. It dawned on me that it has been quite some time since I got to celebrate Chinese New Year with the whole family. Last year I was not home and four consecutive years before that my other sibling was away. I must go home for New Year next year!

The fact that I am staying in a proper house here in UK makes me even more homesick. :(




Here are some photos that I took yesterday night at a New Year Eve dinner.

My 'family' here in UK. The one on the first row right hand side is a white.

Decorations that are up on the ceiling. It has been ages ago since I made this.

Chinese knot!

Mandarin.

Ang pow with no money inside of course.

One element that cannot be missed during New Year.

Alcohol. Not mine though.

Love x

V

I am back here again! Pheww! Thought I abandoned my blog for ages but only to realise that it's just been a week. lol. It has not been a great week for me. Things went terribly wrong and I realised that last year about this time I broke down and even thought of discontinuing my studies due to the immense pressure from studies. *sigh* Is that a curse on me? :(

I am feeling it again now. Probably I am expecting too much from myself after doing extremely well for my tests back in the autumn term. 3 tests and I got two 95's and a hundred. *flipping hair* Clap hand la. I checked the results board and my results were in the top 5% for each test. Greater achievements lead to higher expectations. Oh well, human beings are never satiated.

And then I have loads of assignments due in coming weeks and the first one is on 11 pm this Sunday. Hey man, it is Chinese New Year you know!!! About half complete now but judging from the time that I am left with right now minus New Year Eve's dinner and Sunday's day out for celebration, my assignment might end up being incomplete. Each time I enter my room I can feel all the assignments cascading down onto me. Ugh!

Just moments ago, I received a whatsapp message from someone saying that our date this evening might be cancelled. He had toothache yesterday and is still on antibiotics. The pain got worse.

*notification ringtone from phone*

Ok, bad news. Date has been cancelled. Sien. Not to forget this morning I wasted £1.50 on bus ticket and after a while I got on the bus, I was stuck in the bus for quite some time as it banged into a car. =.= Bad luck, please stay away from me!!!

Fml!

V

Was watching a movie and suddenly this question popped up in my mind and made me ponder. Money or love?



Time : Some day in future
Characters : You who must make a choice, Money and Love
Story line: One fine day in the future, you happen to meet a pair of twins, Money and Love. Money has got a job with highly-paid salary and you are guaranteed a luxurious life with him in future by assuming that he will never go into bankruptcy. On the other hand, Love's income is not fixed and is just enough to cover his own expenses sometimes, with little savings each month. This means you will have to support him financially sometimes in future. Given that they have equally good outer appearance and personalities but you like Love a little tiny bit more than Money, who will you choose?

Dilemma right if you were to be in that situation? To be honest, I am indifferent between both of them. Hmm, *thinking hard* I will go with Love I guess.


Went into a shop just now and I got help from a very very good looking Samaritan. Was attracted to his facial hair. =D He asked about my studies in uni and helped me throughout till I left. So sweet! *muack*

P.s: Got myself a Twitter account. Thanks to tuls for being so 'semangat' commenting. Gracias!

Updated: Why can't the title show symbols? :-(

Till next time. x

V

There was no one in the house and he popped up at the door. Since we were both hungry due to the cold weather, we decided to cook something decent. It was so similar to our second meeting in my house. After dinner, we were seated at the dining table facing each other. He smiled to me and it was so charming that it's impossible for my heart not to melt for this guy before me. I smiled back to him and looked deep into his eyes. He is so perfect! Then suddenly ... ... my alarm rang and in a split second everything disappeared from my view. :-( F***!

I always believe that when you dream of someone that means your souls are together at that point of time and the someone is also experiencing what you do. But I doubted this belief that I have been holding on to since young. I saw myself as Matt and him as me. Confused and disheartened. Bumped into him last Thursday in front of the entrance to his department. I could no longer recognize him after not seeing him for more than a month. Slimmer and tanner than before. He greeted me and as usual his smile that has melted my heart. OMG! Talked to him for a minute or so as I was rushing to class.


Wanted to talk to you so badly. The tub of ice cream that you left behind is still in the freezer and you promised to make me a dinner. I am still waiting for the day to come.


I don't know if I should continue with this feeling. *sigh*

On a happier note, I had my first tutorial this morning and the tutor is so freaking hot. Huge difference from the photo I saw. Trendy, athletic build but not so well defined muscle, sexy back. Aww. He has got my attention on him for the whole hour instead of on the tutorial. =D

Love. x
V

The short lunch break ended with me watching videos on Youtube and helping Ricky to supervise the juniors. lol

Back to the previous post.
So after an hour, he sent me this.


Translation :
M: If I say that I am now on my way to your place, what will you do?
V: Impossible


I was startled and left him a missed call. He called back and told me that he has taken tube to London Euston and was about to head for my place. On the phone, he told me that he spent that 'one hour nap' to prepare food for me. Oh my God! I couldn't believe that this actually happened to me in real life. Thought this is the plot in romantic films. =p I was so touched that my eyes became teary and tears began to roll down my cheeks. He then asked whether it's fine for him to come around. I was too emotional to decide for him at that instant so I just said 'It is up to you'.

As expected, he was here. With this!

He cooked this for me in an hour.

After eating, we went into my room and talked until 11-ish before both of the guys squeezed in that one single bed to sleep. Hmm, he hugged me to sleep. *cough*

The next day, he started mentioning the relationship topic again. I could see through his eyes that he really likes this person before him. Laying myself in his arm, I told him that I don't have any feelings towards him and I just want to enjoy his company as a friend. I must have hurt him with my frank words that I took quite a while to console him and stop him from crying.

Did I play with his feelings? I have been wondering about this. Please leave me some comments. Cheers.


Reflection:
Reasons for the reject:
1. Started with the intention of being friends and didn't expect that he would fall for me in that short period of time.
2. Camp in some ways. I need a real MAN.
3. Quite a spendthrift guy even though his family had financial problems when he came to UK. By the way, he is a China Chinese.
4. Easily satiated. He has been working in a restaurant since graduation last June and the job is just enough to cover his living expenses. His Masters can easily give him a decent job!



Love. x
V

I have been chatting to this guy whom I shall name him as Matt on Jack'd and Whatsapp. Was browsing through profile in London area and he caught my attention for 2 reasons. First, his high reply rate plus his outer appearance is within my acceptance level. Second, his description about himself. He wrote a damn long description which has an English version and Mandarin one.

 Hello people!

I love Friday because I only have an early class and that is it for the day. :-P

It is my second winter here in the UK. This year is more like a proper winter as compared to last year when it snowed heavily for one night and snow never come back after until recently. Last week, the temperature plummeted from 10-ish to subzero then it began snowing and a day after that the snow melted. Ah well, the whitish snow turned greyish because of the dust and some turned brownish as some constructions were going on in the campus. It was really an eyesore! Also, when the snow melted, it impeded my walking speed and I even needed to find a balance walking on the half-icy-half-watery pavement. Ehh, I need FRICTION in this case!

Yesterday it began snowing again and it is still and will continue snowing until next week. Hooray! Very nice to see the whole land covered in white. Snowball fight? Hell yes! (I went sick for two weeks last year after snowball fighting with my mates) The temptation is too hard to resist so probably I will just play for a while later tonight! =) Ooops, suddenly emo-ing. :(

Here are some photos that I took. Enjoy. :)

Bright sun on a snowy day.

 

Snowy and sunny or sunny and snowy? #confused

On my way to uni last week.

Half-icy-half-watery pavement. :(

Snow on the wooden gate. Never know my phone has such sharp focus.

This morning at 8-ish.

Before I started blogging.

How I wish that I am together with someone sipping hot tea in front of the fireplace. Then he cuddle and give warmth to me. We get ourselves under the duvet and I sleep my head on his chest hearing his heartbeats until I fall asleep. Someone, where are you? :(



How would you want to spend your time on a snowy day? Please leave some comments. Cheers.

Take care. x

V

Hello guys!

It is a misty morning here in UK. P.s: The British talks about weather often.
As I promised in earlier post, I am coming up with an introduction of people surrounding me. (:

1. R (25-30, mixed, GAY (I think so))
- Tops the list at the moment
- Studying PhD in the same university as me
- Knows him through Grindr and we have been chatting since 11/11/12
- Stays around 0.15 miles away from me and that was the main reason I started chatting to him
- Been to each other's room and nothing happens
- Awesomely friendly guy
- Fits my criteria of an ideal partner whom I want to spend my life together with

2. Rich (25-30, BBC, GAY)
- Took the same course as me ages ago and is in his final year of PhD studies
- Knows him through Bender (I am keeping the apps just for him as that is our main mean of communication)
- Met each other a few times in the department but only had a proper greeting when I went up to him for assistance in my studies
- More of a tutor-tutee relationship even though we do tease each other sometimes
- A nice guy who wished me during my birthday and a day before exam.

3. Adam (20-25, Spanish, GAY)
- Started to say 'Hi' to me on Bender and we chatted for quite some time before we exchanged number and chatted on Whatsapp.
- Easiest to come up with a nickname as that is the nickname that I call him. He gave me one as well. (:
- Never seen him in real before but he is freakingly damn hot (I have always had a liking for Spanish. Teehee =D)
- Working in one of those famous accounting firm in Spain and thinking of switching to a smaller firm due to heavy workloads
- Treat me like his own brother. Sent me a picture of him holding a birthday cake (he baked it!) on my birthday. He said it was taken during his friend's birthday. Anyway, sweet also la. Hehe.

4. Kingston (20-25, Asian, BI but more towards GAY)
- Met him once through Jack'd
- Engineering student in London
- Purposedly stopped (it was unplanned) by here at the end of his two-week vacation around UK. Touched but no tears. (Probably he is reading my blog XD)
- Just recently got into a relationship. His partner is quite sweet I feel. Story time with him tonight, as he promised.
- NO chance of being together! We both know it is impossible.

5. Lee (20-25, Asian, Straight)
- A girl whom I know through classmate back in college
- Law student in Australia
- First person whom I came out to
- A sweet girl who fell for me during college time (she confessed when I came out to her) but too bad I am gay. She rejected a guy who chased after her crazily because of me.
- Knows pretty much of me and I always keep her updated about my stuffs here in UK.
- Sent me a birthday card from the antipodes which I cried after reading the message in it. It is my FIRST ever birthday card! <3

Birthday card from her! We are BFF! (:

6. Ron, Ricky, Vivian (20-25, Asian, Straight)
- My housemates currently until June 30 (I supposed)
- Great buddies especially the double R. Came out to Ron and he does not seem to be very supportive with some decisions which I asked his ideas before making one.
- Ron just had a one-month anniversary with his girl. Ricky's was a sad case which lasted only 2 days and Vivian is liking a German boy.
- Two of them are in the same department and another same as mine.

P.s: These are not their real names as to protect their identity. =D

Do you realise that I actually use the six colours of LGBT flags? Hehe. Please look back!
Time for lunch! My stomach alarm clock is ringing!!

Till next time. x

V

It is Wednesday afternoon and I just got up from my 1.5-hour nap. *stretches body* *opens up curtain*

I see my two other friends in the back lane of the house like right now. Seriously?! *minimises windows*
Will be right back.


Back to my blog post. :)
Yeah, I have gone back to school and been pretty busy lately. Just finished my exam yesterday. Phew! It is one of those important papers that I will have to get at least a 2.1 grade in order for me to get an exemption of a professional paper. Ugh! I revised the same set of lecture notes and online notes for 5 times in total over the Christmas break and kept myself studying in the silent zone of the library for a few consecutive days (something which I have never done before!) and AND resisted the use of Grindr and Jack'd (this is the main point)! Please pass me, okay! Thanks to Rich (not his real name, of course) for helping me throughout.

Remark: A list of names will be published soon *hopefully in the next post* as to who the people that I refer to are.


So, here is a list of my new year resolutions:
1. Get a First Class
2. Get into a relationship
3. Care about family
4. Leave my footprints in London
5. Keep my body weight below 65kg and tone it
6. Learn about the British culture
7. Know more friends
8. Be more courageous
9. Collect more passport stamps
10. Spend Christmas break out of my room


First one is the most important of all. Staying on track for another First Class is a no easy job but I will try my best to repeat the feat again this year. A 70 plus is good enough but it will be better if I can break into the 80 mark barrier. A £1000 is waiting for me if I can repeat another miracle.

A boyfriend, hopefully for this year! I have that one person in mind right now. Not sure if he feels what I am feeling towards him. Hope he does. I have been telling myself not to mess up again this time as he is superbly down-to-earth and I might end up staying together with him this September onward. I don't want any awkward moments with him.

2012 was kind of a bad year to dad. First he fell down at home and no one was in that time. I only got to know it through my cousin after a week or so. Parents have been telling me to keep them updated of my stuffs over here but they broke the rules. Sien dao. Then when I got back home this summer, he kepoh went to help his workers and ended up having his hand inside a machine. I always tell him to stay inside his office but .....  *sigh* stubborn dad!

I bet this is the more hilarious thing! I have not been on a proper trip to London yet even though I am now here for my second year. Really have to get my ass off to London!

*weigh myself* 66! Oh my goodness! I swear it was 65kg a few days back. :-( Need to cut down on chocolate and ice-cream (Ben and Jerry is half price now wor!) Was at 68kg in mid-August and managed to reduced it to 62kg before I flew back and now 66! *sob*

Number 6 is because of *cough* someone. Not going to elaborate on that. Teehee. =D

More friends! Oh yes please! I have never thought of being able to get to know so many (at least not one) friends through those dating apps and one of them is HIM!

Be more vocal and defend myself for what I think I am right. Guess I was quite brave enough to come out to two people last year. More to come?

9 and 10 are almost similar. Might be going to Italy during the Easter break and have in mind Portugal straight after summer exam. Time for some eye candies. lol. I have been spending two consecutive Christmas break staying in my room revising for exam. Not again this year!!!

That is all for now. See you. x

V

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Hello everyone!
First of all, happy new year to those who are reading my post.